How To Get Started On Something Even When You Don’t Know Where To Start……

Based off the title here we can all say that this has happened to us at some point in our lives, we go to start something thinking “Okay here we go, we can do this, time to be productive.” then we come face to face with the tasks we have set for us to do and what happens!? We stand in front of it wondering and pondering on which task to start with first……I tell you if that doesn’t mess with your brain a bit, then you must be the worlds calmest person. A lot of the time I have this problem where I have so many ideas going around in my head and I never know how to just pick one thing to do and so when that happens I start to get discouraged and then I end up not doing anything at all which isn’t good I know, because then you’re not giving yourself the chance to make progress in what you’re doing while also not letting yourself succeed at something. So what do you do when you have all these ideas and or tasks to take on, but aren’t really sure which one to start with first!?

Well it’s pretty simple just pick one, it’s really not as complicated as we make it seem in all honesty, although we may have a lot of different things to do, we don’t really need to make it as stressful trying to choose which tasks to take on first, just choose one and focus on it. For those who are probably thinking “well it’s easier said then done you know!?” i’ll agree with you there yes, it is easier said then done, so if you’re one of those people who have a hard time picking something to do, maybe you can try some randomization to help you choose, what do I mean by randomization you ask!? Weeeell i’m talking about one of those wheel of tasks things if that makes any sense……Let me elaborate, okay so if you’re ever in the middle of trying to decide which task to take on, maybe trying a different approach compared to just pondering what to do first will help.

Try Being Creative For One: Maybe if you make your decision making a little more fun then it will seem a little more easier for you (Only when it comes to your ideas or writing, if it’s super important then you’ll have to rationalize and take the important ones seriously) back to what I was saying………..say you have two video or blog post ideas you want to do, for example: you want to do a blog or video idea based off planets and what it would be like if we lived on Venus instead of Earth (oh wait I just gave myself an idea, thanks self i’m using this) you can use it as well if you want to put your opinion on what you think it would be like, but anyway, you want to do a video or blog post about what it would be like living on Venus instead of Earth right!? but you also want to do a blog/video idea on what it would be like if you had your very own Funko pop (for those who don’t know what Funko’s are they’re just little collectables, I have a few) so which one do you choose!? Do you chose living on Venus or what it would be like if you had your own Funko Pop!? hard decision to make right!?

Well how about trying this, put those two ideas in a hat/jar which ever you prefer or you can write it down on a board or paper, close your eyes and then just hold your hand out move it back and forth and which ever one your hand lands on that’s the one you do first or you can just pick from the jar or hat and see which one you get, why make it difficult when you can just be creative about it (i’d try this).

Now say you have more than two ideas, maybe you have 5 you want to choose from, just do the same thing I talked about a minute ago when it comes to being creative and having to chose which ideas to work on first, that way if it gets stressful you have a way to make it none stressful and have it becomes a lot more easier for you to get things done quicker, plus you’ll have fun. You can even do more than one idea on the same day if you really want to, just choose 2 ideas you’re really feeling up for and do one in the morning if you’re a morning person and one in the evening if you work better that way, you can even do one at night if you’re a night owl. If you really wanted to, you could take one of those ideas and make a video about one and write a blog post about the other, It’s all about what your preference is, so whatever works for you, you can just focus on doing that, sometimes being creative can really help boost your brain and get it going.

Now let’s talk about important decision making, when it comes to having to really focus on something really important, the creative way may not always work………but that doesn’t mean it still can’t be simple, yeah sure when making important decisions it may cause us to have a headache from time to time, but we can still try and make it a little bit easier. Here’s how if you’re wondering:

Go Through Your Important List And Choose The Most Important: You might be confused right now so i’m gonna do my best to make you unconfused, there are a lot of things we find to be super important on our list and we have to choose which one of those things are top of the list important, so what do you do!? Well depending on what you have on your list as super important, you would need to really sit down and ponder which one of those tasks you need to put more of your focus on, now I could chose examples, but I don’t really have the best ones, but i’ll still give it a try………hmmmm let’s see……..oh okay say you have on your list: Need to go grocery shopping, but then you also know you have to do some decluttering in your home, which one do you feel needs to be at the top of your list the most!? Some may say grocery shopping, others will say decluttering, which ever one you think should be number 1 on your important list write it down. If you’re ever stuck on what to focus on the most just look at your list and think to yourself (don’t over think it) but just take a look at the list you have in front of you and just go over all the important stuff that’s there and number them based on what’s really important and what’s not as important.

Doing the stuff that’s really important first, helps you really break down everything and just makes your important list a lot easier to handle, if you just lay everything out and write it down and really analyze your list of important stuff, then you’ll be able to really work things out better and make everything less stressful and much more calmer in your busy productive schedule and or day. If you find yourself having trouble balancing everything out, try asking a friend for help, maybe they can try and sort some balance out for you so that way the tasks you have at hand don’t become too overwhelming, plus it’ll help you deal with everything a little better, you’ll have someone there to not only help you with your day, but to also help with ideas, whenever you’re struggling to come up with some yourself and you’ll also have someone to keep you on your toes whenever you’re going off track. Having someone there that you trust to help you stay on your feet and organized really does help a lot.

Annnd that is all from me for now, If this post helped you in some way and you were able to take something from this, please feel free to leave some feedback with your thoughts if you like and if you have other ways or ideas on how to get started on something when you don’t know where exactly to start, feel free to share. Who knows maybe your ideas will help someone else out and I too might possibly adopt your ideas as well, anyway I hope you all have a lovely night/morning and or evening 🙂

 

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~

Clouded Mind, Trying Times And Uncertainty……

When you’re dealing with a clouded mind, it’s hard to shake it off right away, although you may try your hardest, we all know that it ain’t always easy getting rid of the thoughts that form within that little cloud we got following us around everywhere, sometimes it grows so big that the cloud ends up changing into a storm cloud making our mood change with it and now we’re walking around wondering when that storm cloud is gonna part from us. Clouded minds form in different ways, sometimes they happen when you wake up in the morning or during the middle of your day, they can pretty much occur anytime of the day, you could be having the best morning and once the afternoon comes rolling around there goes your thoughts and all the happiness you had going for you………clouds of thoughts aren’t always a bad thing though, sometimes they help you reflect on your day or help you sort through certain things that need sorting, however clouded thoughts can also make your mood go from a 5 to 9 (you never want to get to a 10 because then that’s when the lighting strikes)

Now let’s talk about trying times, I know there’s like a 3 word saying with trying times but I can’t remember exactly what the other two are, so we’re just gonna go with the theme I created…..anyway, trying times……….i’m not sure if anyone has a different meaning when it comes to trying times, but to me trying times has to do with dealing with all the things around you, but still trying your best to get through them, i’ll be honest today i’m not really having the best of days, but i’m trying to still get through the day and try and make the most of it as much as I can. On a good note, it’s been raining and if I haven’t said it already I enjoy the rain, every time it rains I always go outside and just take it in……I don’t know I guess I just like the feel of it and the way it comes down, it’s just really nice.

Back to trying times though (Sorry got caught up talking about the rain ha) like I was saying trying times is going through life and the day and just trying to see the better picture in something that you really aren’t feeling in that moment, but you’re still determined to try and understand and get it, even though some days are tough compared to when you’re having a good day. Trying times is having someone you care about go through something and you wanting to help, but you’re unable to do so in the way that you want to, yet you still do your best to make sure they know that you’re there when they need you and you’re always gonna be there because they mean so much to you. It’s just all about how even when you know or feel like you aren’t able to really get into something that you might normally, you still try and you still do your best because you have to and because you want to be strong in a situation that isn’t always easy to be strong in, but you do it because you feel that it’s gonna be worth it at some point and you want to prove to yourself that you can stay strong and what you’re feeling is only temporary.

Now let’s get into our last topic here……..Uncertainty, everyone deals with uncertainty in their lives, some more than others, whether that be because their whole life that’s all they dealt with growing up or it occurred down the line due to a mental scaring based off an event that took place in their life and so now with certain things they tend to worry about whether something will work out or not or if what their doing in their life is good or bad for them. Dealing with uncertainty and having those doubtful moments aren’t the best feeling, because it puts you in such an anxious or paranoid mode that when you try and escape it, it just kinda brings everything back and then you start to question everything and it just becomes such a heavy weigh on you to the point where you feel like you just hit a brick wall without even realizing that you were even walking in that direction. You can try and tell yourself that you have nothing to worry about and for a bit it will work, but it will only put that feeling to a halt for but so long until that brick wall comes tumbling down on you making everything 1,000 times worst then it was already.

Some may think that it’s easy to get rid of uncertainty once you feel it by telling yourself you’re fine, brush yourself off and keep moving, but for some people it’s not always that easy, it can take them a very long time to get out of that mindset and if you’re dealing with that quite often, sometimes you need someone there to help and reassure you that everything’s gonna be fine and that you will be there to help them get through those uncertainties that they are facing. It’s gonna take a lot of patience and everything because it will come and go for them, but as long as you let them know that no matter what you’re there for them they’ll be fine, it doesn’t matter how many times they need reassurance, you’ll always be there to make sure they’re okay and let them know that with you they are safe and they’re not alone, because you’re gonna help them get through it and for some that may seem like a lot of reassuring, but if you really care and love someone truly, that won’t matter because to you they are a priority and it’s important to show them that their happiness and wellbeing is important as well.

We all have different mindsets and people think that some of us are able to shake things off quickly, but it’s not always that easy, some of us need a little more time to really understand our thoughts and others may need someone to help them through theirs and that’s okay. So if you’re ever having a clouded mind, don’t be afraid to process your thoughts and sort them out, know that you will get through trying times even if it doesn’t feel like you will, you just have to give it time and lastly when you’re feeling uncertain or you’re dealing with uncertainties in your life, know that you don’t need to deal with it alone, I know it feels like there’s just so much going on and maybe there is, but know that everything will be okay and there’s always someone there to help you through your uncertainties.

That is my blog post for the day, I hope that some of you were able to take something from this and hopefully found this really helpful if you are dealing with anyone of these things, with that I hope you all have a goodnight/morning and or evening 🙂

 

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~

Go With The Flow But Also Know That Having A Plan Is Important Too…..

Going with the flow of things is good, because it lets you explore a lot of different things around you and helps you discover a little bit more about yourself, without really having to feel like you need to already know who you are, you can just discover it along the way, however once you do find out certain things about yourself and everything around you, eventually you’re gonna have to also come up with some sorta plan on what is you want out of life based off the things you’ve discovered, now don’t go freaking out about not having a plan for everything, you don’t really need a plan for everything, just certain things you want to accomplish in your life. You see when you have a plan, you also give yourself a chance to create a new goal in your day to day life and once you achieve that goal, you then feel good and want to see what other goals you can achieve, it’s kinda like having a new years resolution only you know with this one, you’ll actually go through with it, we all know that new years resolutions don’t really do us any good because it’s just something we tell ourselves we’re gonna do and then once the new year arrives we forget it and just continue to go about our day and everyday we get once it’s a new year.

When you have a plan on something it helps you stay productive and helps you build towards the goals your trying to get to, it’s okay if your goals aren’t super big, goals don’t have to be really big, sometimes starting off small works in wonders and once you complete that small goal, you’ll then want to strive for something bigger than that first  goal you made for yourself, for example: Say your goal is to buy a new guitar and piano, but you know that you only have enough to get one or the other, but you really want to buy them in a set, in order to get both you’ll need the right amount to get both the guitar and piano, so what do you do!? do you go and buy the guitar first and come back for the piano when you have enough money or do you just not bother because you can’t get them both at the same time!? I would hope that 1. what I just said made sense and 2. that you just ended up getting either the guitar or piano instead of getting upset that you weren’t able to get them both at the same time.

Sometimes the goals we have aren’t always reachable at first and we have to work hard to get to those goals that we are trying to reach for, so even if you weren’t able to get both the guitar and or piano, at least you were able to get 1 of them so you should be happy that one of your goals was met, say you bought the piano first, now you can add next goal: buy a guitar and work towards getting that wonderful guitar you have your eyes on. In the mean time while you’re working towards getting that new guitar, you can practice the piano and once you feel like you have it down alright, soon you’ll realize that all your hard work payed off and now you have another goal to strive for and that’s master the guitar next. You see what i’m talking about!? Once you finish a goal, you’ll keep wanting to add more and then once that goal is completed, you’ll want to add another and another and so on………putting down a goal and then completing it after a while, really helps you achieve things on your day to day life and it’ll make you want to take on other goals you have in mind.

Think of a goal as present……..that your unable to open until you finish that said goal that you put down. We all know you want that present and you’re now wondering, but wait what’s in that said present!? I don’t know………or maybe I do and i’m not gonna tell you because then it’ll ruin the surprise that your goal wants you to have. Now you’re gonna turn your focus on that said goal just so you’re able to find out what’s in store for you once you reach and complete your goal and that was the plan, to makes sure that if you want to know what’s inside of that said present, you gotta first complete a goal you have going, that is when you will receive the surprise waiting for you to open. Having plans and creating goals for that plan shouldn’t be something to be discouraged from if it feels like it’s unreachable, sure you may not be able to get there right away, but you know that if you were to work hard and keep trying to reach all the goals that you created in order to get there, eventually you will.

Now be aware that you’re not always going to be able to reach every goal you have written down on a list, some will work and some won’t, but it’s okay if not all of your goals are met, they’re not mean’t to all be met, some are just there for ideas or just to kinda fill your goal list, so it’s not just one thing on that said list. Goals are there to help you have a visual on the things that you are wanting or needing in order to get closer to where you’re headed, that way you’ll be able to look back at that blueprint you made and set out on your work table figuratively or if you actually have one and analyze how far you got and where you are within the blueprint, so every time you complete a goal, you can always review your blueprint and check how much you’re progressing and how close you are to completing the goal.

If you want to achieve something that you feel is a little intimidating to where it’s making you feel discourage, just write down some goals to help you get where you have your mind and heart set on and once you complete that first goal all the other ones will just flow right through you and you will feel less intimidated and more courages and before you know it, you would have either gotten close to your goal or you would have completed it fully and not have even realized it until you went and checked your blueprint, remember your goal is a present waiting to be opened and if you want to see what surprises it has for you, then you better get going and work towards finishing that first goal of yours.

Anyway that’s all from me, I hope you were able to take something from todays blog post and I also hope it made sense, I don’t really have much to say here so I hope you all have a goodnight/morning and or evening. 🙂

 

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~

Thought For The Day……..

You ever have a moment to yourself where you’re just thinking about a lot of different things and you don’t know why, but little by little certain things start to become clearer to you for some reason, i’m not really sure how to explain what I mean exactly, I can try and bring you into my mind so you can see what i’m talking about, but I don’t even know if i’ll be able to explain what i’m talking about in the way that I want, but i’m gonna try and layout it out for you guys as best as I can. Okay so where do I start……..uhhhh so I was writing a different blog post on not really knowing what to write because I was having trouble writing at first and I got a pretty decent way with it, not too far but a few 100 words actually it was along this paragraph here only shorter (149 words to be exact, we’re at 164 words here and counting as i’m writing this lol)

Anyway so I was writing a different blog post at first and then my mind took a smooth turn and I stopped writing that blog post and I just started thinking about a lot of things, while I was thinking I started looking into the sky out my window and it was kinda dark, possibly because it was going to rain, but it still hasn’t rained yet, it’s hard to say whether or not it will because the weather here has been Sunny then dark, then Sunny again and then dark once more and so i’m not sure what the weather has in store for us today, but yeah going back to what I was talking about……..I was looking at the sky, just staring out my window, trying to figure out what I should write about and I couldn’t think of anything, so I went to grab one of my journals where I write blog post ideas, I don’t really have a lot of ideas just about 15-16 i’d say (just checked 17 actually) so I looked for a blog post idea in my journal and I saw one that caught my eye and I picked it, the title of the blog post idea I was going to write about was called, finding your path in life and although i’m not really writing about that blog post I picked to write about, it did have me thinking.

Remember when I talked about Finding My Niche, if you don’t you can read it here if you like Finding My Niche (My Confidence Struggle Story) it’s just all about finding my thing in writing and also talking about my struggle to find confidence in myself from time to time. Going back to what I was talking about……..so I wrote about finding my niche with writing before and believe me i’m happy that I started this blog because i’m able to write down my feelings and share my thoughts with all of you as well, but I had this thought come in my mind and I always find myself going back to all the things I use to do that also brought joy to me before starting this blog and I can’t help but think that maybe I have more than just one niche you know!? Hear me out, so we all have something in us that speaks to us more then other things and everyone has a special or hidden talent that they become interested in.

People who were born with a talent or find a thing that speaks to them, obviously they go after that thing they enjoy, because it brings them happiness and there’s just something about it that gives them that feeling of finally belonging somewhere and so when they find that passion that calls to them, you know they’ll become a force to be reckon with, because they have so much passion, I’m not sure if any of what i’m saying is making any sense but i’m just trying to gather my thoughts and bring to you what it is i’m thinking. What i’m trying to say is I feel like I don’t really have a specific passion for anything, the closest thing to a passion that I have is maybe writing due to the fact that I write a lot and I enjoy writing, but when it comes to passion and what I love the most, I can never just chose one thing all the time, I’m always switching it up from time to time.

I just feel this thing in me where, I go back and think maybe I should try this again and speaking of trying something again, I feel like I should go back and give Youtube another try, because i’m starting to miss it, I really am…….I miss sitting in front of the camera and talking about something I love or am interested in and talking non stop about it to the point where I get so lost in what i’m saying, i’ll get distracted and then lose my train of thought and then go on to a different topic and just talk about that. I miss being able to talk about the things I once enjoyed like wrestling, a lot of you don’t know this, but I LOOOOVE watching wrestling and then talking about the matches and who I think should get more of an opportunity and ranting about certain people in wrestling (my friend ray knows who i’m talking about)

I think I now know why it is that I feel like even if I do one thing like writing for example, I love it, don’t get me wrong, I enjoy writing down my thoughts and sharing it with you guys, but I also miss talking about the things I enjoy and giving my opinion on certain topics that interest me and just having other people who too share my interest get involved as well, although there wasn’t a lot of people interacting, there was still a good amount to where we all were able to just have a good time talking about something we all enjoyed, even though wrestling nowadays isn’t the greatest I still have a love for it, I mean it’s because of wrestling that I met one of my greatest friends and my boyfriend as well. I just really miss it, because it gave me an outlet to help me kinda break out of myself and oddly enough gave me confidence that I didn’t know I had and after a while yeah I lost that confidence, because I didn’t believe in my ideas and I didn’t believe in me and I should’ve, I should have just went with my ideas even if no one liked them and it wasn’t the most popular thing, I should’ve just went with them because I liked them, I  know i’m probably getting off topic here, but I just really feel strongly about this.

I don’t have a specific passion and I always felt that, I always just went with anything that interest me and i’m at the point where I kinda want to do more then just write, I want to express myself based off my interest and share my thoughts with others and hear their thoughts too and possibly make more friends along the way, there’s nothing wrong with dabbling in more than one thing, if anything it should be something you want to do because then you’re not just limited to one thing, you can do everything and still do the thing you like best. My thing is writing, but it’s also creating and other things and I should learn to be more confidence in myself and my ideas if it’s what I like, it’s okay to like more than one thing as long as it makes you happy and you enjoy it.

If I can write everyday on here, why can’t I do videos also!? You know I have to thank writing because it showed me that i’m capable of sticking to something everyday if I put my mind to it, lets just see if I can do the same with my videos again. I also want to thank my friend Ray and my boyfriend for always being there for me and supporting me in everything that I ever wanted to do, I probably spun them around a few times trying to find something that I could finally stick with, but they never left my side even when I was a mess, they just always believed in me and support me in everything I shared with them, I couldn’t ask for better people in my life so thank you guys, also for those who support my blog and come back and read my stuff even when some are longer than others, I really appreciate you and it always means a lot to know that you enjoy my writing, just the fact that you even take the time to read it means the world so thanks.

That’s all I have for today, I hope you don’t mind this being too long, I just felt I needed to share this I don’t know why, but I did……..I don’t even know what the title to this should be, I wrote this first before I wrote the title. If there’s anything to take from this blog it’s don’t worry if you don’t have a passion for something, just try everything and if you still don’t know what it is you want to do, just do all the things that make you happy and go with that, just promise that when you try everything that interest you, you take a necessary break from it when you need to, remember not to stretch too thin for something, go with what you can handle and isn’t too overwhelming, if you want to add something new, make sure to look at all the things your doing and whatever you find yourself not really taking interest to anymore get rid of that and add a new interest.

Lastly always and I mean always believe in your ideas and yourself, don’t worry about whether someone will like it or not, if you feel good about it and you’re happy with it then do it and if there’s an idea that you tried and you know isn’t really working much for you anymore then it’s okay to let it go and come up with other ones you feel will work for you and with that, I hope you all have a goodnight/morning and or evening 🙂

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~

Being Inspired By Others And Finding Inspiration In Everything……

When it comes to inspirations we all have our fair share of people who inspire us, whether it be the way they do things, how their character is or just their personality, we all have someone we look up to or want to be more like, although we shouldn’t try to be exactly like someone but ourselves, there’s nothing wrong with wanting to aspire to be like someone a bit, maybe they have some kind of trait to them that you may be looking for in yourself as well or maybe there’s something that they do that makes you want to give a try too, it doesn’t have to be anything like making something, i’m talking more on the way they do something (if that makes sense) I find myself always observing those who I either look up to or those who inspire me and just think to myself “how it is they do what they do so naturally and are able to go about doing those things!?” So in order to figure that out, i’ll start taking in and observing their characteristics and just everything about them just to kinda get a clue, so like taking notes in a way.

Everyone has something special within themselves, but everyone also does things differently, so what others do isn’t always going to be in the same way we do things, we’re all different for a reason, but we’re always gonna have certain people we look to, that either match our personality and is someone we can relate to or there maybe someone that is different from us to where how they are, starts to interest us and we may want to see what it is that is making us get drawn to them and once we figure it out we sometimes end up picking up their habits or ways of doing things without even knowing we’re doing it. It’s just one of those things where the more you interact with those who inspire you or just those you like being around, the more you’ll be inspired by them to try to either do what they do if what they do is also something you like or just do your own thing, but do it in a way that you think they would do it, that could also benefit you and possibly help you as well.

The fact that our inspirations are people we feel a strong connection to says a lot about our personalities and us as a person as well, we attract like minded people like ourselves, people we’re able to bounce off ideas with or who share the same views and perspective as us, sometimes we’ll also come across those who are total opposites from us, but for some reason they have this way of balancing us out and helping us see things in a different perspective then to how we see it, which tends to actually make things a lot better for us in the long run. Anyone can be an inspiration to you, it could be someone in your family, a friend, a partner, even those who see you as inspiration even though you don’t see that in yourself, it doesn’t have to be just celebrities or an artist you like listening to, you can even be an inspiration to yourself and not realize it, you just gotta believe that you are.

Inspiration comes from all sorts of places, nature, music, art, anywhere really, there’s always going to be something that inspires you and that makes you want to be better and that keeps you going, whenever you’re feeling down or worn away. Inspiration doesn’t have to come from a specific place or person, because there will always be something that sparks a light in our brain that makes us want to change something and make that difference that we’re needing or that others may need. You could go through the worst of times and someone will still see you as an inspiration, you could be at your lowest and have the worst mind ever and still have someone rooting for you to keep going and tell you that they believe in you and you are the reason they are who the are and you may not believe it, but to them whether you think you did or not, you somehow changed their life and impacted them in the best way and you don’t even have to do anything big, it could be the tiniest of gestures to you, but it maybe a big thing to them and whoever sees you in a good light.

To inspire you have to be inspired so if you want to change something and you want to make an impact of some sort, find something or someone that inspires you and when you get that spark of light or lighting in your mind keep it, hold on it and let that be your fuel to keep going and find happiness from within if you need it and if you’re unable to find the inspiration that you’re looking for from someone or something, try looking at the things that make you happy and use that as inspiration. Think of this, say there was a day you were down and while walking you found the most prettiest of leaves or flower on the ground and when you saw that flower or leaf, you began to smile and admire it for a while and after you finished admiring it, you went on about the rest of your day feeling better, telling people about it and to them it’s not the biggest thing, but to you it mean’t something and made you feel happy, so whenever you’re feeling un-inspired and down about things, just remember that flower or leaf you once came across that brought happiness to you again and use that as inspiration and fuel to keep on going.

Sometimes it the smallest of things that can bring more light, spark creativity and inspire you in a way that no one or nothing else can. When feeling inspired by others though, make sure you let them know how much you appreciate them and how much they mean to you if you can and whatever they do be sure to support them and if their looking for inspiration, try and give them that if you’re able to, i’m sure they’ll really appreciate it.

Annnd with all that, that is the blog for today……I just want to say sorry for not posting that much lately, i’ve been going through some stuff within myself and i’ve just been trying to sort it, but I haven’t quite got it yet, but i’m working on it. I always try and bring you guys positive blog posts, but sometimes it’s hard when you yourself aren’t always positive, you know!? When it comes to writing I know that your writing is a reflection of you and when you write, you’re pretty much letting others in with your emotions and your thoughts and it wouldn’t be right to write something for the heck of it knowing that you’re not really all there and your mind isn’t there either, I always want to write positive blog posts and have it be helpful to you guys if you’re ever going through something similar or just want to read something to make you feel better if you’re feeling a bit down, but anyway I hope you all have a goodnight/morning and or evening.

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~

Just Reflecting……..

You know I was sitting outside in my backyard today, i’ve been doing that a lot lately I get up, do whatever I do in the morning and then go in the backyard (I take my dog out if it didn’t rain, but if it did or does I keep her inside although I didn’t know the grass was wet today and I took her out because it was sunny and well she had fun rolling around in the grass) anyway back to reflecting, so I went into the backyard today and I just walked around a bit in the grass while my dog was doing her thing and running around in the back and i’ve just been thinking and reflecting on a lot, I sat on the back steps and in the grass and was just taking in everything, listening to the birds and the natural noises of nature it was really nice……..you know we don’t really realize how much just listening to the pretty noises of the earth can help you really reflect on everything.

Lately for me i’ve just been reflecting on my life and where I want to go with it, if i’m being honest I don’t really get out the house much except for if i’m going in the backyard or if I go places with friends or family and I don’t really have a lot of friends, just a small amount that i’m close with and they don’t really live near me so I don’t go anywhere and I know that’s not good and I should go out more, but in all reality I don’t really like going out much for one, because I was never really a big fan for going out, I always preferred to stay in and if I do go out (which I don’t much) I like going with someone, because it’s just a lot more fun that way and you have good company in the process, but i’ve come to really take in everything and I realize that being and staying in one place isn’t healthy for yourself and if you want to experience more you’ll have to put yourself out there first and that’s what i’ve been trying to work on for a long time now.

I started to push myself where I use to live and I really enjoyed it because I liked where I was and the area, it was one of my favorite places and still is, but when we moved I kinda went back and just stood to myself and didn’t go anywhere because I didn’t like the area, not saying it’s bad, i’m just saying that it didn’t feel the same compared to where I use to live, I mean it’s alright, but I wasn’t really thrilled with moving here in the first place, plus I was away from my friends and I didn’t like that very much. I just missed everything about where I use to be. I missed being able to walk to my friends house who was a few blocks away from me, if my friends wanted to come over they could’ve easily and just the area it’s self, I still miss it and that’s not gonna change, but I also know that I can’t keep myself in the same spot all the time, I do need to get out more and just try at least, even if I don’t like where i’m at, I should at least try……building up the courage and confidence for it though is a bit hard, but i’m working on it……..sometimes we all need to reflect on things and just really look at ourselves in order to change things in our lives.

We all have something that we reflect on be it our lives, things around us just everything, sometimes we’ll even reflect on music or a book we read, just because maybe it really spoke to us in someway or because we’re trying to decipher the message it’s trying to tell us. We don’t have to just reflect on one thing, it can be a lot of different things, if it sticks in our minds or we feel it then we’re gonna reflect on it, sitting with yourself and being able to reflect on everything going on, helps you really look at things in a different perspective then what you normally see it as and it’ll help to open your eyes better and see things clearer to where it make sense. Take time to reflect on things if you really need to because it’s always good to sit with yourself and ponder a bit just to kinda gather everything and get a better insight on everything in the process.

That’s all I have to say, I know this isn’t a really long blog post compared to my other ones, but this is just something that I wanted to share because I felt like I needed to, i’ve been constantly really looking at myself lately and just thinking a lot more on everything. I hope that you’re able to take something from this and it gets you thinking as well, I also hope that everything I said here made sense, I started writing this earlier today, but I went away from it a bit and then I came back because…….I don’t know I felt I needed to, but anyway I hope you all have a goodnight/morning and or evening.

(Originally Written July 30th)

 

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~

Late Night Writing Mixed With A Little Bit Of An Update On My Other Blog Posts You Haven’t Read Yet…..

You ever went to write something and then other thoughts popped into your mind and what you were originally going to talk about just ended up changing into a whole different topic!? Yeeeah that happened with me, you see I know I didn’t post a blog for you yesterday (I say yesterday because it’s midnight now where i’m at) I also know I  didn’t post one the day before yesterday either, so I missed my blog posting on the 27th and the 28th of July……..but I just missed posting, I never said I didn’t write anything, I did write something on those days, the post that was mean’t for 27th is about thunderstorms and storms in general, there’s a reasoning behind why I wrote about storms, there’s a lot more to it then you think, it’s actually finished, but i’m still looking it over because…..I don’t know I just do that……so it’s kinda one of those draft writes, but once it’s really finish, you guys will read it.

Now as for the one that was meant to be posted yesterday on the 28th of July, that wasn’t posted yet for two reasons 1. i’m still adding to it because it’s not finished and 2. It’s something that i’m not sure i’m gonna post right away, but it will be posted eventually so it’s one of those i’m gonna come back to it kinda thing. It’s sorta like if you’re well writing something on a piece of paper and you know it’s coming along, but there’s just something in you that’s like I don’t know if i’m ready to share this yet or one of those moments where you think what you’re writing is good and then you realize “mmm maybe not” and toss it in a bin but miss, but i’m gonna keep writing and when the time comes to where I do want to share it, I will. We all have at least one blog post or just that one draft write (if you’re writing in a journal or something) that we have written already or started writing, but aren’t ready to share because either it’s really personal to us and we haven’t ourselves took in what we wrote or it’s just one of those “ehhhh i’m not really feeling this too much” kinda situation, you know what I mean!?

It’s okay to write something and not want to post it or share it, sometimes you need to just write for yourself especially if you have so many thoughts going around in your head to where you just need to get them out and hey if that’s what you need then it’s totally okay. We don’t always have to write something big, sometimes we just all need one of those, “I have a lot on my mind so i’m just gonna write everything i’m thinking or even one of these late night writes that i’m doing here, we all know that sometimes our minds can get so overwhelmed that we can’t even properly think straight and hey it’s gonna happen and yeah we’ll get a little frustrated because we know we want to write about topics that really make you think or is something relatable and yet here we are at 12:41am close to 1am writing about how we have so many thoughts running around our brains.

I was actually writing two different blog post (the ones mention early) I was literally going back and forth between the two posts writing different things going with the topic of those blog post and while I was doing that, I had another blog post idea and this was it. What better way to talk about the amount of thoughts going on in my brain then writing about it. In all honesty I don’t even know if this ones gonna be good, but I just needed to get this out and also explain to you guys why I didn’t post anything new for two days, one of the reasons is because I wasn’t having the best day and I couldn’t focus on writing and I tried, but I wasn’t getting anywhere that was until a storm came around 2 days ago and then I wrote about that, the other one was because i’m not finished with it and i’m not sure if i’m gonna post it right away as I normally do and also because I was out, so by the time I got back it was already late so I knew I wasn’t going to finish it in time before the day ended.

I was actually thinking of just going straight to sleep once I came back, but I really wanted to write something for you guys considering I haven’t posted in two days and believe me i’m super tired, but I did want to write something, i’m not really sure if you’ll take anything from this that’s important, but at least you’ll know that……..in all honestly I got nothing here, but I do hope you still enjoy this in a way, i’ll get back to my normal important stuff as soon as I can, for now though that’s all I got, my brain can’t think anymore, this is probably the shortest blog posts I ever written since I started, well anyway I hope you all have a goodnight/morning and or evening.

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~

 

Update: This was mean’t to be posted last night, but I fell asleep when I was going to post it and when I woke up i think it was around 1:30am or close to 2am so I just turned off my computer and went to sleep, but i’m still gonna post this, I hope you guys enjoy in some way (Originally written on the 28th of July)