So it’s about 9 o clock at night right now, it just turned 9, well a little while ago anyway…….it’s around 9:15…..okay looked up at the time it’s around 9:16 now as i’m writing this, obviously the time will change the more I continue to write…..it just did, but let’s stop talking about the time yeah…….okay let’s get this out the way, I know you’re probably pretty confused right now, but don’t worry so am I…….I watched one video…….alright maybe a few more than one and all of sudden, i’m full of all this weird energy, now when I say weird I just mean a whole lot of randomness is happening with me
Can’t explain it, you know sometimes you just happen to come across some randomness and it just stick with you from their on, now i’m not complaining about it, I just needed to share it in some form, cause sometimes, most time, when we’re having weird not making sense moments who knows the kind of randomness we’ll get or what kind of randomness we’ll get……this is an example, you don’t know if you’re making sense half the time, but maybe that’s alright…….why question it, when you can just easily let it occur, it’s not harming us so why think otherwise on it!?
We should express it how we feel it in the moment, so yes sure some of us have conversations here and there to ourselves (some of us all the time) and maybe we turn some of what we say into a random song for no apparent reason, because it’s just what we’re feeling in the moment I guess, there’s nothing wrong with that, sometimes we need to do those things,
So we not only keep sane, but we also know that we don’t have to be serious all the time…….having random moments like that can really change how we may feel and those moments can help us to feel better and make us laugh at the same time because they’re so unexpected, sure we may ask ourselves what the heck is wrong with us through it and not really understand what’s going on when those unexpected burst of random weird energy happens…..
but maybe it’s for the best, maybe we’re suppose to not know what the heck is going on……by just letting it happen and going with it, we enjoy it more and embrace it, which is probably something we should do a little more often, so if you are having a weird moment, where you’re finding yourself doing all these random things, let it be where it’s at for that moment……
and don’t question the length to it, just let it have it’s moment…….*she says realizing just how long this post has become*………i’m cool, no worries 🙂 You guys have a good night and embrace your weird moments, because although they are unexpected……they’re also the best!!
Soooo for those who didn’t know, which i’m sure you might’ve, but if not, we had a leap year this year which means that the month of February had a extra day in it and I gotta say, yesterday was probably one of the longest days ever, well at least it felt like was, the day kinda took it’s time yesterday which isn’t bad, it was just pretty long is all, but February is now over and we have entered the month of March……already!? I say this, but March kinda took a while to get here I suppose, if you really think about it, each month so far has really, taken it’s time, which doesn’t happen often…….
Maybe it’s just the year for it, who knows really……Man March has started out with quite the approach, a lot is happening to where you’re just having to feel prepared, yet sometimes you wonder if you’ve prepared the proper way for it, does that make sense!? Some things can still seem unclear,
but you’re having to trust that things will work out fine, even when you’re finding it a little hard you know!? I guess we just need to roll with the punches as best as we can and keep positive even when we’re having to push through it all……..it’ll be alright though, sure it may seem like it’s everywhere and we’re having to take it as it’s coming, but it’ll be alright, the month just started right!? We gotta have some positive mindset on it.
There are days where sometimes our energy isn’t always quite on the high level and when we encounter those days we tend to stay wherever the energy is…..by staying with the energy we let ourselves to get pulled in deeper than we may like to, especially when it’s negatively effective, but just because we may have moments of unknown feelings lingering around,
Doesn’t mean we can’t switch it up a bit, I recently did a video talking about this on my channel, expressing different ways to shake up our own energy when it’s in a low state, you can check it out here if you like: Shake Up The Energy
It can be a little difficult finding different ways to get our energies up, but you’d be surprise on what could work, it doesn’t have to be anything big, the smallest thing can have a big effect to the way we feel, be it music, certain video games, even just sitting outside for a couple hours can change how our energies hang around us, so even when we don’t really know why we may be feeling the way we are, at least we know that there’s always something that can take the low energies that we carry and transform them to be more lighter and better feeling where we want to stand with it.
Close your eyes and breathe relax and breathe……it’s okay, you’re okay, we are okay. Don’t think that it’s not okay to feel the way you are feeling right now, it’s alright, everything’s alright, I know all these feelings are swirling around and it don’t quite feel all that nice, but it’s going to be fine!!
Don’t think that you shouldn’t feel what it is you’re feeling, they’re meant to come out, it may not make sense to why they’re coming out, but you’re having to release them for a reason……it’s been sitting there for quite some time now, it’s time to let them out…….just because it’s confusing considering how the days been, it’s been pretty alright yeah!?
I know you’re feeling sorry and guilty for letting whatever is going on out, but you shouldn’t be, we all need to let it out sometime, even if it doesn’t quite make sense to when it feels the need to come out, it’s time to heal, allow yourself to heal the way it’s happening and don’t be so hard on yourself about it, allow yourself to feel those emotions and know that it’s for a reason and it’s okay…..it’ll take some time, but be patient……
You’re doing alright, so there’s no need to stress yourself out about it, just trust that everything is going to be alright and it’ll all work out in time, trust yourself and believe in yourself as well, don’t fret it’s all going to be alright!! 🙂
When it comes to our own insight on things, we don’t really trust ourselves a lot of the time and that’s because we tend to worry about all these different things that could happen and so because of that we become hesitate to want to try or share things that we feel we should try and or share, we question a lot of things, way more than we should actually.
We think too much on the worst parts than the possible best parts that could come from the things we share, as well as how we feel, sometimes even when something may feel right to us, we still feel unsure about it, which I guess is a natural reaction, I mean if it was something big then you’re going to get that kind of feeling right!? Whose to say though that,
We shouldn’t at least see about it…..if there’s an idea that we have in our minds should we not go forth with it!? If we just trust ourselves a little more with the things that we feel, who knows just where we will possibly be or go even, we won’t really know unless we take that step right!?
Ask yourself this question…..why do we try so hard!? Did you answer it!? If so what did you say!? When we try hard to get things right, most often we find that it turns out not so right all the time, why is that!? Well it’s exactly what it is, we’re trying too hard, when in reality, we don’t need to.
Now you might be saying to yourself, well how else are we meant to do it!? Try hard a little less possibly….!? Yes I know how exactly!? Well for one, we gotta relax and chill out, breathe and let things flow at a natural state,
When we try too hard, we create resistance, which also invites stress, causing us to feel overwhelmed by everything and let me tell you it’s not a great feeling you know……we’re only adding pressure to ourselves by doing that, if we constantly worry about things not being a certain way and trying to get it right all the time, we wouldn’t have things be as natural as they are would we!? It’s okay to push yourself harder then you might normally at times, but when you start trying so hard to the point where you’re stressing yourself out, that is the moment where you need to step back and take a couple of breathers otherwise, you’re going to drive yourself mad.
Although it’s great to want to push yourself to be better, we don’t always have to try so hard to do that, we can do that and do our best all at the same time, minus the stress and feelings of being overwhelmed, just because something may seem or feel not all that great, doesn’t mean that is isn’t all that great, sometimes we may need to just relook at things or tweak something in order for it to make sense and come out right…..
It’s good to go on what you feel, but sometimes what we may feel to be not so good in our heads, actually isn’t all that bad, just keep that in mind……
If I could describe what today is, I wouldn’t know the first thing to compare it to…..the only thing I can say is, it’s not a bad day, it’s actually pretty nice, even though there’s something to it that I can’t quite put my finger on, but you know maybe that’s okay, sometimes when there’s something to the day that is fine, we try and question why that is and then have it end up turning into a stressful day because we don’t know what it is exactly,
When in reality, we should just be okay with not really understanding what’s going on and when I say what’s going on, I don’t mean like a bad what’s going on, I mean it more like……feeling wise, sometimes we have days that are much more on the “hmmm” side of town and with that “hmmm” you find that it comes with a calming feel to it, even when things get a bit high in the noise department, you feel your energy and vibration
Kept in tact, grounded in a way, in your mind you’re expecting something to rattle you a bit, give you a slight disturbance……funny thing actually as I was getting ready to write that disturbance sentence out, something in my room made a noise and startled me right at that moment, not a coincidence, but it made me laugh so i’m taking that as a “just messing with you bit”
As I was saying before that happened……you feel your energy and vibration kept in at a calm state no matter what goes on and it can be quite suspicious to why we feel that way, but question it and trying to dig deep to figure out why the calmness or at least trying to get an exact pinpoint to what we might be feeling, by thinking and trying to figure it out, we water down the good feeling and enjoyment that it’s bringing and allowing us to feel
Why do that!? We want to make sure it’s embraced as much as possible, if we constantly question the positive feelings that we have, we keep from getting them so often, so instead of stressing ourselves out wondering what we’re feeling and trying to get an exact answer to it, let’s try and take it as it is and enjoy it, why question it, if it’s a good kind of feeling!?
Maybe you might have a mixed kind of day where, you feel calm and alright, but you also feel a little bleh at the same time, that’s okay sometimes those kind of feelings can clash at the weirdest moment, but by keeping our focus on the alright and calm and leaving the bleh to the side,
Even when we are having a mixture type of day, taking it in as a whole and being aware and accepting it, you find that it feels nice, just as long as we acknowledge the feel good part to it.
I think i’m going to keep this post short and sweet, well i’m not sure whether it’ll actually be short, but I know it won’t be super long either, I don’t know what it is, but i’m not really all that sure on today and by that I mean, that really actually, I don’t know if that makes sense….
It’s just one of those i’m not really sure how to feel kind of days, i’ve been more in thought mode than speaking mode most of the day and to tell you what i’m thinking about, well lets just say, okay well you know when you’re looking straight out towards the ocean and the waves are going in and out onto the sand, yeah that’s how my head has been, just in and out,
You’d think that be a good thing and quite calming if you’re thinking about waves, well it’s not all bad, it’s just moments when you find yourself deeply thinking where you’re supposed to be careful and you tell yourself that, but you can’t seem to keep away from the whole ocean, so to prevent a full on emotional wave, you have to snap yourself out from going that deep and i’ve been having to do that a few times today……today has been a bit weird,
but I think if you just take a bit of time and be aware of ones feelings instead of trying to ignore it it’ll keep you from having to over feel it, you know what I mean!? All i’m going to say is, if you guys are having one of those days as well don’t be afraid to accept that you’re feeling weird or sad and just not really sure on how to feel, it’s okay to allow yourself to be aware of those feelings, ignoring them will only heighten them to become louder.
You don’t have to like it and you don’t have to want to share a space with it, but it’s important to be aware of them, if you feel emotions coming along, just them out, don’t keep them buried beneath, if you need some time, take it, don’t feel like you can’t, just be aware and accept what you’re feeling. In the moment it’s hard, but eventually it’ll pass and be okay, maybe not fully, but a least you’ll feel somewhat better knowing you’ve given yourself the time and allowance to just feel what you’re feeling.
Close your eyes and breathe, while you’re breathing tell me what it is you see!? What do you feel, are you happy, sad, tired, what emotions are flowing over you right now!? These are the questions I decided to ask randomly…..
I actually wrote that starter intro a couple days ago with some other stuff, but ended up coming back and changing some things here and there, I know it’s been a while, a week or two more like since posting, it’s not that I haven’t been wanting to post, I just feel very selective on what I want to post, if I do write it tends to be more on the serious side to what i’m feeling.
Lately however my lack of writing has been due to me not having much to say other than what i’m feeling and the things that I felt we’re more anxious and stressed based then if I was just going to write a normal random post.
It’s for that reason as well as other stuff, to why I haven’t really been that active on my blog. I still would write, I just wouldn’t post all that I had written out already, plus with certain posts I just didn’t feel they needed to be posted, while i’ve been away though, i’ve been doing a whole lot of doodling, sorta drawing I guess you can say as well.
Sometimes you find that when words are unable to be written, there’s other ways to let your mind run wild and for me, doodling has been the stable for my thoughts to safely run about without going too crazy, the only thing is I tend to doodle when stressed or anxious, the most at least, I sometime doodle when i’m confused or just need to get my mind sorted a bit,
but my doodling comes mostly from my over anxiousness and the fact that I stress myself out too much and the fact that I overthink a lot too…..so the best way I find that works best to keep distracted is to grab my sketchbook and pencil and just let my mind do the talking.
Now i’m not the most extravagant drawer, well doodler in this case, I would say I have a more abstract way of drawing, unless i’m trying to really focus on making something, most of the time however it’s just spirals, lines, curves, swoops all the weird shapes you can probably think of maybe……
Sometimes it takes a bit of time for me to calm down while i’m doodling and scribbling about, because well i’m not really kind to myself the way I should be, still working on it…..but once I have calmed down, that’s when I fully go ahead and look at what i’ve put my pencil to paper on and really start to admire what my pencil had me create, it helps for the most part i’d say!!
I’ve created quite a few doodles already some are complete and already outlined, some are still pencil drawn and 2 out of 3 are outlined and colored in, the 3rd is still being colored, i’m not really sure with the colors i’ve chose, but i’m doing my best to work around it, i’ll get it i’m sure!!
Here’s two different showcases of what i’m talking about:
This was the first doodle/drawing that I attempted at, originally I tried to draw out this mat that we have outside my house, because I liked the way it looked, but it wasn’t going the way I wanted it, so I ended up improvising instead and it turned out like this:
The sun in the middle is what my doormat had in the middle of it, so I kept that, it might look a little off or weird, but i’d say it has some character to it, looking at it though, it could be mistaken for some kind of flower, maybe!? Who knows, the colors I chose, well i’m not really sure what made me chose them, I just looked at it and felt those colors should go with it.
Also green, purple and blue are my three favorite colors, so they were the main colors I highlighted!!
Now as for the second one, i’m about to show you, you’ll see it right away i’m sure, I made this one later to the first one I made it’s a few pages after, but because it’s already finished I thought i’d share it with you guys:
Now I can’t remember the reasoning behind this one, it was just something within the moment I think I created with the help of whatever emotions I was feeling when I made this at the time…..the only thing I know for sure about this one is that I already knew what kind of feeling I wanted it to be, I wanted to use calming colors and so that’s what I did!!
There’s a drawing for this post and by that I mean this post came with a drawing, but I haven’t gotten to outlining and coloring it yet, so that’s why it’s not showcased, I do have it, it’s just still in pencil form, i’d share it, i’m just not sure if you’ll be able to see it because I pencil very lightly, but once I get to it, i’ll be sure to write a different post showing you the outline and color version of it.
Although it can be good to express using words, sometimes you have those moments where you come across a different outlet for you to use as an alternative when your main voice of expression simmers down a bit giving you a different kind of art platform to express on…….
One thing I admire about art, no matter the art form, but specifically on the topic of drawing, is you still get to say what you want, only you’re not having to say any words with it…..you can see it and interpret it however you feel, kinda like with music only slightly, but also a bit more different.
Do you guys ever doodle (scribble) when under pressure, relaxed or even just for fun!?
If you were given the chance to wake up in a different world, would you!? I would just to see what it’s like for a moment…..everything is so out of wack these days, you think on whether everything will get better or if it’s just going to keep going the way it is!? Surely there has to be some kind of change, a more positive one at that right!? Sometimes you don’t know where you stand at times, whether you’re going in the right direction or if you’re just being a big ole” bobble head of a person on a certain day.
Yeah okay that last sentence was probably a weird one, but seriously it’s so hard to know how everything goes, where everything is supposed to go and if you’re able to handle it all…..most things just continue to come out of nowhere to the point where, you’re thinking whether or not you should keep a look out for something just in case something else pops up, but I guess it wouldn’t be life if those things didn’t happen right!?
It’s tough, you want to be able to keep your head up when things get a little too chaotic, but sometimes it always feels as though gravity just wants your head to be down all the time, that’s how strong negative energy is, no matter how strong you try your hardest to be, there’s always going to be a moment where you can’t help, but want to break down and just not be bothered and most people will tell you that it’s going to be okay and that things will get better, which isn’t wrong to say because it’s true,
However, sometimes it’s okay if things aren’t okay, it’s harder to try and feel positive when you’re feeling really down and out, then it is to actually let yourself feel the things your feeling. We all try and put brave faces on and seem as though we are bullet proof and that we can withstand anything, although that is true, we wouldn’t be able to do all of that, without feeling the unwanted and negative feelings that we feel. Without harsh wind storms, we wouldn’t have nice breezy days, without hurricanes, we wouldn’t be able to enjoy the calmness that the water brings, that might’ve rhymed, I don’t know, but what i’m trying to get at is, with bad comes good and with good comes bad, there’s a balance to it and with that balance,
We just need to know how to get it right or find a way to make it better somehow, sometimes it takes time and sometimes we’re able to pick it up pretty darn well, but if somethings is not okay, that’s okay and if something is okay, that’s okay!! We shouldn’t always have to feel as though we need to keep positive and not worry, it’s important to not do that of course especially if it’s excessive (is that the word!? Probably)
If you’re worrying and stressing it’s alright, it means you really care about something, if you didn’t care you wouldn’t feel those things, but just keep tabs on how much you let the meter go over…..I know it’s not always easy to keep things leveled, be it with emotions, hard days, thoughts, you name it!!
Sometimes those things do have a way at getting the better of us, but if we can handle it, we will and if not it doesn’t mean we won’t and can’t, life is hard and oh so very stressful most of the time, but life can also be pretty easy if we let it, will we!? Most likely not, but really it’s the way we choose to look at everything that will determine how well we get it right.
Just so everyone’s clear here, don’t worry i’m still learning this myself, it’s a process for everyone, but it’s a process that isn’t too far from progress…..