Let’s Talk: The Holidays

Merry Christmas everyone and for those who don’t celebrate Christmas, happy holidays!! I hope you all had a nice and chilled out day and or overall good day and I hope you were able to enjoy yourself, I didn’t really do too much for Christmas, I saw some of my cousins later in the evening for a bit,

Originally we were meant to just drop something off, but we ended up spending some time with them, which was nice, I don’t normally see them all that much so it was different, but pretty nice too, although it didn’t really feel like a holiday, it just felt like a regular old day, except everyone was saying Merry Christmas and you had to go “oh yeah, Merry Christmas”

It’s weird, but it was alright, had a tea party with my little cousin a few times, yes you read that right, a few times, she told me to put it away and then wanted me to take them out again so that was something, I was trying to get her to play something else, she had a lot nice toys, I asked her if she wanted to play with them and she said no, so we continued to play tea party, we almost made some bracelets until we had to go, but it was fun!!

She also got mad at me for something, not sure about what exactly, but that happened, after a while though it was fine, I tell you kids are weird and very confusing sometimes, but you gotta love them right!?

After that, not much else happened really, today just felt like a regular day, nothing too fancy, just yeah, a Wednesday that was also a holiday, it wasn’t all bad though, not at all bad……now all that’s left to do is get ready for the New Year…..how do I feel you might ask!? I couldn’t tell you, i’m just going to try and make the most of these few days where 2019 is still a thing…….

Okay well that’s everything I have I guess, I could write more, but i’m not sure where else I should go with this post, so i’m just going to leave it here and just do my best to not worry or freak out about everything i’m trying not to freak out about, don’t ask okay, my brains doing gymnastics and i’m trying very hard not to get anxious…….

With that, I hope you all enjoy the rest of your night and or day depending on where you are and I hope you’re all enjoying your holidays, also let me know how you spent your Christmas or holidays, i’d love to hear about it!!

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

I Think I Unknowingly Signed Up For Blogmas!?….

This is a real title you’re reading here, i’m not just writing this just because, so far as i’ve written a post everyday since the start of December and I didn’t even pay it any mind, it wasn’t until I really looked at all my posts today that I realized I think I might’ve signed up for blogmas unknowingly.

It’s no wonder I was so eager to post my last post before midnight last night, literally, I could’ve posted my post a little earlier, but I wanted to have a cover photo for it and I wanted to be one of my doodles, it took a while to get it from emails, had to send it over from my phone to my computer, so yeah that’s why it was posted a little later during the night.

Since we’re now on the topic of blogmas, this is actually my first time really trying one of these, although i’m not really sure if i’m officially apart of it, considering I haven’t quite added blogmas to my posts to show i’ve joined it, i’ve kinda just been writing posts everyday this month so far, again I didn’t really think about it until today really……in a way though, maybe that’s a good thing, i’ve heard how stressful blogmas can be at times…….

Having to find a topic to write about everyday for a whole month, I know sometimes some people don’t always get a chance to finish it all the way, not because they don’t want to, but because of how much work it is, you wouldn’t think it’d be so overwhelming, but it can be if it’s not balanced right, that goes with blogging in general i’m sure as well as everything else.

You know to be honest though, i’m not really sure on the whole concept of blogmas and if there’s a certain way to participate, I just always took it as you have to try and blog everyday up until Christmas I believe something like that, i’m not really sure, again I haven’t actually officially joined really, it just feels like I have because i’ve been writing a post everyday since the start of this month, willingly, I haven’t forced myself, i’m kinda just going on the randomness of it, it’s probably why it’s working because i’m not thinking too hard about it and not stressing, not that much anyway.

However i’m feeling as though I have a deadline with this post, for some reason I don’t want to miss a day so i’m trying to see how long I actually last with this, with blogmas you kinda have to plan out your posts, I don’t do that, planning as you all know just isn’t my thing, so that’s why i’m going with whatever floats out of me when it comes to posting, although…….

There is one post that i’m planning to write, it was suppose to be written today, but i’m going to either leave it for tomorrow or Friday, I thinking end of the week fits it better, if you don’t see the post i’m talking about tomorrow then expect it Friday, i’ll make sure to tell you “this is the post I was talking about guys” so you guys know, but anyway here’s to hoping I can keep up with Blogmas now, this should be interesting……..

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Friday…..

Update: I wrote this post 2 days ago as you can probably tell, but I wanted to keep it how I originally wrote it, so here are my thoughts and feelings from Friday.

I just realized that we have 3 more days left until this year switches from being 2018 to 2019……….i’d say that’s insane, but is it really!? Based off my expression that you’re unable to see, yeah it’s insane!!! This year really went by like nothing, I can’t believe this is the last Friday of the year and that December is close to being over………i’ll be honest with you I might be freaking out to myself a bit, i’m trying to stay calm about it though, i’m not exactly sure why i’m freaking out though, I really shouldn’t be, but I am.

I guess if I have to do some reflection on this year I might as well do it now, this year has brought some good and also some bad moments that I wasn’t expecting……….i’ve gone through a whole lot of emotions more this year than any other year before, I made a few mistakes, i’ve thought a lot and when I say a lot I mean A LOT……………i’ve been thinking about my future more than ever this year and what I would like for it to be like, you’d think i’d know, but i’m still not exactly sure, there are things that I want to stay in my life and there are things that I know i’m needing to desperately change.

Am I frightened about this upcoming year!?…………Yeah, I am………I don’t know what to expect and what’s gonna come from it and that’s kinda what scares me the most, it shouldn’t, but it does……….i’m hoping to really have a lot of courage and surprises coming from myself this year…………i’ve been holding on to my comfort zone for so many years now, i’m not really sure how to let go of it……..it’s very scary for me, because it’s all i’ve ever known, but I know that if I want to live a better and happier life, me keeping myself to myself and in my room 24/7 that’s not gonna make me happy, that’s just gonna keep me more closed in myself and I can’t keep doing that, it’s not healthy and I know that even though i’m really scared, I have to move on.

I have to stop being afraid and I have to let myself embrace things that i’m unsure about, if I continue to let fear keep me from moving forward, i’ll never be happy and I want to be happy and if being scared, but trying my best to move forward and not stop myself like i’ve been doing is the only way that’s gonna happen then I have to let myself be scared………and that’s something i’ve always tried to avoid, but I can’t keep avoiding it, I have to learn to face it and even if I hesitate, I can’t let those hesitations stop me unless I feel it’s really really important………..I don’t know what 2019 is going to bring and what it’s gonna be like, but i’m really really hoping that I can make this year a surprising one for myself and not let my fears interfere.

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~

Chatting Sessions: Let’s Talk The Holidays & What’s On Your Christmas List!?

So as we all know, we’re in our last month of the year 2018, most of the big holidays have come and went and one of the last big holiday’s of the year is coming around the corner in a couple of weeks, 2 weeks to be exact I believe. We are close to entering the season of Winter (although it already feels like it’s Winter) Winter officially arrives next week, so for those who aren’t a big fan of the cold or maybe you are because you’re weird (ha kidding, we all have favorite seasons) be sure to get your Winter gear ready, if you haven’t already done so, because from the feels of it, it’s gonna be quite the season. So keep warm and keep your teas, coffee and or hot chocolates ready for stand by, just so you have something to reach for when you need a little warming up……..but anyway let’s move on and talk about everybody’s favorite holiday (well those who celebrate it) let’s talk about Christmas!!

Okay we all know Christmas is around the corner as I stated earlier and we also know that the holiday is celebrated intensively and brings excitement to people in a lot of different ways. Once we arrive into the cheerful and cold month, we all like to welcome it with open arms while bringing on the decorations, the festive music and of course most peoples favorites, Christmas gifts……….you know when you really think about, have you ever noticed that Christmas is the only holiday that really gets a lot of attention!? I mean think about it, no one gets all hyped up over Easter, Halloween (except for those who really love the holiday) and let’s not even talk about Thanksgiving, people practically almost, always skips over this holiday and the only time we remember it, is when it’s like a week or hey even a few days away.

We literally treat Thanksgiving as if it’s the ugly duckling of all holidays, the only difference is in the ugly duckling story, they learn to appreciate the duck and learn to love it the way it is……….we don’t really appreciate this holiday, which is kinda sad……..because it’s like we know it exist, but we just don’t really care much about it, take Halloween for example: it’s like the 3rd best holiday in my opinion, it comes around we get all excited (well I don’t, I don’t really like Halloween, sorry not sorry) 

We treat Halloween better then we treat Thanksgiving, once the scary holiday is over, we start bringing out the Christmas decorations, we put on the music and prepare for the gift, all before Thanksgiving even arrives………..it’s like walking into a place and you see everyone having a good time and then you show up excited to join, you say something to everyone, they turn around, give you a look and then go back to what they were doing and you’re just standing there awkwardly, with a not hurt smile and that’s what I like to imagine Thanksgiving feeling like every year. 

Moving on though, I know I went off track there, back to Christmas………so like I said we prepare for this holiday a lot earlier before it arrives and I get it, it’s one of those holidays that everyone looks forward to because there’s something about it that just makes you feel good, maybe it’s the Christmas music (totally the Christmas music) it could be the decorations (I mean who doesn’t love decorating, right!?) oooor it’s probably the gifts people look forward to (I don’t have anything for this one) whatever it is (could be the whole holiday) we know we really embrace the holiday season. Now when it come to December, we all get that question, that question that we can’t avoid even if we tried, you know the one………and if you don’t, it goes like this: “So…….what do you want for Christmas!?” yeah that one. 

I’m not saying everyone hates that question, i’m sure there’s a lot of people who once that question is asked, they’re already writing it down on a piece of paper or even before it’s asked their handing you an envelope of all the things that have caught their eye and I know what you’re probably thinking “Why would they have an envelope!?” you don’t know, maybe they’re secret agents of some sort or they just really love the holiday ha, no, but in all seriousness, sometimes that question isn’t easy to answer. I mean when we’re kids, we want everything that is displayed around us and don’t say that’s not true, because you know it is, it’s very true, kids love stuff.

However the older we get, we tend to have trouble really telling those around us what we want for Christmas when the question is asked to us…………i’ve been asked 3 times and more of course, what it is that I want for Christmas, since the beginning of November and when December arrived and the only answer i’m able to give is………”I don’t know.” Every time, well I should say every Christmas i’m asked that question, I never actually know what it is that I want and a lot of people will have a list of things that they saw and was like “I want that” me on the other hand, I don’t write down list of things I want, surprising right!? I write everything else down, just not that.

I don’t know, I always feel the older you get, the things that were once a huge thing, aren’t that huge as much and when it comes to the holidays, at least for me, it just isn’t the same, everyone does their own thing and no one likes spending time together, when it comes to the holidays, you would think that’s what it’s about and then you realize……it’s not, but i’m not trying to bring down anyone’s holiday spirit, you keep those spirits up as high as you can, because you deserve to be excited for it. 

I’m just expressing my thoughts on how it is from my side, but I know that everyone’s different, but anyway back to the whole What’s On Your Christmas List!? topic, I don’t have a lot of things on my Christmas list, whether that’s a mental list or an actual list……….I don’t know, maybe when it comes to me, there isn’t much physical things that I want, if that makes sense!? I mean when you’re younger again you want everything, that’s all because we’re kids and that’s how kids are, they want all the toys and things that interest them, but I haven’t been that way for a long while and maybe that’s just me, who knows………….but anyway, to bring the spirit back up on this post, you know how I talked when people ask you what you want for Christmas and sometimes it’s hard to answer!?

Yeah well, try reverting the question back to the person asking you what you want for Christmas, 9/10, 8/10, depending on the person, their not always gonna know either. If you’re lucky they’ll tell you what it is they want or they’ll either say the same thing saying they’re not sure, they’ll tell you they don’t want anything or you have those kind of people who won’t tell you what they want and when you bring it up, they pretend or act like you didn’t ask the question……….anyone else know these kind of people!? Let me know, I can’t be the only one here.

Overall, no matter how you see the holidays, it’s important to make the most of it and appreciate the things around you as well, as the people you spend your days with and enjoy it as much as you can too, because not everyone is able to celebrate these kind of holidays and if they do celebrate it, they don’t always have people to celebrate it with. You don’t need a lot to have a good holiday, the holidays are meant to be enjoyed and spent with people who mean a lot to you, whether you’re spending it with family, friends or whoever you want to spend it with, as long as you’re having a good time and you have good people around you then that’s all that matters. 

I hope with this post I don’t seem like the Grinch or anything, I know everyone’s different and i’m not saying that you can’t enjoy gifts, because who am I to say that!? The holidays can mean a lot of different things to people and if gifts are something that get you in the holiday spirit, then be happy, jump around and do a dance, no ones stopping you, but I just wanted to share my thoughts on it.

Even though I don’t know what I want for Christmas and I don’t know what to get other people for Christmas, let me know in the comments below what’s on your Christmas list, what the holidays mean to you and let me know how you get in the holiday spirit, i’d love to hear about it!! ^_^ 

All The Love ❤ ❤ 

~Lexa~

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Monday Randoms: Welcoming December With Some Random Thoughts Added

Although I know it’s 3 days late into the month, I just want to say welcome December, I hope that you’re doing well. You’re the last month until the new year rolls around……it’s crazy how quickly the year went, the last thing I remember is being lost and stuck in the summer months and now we’re here, December 3rd, beginning of a new month as well as the ending of an old year. I know we still have a few days to go until Christmas arrives and the year goes from 2018 to 2019…….it’s a little scary knowing how close we actually are, will 2019 be a different year, will it be a better one!? I don’t know, all you can do is hope that it will be and do your best to make sure that it is. 

However, we shouldn’t stress ourselves out wondering what’s to come for the new year, we should just always do our best to appreciate and admire the days as they come, doing that won’t leave you to feel overwhelmed about every little thing, you can just enjoy and also flow with it if you want. You know when you really let yourself take in all the days that come, it brings you into a whole different mode and gives you this feeling of wanting to look at everything deeply, it makes you wonder on a lot of different things and by that I mean like if you were to look at a tree or at the clouds, you know……..makes you wonder how exactly they were made, before we even became apart of this world.

The other day, well a few days ago I was in the car with my mom and I was wondering how people we’re able to create the highways and all that, I mean the world wasn’t always highways, roads, houses ect……..it was all nature and everything, it’s crazy when you really think about stuff like that. You also have the way we are, there’s a lot of different theories on where exactly we came from, there’s just a whole lot of wonder and questions that we don’t entirely know the answers to, we know a certain amount, but we’ll always have that wonder inside of us in wanting to know a definite answer on everything.

If you really think about it, having that mystery of not knowing everything exactly, I mean it’s both scary and exciting in a sense. I mean why should we know everything, that’s why when we’re born, we’re born curious…….to us everything is like a huge giant puzzle, only we don’t ever solve it completely. Normally we can finish a puzzle on our own, but in this case it’s impossible, because even when we think we’ve figured it out, we’ll always have pieces missing and that’s okay, we don’t have to solve every puzzle, we’ll always find certain pieces to fill it, but we won’t entirely figure it out and we don’t need to always figure it out, sometimes it’s just about the feeling of it and by it, I mean………..well everything, everything is just a big huge ball of wonder.

Hey that just reminded me of the Wonderball commercial, if you guys don’t know what a Wonderball is, well it just a chocolate ball with candy inside, it was one of mine and my brother’s favorite candy growing up, they brought it back, but it’s not quite the same as it was before.

This sure went off track, didn’t it haha……don’t ask, I just had a lot of random thoughts floating around and felt like writing them down, I just didn’t think it’d be all of this. It was meant to be about the month December, but it kinda took a different turn after a bit, hey it happens. Feel free to share some of your random thoughts down in the comments below if you have you any and also if December was a person, what kind of stuff would you say to it!?

All The Love ❤ ❤ 

~Lexa~  

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