Now Playing: Symptoms By Ashley Tisdale (Album Review)

May 14 2020 around 6:40pm close to 7pm

Before we get to this review I just wanted to quickly brief some things the reason I didn’t post this right after I finished my review is because I felt it was a little long with both updates I have going on right now,

I wrote the intro two days ago, but I didn’t hear the album until yesterday, the intro explains why, my mood has kinda been a weird one lately, but I did go and re listen to Symptoms and wrote all my thoughts about it after the second listen of it, I just wanted to shorten the length of this post and not have two things going on, hopefully it’s still not too long with this little update disclaimer, before we move on I just want to say that not a lots changed with my thoughts about it, only one thing, but it’s good so don’t worry…..not that you are i’m sure…..anyway let’s get to it shall we!?

May 12 2020 around 4pm in the afternoon

Okay so i’m about to re listen to Symptoms and re share my thoughts about it since my first listen of it, which was only a week ago actually, which is odd because it feels a lot longer than a week, I don’t know why!? Now i’ll be a little honest…….i’ve kinda sorta, have been putting it off, not because I don’t like it, but because I just haven’t been in the mode to sit and re hear it!!

The days I planned on re looking at it, I just wasn’t feeling it, so I would keep adding it towards a later date pushing it further and further back, but today we’re just going to do it, normally when listening to an album that i’ve gotten into or ones that I have on my listen to list that I feel I want to share and talk about, I like to record my reaction to it first and then give it at least a day to sink in before I write my thoughts on it as a post, it’s WAAAAY past a day as you already know……sorry about that…..but we are going to listen to it though and see if any of my thoughts went and changed within a week of the first listen of it, i’m excited to re hear it and get a refresher on it

Hopefully I still like the whole album, i’m sure I will, but opinions change so we’ll see!!

First song on the list…..which is the title of this album Symptoms:

Alright so here’s what I got on this song…..I felt it had a very nice chillness to it, I was feeling some emotions while listening a little, but that could’ve been some random ones trying to come up for all I know, but yeah,

There’s not too much to say on this one, the lyrics are good and so is the song….also remember when I said something changed a little from my first review of this album!? Yeah well this is what changed, when I first heard this song, I wasn’t sure how to feel about it, I knew I liked the song, but I didn’t know what to think of it at first, now i’m here to say that, it kinda feels like it could be a favorite…….probably need to hear it a third time,

before adding it to the definite list, that being said, i’ve also kinda set it out to be a favorite soooo……let’s just say……it is….but not definitely, definitely just yet, yeah!? okay glad we’ve discussed it!!

Next we have the runner up track of the album……Looking Glass

Have I set that up alright, did it make sense!? Hopefully it didn’t sound too cheesy, I know it might be a hit or miss there……i’ll take my chances….moving on though, okay so this song……..I love the grooviness of it and the lyrics are probably one of my favorites on this album, you just, you feel it……if I could describe it, i’d say it’s like a dance track, but it’s a very interesting song as well…..actually now that i’m thinking about it,

It sorta reminds me of another Ashley Tisdale song from her album Headstrong called Not Like That (which is one of my favorites off that album) because of the lyrics mainly, not comparing or anything, both songs are different of course, if you heard not like that and this song than you might hear it, but you might not as well, either way I really like this song,

my only thing with is…….I would’ve liked the beat to play by itself without some of the lyrics from the chorus finishing it off, only because I really like hearing the best, but that’s just a minor thing, when I heard it again, it really wasn’t that bad, so either way of it ending is fine, overall though the song is great, is it a favorite!? Kinda…..it’s the same as the first song, where it’s a favorite, but it’s not exactly on the favorite list, but also is…..

Let’s just say both Looking Glass and Symptoms are on the list…..they’re just written in pencil, but will soon be inked in the more I listen to them!!

In third place….no i’m kidding, the third track on this album is……Love Me and Let Me Go

Okay so this is probably one of what I would consider to be an interesting song to talk about, looking at the title you might think of it to be a specific thing, however when you hear it, you might find that it’s completely different to what you might’ve thought it to be……when I first heard this song, I felt it was a song written for herself as past tense or more like a letter to herself, but not at the same time, it’s hard to explain, but if you hear it, it might make sense, the second time hearing it though……

There was a song that actually came to mind when she was singing the lines “i’ve been chained up to my mind” and “tryna to leave it all behind” both from the first verse, however they have different lines to them, now at first I couldn’t quite put my finger on the song that it reminded me of, but after giving it a quick listen to it again…..I now know what it is…..it was a Matt Cardle song called When We Collide if you don’t know him he’s a great artist, he was actually on the X Factor (UK Version) great voice this one, but yeah this songs great, it’s actually one of my favorites,

but yes, Love Me and Let Me Go reminded me of that song, just with the way it was sung, he kinda does the same thing in the first verse of this song too and I just found it interesting that it reminded me of that, but back to the song we’re discussing off the Symptoms album it’s a great song, chorus is nice, the meaning with it is also pretty great, speaking of, I didn’t know what this song was actually about, I felt it was sung more towards herself, but when looking up the lyrics to get the lines to what I was talking about, I learned that,

I was correct in a way, it’s not a song towards herself per say, but to her Anxiety, which makes a whole lot of sense looking at it now and I gotta say I might just love it more, but even if I didn’t just find that out, I would’ve still said it was great and that I love it!!

On to one of my definite favorites on this album: Insomnia

Now I must note that when I realized this song was next when re listening to Symptoms, a smile came across my face, I LOVE THIS SONG!!!……LIKE LOVE IT!! it’s just soooo good this one, I mean if I had to describe it which I did when jotting down notes while listening to it……it’s quite subtle for one, definitely intimate, but not in the way where it’s too much, it’s the right kind okay!! There’s some temptation to it, but it’s not a bad temptation,

What I mean by that is, both the beat (music) and lyrics of the song just combined so well together, the beat does a great job at pulling you in and the lyrics just complement it sooo nicely, you know you’re getting a really nice meal with it, it’s great, I could try and explain it more, but i’m just going to tell you to listen to it, because it’s really great, after re hearing it,

I played it back about three times maybe before moving on the the next song that’s how much of a favorite of mine it is……..just…..beautiful!!

Moving on…..to track 5……Vibrations!!

Okay now just because the into of it is shorter than the others doesn’t mean that I didn’t like the song…….the same way I felt about it the first time, is the same way I feel about it now……it’s a pretty alright song, not a lot to say with it…..it’s one of those chill tracks, laying low and just enjoying the company of someone or maybe just your own company, which ever you prefer, but you can’t go wrong with a fun time and that’s what this song brings, I feel this might be a kind of soft spot kind of song, where it’s not a favorite per say, but I still can appreciate it for what it is and enjoy it at the same time!!

Track 6…….Under Pressure

Which happens to have some shorter thoughts to the one prior, which is just I love it!!…….seriously that’s all, it’s one of those relatable songs, that you feel once you hear the lyrics, the title really does say it all, but it’s a great song, but I really love about it though is, although the lyrics express on feeling under pressure, no pun intended……it also turns it around and makes it into a positive which is good……..so yeah, it’s good song!!

We’ve now reached track 7 or as I like to call it number SEVEEEEEEEN!! (if you watched my Jonas Brothers album review, you’ll get it!!) track 7…..True Romance

There’s a reason I say it like that, lately and don’t know why, but number 7 seems to be the number that just gets my emotions running because in my Jonas Brothers album review of Happiness Begins, number 7 was a favorite and had my emotions going a little and in this album review of Symptoms, number 7 happened to also get my emotions running and so i’m just accepting that it’s going to be like that with these kind of songs,

I’m not even going to express my thoughts on this one because it’s the same reaction I had when I first reviewed it, I still love it, the lyrics still get me and it’s still a favorite of mine and that’s a definite on that one!!!

Track 8……Voices In My Head

Now i’m sure most or if not some of you will remember that I gave my thoughts one this song around the time it was out for, if you haven’t you can find it here: Voices In My Head (Thoughts) because I heard this song, I wasn’t going in not knowing what to expect from it, like the other songs off the album when I first heard them, so re hearing it my reaction for it never changed, I actually love this song, it’s one of my favorite, I still listen to it from time to time and if I don’t……i’m most likely singing it to myself because it decided to get stuck in my head randomly on a certain day so yeah, but it’s great song, also very relatable and super catchy might I add!!

We’ve come to the last track of the album, track 9…..Feeling So Good!!

I actually don’t have that much to say about it…..when I first heard it I believe I had the same reaction, it a nice fun song, about feeling good and just enjoying yourself really……I did say that this could’ve been on the Happiness Begins album, because I could definitely see Joe, Nick and Kevin singing this song as well, maybe with Ashley, have them featured on it, you know…..just saying…….no, but seriously (hint, hint. wink. wink.)

Good song this one is, I feel like I heard some people in the background at the end of the song…..specifically Vanessa!? HSM cast cameo within the song!? others possibly, most likely…..who knows right!? Okay i’ll stop now, sometimes I just can’t help myself……

Final Thoughts:

Everything I said in my first reaction of it, I also said that I wish this album had more songs, because 9 wasn’t enough….still slightly feel that way with it, because I want to hear more Ashley Tisdale songs, but now i’m okay with what we got with the Symptoms album, there wasn’t one song that I didn’t like, which is good because that’s what I wanted originally and i’m glad that didn’t change in this second review of it!!

I really did enjoy re listening to it, Symptoms is a really great album, I love it and i’m looking forward to hearing more of Ashley Tisdale when we do, she really is a favorite of mine to both watch and listen to!!

That’s all for this album review, thank you for taking the time to read it if you did and I hope you truly enjoyed it, if you want to see my first reaction of when I first listened to it, you can find it here: Now Playing: Symptoms By Ashley Tisdale (Album Review) – First Reaction Review hope you all are doing well, staying safe and your days are going okay!!

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Now Playing: Happiness Begins By Jonas Brothers (Part 1) Intro To Post…..

Afternoon everyone, hope everyone’s having a GOOD Friday, I say that because it’s good Friday and also because I generally do hope you’re having a good day in general!! Let me know if that was cheesy……actually you don’t have to I already know it was. Okay so today we’re going to talk music and albums, now I wrote a post sometime last week saying that this one was up for writing, but that I wanted to do it a certain way before actually writing about it as well, to get to the point I recorded a video expressing my thoughts on one of my favorite bands The Jonas Brothers and their latest album Happiness Begins just to let you know that video is now up already.

It took me a few days though to upload it due to me having to edit it down a whole lot……it was almost 2 hours recording, an hour forty five plus to be exact……don’t worry though the hour part is no more and instead it’s now 45 mins and 43 secs, which is a HUGE difference compared to the original time……I had to pause and transfer a lot to make room on my camera which is why it was so long, also it was pretty early in the morning and so it took me a while to get through it, but that’s because I was still waking up!!!

Moving on however, I have decided that what i’m going to do for this post is have it be a little different to the video I did, expressing my thoughts on the album, the video review about it, is a bit more detailed in terms of depth explaining if that makes sense!?

So everything that’s in that video has more to it expression wise compared to the review of the album i’ll be writing about shortly!! Now what i’m going to do is, i’m going to re listen to Happiness Begins by the Jonas Brothers and see what other thoughts I have with it, i’m curious to see if any of my original thoughts I had change from what I already talked about in my video version review of it, i’m not sure if it will……

but who knows, some might change and some might actually stay the same but i’m going to try and differentiate this review post to my video review and just see if anything switches around, i’m also going to do my best to keep my thoughts short and sweet for each song I talk about so it’s not a long post and from there i’ll write some final thoughts and tell you what I thought about the album after listening to it a second time,

In the meantime while i’m re listening to the album, if you guys would like to check out my original thoughts on the album from the first listen, you can check it out here: Now Playing…..Happiness Begins by The Jonas Brothers it might take a bit to get through, I recorded it early in the morning and so I was still in the mist of waking up, but it does pick up after a while so if you do end up checking it out, just bare with me as I go through all the songs, speaking of songs, there’s 14 songs on this album and so that’s also why it takes a bit of time, but we manage to get through it!!

Alright so i’m off to re listen to my favorite band and their latest album Happiness Begins again, i’ll write my thoughts to it on a second post making this one…..part 1 so i’ll uhhh…..see you when i’ve re heard all the songs!!

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Let’s Talk: Yoga

Good morning everyone, hope all your weeks are starting out alright and that you had a nice weekend!! Okay so some of you might be a little confused about the title, why are we talking about Yoga!? Well I attempted it yesterday and kinda wanted to share on it, from trying it yesterday though i’m feeling some soreness this morning, are you meant to feel sore after doing yoga!? It’s been a while that’s why i’m asking……

Now originally I was going to write about it, but as I was writing the post, it kept getting longer and longer and so I ended up doing a video on it instead and after editing that video well…..it was still quite long, I had a lot to express on it I guess, originally it was 30 mins and that was because it was the untouched version, by editing it though, it came out to 24 mins and 33 secs. Now that’s still pretty long compared to what I would’ve wanted it to come out to, but I think it came out alright and I was pretty happy with it!!

I do try to keep my videos and posts from exceeding a certain amount of talkage time (I don’t think talkage is a word, but just go with it okay) but yeah I try to keep at a certain length when writing and recording, but I can’t seem to help myself when expressing and so that’s why it always ends up being quite longer than I anticipated……

Here’s a quick run down of the video, i’ll share what I had originally wrote down, but it’s probably going to be worded differently:

So after waking up pretty early yesterday, I did a 7 min mediation and than I decided to do a little yoga as well, now I probably should’ve started a little easy to warm myself up and get use to the stretches and all that, but I instead went for a 40 min yoga video focusing on bringing creativity out of you, now I know what you’re saying “40 mins isn’t that bad” very true, yes…..except

That 40 min video took me about 2 HOURS!! Yes 2 hours to get through, luckily it was still morning time and that I got up a little early today as well, i’m finding the earlier you get up the more the morning feels like it’s there for a while as well as the day, if that makes sense!?

So yeah that’s just a little peak on my Yoga attempt after not doing it for a while, there’s also some fun moments in there as well as other things expressed!! Now you know why it’s so long, had I written it instead, you’d be reading for hours, but if you want to take a look at my latest video, you can watch it here: Let’s Talk: Yoga (Patience, Breath Work ect….)

Also if you want to try out the yoga video I did, you can find it here: Awaken The Artist Within|Yoga With Adriene it’s a great workout, but you just gotta have patience with it as well as yourself, just do your best!!

Hope everyone’s doing alright!!

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Creators Spotlight: JordReacts (Part 2)

Hiya everyone, hope you’re all well and having a good weekend, hope your Sunday’s treating you nice as well, now I know already did one, but there was someone else that I wanted to give a little love and shine some light to, this person has a react channel, it’s a music reaction channel, however it’s UK based, now the kind of music that is reacted to, is one that a lot of you may not know of, some of you might, some probably not……

What kind of music does this channel react to you might ask!? Well this channel is specifically a Grime channel, it’s a type of music within the UK, it’s not really big outside of the UK, so a lot of people don’t really know it, but it is getting there, now if you were to ask me what exactly is Grime music…..well……it’s kinda like rap music, but also not, it’s a lot different,

but this channel can give you a really good and MUCH better insight to it then I can, all I can say is it’s worth listening to, if you haven’t already heard it and if you’re looking for something completely out of your music taste range so to say. Now I will say this, for new comers listening to Grime for the first time, it may take a bit to adjust, because of how quick some of the freestyles are, but besides that i’d still recommend checking it out and the best place to do that in case you are a little curious and interested……

Would be to check out JordReacts channel, you’ll be introduced to a lot of different artists and you’ll get to hear what the music’s all about, all at the same time!! It’s a win, win i’d say, so go and check out that out, it’s great, he’s great and I think you’ll find a lot within it!!

I’m going to leave a few of my favorite songs that he’s reacted to on his channel in a playlist, so you guys can get a little idea on what kind of music you’ll be hearing, now there’s only three songs in this playlist right now, couldn’t find the other ones I liked also I just made it, but there’s some there, so listen to what you feel most: Spotify Playlist (JordReacts Favorites)

I’ll be updating this playlist with more favorites of mine along the way, so if you do have a listen and find you like some of the songs, you can just click on the playlist and see what else is added there if you want, but again definitely check out JordReacts channel, show some love and support to him as well as the artists that are featured on the channel and I hope some of you discover and do find something you all like from it!! ^_^

All The Love ❤ ❤ ❤

Lexa

Music & Dreams….

How’s everyone’s Sunday going so far!? Hopefully well, hope you guys got a good amount of sleep last night as well, if you didn’t know already, the clocks moved forward due to daylights savings time and you know what comes with Daylight saving, less sleep and more of a longer day, I think that’s it anyway, but I hope you guys are all doing well!!

Now you might be confused about this title here, I just wanted to write a quick post about my latest uploads, one is just a chat about music and how long of a way it’s come, while the other is about dreams and why we have them, I did a double upload late last night, so if you guys are interested do check it out if you like, i’ll share them both for you guys in this post just in case you’re curious, also don’t worry this won’t be the only post I write today, I plan on writing another one possibly after this or a little later

I am not sure, but I do want to write another post……is it alright to say how weird this is!? I know I don’t normally do this, even when I started writing this post, I thought it to be a little cheesy, I don’t know why it’s so weird if there’s something you do and you want to share it, you shouldn’t feel weird about it, but I guess it’ll always feel like an odd thing to some of us…….

Maybe this topic should be the next post, there might be some more stuff to say with it, at least I feel there might, but anyway i’ll go and save it and end this post here, again if you guys are interested, here are the videos:

Music: It Sure Has Come Along Way

Dreams: Why Do We Have Them And What Do They Mean!?

Okay well there’s that one*breathes* anyway, I hope you’re all having a good day and to be continued I guess……

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Let’s Talk: Cartoon Shows And One Of My Favorites!!

We’ve all been young before right!? Of course we have what kind of a weird question is that i’m sure you might be asking……just trying to start conversation is all i’d say!! No but really, we’ve all had one, two or a good couple of favorite tv shows growing and although I know not all we’re into cartoons tv shows, we’ve all had at least one or two cartoons that we just could not get enough of……..maybe so much that we may even still watch it to this day…….let’s be honest we don’t really grow too old for cartoon shows.

We may end up not really watching the ones that we did as kids, but there’s always that one show that grabs our attention no matter our age range……I have a couple of favorites or at least ones that I happen to find myself getting a little too happy about the moment I know it’s about to come on……

I can’t help it, it’s just a really good show alright, the show i’m going on about is called Craig Of The Creek……now this I have to say is the only show at the moment that I pretty much wait for to come on, I know a little weird, but there’s just something about the show that just……makes me happy, I don’t know what it is!? It could be because the show is pretty much about adventure and enjoyment or maybe just something else completely…….

Now before you guys think i’m writing a whole review here, i’m not when it comes to shows and movies I don’t really know how to review them and really give constructive notes about them, if i’m really into a show or movie i’ll just talk about that show or movie for as long as it interest me, same with video games and or music, but let’s get back to the show Craig of the Creek, I just admire and really appreciate the way the show is……

It’s not just this show for kids where there’s just random things happening in it, there’s a lot that happens in the show and you learn some things too which is nice, it’s good when you have cartoons that have something special to it and Craig of the Creek is one of those special shows, not only is it fun, but there’s a lot of lessons in it and the way the show is, is just something of it’s own, I wouldn’t be able to really explain it even if I tried…….

With most cartoons it can sometimes be a bit of a hit or miss when it comes to it trying to grab your attention and really have you truly enjoying it and that it mainly out of what exactly interests you, but with this show, I don’t see how you wouldn’t enjoy it, it just a down to earth, all around great show and maybe there’s moments where cartoon experts can say reasons to why they don’t like it or what could be better about it, but me I just love it,

There hasn’t been a moment to where I thought, I really don’t like this, but that’s just me, I just wanted to share that, I don’t know why, but I felt like talking about it…….Craig Of The Creek, a good favorite show of mine!!

Okay so heads up going to get a little promoty here, since we’re on the topic of cartoons, I just wanted to let you know that I recently did a video about songs within cartoons, not the theme songs, but songs that were written to be in a moment within the cartoons, if you guys are interested you can check it out here: Songs Within Cartoons and yeah, there’s that!!

So…..what’s your favorite Cartoon Show!?

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Just Gonna Wander A Bit….

You ever feel like you need your brain to wander, but you don’t really know why you want it to wander around for!? Yeah that’s how i’m feeling at the moment…..My brain isn’t in the mood to want to cooperate with me today, but I guess I need to let myself be okay with that, I did really want to record a video today, but I just couldn’t get my thoughts to form properly so I might have to rain check on it, I think the way the day went might’ve tuckered me out a bit, didn’t do that much just some slight running around, but yeah……

I shouldn’t go taking it as such a “Sigh” moment though, I mean I was saying to myself yesterday that I felt like I needed to write something it’s been about 5 days since my last post and I was going to try and write on here yesterday, but I had no idea what exactly I wanted to share so I didn’t,

But maybe today was the day to write for me and just relax a bit……i’ve kinda been in a mode trying to get some ideas down in terms of videos, trying to set it a certain way, just to get an idea, but maybe I just need to not think so hard and give it a little, i’m sure it’ll all come to me in time

I think that’s all I have to say though, but before I finish up this post, I did upload a new video, it was posted last night so if you want to take a look at that, it’s on the channel for whenever you guys want to watch it,

If you’ve been watching my videos I just want to say thank you, I really do appreciate it and I hope that you’ve all been enjoying them, but anyway I hope you all have had a good day and are enjoying your night and I hope your three day weekend treats you all well!! ^_^

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Soooo I Did Something…..

After giving it a good amount of thought, I finally decided to go forth with something I had in mind for a while, I decided to start fresh and make a whole new channel, youtube channel, again it took a good amount of thought, I wasn’t completely sure on it when trying to decide, before deciding I thought about adding to the one I already had, but I felt that it would just be everywhere and I just felt the need to start something completely new away from that one, I still have it, I have all the ones i’ve made…..yeah I have 4 now……the last one was suppose to be the last one,

but yeah that changed……I really wanted to have something different with this one, which is why I went on and created a new one, kinda based around the blog actually, well it has the same name as the blog, I wanted to express in another way, so whenever i’m not really writing much, i’m sharing some stuff to be important in the moment and sometimes when you have a lot you feel like saying, it’s kinda hard to write it all, I mean you think a post isn’t all that long, until you find yourself reading it back and realize “oh well that’s quite a lot of words happening there!!”

No, but I thought for days where i’m not in much of a writing mode, I could share all that I want in a short video and get it out a bit more better when i’m not quite sure how in writing and vice versa. Now I only have two videos at the moment, I tried to share it on here, but it wasn’t quite working properly to where you could see them, but I did share the new channel, you’ll find it with the socials, twitter ect….feel free to check it out whenever

I hope you enjoy them in someway, but anyway that is all I wanted to share with you guys, just a quick post, I hope you all had a good day and your weekends been well and all and I hope your nights been well too!!

New Channel: Life As A Daydreamer

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Lets Talk Mental Health: Eating Disorders And The Return Of Eugenia Cooney (Long Post)

Quick Note: I started this on the 20th of July, but had to do some more looking over and that, some of my original thoughts I kept in and some I added, I also removed some that I felt weren’t needed, I did my best on this topic so I hope it came out okay and I hope you enjoy the read.

Okay so this is a bit of a hard topic to discuss, i’m not sure how this post is going to turn out, but hopefully it comes out okay…….just a bit of a disclaimer warning, the topic that will be discussed in this post has to do with Eating Disorders so if this is a very sensitive topic for some of you out there and a bit triggering, I understand not wanting to read on, but if you’re comfortable and are okay reading upon this topic then by all means do so…..

When it comes to Mental Health a lot of people don’t really take it as seriously as it should or needs to be and it’s sad because, it’s important to treat it seriously, just because it’s not physical doesn’t mean there’s no effect and that it’s not still harmful……

There’s many different mental health disorders out there, although they’re different, they still share the same effect inside, however there are some that are much more dangerous than others, one of them being Eating Disorders…….i’ll be honest here, I don’t really know too much when it comes to eating disorders, but I have learned a bit about it,

By looking into it a little to get a better understanding and even getting some insights on what it’s like dealing with it and from the knowings of it and the effects it can have on you, lets just say it’s a real tough road walking down, especially when it comes to the recovery process of it.

Now i’m not sure how serious people take Eating Disorders, you would think it’d be one of the topics that is talked about a lot, but when you really think about it, we don’t really hear that much on it, which is a bit surprising because it’s something that should be payed more attention to.

Now I want to talk properly about this, because there’s a lot of things to eating disorders that not many are aware of, most people have a stereotype on it, which isn’t really fair because there are things with it that you won’t know unless you personally lived it, which a lot of us haven’t, but there are some that have or are living it right now and we don’t even know…..

What we may see it as, is completely different to what it actually is like, now my reasoning for wanting to talk upon this topic is for a few reasons, but also because of a video that I watched a few days ago, that was sent to me by my boyfriend who……well had a very similar experience with it…..

I won’t express too much on it though as it’s his story to tell, but he did say it was okay to talk about how he’s been though something similar to the story here……the video that i’ll be giving some insight on is about a Youtuber by the name of Eugenia Cooney, not sure how many of you exactly know of her, maybe you know her well or have just heard about her……a few days ago, Shane Dawson (another Youtuber) made a video on Eugenia,

I don’t know how familiar some of you are with Shane or if you even watch any of his videos, but he has a few series that he does, one of them is focused on helping people and sometimes even going back and revisiting pasts things that he hasn’t really been able to face before, it’s pretty good, i’ve watched a hand full of them……this specific video however, discusses Eugenia and her struggles with her Eating Disorder…….

I gotta say, this video has to be one of the most serious videos, Shane’s ever done and he’s made quite a lot…….I don’t know a whole lot about Eugenia Cooney, i’ve heard of her and have seen her before, but i’ve never actually watched any of her videos…..watching this video though, i’ll admit was really hard, it was also very emotional, I held my breath a lot watching it.

It’s kinda tough to describe this video, I feel it’s something you have to watch for yourself in order to really understand the situation and everything with it, but what I will say, is that you learn a lot from this while gaining insights to what it’s like for those who suffer from eating disorders, as well as learn on the different types of eating disorders and what kind of things happen with those types, if that makes sense!?

There’s a lot of mixed emotions in this video, although it’s very serious, there’s also some pretty nice light hearted and good moments within it as well, there was a few moments in the video that were a bit hard to watch, one of the moments was when they would show Eugenia’s videos….

Now I don’t know if it was a streaming kind of video that she did or a live chat event, but there was this girl and i’m not going to say what she said because you’ll see it in the video if you watch it, but…..

She started off with a very sweet and lovely comment to Eugenia letting her know how pretty she is which was really nice…..a few moments later however, she said something that…..probably shouldn’t have been said, it was that uncomfortable of a moment that I had to actually pause the video.

I mean i’m sure the girl didn’t intend for what she said to come out the way it did or anything, I mean you knew she was a fan of Eugenia and that she cared, she sounded like a very lovely girl, but I don’t think she understood by her saying what she did especially LIVE, the way she did……really set with Eugenia, like you could literally see the change of expression on her face and her eyes, it was one of the toughest moments to see in the video…..

Sometimes we don’t realize the things we say, as well as the way we say them, to us it may not be that bad…..however to others it’s a whole different story, especially when you see or know someone is going through something difficult that they may not be able to see or may not even know about……it’s important to really think about that kind of thing.

If you know or see someone isn’t well or they’re just getting well again, take a moment to really think about the things you’re saying before you find the words coming out of your mouth…….but i’m sure the girl didn’t mean harm with it, so no blame game here, sometimes we make mistakes, even if it’s the tiniest of ones, it happens, it’s just live and learn that’s all.

There were other moments that were a bit hard to watch, but a specific moment that I also wanted to talk about was not one that was hard to watch per say, but one that made me a bit nervous and that was when it came to Shane asking Eugenia questions on everything…..in the beginning of the video, there was this lady I can’t remember her name, but she was explaining to Shane the different questions you shouldn’t ask someone dealing with an eating disorder and the things you shouldn’t say to them…..

Watching the whole video, I was just nervous, thinking to myself “I hope the questions he’s asking are alright” luckily it all went well with the questions, even though the topic of it was hard as well.

I liked how comfortable Shane made Eugenia feel when he visited her and talked to her, it was real nice, i’m sure she was very nervous about doing this whole thing and talking about it as well, but it was good to see that there wasn’t any awkward moments with it.

There was a lot of moments that were very interesting to learn about within the video, if you want to check that out for yourself to get a better insight about Eating Disorders I linked it for you guys, it’s worth watching.

Watch the video here: The Return Of Eugenia Cooney

Continuing on the topic of Eating Disorders as a whole…..I can’t really say what exactly it’s like dealing with it, because i’ve never actually experienced it before, for people who have dealt with the disorder or are dealing with it now even, I know it’s not an easy topic to talk about it.

This is a real issue that shouldn’t be overlooked…….there are a lot of people who are secretly suffering with this and aren’t asking for help and that kind of thing is scary, because even though they aren’t directly asking for help, in way they are, only they’re going to say it…….

Sometimes it’s hard to see what’s going on in these kind of situations and unless you’re very close to someone, you won’t really see it, you might get hints here and there, but it’s not going to be something you catch on to right away……learning a bit about it, i’ve learned that people who suffer with eating disorders are really good at hiding it, again you may think you’re able to catch on to it quickly, but that’s not always the case.

Something i’d like to point out is that, when we think of eating disorders, our brains naturally and automatically think females suffer from it and that’s because it always been seen as and I know this is probably the wrong way to quote it and I apologize in advance, but it’s always just been seen as a “Female thing only”

When in fact that is faaar from the truth…..on the stereotype side of town, it’s like that, if you only knew the half of it though….because if you did, you’d find out males suffer from it too, maybe even more, we wouldn’t know about that though because a lot of the males that do suffer with an eating disorder, don’t speak up about it and that’s because there’s already a perspective on it, which isn’t right……

When you think of other disorders such as anxiety, depression, bi-polar disorder all those things, it’s not just seen as a one sided thing, any person, guy or girl can suffer from them, yet when it comes to eating disorders, it’s only looked at on the females perspective and maybe that has to do with the fact that more females speak up on it, however that doesn’t mean that it should be normalized as just females go through it because that’s not true.

Males that suffer with an eating disorder, don’t really get taken that seriously causing most of them to suffer in silence when they shouldn’t have to……I don’t want to say it’s an image thing, however it kinda is in a way, which is sad because it shouldn’t be like that, we shouldn’t have it where if a male is struggling with an eating disorder they shouldn’t come out about it…….not trying to go away from the topic, but I will for a second,

Only because it’s the same as if someone was being abused, majority of the time, people will only see it from a girls perspective when in fact guys also get abused……yet we don’t talk about that and sometimes that can be one of the main factors of an eating disorder starting because of the way they’ve been treated before, but my point to this though is just like girls,

Guys too can be affect by it, just because we don’t hear much about it, doesn’t mean it’s not happening……we aren’t the only ones that go through rough times, although guys are built to be strong and protect and all that, we need to understand that they too have feelings and they also go through these kind of issues. We shouldn’t be shutting them out and making them feel as though if they do suffer from any sort of disorder or other things in general that they shouldn’t be allowed to share it or speak up about it.

It’s important to not only treat these kind of things seriously, but also treat each individual the same way, especially when dealing and suffering with things like eating disorders and that, everyone should have a right to express they’re emotions and feelings as well as things they’re going through.

We should never make someone feel as though their feelings don’t matter or that the issues they’re dealing with aren’t as important as someone else’s……there’s a lot to learn with this topic, things that may be seen as simple, aren’t always and when it comes to things we think we know on this topic or even someone, there’s a high chance that we have no clue, what we say and how we say it does have an affect, even when we see it as harmless.

Final Thoughts: We don’t know what people are going through and with this kind of thing it’s really important that we take it seriously and try to help in the best way possible, even if we aren’t sure how…….

If you know or sense someone close to you or someone you think needs help is suffering help them, try and be there for them, talk to them and if you’re worried or you aren’t sure what to do, there are people that can help and there’s even numbers to call.

If someone out there is reading this and is suffering with an eating disorder or recovering from one (GUY OR GIRL) know that everything is going to be okay and that there are people that can help you get better, I know it won’t seem like it, but you aren’t alone and again if you’re a guy or a girl whose just starting to recover or have successfully recovered,

I’m proud of you and i’m sure those around you, are proud of you as well (although I don’t know many of you) still, I know it’s a hard road you’re walking or have had to walk before and I know that even though there maybe some of you who have fought through this, I know that the journey of it will never be over as it sticks with you for life, but even though that maybe so, you should be very proud of yourself, not only for how far you came from it,

but also because you went through it and are still going through it, but have stayed strong and continued on, I know it’s not the easiest thing and I know that for some of you, there might even be a time where you fall into a relapse with it, but just know if that does occur don’t feel ashamed about it and don’t think that you did wrong, because you didn’t, you’re not weak or anything like that, it’s just a rebuild and process thing, but it’ll all be alright.

If there are people out there who have had someone in their life relapse or know someone whose relapsed, don’t scold them about it…..reassure them and let them know that you’re there for them, support and love them through those times, because believe me they’re already beating themselves up about it, they don’t need scolding or any of that, all they need is love and support.

There’s still a whole lot more to eating disorders than i’m able to explain, this was just my observation and thoughts on it from what I learned, again i’m no expert and have no experienced with it, the only people that can really tell you what it’s like dealing with it and the situation with it as a whole are the ones that have or are going through it……

If you have any thoughts you want to share or add to any knowledge that you think I should know on the topic of eating disorders go ahead, if there’s something I said wrong or messed up on, please do let me know, in the best way possible of course, I really would like to understand this better.

Last thing, if any of you out there, need a place to go to chat or anything like that, you don’t have to, but you’re more than welcome to here, but if you’re wanting or looking for a bit more help, here’s a few links to websites that might just be what you need and for those who want to understand more about this as well, I left some links for you as too.

  1. Better Help
  2. NEDA (National Eating Disorders Association)
  3. Alsana
  4. Understanding Male Eating Disorders
  5. Males And Eating Disorders

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~

Let’s Talk Video Games: Missed Messages (July 5, 2019)

The other day I was watching one of my favorite gaming channels Jacksepticeye (well I watch him quite a lot actually) you might remember me talking about him before or you might not, he’s quite the entertainer, his content is very interesting and he has a very unique and great personality!! He not only plays video games, but he also has original content that is a little more intimate, by that I mean not video game type videos,

but more the kind that make you laugh when you’re having a rough day and need something to pick you up. Some people like him and others tend to stay clear of him because of personality and how weird he is, but I don’t think he’s that bad, but everyone has their own view on things and that is perfectly fine, I still enjoy his content, but anyway……

Let’s talk about the game, I don’t really know how to introduce the game to, because it’s on the serious part of town…..the name of the game is called Missed Messages and it’s a pretty deep and interesting kind of game…..

It’s based around self harm and suicide, but has other things to it as well that is a little more lighthearted, although it is pretty sensitive, so if you don’t want to get into those topics that’s okay, the game does warn you with any possible triggers before playing the game, but for some who are interested in seeing what the game is like, I would say check it out,

I don’t really know how to describe the game, so i’m just going to let it speak for itself, so if you do watch it you’ll understand it a lot better, i’ll leave it in case you are curious to seeing how the gameplay is. It’s actually pretty nice from the looks of it, it’s one of those choice based games to see the different outcomes to the story, but with a deeper meaning to it of course…..

It has a pretty cool art style to it as well, when you first look at it, it’s pretty calming and chilled, but the more you get into the story, it does get pretty intense……but the reason I bring up this game, is the message that comes with it.

It shows you just how much you don’t know, when it comes to someone and what they’re thoughts are, they could seem fine, yet you wouldn’t know that deep down, that’s not exactly how their feeling, unless you really get to know them and just talk to them. People are so used to keeping things bottled in and because they’re so used to it, they have trouble asking for help or just opening up alone about things in general….

We’ve all been there, where if there’s something we’re struggling with or dealing with, we keep it to ourselves thinking we can handle it and adding our problems onto someone else, even though it shouldn’t be a worry or they may not have a problem with you coming to them,

You still think of it as being a burden in a way and so we chose to just keep to ourselves to avoid adding to their problems even if we are secretly needing a bit of comfort or reassurance.

It’s easy to have a simple conversation when it comes to things you might have in common with someone or something random and that……but when it has to do with a problem or something that is hard to talk about that’s when it becomes difficult and where people start to shut down and sometimes that’s dangerous if you’re not careful, in many different ways.

However it isn’t always dangerous, some people just prefer to be alone and stay to themselves, which is fine, there’s nothing wrong with that, but sometimes it’s good to see how people are from time to time, because you don’t always know what they’re dealing with and the kind of struggles they’re going through, even if you aren’t sure what to do,

Just showing them that you’re there if they need you and even sitting with them in silence would probably mean so much, sometimes not saying anything is better than trying to say something, most of the time all people really need is comfort and reassurance and just for someone to be there.

Final Thoughts: Just by watching the gameplay, it looks like a pretty great game to play or check out, I don’t really play games as often as I used to and when I did, it was mainly on my Xbox One or my 3Ds, sometimes my tablet too although I rarely play with it now…..but this game is something I think should be given a try and if you don’t want to play it, i’d say it’s worth checking out, there’s so much more to it than just the art style…….

You get a lot of realness and emotion from it as well, believe me it’s worth the time and understanding with the message that it’s trying to share with everyone, even Jack shares his thoughts on it, as well as knowing that kind of struggle that is talked about in the game, so if you’re willing, seriously check it out, I think you’ll find it very interesting and maybe even helpful too.

Here’s the game if you want to check it out: Missed Messages if it’s too much while you’re watching it remember you don’t have to continue, but if you do continue I hope you enjoy the story and gameplay of it!! If there’s anyone who is having a hard time and wants to talk, could be about anything, music, favorite tv shows or you need someone to just vent to a little, you’re more than welcome to here, i’ll be happy to be an ear for you.

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~