Careers….(Part 2)

Part 2 of Careers is right ahead, as promised from the first part to this when I said I don’t think i’m finished talking about this topic, I wasn’t kidding I still have a lot to say, this might be long as well, i’m just gonna say it now, because I know the way I write……I really do try not to write so much, it’s not easy though…..it’s a good thing I wrote everything in advance here.

Sometimes I want to blame my high school teacher for convincing me to get a computer, well more like suggesting i’d get one, it took me a while to actually give in to getting one, luckily we had someone in our school to lend us computers for the time being until we graduated, if it wasn’t for Mrs. Schaefer (My HS English Teacher) I would still be writing down notes in my notebook and being the only one to do so in my class as well.

(I won’t ever forget the conversation when she suggested for me to get one, I always find myself thinking back to that moment in time, well it’s more on random days then always.)

Now I know what you’re thinking,”what does this have to do with careers?” it doesn’t, it has nothing at all to do with careers, it was just a thought, that I wanted to write down, because it was one of the first things that came to mind when I wrote this out, but let’s discuss what’s meant to be discussed.

I’ll be honest with you, for as long as I can remember I never really thought about what I wanted as a career before, hence why i’m stressing about it now……I mean when I was younger I had this grand idea on what I had in mind and that idea involved singing!! I wanted to be a singer, i’ve mentioned this before i’m sure, I mean what kid didn’t right!? I wanted to sing because I liked singing and music a lot, still enjoy singing to myself and I still listen to music, not as much as I used to, but on occasions and whenever i’m walking somewhere or when i’m in the mood for it.

That all being said, the older I got, the more I started to see just how serious I was about it…..I wasn’t, the thought of singing was cool, I mean let’s face it we all had moments when we sang in front of a mirror or in some part of our house with either a hairbrush, remote control or the broom even, whatever we could find really and just went for it, those were the best days of all our childhoods i’d say!! The few times that I attempted to get going, I think I just found it to be too much now that i’m thinking about it.

I’ve been on stage a few times growing up mostly with other people and a few times alone and in those times being by myself on stage or just in front of people in general I would always feel super uncomfortable, I would just rather kinda be away from the stage and having people stare at you. I didn’t even like doing presentations, even though you would just be talking to a classroom, I couldn’t even speak in front of a group of people without losing my words and being all nervous, flashcards couldn’t even help me and they were numbered flashcards and I still would freak out.

But with singing and music I think the main thing with it was I couldn’t commit to it fully, I wasn’t really serious about it, it was always just fun to me, when I started realizing just how much had to be put into it, yeah I slowly backed away from it until you could no longer see me there.

Sometimes I think about it and wonder with it, but I don’t think I would be able to take it seriously, in terms of having it be a career for me, although I still love to sing, I don’t feel it would be my thing to do for a living, there’s a lot with it I probably wouldn’t be able to handle and the realistic ness of it just wouldn’t be a sure thing if you want something that’s going to get you going if you get what I mean, I mean it can be a sure thing if that’s what you truly want and your serious about it, but with me I don’t think it’d work.

The thing i’d say that came with the joy to sing all my favorite songs was being able to write, now I can’t really recall how I got into writing, I kinda just started doing it a lot, I didn’t really know what I was writing, I mean I knew what I was writing, but I didn’t if that makes sense!? I just liked writing pretty much, lyrics mainly, but nonetheless I was writing a whole lot. Other than wanting to be a singer as a youngster, I didn’t really have any alternative careers I wanted to do.

You always hear people say how it’s important to have a backup career in case your original idea falls through and to give you a bit of insight to how I felt hearing that, well I didn’t like hearing that, i’m pretty sure no one did, but when you think about it, we all knew it made sense deep down, I mean who wants to be left disappointed right!?

Careers are seriously hard to decide on, it’s all about what you would like to be doing for the rest of your life!! You can think of a million and above things to do for a living, but here’s where the heart of the true question lies, will all of those possible career ideas make you happy? Can you see yourself feeling truly good about it for years time? Will it be something you get out of bed for and look forward to everyday!?

All the dilemmas when deciding on a career eh? Some people decide on becoming a teacher for a good amount of time, but then later realize that it may not be the thing for them once they realize just how much patience it takes to handle it or maybe they have asked themselves if they want to be in a classroom for years to come and realize they don’t and so they’ll try and think of something else, but that’s just an example.

There’s a lot of different decisions and questions that’ll go through your head when trying to choose the best career. Becoming a teacher is a more realistic career choice to chose from considering how big of a profession it is, I feel you get more out of it then you would with most career options, plus it’s a bit more rewarding to have as a career, I mean your not only in a teaching role, but your helping people of all ages from kids, to teenagers ect…learn and develop while becoming a lot more knowledgeable as well as other things and doing something like that can make you feel really good.

You know you’re bringing something extraordinary to a lot of people and changing their lives in a way that is inexplainable. Now i’m not saying that any other career wouldn’t also be rewarding and that, it just depends on the kind that you choose, but when your trying to decide on a career, whatever that career may be, it all comes down to how bad you want it as well as where you see your personality fitting better with.

You don’t want to just jump into a random profession, you want to make sure you have some kind of interest and connection to it, that way when you are pursuing a career of your choosing, you know you’re going to enjoy it and keep on enjoying it, sure you might like something and find your good with it, but even if you find your are good with it, it doesn’t necessarily mean your going to love it for the rest of your life,

You might if you give it a try and see, but when going for a career you want to make sure it’s something that’s going to not only bring you some kind of happiness with it, but also bring you a good amount of secureness as well, you want something that’ll go hand in hand and work for you. No one wants to get up and do something they know they’re going to dread each morning they wake up, you want to always look forward to what you’re doing not, hate it as your doing it and I get it not being easy to figure out.

With careers there’s just so many to choose from that it’s hard to choose, sometimes you have to go based on what your strengths are and what your weakness is, so you can get some kind of idea of what could work when deciding on what you are going to be doing for a living. Sometimes I think it would be easier to randomly land on a career choice as if it was a mini game and have it be sorted that way, but that’s probably not the best idea, because you might end up with something you really do hate if you aren’t careful, but it would make things interesting for one which is sorta good.

There you have it part 2 of Careers, a lot of what’s written here most of it was already pre written, but there were some stuff that I changed as I went along…..now i’m not 100 percent sure, but there’s a chance there could be a third parter here, it’s not a definite yes, but there is a sorta big maybe to it.

This might just stay as a two parter, but this is a just in case you do see a part 3, you won’t be too alarmed by it, but with all that, I hope you all are having a good day and that you’re all doing well.

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa

2 Weeks Away, Almost 3….

How’s everyone doing these days, hope well!! Now I know what some of you are probably thinking, “Where have you been!?” and if you aren’t thinking that well then, that’s okay, but I will sorta explain why I haven’t written anything new for the past 2 to almost 3 weeks, I think the longest i’ve went not posting is about a few days maybe a week, this times a new record, we surpassed a week of not posting, can we get an hurrah!?

No i’m kidding, I haven’t posted on here for a reason, you see i’ve been away due to my brain thinking a lot mainly on where i’m going or want to go at least……there’s a lot of things that I haven’t really expressed on here, I might do that one day, not sure when exactly, but one day……

I still haven’t gained that much courage to do so just yet. Now even though I haven’t written and posted anything new on my blog in a good while, I have been still writing, just more handwriting then typing, i’m actually close to filling one of my journals, not quite finished, but it’s getting there i’d say.

So yeah, i’ve been trying to really think on what I want to do (career wise) this isn’t anything new really, it’s something that i’ve been switching back and forth with for a good while now, i’ve just been putting it off for a good amount of time and you know what that’s no one else’s fault but mine, you think you’re fine with something, but then realize you’re not.

So yeah there’s that for one……i’ve also been trying to get better at certain things…..still sorta working on that……i’m kinda feeling a bit of stress and pressure and that’s me doing that to myself because I really want to get somewhere and feel good about it, I mean we all do don’t we!?

There’s a lot let’s just say, but i’m doing my best to work it all out so I could move forward from where i’ve always been stood, if that makes sense!?

I must say this has got to be the most i’ve written in a while on here, which is surprising for some reason, because normally I write a lot, in my journals at least, i’m not sure how often i’ll be posting on here, I kinda purposely stepped away from here just so I can get my head straight and that, plus i’ve been wanting to make this blog better and i’m not sure in what way I want to do that, maybe it’ll be more personal or something, i’m not sure yet.

Hopefully it’ll all just happen naturally, but yeah that’s just a bit of an update I guess you can say, I don’t know what else to say, I hope you’re all doing well and having a good day sorry it’s taken me a few weeks to write, I kinda felt as though I didn’t have much to say so I didn’t, I have missed it though I won’t say I didn’t, i’m always on here believe it or not haha……

That’s all I have for now, but I will post something again soon, maybe not this week or maybe, who know, I might surprise you and post something one of these days or during the weekend, i’ll go based on if I feel I want to say something or how i’m feeling, right now it’s just how things are going,

But you guys enjoy the rest of your day or night depending on what time of day it is where you are and i’ll write to you guys again soon.

P.S. Since we’re coming to the closing days of Summer I thought i’d share something I made a while ago, I was meant to post it, but never did…..

All The Love ❤ < 3

~Lexa~

The Road To Responsibility….

When you’re a kid you don’t really have that many responsibilities, but each time we get older we tend to learn a new one and then it just starts to form as something we don’t need to memorize because we’ve done it so much and once we become a full on adult, that’s when the responsibility really come around, we tend to handle more and more, our stress levels fly through the roof majority of the time and then we learn struggle………

You wonder if you’re able to handle it all, because when we’re younger we think that everything is easy, we don’t really have much care about anything, but then you come to that road where everything that you once knew or thought was simple and easy, ends up not being so simple and easy………you find that decisions become harder to make and that things become a whole lot much more tougher to get through.

We don’t see those kind of things when we’re younger, we don’t see the stress, struggle or all the other things people had to get through just to get to where they wanted to be……..to us as kids, we just see the results of it, not the hardships of it all. There’s so much more to it, there’s always a story behind it, everything has a story behind it, even if we’re not always exactly sure what that story is, there’s always one……..

When you come to a crossroad of responsibility and thinking things are always so simple and easy, which one would you go on choosing!? I’m going to guess the simple and easy road right!? That’s what we all want to say, but in a realistic world, it’s not always like that, we can try to avoid all the responsibility in the world, but we all know at some point, we’re going to have to take them on one way or another and it’s better to take them on once it’s in front of you then to keep leaving it for another time.

Leaving it for another time only delays it, it doesn’t make it go away, the more next times we give it, the more we’ll have to do and believe me when I say, you never want things to pile up, because you’ll just end up stressing more about it and you don’t want that.

Now I know why people plan things out sometimes, it’s because it helps them get things done better and helps them sort all they need to out, i’m not much of planner…….however, I do have a planner side to me though, we all have some kind of a planner side, even if we don’t use it much, when it comes to responsibility though, sometimes you need to use your planning side, otherwise how would we know where to start!?

There comes a moment where you have to step up to the responsibility of your life, even if you’re not sure how, you don’t have to do it alone, hopefully there’s some support there for you, but eventually we will have to walk down that path sooner or later, better sooner than later though……

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~

I Think I Got It…..

So i’ve been thinking about a lot of things and some are still being registered in my brain, but there are some things that i’m feeling good about and that i’m gonna give a try, i’m not even going to say that i’m thinking about giving it a try because then i’ll end up trying to talk myself out of it and we don’t need to always do that………..I have this idea on something that I have been tossing back and forth in my mind, trying to figure out whether I should give it a go or not, now one of the ideas within the idea I have i’m not sure about still, I think i’m going to see how I feel with it later.

As for the other option I have with the thing i’ve been thinking about for a bit, I think i’m gonna give it a shot, i’ve already tried it one way so I want to see how it could go when I try it a whole new different way. When it comes to the original way I had it, I don’t know if I still want to do it that way, like I said before if it gets the point where I feel like going back that route, then i’ll add it later, but for now i’m gonna try it differently and see what I prefer better.

I could combined it with this way, but I don’t know if I really want to do that, so that’s why I feeling like trying it a different way and if I happen to want to add that in, i’m sure I will………maybe who knows. I’m kinda excited about seeing how it goes this way, I thought about it once, but wasn’t sure with it, which for some reason that’s how I always tend to operate, but this time it has to be different, it’s either I want to try it or I don’t and I don’t want to have to keep contemplating things all the time so i’m just gonna go with it and see which one I prefer and give it a try, plus it’s something I feel I want again so i’m gonna do it and i’m gonna do my best to not stray away from it and let my fears or hesitations get in the way this time around.

The only thing is, I have a lot to catch up on and that’s gonna be something, unless I just make it simple and catch up with it in a way i’m not use to, it might save me some time and i’ll be on top of everything a little quicker……………we’ll see which one I go for.

If you guy have anything you want to share or thoughts on something, just comment them down below, i’d love to hear about it.

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~

Decisions……

Happy New Year Everyone!! I hope you’re all doing well and enjoying the day, as you all know we have now officially entered 2019 and with 2018 behind us, you’ll find yourself thinking on a lot of things, like for example whether you should have tea or coffee in the morning, probably should’ve had coffee, but I thought tea would be better even though i’m tired, but that’s alright, my point is, always go with the better decision.

Speaking about decisions, we all end up with a few on our belts, we come across something that catches our eye and we become interested in wanting to check it out and when we do finally check it out, we aren’t always quite sure whether we should give it go or not or you find yourself having to choose between two different things or more, but again you keep finding yourself up in the air with both decisions, so how do you decide exactly!? Well that can be a bit tricky for some who aren’t the greatest at making decisions, it can also feel like a task just to try and figure something out.

Let’s be real here, we don’t all have things figured out, some of us figure it out eventually and some of us still aren’t sure, but that’s okay that’s gonna happen, but when it comes to figuring things out, it’s all about how you figure them out, stressing and putting pressure on yourself, well that’s gonna make your decision making a lot harder to sort, giving yourself a hard time with anything that brings you frustration will only lead you to become more frustrated.

To prevent that from happening, the best thing to do is to try your best and make it simple for yourself and it doesn’t hurt to go a little easy on yourself as well. We all have that self critic in us and when it comes to things we aren’t liking or things that kinda give us a hard time, we don’t tend to realize how much we dial up that self critic version of ourselves, it’s not a bad thing to be hard on ourselves, because it’s gonna happen it just means we want ourselves to do better, but we should really pay attention to how we talk to ourselves because we may not think it is, but it’s super important.

Moving on from that though, decisions how do we decide on something when we aren’t sure on it!? Well I know that when we aren’t sure we tend to make rash decisions, sometimes we’ll wave things away without really giving it a try and sometimes we don’t really sit and think about the things that are in our minds and you really want to have a little balance of both. Thinking too much on something, is the worst thing you can do, because not only will it drive you nuts, but the more you find yourself thinking on things the more chance you’ll try and convince yourself not to give it a try.

As for the just trying something and not giving it much thought thing, that one is a balance in itself because there’s a chance you’ll end up enjoying it or you’ll end up saying that you probably should’ve though it through, so with this one it’ll just be a win, lose, win situation, why do I say that you might think!? Well at least with this, you can say you tried it, even if you end up not really feeling it as you’re trying it out, but again you’ll be able to say you gave it a go which is a good thing here. What i’m trying to say is when it comes to decisions: Try and make it simple for yourself, go a little easy on yourself as well and have a little balance with thinking it over, but don’t do too much thinking on it and just give a try and see what it’s like.

How do you guys handle decision making, do you find it easy or a little harder to master!? Feel free to share your thoughts down in the comments, also let me know how your days going, i’d love to hear about it!!

All the love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~