Getting Back On Track…..

Trying to come up with some kind of a grand opening for these post or at least one that makes sense anyway isn’t all that easy at times, sometimes there’s gonna be days where you just have to not try so hard and just let things come out as it wants to, right now I have no idea where this post is going to go nor do I know what exactly i’m going to be typing next, i’m kinda just going off the top of my head here and you know what!?

Sometimes you gotta say to yourself that “hey that’s alright” no need to think of something so intensely all the time, just go as you’re going, will it makes sense!? Maybe, but also maybe not, the important thing is you’re trying to get back on track in someway right!? I’ll be the first to say these past two weeks haven’t been the most productive at least not in the productive kind of way that it probably should have been,

but sometimes that happens, you’re gonna have days, more than that even where you find you’ve ended up by a pond of some sort not really knowing exactly how you got there, until you’ve realized you’ve been there a bit longer than you should’ve you know!? Once you realize though,

You know that from there, you’re going to have to find your way back on track again and sometimes that can be a little hard……not really knowing where you should start or what you should get back to first, there’s times where we may even forget where exactly we left off and that’s alright.

Going off track even though it can be a little of a hassle, especially when you know that you really should be staying focused, sometimes it can a little helpful too, it may not seem like it, but stepping away from walking a good few miles can be a good way of refueling any lost energy we may have needed to recharge on, sure we may have wandered off unknowingly or maybe knowingly, in the end though, we always do find our way back from where we wandered off to, sometimes it can just take a bit…..

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Let’s Talk Randomly….

This post isn’t going to be about anything specific, it’ll be a post with a whole lot of things to it, like for example, how exactly did all the dinosaurs get their names!? I mean every dinosaur was pretty much different right!? So why were they given the names they were given and why were all their names very long!? Did they ally any other dinosaurs whenever a battle arouse or did they all just come to their own defenses!?

I’d like to think that when the battle got a little hectic that some dinosaurs came to help out, I mean you never know it could happen!! If you’re wondering why this is being brought up, well……it was something I actually thought about earlier and even had a small discussion about too, it’s just interesting to think about, because you just wonder, well if you’re the kind to wonder a lot like I am, I wonder about pretty much anything……

Another thing I was thinking about was the first human to walk on earth, I bet it was something, I looked that one up to see, it was pretty much the caveman, but maybe they were a little advanced, not sure, but, I wonder how they felt walking around and discovering something they weren’t all too familiar with, what were their minds like!? What did they feel!?

Imagine being in a place, like a whole new place, heck world even, what would you feel, how would you react, what would you be the first thing that you’d do!? Me i’d most likely explore and question every little thing…..

There’s a lot of wonders to everything, some things are explainable some unexplainable, but it’s always just interesting when you think about everything before we evolved and became what we are now, like in terms of our ancestors, everything had to be so different and just incredible for them getting to see everything for the first time and discovering all these weird and interesting things and then later having it become more right in front of them and getting to see it, I know it probably had to be a weird thing for them to see something one day be a certain and then have it change into something completely different to how they normally saw it.

There’s a lot of things I can probably talk about, but then that’ll be a long post and I don’t want that, plus these were the main things I thought about anyway, well more the dinosaur topic and the first human to walk on earth, the other things I just added after because it crossed my mind, i’m sure some of these type of questions have entered our brains before, possibly late at night when we need to and are trying to sleep……

Best nights those are (she says sarcastically) sometimes they just come at the most inconvenient times, why!? Biology probably, something related to Science or just because, no real explanation needed I guess.

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Is It Alright To Not Have A Direction And Know Where You’re Going!?……

Yes, we’re back on the topic of careers again…..the good news to this is haven’t stressed myself out thinking too much on about this in a while, I have still thought about it however and when I do, I still get frustrated trying to figure it out, but i’ve been calmer about it as much as possible lately, but it doesn’t excuse the fact that i’m still wanting to figure it out.

Some say you have to stay focus and really look for it, while others may say not to worry so much and let it come to you, which advice do you follow I don’t know, all I know is when i’m focusing so much on it, I get super stressed and frustrated and when I focus less on it, I still get frustrated and stress about it because then I feel like i’m just not doing anything, it’s like there can never be a balance, unless you’re counting always getting frustrated and stressed, then yeah there’s a nice balance there.

Seriously though, it really does mess with you when you know you want to get somewhere and are really wanting to do something with yourself, but without a clear direction it’s hard to know where exactly you’re supposed to be heading, sometimes you feel you’re just wandering about aimlessly because you’re still unsure of what you would like to do…….the amount of times i’ve talked about not being the planning type is probably a lot.

Don’t worry i’m not going on that walk, it’s just a small amount of frustration and wonder, I really don’t know where i’m going and in what direction i’m heading towards and so it’s a little stressful because I do want to know, i’d like to see where i’m going a bit, normally I would just enjoy the scenery and not worry about it so much, but this time around, although the patience is still there, so is the impatience of it and it’s kinda in the lead over the patience right now and it just drives me a little mad, because I don’t know where i’m heading and I don’t know where to go…….

Right now i’m just doing this, whatever this is, at least I have you guys and this blog to keep me at bay until I run into something, some people are able to just go and never stop, because they already have an idea or are already doing what they set out to do and then you have people like me who can’t help, but continuously wander, because they either just don’t know or they’re actually enjoying themselves, I can’t speak for all wanderers,

but for this wanderer she’s just really hoping that she gets somewhere so she can stop worrying so much about it, will she!? Probably not, but she’s not going to stop wandering now, we’ve wandered this far and it got us here to where we’re now blogging about it, which is good so we can’t be that far to figuring out just where we’re actually heading, in the meantime, I guess we gotta keep looking towards the scenery, *big sigh* alrighty then.

I gotta say, i’m feeling a little anxious now, but that’s probably just my nerves and me worrying a little, I know i’ll get to where i’m suppose to soon enough and that things will be alright, it’s just the whole “when” but worrying too much on that will cause stress and i’ve been trying to keep from doing that lately, when your busy and on roll, it doesn’t bother you, it’s only when you’ve sat down and are thinking too much to where it’ll start to become a nuisance is all, but patience and not giving up can help.

P.s. I wrote this post I believe yesterday, but I didn’t get a chance to post it until now, these are just some thought of mine is all…..

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa

Monday’s Journal Entry: Just A Walk In The Park (Sept 24,2018)

Hey everyone, I hope you’re all enjoying your day, I just wanted to share my latest journal entry that i’ve written in my thought journal yesterday, it’s all about my day yesterday, I hope you don’t mind me sharing it.

Just A Walk In The Park (Monday Sept 24, 2018)

 

Today I decided to take a little walk in the park, my morning didn’t quite go the best, but I won’t talk about that, let’s just skip to what my walk in the park was like. So I got to the park and sat on one of the benches that was there, I was expecting to write in my thought journal while I was there, but I didn’t really know what to write about so after being there and sitting on the bench for a bit, I decide to get up and wander around, I went and walked to where that river trail is, the one i’m always telling you guys about, I didn’t go down the trail though, I still have to do that, but I did look at the river for a bit, after doing that I then walked along the park trail, I think there were some kids playing by the little playground before I got there because as I was walking down the park trail, I stopped at some really neat chalk art drawings, I even took a photo of them, I thought it was really cute.

 

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They even had a hopscotch game, now I haven’t played hopscotch in forever and so I thought i’d relive a little bit of my childhood and play it again, it was quite nice to go back relive that moment of my childhood. They also drew some chalk bubbles which was nice, there was a dog face as well, a few flowers and some other little drawings too, I took some pictures of them, only of certain ones though. I would’ve taken a picture of all of them individually, but I forgot to put the battery back into my camera, I had it charging the other night and forgot to put it back once it was fully charged, and so I had to use my phone aaaand well, I don’t have a lot of space on my phone so I was only able to take a few pictures, I had to delete some photos off my phone before I took anymore pictures, that’s how much space I have on my phone haha.

 

 

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I also ran into a baby squirrel, it was the cutest little thing I tell you, never saw a baby squirrel before at least not that I remember, but I saw the baby squirrel on the pathway that I was walking and at first I thought it was hurt, because it wasn’t really moving it was just standing in one spot, but the closer I got to it, I saw that it was fine. I’m not sure why it was in the middle of the pathway, but I stopped in front of it and looked at it, it started moving a little slowly, anytime I tried to get closer to it, it would get a little startled so I left it alone, I ended up seeing it twice, once when I walked past it and when I was coming back into the park. The second time it jumped at me, well not like at me, at me if that makes sense, but a little which startled me a bit and I think me getting startled, may have startled it a bit as well, but the squirrel was okay which was my concern.

It was so cute though, I didn’t take a photo of it which I wish that I had, as you know though I didn’t have my camera well I had my camera, but the battery wasn’t in it and I didn’t have enough space on my phone, plus I wasn’t even thinking about taking a photo I just wanted to make sure it was okay. After coming across the baby squirrel I then walked down towards this waterfall that was nearby and was just admiring it as I walked, I ended up going down the path to where it was, to give it a closer look. I also sat with it for a good while……you know being out in the park, walking with nature and just being with yourself as well is actually quite nice, i’ve found that i’m really enjoying just being with myself lately.

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I’ll be honest with you guys, I use to not like going places by myself, because I always thought it was a little weird to just be somewhere with just yourself and I would always think what if I have something I want to talk about, who am I gonna tell!? but I find that sometimes you don’t always need to be with someone, that it’s okay to just take yourself out to enjoy the day even if you’re just heading to the park or going for a walk, yeah sure it may feel completely weird and uncomfortable at first when you try it, but the more you do it, the less weird it’ll become, after that it’ll just become a natural thing. Ever since I first took that walk to the park and continued going after that, i’ve found myself really enjoying my own company, even though I always head to the park to think, but even if I have a lot of stuff on my mind, I still do my best to try and enjoy something. Being there yesterday and looking at the waterfall, taking everything in, while listening to music……..it was very nice and calming, plus I felt happier as well and it’s been a while since i’ve felt that.

So that was my journal entry, well most of it, I did add different stuff to it while writing, but yeah I just wanted to share my day with you guys, I hope you enjoyed it, anyway I hope that you all have a lovely day/night and or evening.

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All The Love ❤ ❤ 

~Lexa~