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Don’t You Ever Grow Up….

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There comes a day when you start to realize just how quickly everything goes….at first you don’t really think all that much about it, until that wave of realism comes rushing over you. At times it can be extremely overwhelming and hard to grasp, but the more you go about it, the less anxious it gets, sometimes it can make you feel a bit more anxious then what you thought….but it’s important to find some kind of grounding with those kind of moments and try to push through them!

This journey that we’re all on, although very much different, is still quite the same….what I mean by that is for one, we all have some kind of challenges to face, we have to get over bumps to be able to head towards where we’re going and many other things….one thing for sure though…..we’re all just a little or very much scared with each unknown thing that we come across! It’s not until we actually face those uncertain moments that we become less worried about them!

When we’re kids, there’s not really much to worry about is there!? At least for us kids, it’s the parents that do all the worrying, while we’re being quite the curious beings we are, trying to explore all that’s around us…..once we become teenages well that’s where all the challenges come in and where we start to discover who we are just a little bit more….some of us become trouble makers and some may still be trying to find their own voice! I won’t tell you which one I was, although you can probably guess….if you took a guess and said troublemaker well you would be somewhat correct, but more opposite based then what it may seem.

I enjoyed testing people as a kid and if I didn’t like something I would have no problem saying it…..I was a lot tougher and outspoken as a kid more than as a teen……I was what you would call the quiet kid during my teenage years, especially in high school, you would think that, it’d be the other way around, but no…..I didn’t really step out of comfort much during the higher level that life had going for me then…..I became what everyone loves to be (sarcastically speaking) a people pleaser…..to keep the story short…..it took a very long time to get myself out of that!

When I say a long time, let’s just say it wasn’t until recently that, I let that side of me go….well most it at least and when I say recently I mean about…..2 years ago…..it may seem long and yeah it is, but at the same time no it’s not! I’m 27 now and to quote one of my all time favorite artists Alexz Johnson and her song Aftermath “Who I was back then I barely recognize her” which is the truth, right now at this moment….I never thought I would be where I’m currently at now in a more, as a person kind of base, as well as a bit of surroundings!

There are days where I will randomly sit with myself and take everything in and even though I know i’ve gone through it…I still get a bit surprised on how much I’ve transformed as a person and for me it’s a little hard to believe sometimes! There’s still stuff that I know will eventually be improve on, but to collect on everything so far, it’s a little of a wow moment….it may not be a lot to you, but for me it’s a lot….but that’s what growth does to all of us…..we don’t realize certain aspects to ourselves until it sorta hits us in the face and at that point, you have no choice, but to really look at it for a second, to look at yourself and all that you’ve overcomed, each and every challenge that you didn’t think you would possibly get through!

Mind the fears and anxieties of those particular moments and not realize through everything you did eventually get through them, there may have been a lot of ups and downs, hard turns, feeling like you’re going in some kind of loop and let’s not pretend that, there weren’t a couple crashes in those times as well…..we’ve all felt like we hit a dead end and just when that hope and wonder of not knowing whether you’d get out or not, enters your mind…..there would always be that one thing, that made you feel like “I can’t give up…I need to keep going” we might’ve not known where you were going, but you had something in your heart and deep down where you knew….the more you went you would be alright!

We always know the way….even when we think we don’t, it’s always important that we take a moment to listen to our hearts as well as intuition…..it can be hard though because sometimes we do fight with ourselves about what it we actually feel, but even if we aren’t exactly sure in the moment….all we have to do is just go with the next best thing that feels right and makes sense to us…..it may not make sense to everyone else, including those close to you, but honestly the only person it needs to make sense to is you…..no one is really going to truly understand the jouney you go on or that I go on, because it’s not their journey it’s yours, it’s mine, it’s ours as a collective, we’re all experiencing things differently and the older that we get….it can become more difficult to choose the right direction.

Here’s the thing though, there’s really no wrong way of doing things…..if you feel it to be right then it is, who cares if people don’t see it the same way, if it really wasn’t going to be the best for you…..you would know and you’d be told in some way, but you’re not ever going to truly know if you don’t take the chance in finding out! You can be scared and nervous, but don’t ever let it stop you, you got to go for what it is you believe in, because that’s where you will see how much growth you’re going to get from it. You don’t need to feel like you can’t because of whatever or you feel it’s going to upset people….as hard and frightening it is to grow up a bit….it is absolutely necessary especially when you know you want it!

You want to be able to say you tried everything and learned a whole lot from it, all while also saying “I discovered this and I love it” or “Yeah I’ve seen this and even gave it go….it wasn’t my favorite thing, but it was alright” take that in whatever context you want, however I mean it more in a sense of, experiencing all that you have yet to see and would like to see, but not being afraid to step out of comfort, those kind of things! Channel into your kid energy, which by the way is always there, you just have to allow yourself to bring it out at times, but when it comes to curiosity and fearlessness that’s where it can really help guide you!

Just bare in mind that, there will be unexpected and uncomfortable situations that you’ll have to go through and that’s okay! You may not enjoy the things you came across along the way fully, but you’ll still learn something from it and hey even with those not so great moments, there is still something great within them….but a lot of the time, they show themselves when you’re not really paying attention, so if you want to catch them just be aware and stay open to the possibilities!

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

February Is On It’s Way Out and Soon We’ll be Marching Into Spring!!

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Happy Weekend Everyone!! Hope you’re having a very good Friday, I can’t believe that we’re pretty much done with the month of February…..it seems like it only just started and now it’s about to set on it’s journey to wherever all the months that finish up go!! It’s been a while since I’ve really spoken about how each month has been….I like to think that it’s had it’s ups and downs, but I guess that’s just something that always sorta happens, some days are better than most, while others have that inbetween thing going on.

It’s been quite the month February and although it’s not neccsarily done, it also practically is come Monday and then we’re into the month of March….which is nuts to think about, but then again, February isn’t really that long of a month anyway so, this one doesn’t feel like it went by all that quick, because it’s already a quick month anyway, with it only having 28 days to it……that being said it doesn’t mean there weren’t some hard moments with it, there’s still a lot going on and I feel like it’s going to be like that for a bit.

This year two different vibes to it, there’s apart of you that feels like you have to do it now, whatever you feel that to be for you and then there the other part of it where it’s like…..you can’t really put your finger on it, but it’s important to know….like I said this year just has the inbetween feeling and you’re having to make some big decisions and take action on them, because if you don’t your going to miss something and you’re going to wish you had!

I get it, it’s tough because it feels like you got two different parts of you talking and you’re trying to figure out what part to listen to…..even when you may already know…..with Winter on it’s way out the door and Spring around the corner, you just feel like it’s getting to a point where you know you have to make a choice and trust that, whatever choice you make will be good, although they say no choice is ever bad, it just leads you down a different road, but you have to ask if that road is something you’re okay with going down!?

If it’s a road that has been on your mind for quite some time, shouldn’t that say something? It’s not about fear anymore, it’s about taking that chance to see where that road leads you, the only thing you have to do is decide and make that choice already, because the more you think the less you’re going to actually go for it, so what’s it going to be? Will you take that chance or will keep thinking about it, you already know what you want to do so what’s stopping you!?

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

How To Organize The Day…Not Quite The Title You Think It is!

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It seems like a fairly easy thing to do yeah!? Yet somehow you find it’s not actually quite that simple, see the way I see organization is to list everything that I have in mind to do and then pick the one that I want to do most throughout the list, not the most efficient way to do things and really get the most out of the day, but honestly that’s the truth to how I tend to organize myself.

I’m usually someone who wings a lot of things, I’ve said this before and I’ll most likely keep saying it until I’m blue in the face or until I eventually sort it out, but planning is just a very hard thing for me and it’s not that I don’t want to plan anything, but the concept in my mind as simple as it may be….I just find it quite challenging! Whether I’m trying to work out the day or really think of a solution to something that is very important and needs sorting…..I don’t plan the way most people plan and if I’m being completely honest here, I’m not the greatest decision maker, I always do my best to make decisions, but I know that it’s one of my things that’s still being worked on!

I have gotten better, I mean if you met me before, not that many of you have met me now and I mean actually met me, but I was a lot worst at making decisions then compared to now and speaking of that, really looking at it now…..I have gotten better with it through time, at least I feel I have anyway, is it something I’ve mastered…..no, not at all….am I better at it completely? For the most part yes, but it’s still a work in progress and that’s something I can say I’m not afraid to admit! I normally would use this kind of post as a positive way of explanation and by that I mean doing my best to help you “Organize the day” with by giving some pointers if you want to call it that if it’s something you too are having trouble with, but I thought instead of doing that,

I’d tell you how shit I am at planning things, I mean I don’t even know what to do whenever my birthday rolls around sooo there’s that! However, I’m not going to call it a weakness of mine at least me now won’t, we all have things that are a little more challenging to us then what it’s like to others, but it doesn’t mean that we can’t still improve on the things we’re finding ourselves getting a bit lost in, because the way I see it is….

There’s different types of planning, you may not be the best at planning parties or any kind of social gatherings, but there may be something within you that you’re either not aware of or that you feel doesn’t count and you’re just doing whatever it is you’re doing, but you’ll find that other people have taken notice of how well you do a certain thing and how well you’re able to lay it out without realizing, for you it’s a natural thing….however for others, it’s something they would’ve never thought of! We all have our own way of figuring out what goes where and how to set it out properly, it may take a while for some, while others might get it like “snap” that!

Some of us may need to explore and see what we’re working with in order for us to gain some kind of solution and really understand, so that we have the knowledge or at least a little bit of it, to move forward in confidence with whatever the next part is! It’s like video games….hear me out…..when we’re playing a video game for the first time without knowing anything about it….what is that we do?…..we explore our surroundings and see if we can get information in some way about the objective at foot.

Now most of us will look into every nook and cranny (ha) continuing sorry not sorry…..until we’ve found something new, there are games that have specific goals that need checking off, while others will let you explore without any prior knowledge about what’s actually meant to be going on, yes you have your story with it, but it’s up to you to unfold what’s ahead of the game all while trying to understand what message it’s trying to convey!

Now how you choose your gameplay to be when exploring and discovering, will help to give you the idea and answers you’re looking for! It’s pretty much stuff like that….I don’t mean with real life situations, although you do have those random occasions where you can use video games and life in the same sentence, but I’m just speaking on the planning and decision making aspect of it, it’s not always that way, but it can help to possibly understand better and use what you get from it in someway or form!

Update:

I know that it’s been quite some time, but I recently recorded a new episode on my podcast, it’s the first episode back since my last episode as well as the first episode of 2022….now it’s not what I originally wanted to return with, but I felt it would’ve been a bit odd to record a new episode on something I enjoyed knowing I hadn’t recorded in 2 months…..plus I wasn’t really feeling quite energetic today, so I ended up turning this post into an episode….sorta, it’s a bit different to what I’ve written, honestly I should’ve just read what I wrote because my nerves started getting to me while recording so if it sounds odd you know why, hopefully it’s okay, but here’s the episode: https://anchor.fm/lexa-marie3/episodes/Getting-Organized—-Where-To-Start–Blog-Post-Ep–47-e1e3at5

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Plans & Decisions…

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I’ve never been one for planning you know, which you probably do because I’ve mentioned it a few times on here, me and plans….don’t mix, however I’ve come to a point in my life where, I’m finding myself trying to plan for things which is usually not my department, but if the time has come for me to really sit and plan things properly then I’m going to do it! I’m going to put myself in an uncomfortable situation and face it the best way I can, scared and full of nerves combined!

Today has been a bit of a rough day for me, I’ll admit, I woke up with soooo many thoughts in my head and trying to sort them is completely new to me, I don’t normally sort my thoughts out well and so trying to do that today has got my head just full of aches lol…..but it’s okay because I know that there’s something that is very important I want to do and if I end up losing a little bit of sleep from it or feel myself getting slightly anxious on, I’m alright with that! Plans aren’t my normal cup of tea, but I’ve been trying to embrace it a little better instead of getting intimidated by them,

Plans are important they can help layout things so you don’t feel all over the place! Normally I like going with things naturally, but I’ve also been learning that sometimes you need to plan for things in order to work them out, if you just let things always go as they are, whatever is most important to you can get away from you and if that’s something you don’t want then you have to really work at them and take those steps to having them come to fruition and making them happen…..I’m always being told that life is short and you want to make sure you’re always giving attention to the things that matter most even if it seems hard, it can seem like you won’t get there, but if you want it enough and you believe in it enough….you already know that it can get there, you just have to take those steps to get them there!

Now with the things that I’m planning, there’s a few decisions that I’ve come to realize I need to face and deal with, even though some of the stuff may not be my favorite to want to deal with…..it’s up to me to take that breath, put on a brave face and do it anyway…..with planning you also have to make decisions tough or not, because that’s the only way for you to grow better and to experience things without all the limits of it all it all, you have to allow yourself to fly even if you are bat scared shit of it and yes I’m saying it just like that because it’s how I’m feeling it at the moment….if we continue to always keep ourselves on the ground, as safe as it may be sometimes you have to also fly or float otherwise you’ll always be there wishing you could soar that blue sky!

I recently went on a trip as you may know if you read that post and I was really nervous when I was waiting to go on the plane, but once I got on the plane…..I don’t know I was very happy, I smiled to myself knowing I did something that scared me and even when I was on the vacation I was on…..I was ready to go back on the plane……it just felt good and I really enjoyed myself knowing that I was ahead somewhere that I hadn’t been yet and that’s what I want to continue, I want to keep discovering, exploring and going on adventures…..but also I want to share that experience and so if I need to plan in order to do that, like I said…..I will!

The upcoming plan idea is to finally be able to see my love again and figure out how we can be together permanently, we both have wanted that for a good now sooo, I’m just hoping that it all goes well for us this time, which we’ll make sure it does!

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Honestly….I Want To See You Be Brave (Title May Change)

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There comes a moment, well I guess you can say there comes a good amount of moments in life where you have to make some really hard decisions and sometimes those decisions aren’t always the easiest, most times you’ll find that not a lot of people agree with the decisions you make, but whether they agree with them or not, it’s up us to decide what we feel works best for us and if it’s also healthy for us as well! What I mean by that is if you find that you’re in a situation where everyday it’s always issue after issue and no matter how much you try to make it better, it never feels like it gets anywhere, that’s where the really big decision comes in…..you have to ask yourself is this worth the time and energy am I sacrificing too much of my happiness trying to make everyone else happy!?

Sometimes it’s difficult because you feel like with certain situations you don’t have a choice, especially when say it’s family or really close friends or just anyone you feel a great connection with! If you are the kind of person that always puts everyone else’s needs before their own this can be especially difficult and a bit of a battle to get yourself out of, but once you do get out of it, you’ll start to find yourself getting more and more better and you’ll also start to become happier because you’re not having to always please people, you might have moments where you feel slightly guilty, but that’s only due to the fact that you’re used to helping so many people out without a single thought about yourself so it’ll feel a little weird at first of course!

However you have to know when to say no and that it’s okay to say no, as hard as it is, it’s important for your wellbeing, if you’re constantly agreeing to everything that someone says or always saying yes when really you mean no, you don’t give yourself that proper attention that is needed and when you know you have no energy left, yet you still try and give everyone what their asking you for…..it’s just going to be this endless cycle only you’ll be the one without energy while others knowing they have their own energy, continue to take all of yours!

You never want to allow yourself to enter that cycle, but then you ask yourself, how do you know you are in that situation!? Sometimes it all goes based off feeling, so if someone askes you for something or to do something, whatever the question or situation is and inside you feel like it’s not right or maybe you just don’t want to do it in that moment, yet you do it anyway because you’re being asked that’s the first sign of it’s okay to say no when you feel it to be no…..as for situations alone, you have to know which ones are worth putting yourself into and which ones are best to stay out of, it’s not always an easy thing to do, but for the best shield for yourself,

Don’t know how else to state it….it’s important to be aware of and if people choose to scold you for wanting to stay away from all the drama and not wanting to be around them because it’s never a good moment or there’s always something then just a genuine let’s spend time together or conversate and all that jazz, then those are the people you want to keep at a distance, if they can’t respect that then you’re best to just keep to yourself and look towards filling your circle with better surrounding people that you know will keep your energy high and not the other way around, the people who really care will always support you, even if they maybe don’t agree, a good support system will always encourage you to just go out there and do your best and will always want to see you happy!

I express a little more on this topic in my latest podcast episode, it’s a bit lengthy, but I felt it was important and wanted to share on it, if you would like to have a listen, check it out:

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Last Month Of Summer….

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Good Afternoon Everyone, Happy August….that is if this month started off well for you! If it didn’t I hope it goes better from here on out, I mean we’re only on the second day so don’t worry on it too much, sometimes we have slow startups, but that doesn’t mean we won’t get going eventually! Farewell July and welcome August, the last month of the Summer….how mad is it that Summer is practically over and we’re getting closer to the Autumn season!? I’d say pretty mad, although I always feel summer flies by normally, however Summer this year, has stayed for quite a while so the fact that we’re just now reaching the end of Summer, that’s the mad part to me at least!

The start of August started a little rocky, by rocky I mean more on a personal manner, it kind of followed in toward the end of the July month and started on a less of a high note with the start of this month, but the rest of the day yesterday wasn’t all bad, there weren’t great moments, but it wasn’t too bad! I want to say that I know what this month will have in store, but I’m going to hold off on saying that, do I have an inkling on what I feel this month will be like!? Not really….but I have a lot of hope that whatever it turns out to be that it’ll be good!

July was a bit of an up and down month, well to me anyway, It might’ve been different for you guys and if so I’m glad that you had a good month last month, when it comes to August who knows what it’ll be like, just because it may have started off a little rough, doesn’t mean that it won’t turn around! August may start off delayed for a lot of people and if that is happening try not to get too worked up about it, it being a bit delayed may just mean that something needs a little more time to make progress or need times to be able to really get the ball rolling on whatever important decisions you find yourself unable to really make a definite choice on, which is alright!

We may just need that extra moment of thought or whatever it is we feel is needed even if we may not know or really see it if that makes sense!? Everything is going to turn out alright, some of us just maybe need to wait it out a bit or let it take natural form in a way that we have yet to witness, who knows maybe it’s already happened for a lot of you already, it may have started that way at the end of last month and there’s a possibility that it’s continuing to make that progress that you will eventually see unfold one by one, it’s just a matter of time!!

Again, if it isn’t happening like that right away, don’t freight, it will, it just might need a little more time to get started! Like I said I have a lot of hope that August will be a promising month full of surprises and new beginnings, be it planned or unplanned, I guess we’ll have to wait to find out!

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Careers….(Part 2)

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Part 2 of Careers is right ahead, as promised from the first part to this when I said I don’t think i’m finished talking about this topic, I wasn’t kidding I still have a lot to say, this might be long as well, i’m just gonna say it now, because I know the way I write……I really do try not to write so much, it’s not easy though…..it’s a good thing I wrote everything in advance here.

Sometimes I want to blame my high school teacher for convincing me to get a computer, well more like suggesting i’d get one, it took me a while to actually give in to getting one, luckily we had someone in our school to lend us computers for the time being until we graduated, if it wasn’t for Mrs. Schaefer (My HS English Teacher) I would still be writing down notes in my notebook and being the only one to do so in my class as well.

(I won’t ever forget the conversation when she suggested for me to get one, I always find myself thinking back to that moment in time, well it’s more on random days then always.)

Now I know what you’re thinking,”what does this have to do with careers?” it doesn’t, it has nothing at all to do with careers, it was just a thought, that I wanted to write down, because it was one of the first things that came to mind when I wrote this out, but let’s discuss what’s meant to be discussed.

I’ll be honest with you, for as long as I can remember I never really thought about what I wanted as a career before, hence why i’m stressing about it now……I mean when I was younger I had this grand idea on what I had in mind and that idea involved singing!! I wanted to be a singer, i’ve mentioned this before i’m sure, I mean what kid didn’t right!? I wanted to sing because I liked singing and music a lot, still enjoy singing to myself and I still listen to music, not as much as I used to, but on occasions and whenever i’m walking somewhere or when i’m in the mood for it.

That all being said, the older I got, the more I started to see just how serious I was about it…..I wasn’t, the thought of singing was cool, I mean let’s face it we all had moments when we sang in front of a mirror or in some part of our house with either a hairbrush, remote control or the broom even, whatever we could find really and just went for it, those were the best days of all our childhoods i’d say!! The few times that I attempted to get going, I think I just found it to be too much now that i’m thinking about it.

I’ve been on stage a few times growing up mostly with other people and a few times alone and in those times being by myself on stage or just in front of people in general I would always feel super uncomfortable, I would just rather kinda be away from the stage and having people stare at you. I didn’t even like doing presentations, even though you would just be talking to a classroom, I couldn’t even speak in front of a group of people without losing my words and being all nervous, flashcards couldn’t even help me and they were numbered flashcards and I still would freak out.

But with singing and music I think the main thing with it was I couldn’t commit to it fully, I wasn’t really serious about it, it was always just fun to me, when I started realizing just how much had to be put into it, yeah I slowly backed away from it until you could no longer see me there.

Sometimes I think about it and wonder with it, but I don’t think I would be able to take it seriously, in terms of having it be a career for me, although I still love to sing, I don’t feel it would be my thing to do for a living, there’s a lot with it I probably wouldn’t be able to handle and the realistic ness of it just wouldn’t be a sure thing if you want something that’s going to get you going if you get what I mean, I mean it can be a sure thing if that’s what you truly want and your serious about it, but with me I don’t think it’d work.

The thing i’d say that came with the joy to sing all my favorite songs was being able to write, now I can’t really recall how I got into writing, I kinda just started doing it a lot, I didn’t really know what I was writing, I mean I knew what I was writing, but I didn’t if that makes sense!? I just liked writing pretty much, lyrics mainly, but nonetheless I was writing a whole lot. Other than wanting to be a singer as a youngster, I didn’t really have any alternative careers I wanted to do.

You always hear people say how it’s important to have a backup career in case your original idea falls through and to give you a bit of insight to how I felt hearing that, well I didn’t like hearing that, i’m pretty sure no one did, but when you think about it, we all knew it made sense deep down, I mean who wants to be left disappointed right!?

Careers are seriously hard to decide on, it’s all about what you would like to be doing for the rest of your life!! You can think of a million and above things to do for a living, but here’s where the heart of the true question lies, will all of those possible career ideas make you happy? Can you see yourself feeling truly good about it for years time? Will it be something you get out of bed for and look forward to everyday!?

All the dilemmas when deciding on a career eh? Some people decide on becoming a teacher for a good amount of time, but then later realize that it may not be the thing for them once they realize just how much patience it takes to handle it or maybe they have asked themselves if they want to be in a classroom for years to come and realize they don’t and so they’ll try and think of something else, but that’s just an example.

There’s a lot of different decisions and questions that’ll go through your head when trying to choose the best career. Becoming a teacher is a more realistic career choice to chose from considering how big of a profession it is, I feel you get more out of it then you would with most career options, plus it’s a bit more rewarding to have as a career, I mean your not only in a teaching role, but your helping people of all ages from kids, to teenagers ect…learn and develop while becoming a lot more knowledgeable as well as other things and doing something like that can make you feel really good.

You know you’re bringing something extraordinary to a lot of people and changing their lives in a way that is inexplainable. Now i’m not saying that any other career wouldn’t also be rewarding and that, it just depends on the kind that you choose, but when your trying to decide on a career, whatever that career may be, it all comes down to how bad you want it as well as where you see your personality fitting better with.

You don’t want to just jump into a random profession, you want to make sure you have some kind of interest and connection to it, that way when you are pursuing a career of your choosing, you know you’re going to enjoy it and keep on enjoying it, sure you might like something and find your good with it, but even if you find your are good with it, it doesn’t necessarily mean your going to love it for the rest of your life,

You might if you give it a try and see, but when going for a career you want to make sure it’s something that’s going to not only bring you some kind of happiness with it, but also bring you a good amount of secureness as well, you want something that’ll go hand in hand and work for you. No one wants to get up and do something they know they’re going to dread each morning they wake up, you want to always look forward to what you’re doing not, hate it as your doing it and I get it not being easy to figure out.

With careers there’s just so many to choose from that it’s hard to choose, sometimes you have to go based on what your strengths are and what your weakness is, so you can get some kind of idea of what could work when deciding on what you are going to be doing for a living. Sometimes I think it would be easier to randomly land on a career choice as if it was a mini game and have it be sorted that way, but that’s probably not the best idea, because you might end up with something you really do hate if you aren’t careful, but it would make things interesting for one which is sorta good.

There you have it part 2 of Careers, a lot of what’s written here most of it was already pre written, but there were some stuff that I changed as I went along…..now i’m not 100 percent sure, but there’s a chance there could be a third parter here, it’s not a definite yes, but there is a sorta big maybe to it.

This might just stay as a two parter, but this is a just in case you do see a part 3, you won’t be too alarmed by it, but with all that, I hope you all are having a good day and that you’re all doing well.

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa

2 Weeks Away, Almost 3….

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How’s everyone doing these days, hope well!! Now I know what some of you are probably thinking, “Where have you been!?” and if you aren’t thinking that well then, that’s okay, but I will sorta explain why I haven’t written anything new for the past 2 to almost 3 weeks, I think the longest i’ve went not posting is about a few days maybe a week, this times a new record, we surpassed a week of not posting, can we get an hurrah!?

No i’m kidding, I haven’t posted on here for a reason, you see i’ve been away due to my brain thinking a lot mainly on where i’m going or want to go at least……there’s a lot of things that I haven’t really expressed on here, I might do that one day, not sure when exactly, but one day……

I still haven’t gained that much courage to do so just yet. Now even though I haven’t written and posted anything new on my blog in a good while, I have been still writing, just more handwriting then typing, i’m actually close to filling one of my journals, not quite finished, but it’s getting there i’d say.

So yeah, i’ve been trying to really think on what I want to do (career wise) this isn’t anything new really, it’s something that i’ve been switching back and forth with for a good while now, i’ve just been putting it off for a good amount of time and you know what that’s no one else’s fault but mine, you think you’re fine with something, but then realize you’re not.

So yeah there’s that for one……i’ve also been trying to get better at certain things…..still sorta working on that……i’m kinda feeling a bit of stress and pressure and that’s me doing that to myself because I really want to get somewhere and feel good about it, I mean we all do don’t we!?

There’s a lot let’s just say, but i’m doing my best to work it all out so I could move forward from where i’ve always been stood, if that makes sense!?

I must say this has got to be the most i’ve written in a while on here, which is surprising for some reason, because normally I write a lot, in my journals at least, i’m not sure how often i’ll be posting on here, I kinda purposely stepped away from here just so I can get my head straight and that, plus i’ve been wanting to make this blog better and i’m not sure in what way I want to do that, maybe it’ll be more personal or something, i’m not sure yet.

Hopefully it’ll all just happen naturally, but yeah that’s just a bit of an update I guess you can say, I don’t know what else to say, I hope you’re all doing well and having a good day sorry it’s taken me a few weeks to write, I kinda felt as though I didn’t have much to say so I didn’t, I have missed it though I won’t say I didn’t, i’m always on here believe it or not haha……

That’s all I have for now, but I will post something again soon, maybe not this week or maybe, who know, I might surprise you and post something one of these days or during the weekend, i’ll go based on if I feel I want to say something or how i’m feeling, right now it’s just how things are going,

But you guys enjoy the rest of your day or night depending on what time of day it is where you are and i’ll write to you guys again soon.

P.S. Since we’re coming to the closing days of Summer I thought i’d share something I made a while ago, I was meant to post it, but never did…..

All The Love ❤ < 3

~Lexa~

The Road To Responsibility….

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When you’re a kid you don’t really have that many responsibilities, but each time we get older we tend to learn a new one and then it just starts to form as something we don’t need to memorize because we’ve done it so much and once we become a full on adult, that’s when the responsibility really come around, we tend to handle more and more, our stress levels fly through the roof majority of the time and then we learn struggle………

You wonder if you’re able to handle it all, because when we’re younger we think that everything is easy, we don’t really have much care about anything, but then you come to that road where everything that you once knew or thought was simple and easy, ends up not being so simple and easy………you find that decisions become harder to make and that things become a whole lot much more tougher to get through.

We don’t see those kind of things when we’re younger, we don’t see the stress, struggle or all the other things people had to get through just to get to where they wanted to be……..to us as kids, we just see the results of it, not the hardships of it all. There’s so much more to it, there’s always a story behind it, everything has a story behind it, even if we’re not always exactly sure what that story is, there’s always one……..

When you come to a crossroad of responsibility and thinking things are always so simple and easy, which one would you go on choosing!? I’m going to guess the simple and easy road right!? That’s what we all want to say, but in a realistic world, it’s not always like that, we can try to avoid all the responsibility in the world, but we all know at some point, we’re going to have to take them on one way or another and it’s better to take them on once it’s in front of you then to keep leaving it for another time.

Leaving it for another time only delays it, it doesn’t make it go away, the more next times we give it, the more we’ll have to do and believe me when I say, you never want things to pile up, because you’ll just end up stressing more about it and you don’t want that.

Now I know why people plan things out sometimes, it’s because it helps them get things done better and helps them sort all they need to out, i’m not much of planner…….however, I do have a planner side to me though, we all have some kind of a planner side, even if we don’t use it much, when it comes to responsibility though, sometimes you need to use your planning side, otherwise how would we know where to start!?

There comes a moment where you have to step up to the responsibility of your life, even if you’re not sure how, you don’t have to do it alone, hopefully there’s some support there for you, but eventually we will have to walk down that path sooner or later, better sooner than later though……

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~