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It’s A New Dawn, New Day, New Month! Well…..Almost…..

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Anyone else feeling exhausted!? This month is nearly over and I can’t tell you how tired I am, I’ve not been able to really sleep properly for the past few days, I just started getting a little bit of sleep, not fully, but somewhat! I don’t know if it’s just me that’s been feeling that way though….all I know is I’m ready for a nice chill break! Last week….let’s not talk about it actually….weekend kind of similar, but it was fine! We’ve arrived half way through this week with it being Wednesday and we’re on the last few days of October with Halloween being this Sunday talk about crazy yeah!?

We’re coming to November next week, hard to believe, but it’s true! I want to say that I’m looking forward to the arrival of November, I mean I am, but I’m also just very nervous about it….I have this trip planned for next week and I just don’t know how to feel about it, really….I want to be excited about it, but I don’t know if I should approach it with caution or if I should just embrace it regardless to how I’ve been feeling lately!? November is usually one of my favorite months during the fall season, it’s the first time I’m not sure how to feel about it…..although I don’t think I’ve ever really thought about it before either to be honest!?

I never really understood why that is!? Why it’s one my favorites is what I mean….I’ve just always been drawn to it, like if I had to pick a new month to switch my birthday on, it would be November! Now I’m not saying I don’t like May….I’m glad that I was born during the Spring time, May is actually one of my favorite months and no it has nothing to do with that fact that I was born during that month, I just always liked May, plus I always felt it made for a nice name!

I’m just saying there’s just something about November that I’ve always liked, I guess cause it’s one of the Autumn months and Autumn is my second favorite season, Spring being my main favorite, again nothing to do with my birthday! There’s so much to this season….fall is the season of change, sometimes good and sometimes not always…..but still we have no choice, but to just allow it even when we may not want to allow it….I mean you can’t change a season, the only way the weather can change is if it changes itself! Sounds similar to how us humans change huh!? Some times it comes naturally while other days it may be a little forced!

One thing I’ve learned though is how important change is, we all know change is inevitable, there are things that happen that we may not want to happen and it can leave us confused, as well as unsure about a lot of things! One minute things are good and one minute you feel it shift and you don’t know how to feel about it when that does happen, what I’m saying is Change is frustrating ha! I used to strongly dislike change, but later down the line, I started to be okay with it, because I knew that it was needed in order to grow and be who you felt yourself transforming into, sometimes it hard though and you don’t always know the ways you’re changing, you just know that things are different with it!

You feel different, the way you used to see things are different and you tend to notice that what once was….is no longer the same, at least what it used to be anyway and not a lot of people like that, nor can they handle it…..but as much as you may want it to be, not everything is going to be in our control! You have to let people do what they feel they need to do, you have to allow them to grow and figure out what it is they want for themselves, not what you want it to be! Not a lot of people get that though….but it’s very important that we do get that and understand it as well….

It may leave us not feeling the greatest, but when you deeply care and love someone, all you truly want is just for them to be happy and so it takes a lot of courage and maturity to say “Hey if this is what you want, I support you” You always want people to be the best they can be for themselves even if they stumble a bit, it all comes down to just letting them know that you’re always going to be there, no matter what their choices are or the mistakes they make along the way, that regardless you’re going to love them anyway! We’re always so quick to assume or judge and although it’s not how we may want it to go, it’s how life is in reality and that’s coming from someone that continues to learn that….but that has nothing to do with November, it’s just what I’ve been feeling this season to, well feel like!

I have hopes for November though and faith, I need something to hold on to and those two things have always been with me since I was old enough to remember, I’m just hoping for something good to come from and I’m hoping that thing to be what I truly believe in and have always believed in….

I took this one when I went Pumpkin picking….

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Wake Me Up When Sept….Oh We’re Here!?

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Good Morning Everybody! Hope that you all are having a good Thursday so far!? It seems we’ve arrived toward the end of September and yes I checked there is no September 31st…..it always leaves my mind that not every month as a 31st to it…..except for February, I know that month has no 30th, 31st, it barely even has a 29th unless it’s a leap year, still I do forget that not every month (not including February) just doesn’t have a 31st, anyway moving on…..

I’m a little surprised that we’re already finish with this month and that October has very much arrived, we’re did September go!? I don’t know, but hey we knew it wouldn’t be long until it headed off from it’s time being here! If you or I were to ask….how do you think September went!? It’s a bit of a hard call to say exactly, September had a lot of interesting moments to it, as for the other parts of September…..I honestly wouldn’t be able to tell you, the only thing I’d be able to say is I know that there were a lot of special and important events within this month, but September pretty much flew by!

I wouldn’t say that September was a bad month, because it wasn’t…..just like with each month it’s had it’s moments, but it was okay, it wasn’t too bad of a month, at least I don’t think it was, I’m sure it’s probably different for a lot of you, maybe it was a great month for you or maybe September wasn’t your favorite month to explore, I understand that it’s different for everyone and that’s okay! I just hope that however this month went for everyone that you got something good out of it as well, even if it was the best month or not so great! I hope that you discovered something new and exciting, hopefully you learned something interesting that you may not have known before…..I just hope that you did okay!

One thing I will say with the start of the month is how hot it was getting into September, I would always question if it were still Summer and why were even in September, you would’ve thought the moment it got to September 1st that it was going to feel like the month we were in…..not at all….it took for us to get to the middle and end of the month for it to start getting very chilly, you know how it should’ve went, but hey at least you feel it now so that’s good, it’s not as hot as before and now we can really start getting out our sweaters, cardigans, boots all the good fall attire we own!

Any reflections with September I have, I might just do a podcast episode on, but it’s probably going to be a short one, overall September leaves me wondering just how this month went and it’s the only month so far that has me feeling like I need to think on it for a second or more than a second, but I’m going to try my hand at reflecting with it! Get ready everyone as we get into a whole new month that is October, it’s the month that everyone likes to call the Spooky month as they’re bring out all their Halloween decorations and just enjoying themselves and if there’s some that don’t like to decorate for October, they’re still enjoying the Spoopy holiday, by watching 31 Nights Of Halloween on Freeform!

(F.K.A. The ABC Family Network, yes that’s what Freeform was called before, I haven’t forgotten those days)

One last thing I want to say with September…..Thank you, for all that you have brought with you and shared, thank you for the bad moments and good moments, I hope that you have a nice safe journey wherever you are headed, see you next year September…..as for October, we’ll see you tomorrow!

Update:

I was going to try and see if I could write another post before we officially get into October, but nothing is coming to mind sooo I shall add this now…..here’s my latest podcast episode if you would like to check it out!

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Happy First Day Of Autumn!!

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If you haven’t already noticed, We have said farewell to Summer and have welcomed the Autumn season, So far it’s been what you would expect the fall weather to be like, it wasn’t too hot today, I saw a few leaves falling earlier and the air has come down in temperature a bit which is good, the past few days, well weeks shall I say, has been pretty darn hot, so now that we’ve entered the fall season, at least we can say the air will become a lot more cooler!

We might still get a bit of hot weather, even though it’s officially fall now, but I say give it another week or two and you’ll see just how cool the air starts to get, then again I can be wrong and we’ll be feeling heat for a bit longer mixed in with cool weather as well, which of course we all love *Sarcastically speaking* in all seriousness though, I love the fall season, I’ve probably mentioned that so many times on here before, I don’t know what it is exactly, but there’s just something about this season that gets me so happy!

I just love the feel of it, I enjoy seeing the way the leaves on the trees change from green to red’s, yellows, orange and browns! My favorite is when they dry up, this may sound a bit weird, but I love making little bouquets with the leaves, I have a big square vase with a lot of dried up leaves in it that I’ve collected and sorted together, it’s like having a vase full of flowers, but with leaves instead, I love it!

Another thing I love about Autumn is being able to wear fall clothing, like sweaters, cardigans and boots, I don’t know why, but fall clothing has got to be one of my favorite attires to wear, I love wearing short sleeves in the Spring which is my other favorite season, but there’s just something about being in a sweater and wearing a cardigan that just feels right…..I guess it’s because they give you that cozy feeling and who doesn’t love that!?

I wish I could say more about the fall season, but I guess we can just keep it short for today, plus I feel like today is not a day for a long post anyway, I’ve been trying to write all day and I did write something, but for some reason I’ve been having trouble explaining what it is I was trying to write so it’s not really finish, I’ll try and see if I can explain it better within a few days, it might end up being a podcast episode instead of a post who knows, it’s just been a very productive non productive day and very interesting as well!

Hope you all have been having a good Wednesday and enjoyed the beginning of Autumn, although short and sweet is nice, sorry if this one was a little too short!

P.S.

Seeing that I forgot to post this, here’s my latest podcast episode:

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Everything Changes Eventually (Nov 23, 2018)

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Evening Pages (Nov 23, 2018): If it wasn’t so cold outside i’d be writing this in the backyard, instead i’m writing this in my room with the window open a bit, listening to everything that’s going on outside. I did go outside though, only for a bit of course, I walked around a bit in the backyard, holding my journal and pencil close to me……as I was back there, I couldn’t help, but look at everything, I looked at the grass, the trees, I looked at the birds that flew by, just everything. As I looked around, I thought about how everything eventually changes, the seasons are a clear example of that, we all know Winter doesn’t stay long, same goes for Autumn, Spring and Summer, eventually those seasons come to pass after they’ve welcome their stay. The seasons know they can’t stay for long, which is why when their time comes to move on, they don’t, well sometimes they tend to stay longer then they should and sometimes they’ll even switch in between each other, just so they don’t have to leave so soon, at least that’s how I like to see it. (End of Journal Entry) 

This was a small entry from my writing journal, that I wrote yesterday……there was more to it, but I just wanted to write that part here and see if I could explain something different on this post. I talked about observing things in my last post and it seems as though I find myself doing that a lot, as well as reflecting on everything. While I was outside in my backyard, I was thinking on how I remember being back there and it being summer and the way I was during that time, I was a complete mess those days………i’d go back and although I wouldn’t dare admit this on any other day, I would go back there to mainly reflect and think, but whenever I’d do that, I would find myself crying a lot of the time back there too……..it wasn’t because I wanted to, but anytime I felt I needed to let my emotions out, that’s where i’d go, not a lot of people know that, so for those reading this you guys are the first to know.

I was really stressed out most of the summer and still kinda stress now, although I try and keep myself calm when I feel myself stressing nowadays, it’s not always easy though. You might want to know the reasons why I was or why I would cry to myself a lot of the time, if I sat here and told you why we’d be here all day, because there was a lot of reasons to it, one of the main reasons though was, well I was stressed for one and also because I would constantly worry about everything, whether I was doing okay, how everything was gonna go…….everything, I still worry about those things now, but I try my best to minimize how much I worry. In those days though, I think the best thing to come from all of that, was that I had my blog and my journals to write in when I needed something and although it took me a while, writing everything out I was feeling in the best way that I could, really helped.

It’s crazy how everything can just go from one thing and then be something completely different the next time you encounter it………It’s like when you really look at things from a different perspective and everything, you tend to find out different things then what you already know and in those things that you know, you find that it doesn’t matter what you do, some things are bound to change and no amount of trying to fix it is gonna work………but even then, it’s all about trying your best and doing your best to keep going, no matter the pain, stress, worry, uncertainty, all of it…….you just gotta keep going, even on those days where you aren’t sure whether you want to or not, just keep going. No matter what kind of changes take place, just try and go with it as best as you can, even if they aren’t the ideal changes that you wanted………..eventually things change and it’s just something we have to accept.   

My quote of the day:  You know I always loved Autumn, there’s just somethings about it, maybe it’s all the colorful leaves that lay on the ground or it could be the way the trees go from being brightly orange with a mix of red and yellow leaves attached………to nothing at all. It’s also the feel of it too.

All The Love ❤ ❤ 

~Lexa~

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Mood: I’m Feeling Both Calm & Happy Today (Nov 12, 2018)

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How’s your day going everyone I hope you’re all doing well, right now it’s around 1pm close to 1:30pm where i’m at and I don’t really know why, but today i’m feeling really good, i’m happy which………yeah, I don’t know i’m just very happy right now, which is good. I’ve been smiling to myself for a long while now which doesn’t happen very often but i’m gonna take it and just really enjoy this because……..yeah it’s been a while, I was just posting both blog post from yesterday on my social media and when I went to post my 4 months of me blogging post it was like……….I don’t know I still can’t believe that it’s been 4 months since I started this blog, now I know that doesn’t seem like a very long time, but at the same time it feels like it’s been a very long time.

To me it feels like i’ve been blogging for longer than that, even though I just recently started not too long ago which is weird, but looking back on it………I don’t know it’s crazy like wow…….to think I came here thinking that I was just gonna use this to express my emotions, but then after a while of doing this, I was able to add some fun stuff to it, or at least what I think is pretty fun and interesting, ummm but yeah……..i’m just really happy today I don’t really have much that I want to say, i’m just feeling happy and good.

You know, it’s crazy, because when I was trying to figure out what to write, normally I sit and ponder for a very long time and get a little frustrated because i’m trying to come up with something, however today was different, I mean although I still wasn’t sure what it was that I wanted to write……I didn’t stress out about it, which i’m glad, because I don’t like stressing even though it can happen more often then I’d like, but that’s not gonna happen today, today i’m gonna take in and really enjoy this feeling of feeling good, does that make sense I hope so haha, but yeah, I feel good and that’s all I can really say at the moment.

I hope that you guys are doing well and you’re having a good day, if not I hope that you find something to brighten up your mood to where you feel better, if it’s tough today, just do your best to keep going and know that whatever it is that is bothering you, stressing you out or is just too much, it’ll get better and everything is gonna be alright, no worries.

 

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~

 

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Autumn Leaves (Inspired By An Ed Sheeran Song)

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Hey everyone I know it’s been a while, I hope you’re all doing well, today’s blog post maybe very short or a little long i’m not sure, i’ll try my best to make sure it isn’t too long, since we’re in the month of October I wanted to talk upon the season of Autumn also known as Fall since we’re now in it, we all know that Autumn is the season of change and just like the seasons change so do us humans, we all grow up to be a certain way, but we all know that we aren’t always gonna be the same as we once were.

No matter how hard we try to, there’s always gonna be some part of us that breaks away from certain things, the same way leaves break and fall off a tree when it’s the ending of Summer and the beginning of Fall, I guess what i’m saying is we’re like a tree kinda, we start off as a seed planted in soil and as we grow we start to gain a little personality, we start to become interested in things and each interest that we take upon, become our leaves, if that makes sense.

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Now the leaves that we start with, aren’t going to be the leaves we always keep with us because as we know leaves don’t stay on a tree for long, eventually they fall off one by one, as those leaves fall off and float down to the ground we can’t really stick them back onto our branches because once they fall off they fall off, with leaves we can have so many, but eventually those leaves will fall off, whether we want them to or not. Sometimes we don’t even realize that some of our leaves have fallen off, it just happens so quickly to where we don’t even have time to react to it.

When we do realize one of our leaves have fallen off though, we take it in, especially if it was something super important to us at the time. Now leaves don’t have to only be about our hobbies or things we’re interested in, sometimes leaves can be friends that we keep or family members even and sometimes we have to realize that those things too can fall off, some mutually, some expectedly, we’ll even have those leaves that just aren’t good for us anymore so we as the tree will shake them off and sometimes they’ll just fall off on their own, because maybe it’s just meant to be that way.

Leaves fall off trees for a reason and they grow new ones every spring for a reason and that’s because they’re meant to fall off, so they can make room for new and improved ones. So when our leaves fall off it’s only because we’re growing and trying to improve ourselves, now with that happening it’s not always gonna be easy, although I just compared us to trees and everything, we’re not trees, we’re humans and us as humans, we’re gonna have a few leaves fall off us and it may hurt when that happens, you may feel bad about it happening, you’ll have times where you won’t even know that it happened, it’ll just dawn on you when you least expect it…….

but when that happens, when you find that a few of your leaves have fallen off, know that it’s okay to reflect on it if you need to, you might not quite understand it, because not everything has a clear understanding, but sometimes it’s not having that clear understanding to where you oddly understand it.

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Just because old leaves break off, it doesn’t mean that new leaves won’t grow. Sometimes we sit and wonder why certain things happen, why we fall out with certain people and when those kind of things come into our mind, we really go through them and maybe we shouldn’t do that so much, once in a while yeah sure, maybe you need a clear understanding, but when it comes to other things that we can’t seem to wrap our heads around, maybe that’s because there’s nothing to wrap our heads around.

Sometimes it just happens and we don’t always know why, but we shouldn’t dwell on it, sometimes it’s just best to accept it and move on, it doesn’t mean you can’t feel a certain way about it, but once you accept the fact that, that leaf fell off, just think to yourself that maybe that was for a reason, whatever reason that may be.

It may take time to accept it depending on how much of an impact a situation, a relationship or even just something you once took an interest in was to you, but eventually you’ll come to terms that maybe it was for the best, when that happens don’t you feel bad about it, because you held on to those leaves for as long as you could, but now we have to make room for new and better things for us and we should always want better things for ourselves.

 

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~

 

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