How’s everyone doing, I hope you all had a good weekend and found a way to enjoy yourself in someway, I know everything’s a little crazy right now and we’re having to find ways to not only be preoccupied, but also productive as well, for some it might be a little hard and for others it’s not a problem, it can be a little challenging when finding ways to be productive especially when you know you’re not much of a productive planner type,
but sometimes that can be a good thing, because you’re now having to learn how to plan things out productively, but at the same time, if you’re not use to doing that it can be a little hard, because you may not know where to start even and it might leave you feeling frustrated, anxious or stressed out because of it…..but instead of getting ourselves all worked up about how we can be productive, we should calmly take a breath and try to reframe from stressing because that’s not really going to help us be productive,
well I mean not in the best way anyway…….sometimes it helps to use our creativity to come up with ideas, I mean to be fair our best ideas come to us when we’re not even thinking about them, most of them show up out of nowhere actually!! I think if we’re thinking too hard on it,
That’s where our mind goes blank, sometimes you just have to let the mind wander and see what it comes up with, you might get something good and you might get something that’s not that great, but at least you’d be able to add it to a list or something, I think when it comes to being productive,
It’s not about figure out ideas, but allowing our creativity to express itself in order for us to get those ideas!! You know come to think of it, maybe that’s what planning is too!? Who says planning has to be a serious matter, I mean sometimes it is, but other times we could also get a little creative with it,
It doesn’t always have to look like a blank list, guess that’s why people have those bullet journals and decorate it how they see fit, they’re always so interesting and it’s nice to see what kind of personality they bring to those journals…..but i’m getting off track here, productivity and planning can be creative too, if we just allow it to do so, if that makes any sense……
Even if we come up with just one idea, at least you know it’s getting there and even if it doesn’t sound like the greatest idea, giving it a go anyway may just surprise you, if we just allow ourselves to have a little fun with it, the ideas tend to find themselves and everything else circles in.
Hi again, alright we’re doing this no if’s and’s or what’s about it……self promoting……first I just want to say WHY IS IT SO WEIRD!! I never understand why doing this is super odd, as I stated before in my last post if there’s something that you have that you want to share, why not just share it, why does it have to feel so weird, sharing things we feel good about!?
It’s funny i’m just remembering that I did attempt to write about this topic a long time ago, but you guys never saw it, because I didn’t share it…..ironic yeah!? You’d think that because we all have some sort of social media that it wouldn’t be a huge thing, but for some reason it is to some, including myself, why I have no idea, it should it be a big thing!? No, it is!? Sometimes……I mean at one point, I was always nervous to share on it, but later it just became a natural thing and it wasn’t as “yokes” you know!?
Now I have some sort of social media, I mean again everyone uses some sort of social media platform right!? So why is that we get that feeling of it being so odd and weird to promote things that we feel good about, when we’re all in a way, use to sharing things online!? It’s a mind boggling thing, I tell you, it really is weird!?…. I mean if there’s something you feel strongly about, we shouldn’t feel that, but I think no matter how use to it we are or maybe, there’s always going to be some kind of white line to where promoting something we’ve created because we felt like sharing in the moment, will always be the one thing that trips us up to feeling like that.
Now although, self promoting can feel and become a little intimidating because we’re sharing and expressing things we care about, that shouldn’t keep us from still wanting to share, even if people don’t look at it right away and even if we do still feel and get weird about it, that’s okay, everyone gets nervous and it’s not always easy to put ourselves out there especially when creating, but as long as we don’t allow or let the discouragement get to us, who cares if it feels weird, if we need to get the nerves out, why not!?
Hey if it helps maybe we should laugh at ourselves so it doesn’t seem so bad, I think the main thing is, no matter how weird or odd it can be to share the things we want to share, as long as we continue to share regardless to how it feels, then it’ll be alright and it’s okay if we end up being weirdos about it.
Okay so this going to sound pretty confusing to guys, at least for a moment, my brain is filled with a bit of pressure and i’m feeling a little nervous….alright a lot nervous, there’s been something that i’ve been at that I just started really trying at, i’ve been back and forth with it in my head at first for a good while and it wasn’t until yesterday where I stopped thinking about it let’s just say…….at this moment though, i’m a bit nervous to the point where i’m kinda sitting with it for a bit, really thinking about it……
It’s only until I feel alright to say “it’s time” I know trying to delay something isn’t probably the best choice to go with, but sometimes you need a moment to really take something in before you go again, you know!?…….I probably should just start going again, instead of trying to purposely stall, stalling doesn’t really work all that well, unless you’re having to stall someone else from entering a room or something, in that case it kinda works,
But if you’re trying to stall yourself…….you’re not really helping yourself all that well are ya!? Guess not……I should probably get moving soon, let me go grab a sweater or jacket in case it’s get a little chilly……what!? I’m not stalling if that’s what you’re wondering, this weather is just unpredictable these days, gotta be prepared, is all……alright, alright i’m going!!……
Hiya so how’s everyone’s day going or shall I say how has it been!? Since it’s already pretty dark out, I hope it’s been going well, my days been on a bit of a swirl around, what does that mean, I don’t know, it was the first thing that sorta came to mind…..speaking of mind i’m feeling like chatting, but nothing that’s going to be too deep, you know, i’m kinda in the mode where I need to keep my mind occupied, it hasn’t really been able to properly focus,
So I thought instead of writing about something deep or how i’ve been writing these past few days, we could just chill out and talk about something, I hope that’s alright…..i’m not really sure what’s been up today, but i’ve just not been able to really focus for some reason, i’ve actually been doodling more today then i’ve been writing and I was trying to come up with something all day to share, but nothing really stuck out to my liking and so that’s why the title for this post is doodle chats,
The concept to it is being able to just keep at a calm level while doodling and just talking about things, what things!? Who knows, I guess you can say their randomized, they probably should be around the doodles I do and why I made them, but it’s a bit hard to describe your doodles, if you freely draw based off what you’re emotions and thoughts are, the doodle I made today, I made two actually, one isn’t really finished and as for the other one,
It’s finished, but it isn’t colored or outlined, i’ll outline it tonight, not sure about coloring, because I don’t have any colors in mind for it yet, when I finish outlining it i’ll share it with you guys, maybe you can try and interpret the reason I might’ve created it, but other than that, I don’t really have much else to say here, if anything pops up i’ll share it of course.
Here’s the doodle from today, not sure if you can tell much on what it actually is, I know with drawing’s especially doodles it’s hard to really make out what the picture is, i’m not really sure myself what it is, but I do still see something in it, maybe you might as well, it might be different to what I see, but everyone’s perspective is different right!? I know it doesn’t have color so it may not look like much, once I decide on what colors to use, maybe it’ll be more clear to what it could be or maybe it’ll still be questionable ha!!
Merry Christmas everyone and for those who don’t celebrate Christmas, happy holidays!! I hope you all had a nice and chilled out day and or overall good day and I hope you were able to enjoy yourself, I didn’t really do too much for Christmas, I saw some of my cousins later in the evening for a bit,
Originally we were meant to just drop something off, but we ended up spending some time with them, which was nice, I don’t normally see them all that much so it was different, but pretty nice too, although it didn’t really feel like a holiday, it just felt like a regular old day, except everyone was saying Merry Christmas and you had to go “oh yeah, Merry Christmas”
It’s weird, but it was alright, had a tea party with my little cousin a few times, yes you read that right, a few times, she told me to put it away and then wanted me to take them out again so that was something, I was trying to get her to play something else, she had a lot nice toys, I asked her if she wanted to play with them and she said no, so we continued to play tea party, we almost made some bracelets until we had to go, but it was fun!!
She also got mad at me for something, not sure about what exactly, but that happened, after a while though it was fine, I tell you kids are weird and very confusing sometimes, but you gotta love them right!?
After that, not much else happened really, today just felt like a regular day, nothing too fancy, just yeah, a Wednesday that was also a holiday, it wasn’t all bad though, not at all bad……now all that’s left to do is get ready for the New Year…..how do I feel you might ask!? I couldn’t tell you, i’m just going to try and make the most of these few days where 2019 is still a thing…….
Okay well that’s everything I have I guess, I could write more, but i’m not sure where else I should go with this post, so i’m just going to leave it here and just do my best to not worry or freak out about everything i’m trying not to freak out about, don’t ask okay, my brains doing gymnastics and i’m trying very hard not to get anxious…….
With that, I hope you all enjoy the rest of your night and or day depending on where you are and I hope you’re all enjoying your holidays, also let me know how you spent your Christmas or holidays, i’d love to hear about it!!
So blogmas, where to start…..it is quite the keep up let’s just say!! This is my first time really trying this out, although I don’t feel i’m doing it properly, but writing a post everyday, I mean normally it’s hard to keep on top of blogging about things all the time, but once you sorta or really sign yourself up to make sure you blog and write something everyday up until a certain day……*sigh* goodness, it’s not as easy as it seems, i’ll tell you that,
Especially when you don’t always have interesting topic to talk about, a lot of the time I just come up with stuff and go based off feeling instead of really sitting down and planning out what my posts should be like and that’s probably why i’m finding Blogmas to be quite the task, right now it’s around 10pm and since going along with this monthly blog challenge,
I normally would start writing a little bit earlier, like in the afternoon around 12pm and for the past two days, both days being weekends, i’ve been wanting to simmer down and give it a bit and it’s not because I haven’t been wanting to write, I just haven’t been super inspired when it comes to topics, again I do most of my postings off of feeling and just choosing the first thing that comes into my mind, so if i’m not feeling the desire to write
I just won’t and that’s because I don’t want to just post for the heck of it and if I do happen to post a non interesting post, I also explain and say “hey I don’t really have anything interesting to talk about, but I hope this post is alright” I try not to write uninteresting posts, but sometimes you don’t always know what’s good and what’s not, I can’t really tell the difference if i’m being honest, but I still always try to make it somewhat interesting!!
That all being said, although Blogmas is a task and you find you have to keep at it, it’s not really been demanding, at least it hasn’t felt demanding, to me anyway, I think when it comes to challenges, in this case I get it can feel very stressful because you have to get something out at a certain time,
I think it helps to not stress with it, because if you do then you’ll feel on edge and start panicking about how you have to get a post out, but if you take your time with it and stay calm, you already know in your head, you have to write something, so it’ll automatically be natural for you to post.
It’s kinda like when you know you have to get up at a certain time and your body keeps that as a reminder and it makes sure you are up either before your alarm or when it rings, so it becomes a natural reaction, you don’t have to stress about it or worry or make yourself feel on edge,
You’ll just naturally know “okay better get writing” whether that’s early in the morning, mid afternoon or late in the evening as long as your post is ready before midnight or before you’re heading to bed then you’re good, back to blogmas though, it hasn’t been too stressful for me, even when i’m having days where i’m just everywhere let’s just say, even on those days, writing a post a day especially as a challenge, i’d say it’s been okay!!
Do I always have interesting things to write about!? NO, but for me, I find when even when I don’t have a good topic to share, having these chatting sessions and just talking or writing more like in this case, helps, it’s good to have posts where you just want to talk, we don’t always have to be interesting, we can just be human and talk about whatever it is thats in our heads or whatever you choose to write about, sometimes I want to talk about nothing, sometimes something and other times specifically!!
I think that’s okay and if you guys want to write about something or nothing, all that jazz, that’s okay too!! It’s why most of us created our blogs in the first place right!? We all just wanted a place to talk…….well that is all I have, I don’t know how long this post is, but I hope you enjoyed it for what it was, whatever that is exactly…….you all have a goodnight or good day wherever you are and i’ll send over a new post for you tomorrow!!
That was a line from the song that everybody if not most people know called Superstition by Stevie Wonder, a good, but also classic song might I add…..so as you may all know, today is Friday the 13th, for a lot of people this day is seen to be quite the luck and I don’t mean good luck, in all honesty I don’t know why this day is seen as such bad luck, but it is and has been for many, many lifetimes, come to think of it, who felt this day to be bad luck anyway!? The world may never know, but personally it’s just a day.
I think you take with it how you want to take with it, will I say it’s bad luck, I don’t know, i’d be lying if I said I too don’t believe in the whole superstition ways of life, now do I go to extreme’s with it……I don’t think so, however I do have certain things here and there that I like to be on the safe side with, yeah I know, crazy!! Why would I believe in that if it’s not real, I mean weren’t they created to scare people or be pulled as some kind of prank!?
Possibly, I believe it, but some things you just want to be safe on and there’s nothing wrong with that, whose to say that some of them aren’t real!? We really don’t know……when it comes to Friday the 13th being a day where lot of people see it as a not so great day, well I don’t know, can a day really be unlucky!? I’d say it really depends on how the days going, one day can go by smoothly, while another may go by a little roughly……
Sometimes you can just tell when a day is going to be one of those days, just by the slightest of things happening around you, but it doesn’t mean that you won’t be able to turn it around in someway, it’s just going to take a bit of extra energy to do so.
Now would you consider those days to be unlucky too or would you just pull through it!? Exactly, just because today’s day is considered a superstition day, doesn’t mean it actually is, if we consider one day to be unlucky than we might as well say the rest of the days are unlucky!!
Friday the 13th is just a day that sometimes can be an extra energy kind of day, is it an overall bad day!? I wouldn’t say so, but everyone will have their own perspectives on it and that’s completely fine, but if we’re talking about superstitions all together, well it’s a thing that can be seen as ridiculous and not so ridiculous, it all really depends on what you believe in.
Sometimes with superstition we naturally kinda take on it, without really being aware they we’re taking on it, so for example:
Salt, if we spill it accidentally or something, we’ll throw it over our shoulders just to be on the safe side, which shoulder!? I can’t remember I think it’s the left, but it might be the right, all I know is it gets thrown over a shoulder, but that is the kind of thing that most or some of us will sorta do without really thinking about it…..even if we don’t believe in all things superstitious, there’s always something to it that tends to stay with us.
So which Superstition do you believe in!? Do you even believe in Superstitions, if so do you think Friday the 13th is actually unlucky!?
P.S. Here’s a new doodle that I made yesterday, I took some stuff out from it and added a few things to it today, I prefer it this way then to how I had it before, don’t worry not a lot was taking out!!
I’m going to be real here, i’ve been slightly stressing out on what to write about today, I don’t have anything interesting to talk about so i’ve been trying to do other things for the time being so that way in case something did pop up to me, i’d be able to write about it, but all that came up was me getting anxious for what, I have no idea, I just was and still am a little!!
I think maybe today I just need to calm, no need to get stressed because you don’t have something to write about right!? If I happened to have something come up before I head on to bed, then i’ll try and write it before then, but if not, I hope this post is okay for now……..
Close your eyes and breathe, while you’re breathing tell me what it is you see!? What do you feel, are you happy, sad, tired, what emotions are flowing over you right now!? These are the questions I decided to ask randomly…..
I actually wrote that starter intro a couple days ago with some other stuff, but ended up coming back and changing some things here and there, I know it’s been a while, a week or two more like since posting, it’s not that I haven’t been wanting to post, I just feel very selective on what I want to post, if I do write it tends to be more on the serious side to what i’m feeling.
Lately however my lack of writing has been due to me not having much to say other than what i’m feeling and the things that I felt we’re more anxious and stressed based then if I was just going to write a normal random post.
It’s for that reason as well as other stuff, to why I haven’t really been that active on my blog. I still would write, I just wouldn’t post all that I had written out already, plus with certain posts I just didn’t feel they needed to be posted, while i’ve been away though, i’ve been doing a whole lot of doodling, sorta drawing I guess you can say as well.
Sometimes you find that when words are unable to be written, there’s other ways to let your mind run wild and for me, doodling has been the stable for my thoughts to safely run about without going too crazy, the only thing is I tend to doodle when stressed or anxious, the most at least, I sometime doodle when i’m confused or just need to get my mind sorted a bit,
but my doodling comes mostly from my over anxiousness and the fact that I stress myself out too much and the fact that I overthink a lot too…..so the best way I find that works best to keep distracted is to grab my sketchbook and pencil and just let my mind do the talking.
Now i’m not the most extravagant drawer, well doodler in this case, I would say I have a more abstract way of drawing, unless i’m trying to really focus on making something, most of the time however it’s just spirals, lines, curves, swoops all the weird shapes you can probably think of maybe……
Sometimes it takes a bit of time for me to calm down while i’m doodling and scribbling about, because well i’m not really kind to myself the way I should be, still working on it…..but once I have calmed down, that’s when I fully go ahead and look at what i’ve put my pencil to paper on and really start to admire what my pencil had me create, it helps for the most part i’d say!!
I’ve created quite a few doodles already some are complete and already outlined, some are still pencil drawn and 2 out of 3 are outlined and colored in, the 3rd is still being colored, i’m not really sure with the colors i’ve chose, but i’m doing my best to work around it, i’ll get it i’m sure!!
Here’s two different showcases of what i’m talking about:
This was the first doodle/drawing that I attempted at, originally I tried to draw out this mat that we have outside my house, because I liked the way it looked, but it wasn’t going the way I wanted it, so I ended up improvising instead and it turned out like this:
The sun in the middle is what my doormat had in the middle of it, so I kept that, it might look a little off or weird, but i’d say it has some character to it, looking at it though, it could be mistaken for some kind of flower, maybe!? Who knows, the colors I chose, well i’m not really sure what made me chose them, I just looked at it and felt those colors should go with it.
Also green, purple and blue are my three favorite colors, so they were the main colors I highlighted!!
Now as for the second one, i’m about to show you, you’ll see it right away i’m sure, I made this one later to the first one I made it’s a few pages after, but because it’s already finished I thought i’d share it with you guys:
Now I can’t remember the reasoning behind this one, it was just something within the moment I think I created with the help of whatever emotions I was feeling when I made this at the time…..the only thing I know for sure about this one is that I already knew what kind of feeling I wanted it to be, I wanted to use calming colors and so that’s what I did!!
There’s a drawing for this post and by that I mean this post came with a drawing, but I haven’t gotten to outlining and coloring it yet, so that’s why it’s not showcased, I do have it, it’s just still in pencil form, i’d share it, i’m just not sure if you’ll be able to see it because I pencil very lightly, but once I get to it, i’ll be sure to write a different post showing you the outline and color version of it.
Although it can be good to express using words, sometimes you have those moments where you come across a different outlet for you to use as an alternative when your main voice of expression simmers down a bit giving you a different kind of art platform to express on…….
One thing I admire about art, no matter the art form, but specifically on the topic of drawing, is you still get to say what you want, only you’re not having to say any words with it…..you can see it and interpret it however you feel, kinda like with music only slightly, but also a bit more different.
Do you guys ever doodle (scribble) when under pressure, relaxed or even just for fun!?
Last time on the part one side of my Saturday evening post, I talked about something I didn’t like…..being mocked, let take a read back on that shall we!?
Recap:I knew they were joking and I know that I probably shouldn’t have taken it the way I did, which I will admit, gotta gain a little bit more of a backbone I suppose, but still if you’re just meeting someone for the first time, mockery is probably not a good impression starter, because you don’t know how someone will take it, had I known the guy for a bit of time and he did that…..it’d probably be different, but I had just met him and after that happened, yeah I made sure to keep my distance from him…..
but I know it was no harm done, i’m just not a fan of mockery, unless i’m really close to you and I know i’m able to throw it back at you, playfully of course, then i’m i’m fine with it, but if i’m just meeting you for the first time and you’re just doing that off the bat, to be funny……yeah I don’t know how i’m going to feel about you too much.
And we’re back, I know that was probably lame by the way, I wanted to try something different as an opener though, was it a sink or swim!? I have no idea, let me know your thoughts on it, you might actually prefer to forget it and hey that’s okay, I might actually look back at this later in time and think “Oh gosh, that’s bad, why did I think that was good!?” I might also laugh, because I tend to laugh at most of my lame attempt at things, well things I thought would work, but probably didn’t…..carrying on now (you’re welcome) finishing the rest of my Saturday evening and night post,
Yeah the bonding, connection experiment thing, didn’t work all that well, I mean there was someone I talked to, which was nice, the chats that we had, they were alright, I can’t say they weren’t, because we did talk for quite a while, now i won’t say we bonded, bonded, at least not in the way that I would normally connect with someone, but they were pretty cool to talk to.
Overall though, I just didn’t feel like I fit in with them all that much, I felt like I was just there, tagging along and nothing else, but that…..I did debate on going home straight after the movie was finished, but I thought let me try a little bit and see what else can happen, was it worth the stay!?
Meh….it was okay, I mean I chatted with someone, but if i’m being honest, I was kinda already done being there after a while, I just don’t think that was my scene or crowd, I felt like I stuck out so much being there with everyone, everyone just pretty much did their own thing, which is fine….
It just sucks when you’re within a group and feel like you’re not suppose to be there……..but it is what it is…..I did at one point get a little anxious, started to get a little green in the gills (queasy) I just wanted to say green in the gills because I thought it was cool, yeah haha. Moving on, I could’ve really used some mint/green tea on Saturday, but I had water with me so that kinda helped keep my stomach leveled.
by the way I wasn’t like that the whole time, it was just after everyone got together again when the movie was finished, my friend likes doing group photo’s after a big movie and when there’s a lot of people, luckily though, no group photo’s we’re taken, which was great because to be honest I wouldn’t had wanted to be in the photo and I know that sounds wrong to say, but I would’ve felt awkward had we took a group photo that night.
After everything was over, I came home and had a tiny, mini breakdown to myself, I couldn’t tell you why exactly, but yeah it kinda just happened, I ended up calling a good friend of mine, one of my best friends that I hadn’t spoken to in a while and yeah we had a pretty good chat, it was nice!!
We listened to some music, watched some videos, laughed it was good, we don’t always speak, but when we do it’s always good, we ended up having a 3 hour conversation on the phone, we started at 10pm and finished around 2….in the morning, yeah I know, crazy, that’s the latest i’ve ever slept in a very long while…….but again it was good talking to her.
Saturday was something, it wasn’t a bad time, but it wasn’t the best either, I got to sorta hang out with my old friend even though I barely saw him at the same time, only in the beginning, he’s more outgoing, with me it depends who i’m around, if I feel like i’m going to get along with you pretty well, I can be pretty outgoing, but if it ends up being how it was Saturday, there’s a strong chance, that i’m going to feel pretty awkward and might not talk all that much, but it was quite the experience I guess you can say……