Weird Random Thoughts

Hiya, how’s it going!? Hope you’re all well and your weekends been good, so it’s Saturday night about 11pm almost, will be 11 in a sec as i’m writing this….it’s now 11pm in case you’re curious!! Okay I know what you’re thinking, what’s the point to this or you might be saying what is going on!? Well for starters………I had a thought and kinda wanted to share it!!

Will it be interesting to you guys…..I don’t know, will you find it amusing or funny who knows!? maybe not, possibly so maybe…..I really don’t know, but i’m just going to go straight into it okay……no more weirdness……..alright no I can’t promise you that, because it’s all weird and i’d be lying if I said there won’t be any more of that so, I just hope you don’t mind, but anyway…..

Again I had a thought, a very weird one that made me think a little too much about it than I probably need to, but you know once you start going…..well you just sometimes keep going for some odd reason, now this thought came about while watching a video, it wasn’t a weird video or anything it was a reaction to a song, but what made me have this thought was something that was said before the video actually started……

It’s was about water and ocean sounds, now you might be either clicking off this post or are really confused to what you’re even reading……I don’t blame you okay, just want to let you know, but to save a long post, they were talking about ocean sounds that was in the start of the song before it actually started and I thought to myself, okay said out loud, “yes ocean sounds are nice, so are rivers and streams and not live streams,

but actual streams ect…..” then I thought about water going upwards and then said you’d have to rewind a video in order to see that or time lapse it and then I thought, “wait water doesn’t go upwards, it only goes downwards” which made me go into a much more deeper thought process on it for some reason that I can’t tell you because I don’t know…….

Long story short, because we’d be here all night talking about it, another random thought crossed my mind, that uhhh, water does technically go upwards when it’s being evaporated within the clouds getting ready to turn into rain, because SCIENCE!! So yes and no to your weird random thought question brain on wondering if water flowing upwards, we good!?

This would have been longer if I didn’t shorten it for you guys, if you want to hear the whole thing and see me become confused myself, I already thought about making that video, normally it’d be already recorded, but this was a late night thought so you know how those go……but anyway that is pretty much it, kinda, well the short version of it anyway……

You guys have a good night and i’m hoping to remember all of this so I can do a video on it, because I kinda sorta want to, it’d be a good thing to laugh at and then later wish I didn’t record it, but still be happy that I did!!

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

I Swore Myself I’d Leave Myself Alone……

For those wondering, this line is from one of my favorite songs by one of my all time favorite artists, i’ve talked about her before, Alexz Johnson, not sure if that rings a bell, but…..the last time I talked about her, was when I was talking about her latest song called Weight, it’s been a while since I actually listened to that song, now she’s got new ones, plus a new album, that I still haven’t heard…..there’s a lot of songs from the artists I listen to that I need to check out, I always think of listening to them, but I never really get around to it, I might have to pick a day to just sit and have a listen to them.

But enough about music talk, that’s not actually where it was going….I just thought i’d have a chat about things if that’s alright…..if you do want to talk about music do let me know and i’ll make sure to write a separate post focusing on that……if you’re curious to check out the post that I mentioned you can find it here: Now Playing….Weight By Alexz Johnson

Anyway let’s have a chat shall we!?…..okay so i’m going to be honest i’m not really sure what i’m planning on talking about, I just know that i’d like to chat a bit, now normally i’d express the things i’m wanting to express, but maybe we should do it a little differently, how about we talk on the line of Alexz’s song careless and it’s meaning, now when you look at it, you’d say it’s pretty self explanatory right!? Yeah well i’d say so too, anytime I hear this song and this line comes up in the song, I always feel it and it’s because it’s a relatable line, most of us don’t know how to leave ourselves alone or better yet ease up on ourselves, we’re always so harsh for some reason.

I mean i’m sure that reason is to make sure we’re our best self, which is great, but we always tend to be the most harsh when we know we’re already feeling a certain way, it’s like even when we know we should shape up and get over our feelings, we’re still harsh about it, saying things like “you’re always doing that” “why can’t you just stop thinking so hard” and so on and it always feels like there’s two versions of ourselves the being that we are, but also this other person whose meant to be there to keep us moving or at least does they’re best to keep us on our feet……

Now we all know the saying on “tough love” and for some it works, but others not always, I mean why do we always think being judgmental and scolding ourselves is the best thing to do!? Why can’t we instead be a little patient with ourselves!? If there’s a moment where we’re feeling agitated, emotional and other non great feelings, why can’t we support ourselves for a moment and just allow ourselves to feel!?

This might sound confusing and may not make much sense……but what I mean is, we shouldn’t go screaming at ourselves because we’re feeling a certain way and we shouldn’t go judging ourselves either, getting more upset with ourselves especially when we’re already upset, doesn’t really fix things does it!? If anything it only makes us more upset,

because there’s more pressure being added, now sure pressure is apart of life, but do we really need to give ourselves more pressure!? We have to be better at being patient with ourselves and not be so harsh with the things we do, especially with how we handle our emotions and thoughts, because those are the big things that really can get to us, if we let it…….

I think instead of going for the attack, the best way to handle those moments, is to just be more aware and do our best to make sure we don’t overload and if we know we need a moment to release thoughts, emotions and so fourth, we just gotta let ourselves have that moment, but we also shouldn’t allow ourselves to get wrapped in it for too long,

Just take it as going for a walk or hiking of some sort, take that moment, but don’t allow it to overtake you when you need it and also just patience……we may need to take this line of Alexz’s song as a reminder for the times we go to be harsh to ourselves, but stop because we’re having to remember to be aware not to, maybe if we do that, we’d see a bit of a difference.

But that’s all I have, now before we close this off, I just wanted to share that, there’s a new video on my channel if you’re interested, I uploaded it Wednesday, since we’re getting close to midnight here, i’m just having a bit of a chat, but if you want to check that out, you can find it here: 7pm With A Different View but anyway I should probably head to sleep now, seeing as it’s now midnight, I hope you all are well and you guys have a good night.

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Weird Moments Am I Right!?

So it’s about 9 o clock at night right now, it just turned 9, well a little while ago anyway…….it’s around 9:15…..okay looked up at the time it’s around 9:16 now as i’m writing this, obviously the time will change the more I continue to write…..it just did, but let’s stop talking about the time yeah…….okay let’s get this out the way, I know you’re probably pretty confused right now, but don’t worry so am I…….I watched one video…….alright maybe a few more than one and all of sudden, i’m full of all this weird energy, now when I say weird I just mean a whole lot of randomness is happening with me

Can’t explain it, you know sometimes you just happen to come across some randomness and it just stick with you from their on, now i’m not complaining about it, I just needed to share it in some form, cause sometimes, most time, when we’re having weird not making sense moments who knows the kind of randomness we’ll get or what kind of randomness we’ll get……this is an example, you don’t know if you’re making sense half the time, but maybe that’s alright…….why question it, when you can just easily let it occur, it’s not harming us so why think otherwise on it!?

We should express it how we feel it in the moment, so yes sure some of us have conversations here and there to ourselves (some of us all the time) and maybe we turn some of what we say into a random song for no apparent reason, because it’s just what we’re feeling in the moment I guess, there’s nothing wrong with that, sometimes we need to do those things,

So we not only keep sane, but we also know that we don’t have to be serious all the time…….having random moments like that can really change how we may feel and those moments can help us to feel better and make us laugh at the same time because they’re so unexpected, sure we may ask ourselves what the heck is wrong with us through it and not really understand what’s going on when those unexpected burst of random weird energy happens…..

but maybe it’s for the best, maybe we’re suppose to not know what the heck is going on……by just letting it happen and going with it, we enjoy it more and embrace it, which is probably something we should do a little more often, so if you are having a weird moment, where you’re finding yourself doing all these random things, let it be where it’s at for that moment……

and don’t question the length to it, just let it have it’s moment…….*she says realizing just how long this post has become*………i’m cool, no worries 🙂 You guys have a good night and embrace your weird moments, because although they are unexpected……they’re also the best!!

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Soooo I Did Something…..

After giving it a good amount of thought, I finally decided to go forth with something I had in mind for a while, I decided to start fresh and make a whole new channel, youtube channel, again it took a good amount of thought, I wasn’t completely sure on it when trying to decide, before deciding I thought about adding to the one I already had, but I felt that it would just be everywhere and I just felt the need to start something completely new away from that one, I still have it, I have all the ones i’ve made…..yeah I have 4 now……the last one was suppose to be the last one,

but yeah that changed……I really wanted to have something different with this one, which is why I went on and created a new one, kinda based around the blog actually, well it has the same name as the blog, I wanted to express in another way, so whenever i’m not really writing much, i’m sharing some stuff to be important in the moment and sometimes when you have a lot you feel like saying, it’s kinda hard to write it all, I mean you think a post isn’t all that long, until you find yourself reading it back and realize “oh well that’s quite a lot of words happening there!!”

No, but I thought for days where i’m not in much of a writing mode, I could share all that I want in a short video and get it out a bit more better when i’m not quite sure how in writing and vice versa. Now I only have two videos at the moment, I tried to share it on here, but it wasn’t quite working properly to where you could see them, but I did share the new channel, you’ll find it with the socials, twitter ect….feel free to check it out whenever

I hope you enjoy them in someway, but anyway that is all I wanted to share with you guys, just a quick post, I hope you all had a good day and your weekends been well and all and I hope your nights been well too!!

New Channel: Life As A Daydreamer

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Deep Breath……

Okay so this going to sound pretty confusing to guys, at least for a moment, my brain is filled with a bit of pressure and i’m feeling a little nervous….alright a lot nervous, there’s been something that i’ve been at that I just started really trying at, i’ve been back and forth with it in my head at first for a good while and it wasn’t until yesterday where I stopped thinking about it let’s just say…….at this moment though, i’m a bit nervous to the point where i’m kinda sitting with it for a bit, really thinking about it……

It’s only until I feel alright to say “it’s time” I know trying to delay something isn’t probably the best choice to go with, but sometimes you need a moment to really take something in before you go again, you know!?…….I probably should just start going again, instead of trying to purposely stall, stalling doesn’t really work all that well, unless you’re having to stall someone else from entering a room or something, in that case it kinda works,

But if you’re trying to stall yourself…….you’re not really helping yourself all that well are ya!? Guess not……I should probably get moving soon, let me go grab a sweater or jacket in case it’s get a little chilly……what!? I’m not stalling if that’s what you’re wondering, this weather is just unpredictable these days, gotta be prepared, is all……alright, alright i’m going!!……

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Just A Quick And Short Post….

Okay so this post is a little late, it’s around 11:30pm so pretty close to midnight…….if I knew what I was writing, I’d be the one to express it right now, but I do not know therefore, i’m not really sure how this post is going to go so there’s a good chance it’ll be pretty short.

At midnight it’ll be Christmas Eve, yeah I know how crazy is that!? This year has gone by pretty quick yet also pretty smooth in terms of giving certain months their time to hang around, preferably October and November so the towards the end pretty much!! Now i’m not sure about you guys, but Christmas and the whole month of December, isn’t really feeling all that high spirited, most people love this time of the year and it should be like that for everyone, but that’s not always the case, but people should still enjoy themselves even if a lot of people aren’t really loving it this year!!

Christmas Eve and Christmas Day for me, will just be seen as another day, but for those of you who love the feeling that December brings and love Christmas, I hope you have a fantastic, beautiful and most enjoyable holiday today (kinda) and tomorrow (Wed) I say that because by the time this is posted it’ll already be midnight, which will make it Christmas Eve.

I do hope that you all have a wonderful holiday and that the rest of the year and the start of not only a new year, but decade as well….goodness gracious, that’s truly insane, I don’t even want to think about it……but, anyway you all have a Merry Christmas and a lovely day, whatever you do, I hope you all enjoy yourself massively and get at least one thing off your wishlist that you’ve been wanting and you know just enjoy everything!!

I don’t think I have anything else to say, so you have a goodnight and a good time whatever you do, i’ll write you all in my next post!!

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Is It Just Me Or Is The Day A Little Weird!?……

Okay so right now it’s around 11pm close to 11:30, but still around 11….I don’t know if it’s just me, but today has been and felt a little weird. Although it’s late, it doesn’t feel late and I know that today’s the Winter Solstice and that the night is longer today then it is on regular days, the day was only around for, but a few hours……it’s just a really weird day!! Maybe it has to do with Winter Solstice happening today, by the way I let everyone know that it was the Winter Solstice well, most of everybody anyway!!

I almost and that’s a big almost, forgot to post, it still feels early to me, I noticed it got to 11 and I was like *Pause video* got to write a post, I knew I had to as well, but today is just sorta off balance, for example, I literally had some pretty good amount of energy in me a moment ago, but now that i’ve realized how late it actually is, i’m starting to unwind with the night, it’s really odd how a day can feel like one thing, but you know it’s not.

It’s amazing how the body and mind react it sees “oh so it’s not 8pm, it’s actually close to midnight okay….ahhh well, looks like you’re tired now” we may think our body and minds don’t pay attention, but it does, oh it sure does, it’s like a lite switch, well, okay maybe not, but i’m sure you guys know what i’m talking about or at least know what i’m trying to say….hopefully!!

I think that’s all I got, I didn’t really have much prepared as a post today, I knew I was going to write something, but did I have a plan!? No, of course not, I just improvised and went for what I was feeling, it’s a short post, but I hope you still found it interesting, anyway, you all enjoy your night and i’ll see you all with a new post tomorrow.

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Let’s Talk Randomly….

This post isn’t going to be about anything specific, it’ll be a post with a whole lot of things to it, like for example, how exactly did all the dinosaurs get their names!? I mean every dinosaur was pretty much different right!? So why were they given the names they were given and why were all their names very long!? Did they ally any other dinosaurs whenever a battle arouse or did they all just come to their own defenses!?

I’d like to think that when the battle got a little hectic that some dinosaurs came to help out, I mean you never know it could happen!! If you’re wondering why this is being brought up, well……it was something I actually thought about earlier and even had a small discussion about too, it’s just interesting to think about, because you just wonder, well if you’re the kind to wonder a lot like I am, I wonder about pretty much anything……

Another thing I was thinking about was the first human to walk on earth, I bet it was something, I looked that one up to see, it was pretty much the caveman, but maybe they were a little advanced, not sure, but, I wonder how they felt walking around and discovering something they weren’t all too familiar with, what were their minds like!? What did they feel!?

Imagine being in a place, like a whole new place, heck world even, what would you feel, how would you react, what would you be the first thing that you’d do!? Me i’d most likely explore and question every little thing…..

There’s a lot of wonders to everything, some things are explainable some unexplainable, but it’s always just interesting when you think about everything before we evolved and became what we are now, like in terms of our ancestors, everything had to be so different and just incredible for them getting to see everything for the first time and discovering all these weird and interesting things and then later having it become more right in front of them and getting to see it, I know it probably had to be a weird thing for them to see something one day be a certain and then have it change into something completely different to how they normally saw it.

There’s a lot of things I can probably talk about, but then that’ll be a long post and I don’t want that, plus these were the main things I thought about anyway, well more the dinosaur topic and the first human to walk on earth, the other things I just added after because it crossed my mind, i’m sure some of these type of questions have entered our brains before, possibly late at night when we need to and are trying to sleep……

Best nights those are (she says sarcastically) sometimes they just come at the most inconvenient times, why!? Biology probably, something related to Science or just because, no real explanation needed I guess.

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Conversation With An Old Friend, It’s Been A While….

It’s around 10:30pm and my minds blank on what to write, I also need to get up really early in the morning, I don’t think I have anything at all today to share with you guys, I was trying to think of something before, but nothing really came to me…..I then tried to listen to some space ambience music to see if that would work to get some kinda of an idea or something, nada…..

I think it’s another blank day, I could tell you about a dream I had last night to make this post a little interesting and readable, it wasn’t anything too weird, in my dream though, I spoke to one of my friends, who by the way is no longer around…..but in the dream he randomly called me and I had a conversation with him and I could hear his voice too, it was the most odd thing ever, i’m not really sure if we were talking about anything important,

Maybe we did, maybe not……it felt more like a catch up conversation than something serious, it was pretty random, to me it just felt like a casual conversation where you just talk about anything, we always used to have weird conversations when we spoke anyway, in the dream we also called another friend of mine, but yeah, I really don’t know if there was anything important to it, maybe it was just that, a catch up conversation kind of dream and also him wanting to say hi and be weird and check up on me.

I don’t really know, when I woke up this morning, I was confused to why I had the dream, I haven’t had my friend visit me in a dream for some time now, but it was nice hearing from him and talking to him, even though I have no idea what we were actually talking about……

I guess if it was important he’d be sure to let me know, but I think it was just him wanting to stop by and chat for a bit, if that was you Ang….thank you for coming by in a different way too, i’m getting the feeling you were saying “yep that was me, in the dream, just saying hi, just because I felt like it” those might not be the exact words you’d use, but it would be along the lines, which I am counting because I can and just did!!

Sorry I just needed to send that out real quick, but yeah I think that’s all I have for now, i’m going to call it a night and get ready to hit the hay, I know what you’re thinking…..who says that….anymore!? i’m going now…..

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Late Night Chat…..

So it’s midnight, first day of October, goodness gracious did that go by quick…….I just wrote and reviewed one of my posts, that’s very long for those who happen to read it, sorry for the longness of it, I had a lot I needed to get out on a personal level, i’m sure you knew that if you did read it, it has a lot of feelings that I felt obviously not good ones, hopefully you just bypassed it, but i’m sure you didn’t, I was very nervous posting that.

I knew once I did, it was going to be there for everyone to read, but I wrote it for a reason, for someone specific and the only way I felt they’d possibly look at it is by posting it, I debated sharing it on my social medias because of how personal it was, I haven’t posted it on my social medias, it’ll be there here though, they say when you feel something, you have to let yourself feel it and be aware you’re feeling it and you have to ask yourself why you feel that way, I never ask myself why I feel a certain way, I just know i’m feeling it and when I feel it, I feel it really hard and I just let it out naturally.

If you read my last post you might be wondering what that was all about, i’d tell you, but you might already have it pieced together and if you don’t I wouldn’t want to share how it is because it’s very personal, not personal enough to write all that I did I know, but the writing and feeling behind it was just a little letter/message, remember when I said I have a hard time expressing how I actually feel, yeah out loud I can’t say how i’m feeling, to most people, I think it as loud as possible in my head, but never express it.

Writing helps me express those pent up emotions like that, I didn’t know what else to do, I just had a lot in my head and the first thing I did was grab my laptop, okay I grabbed my phone first, but when I realized I had a lot that wanted to come out, I grabbed my laptop and typed away, I sat with what I wrote for a bit, read it a few times, when I felt it was alright I posted it, I then started to panic a little and re looked at it, I took a few things out then changed some stuff and then updated it and then I sent it to the person I wrote it for after going over my head about whether it was a good idea or not, I still don’t know if it was, they might not even read it….I hope they do.

I’m really tired and it’s pretty much 1am already, I should sleep, but i’ve been having some trouble sleeping these past few days, so me sleeping now i’ll just end up tossing and turning and thinking too much, relaxing isn’t really my strong suit, you see, I try to, but i’m just not good at it.

It’s now 1am am as i’m writing this, I could sleep now, but the question is how long will it take me to sleep!? I hope what I wrote didn’t come off in a way that to how I tried to prevent it from coming out, if that makes any sense, these would be the thoughts that keep me up in the night. I just can’t help not thinking, when something goes off balance to me, everything is just off and it feels weird and although weird can be a good thing at times…..

The weird i’m talking about isn’t, it’s uncomfortable to where you just can’t sit still and you want the time to go by quickly, but it doesn’t and it drives you mad and you just don’t know what to do with yourself in that moment. I don’t have anything else to say, I think I said the last of what I wanted for now, so i’m going to try and get some sleep, I don’t know if i’ll be able to, but we’ll see, I let you know in my next post if I have anything good to write tomorrow now today, but anyway thanks for reading and listening if you did, you all have a good night or day since it’s morning already.

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa