I Don’t Even Know, What To Title This

Hey everyone, i’m back with another blog post, i’m gonna try and make this one not so long, so that way I can get some sleep, you’re probably thinking “well gee why don’t you just sleep if you’re so tired!?” I could do that yeah, buuuut I told myself i’d write two blog posts today, since I not only didn’t record a new video, but I also haven’t uploaded my other video from last Saturday, which is kinda stressing me out a bit, but that would be my fault because, I could’ve did it earlier, but I didn’t so I have to deal with it of course.

I will upload it in the morning though, although it should’ve been uploaded already, talk about making things harder on yourself right!? It’s just too much at times, especially when most of your days are up and down, there isn’t really ever a middle ground most times, but I guess it could be if you just make the most of it right!? As well as making things a little bit easier for yourself and not stressing yourself out every minute of the day with trying to do everything all at once or thinking you have to do loads, because you really don’t have to, you just have to find some kind of balance to where everything seems manageable. Maybe by doing that, it will become less overwhelming and you’ll tend to feel a little bit at ease doing things that way……….am I making sense!? I hope so, right now I don’t have any idea whether or not what i’m writing is coming out right, that’s how tired I am at this very moment, but i’m trusting myself and hoping it is coming out okay.

Do you guys just have days like that where, sometimes you just write, but you’re not quite sure if what you’re writing about is coming out alright or if it’s making any sense or is that just me!? I can’t be the only one, I hope i’m not the only one……I think we all tend to have days like that, I feel with days like that, it might actually be good, because then whatever has been hiding away from you, could come out without a care and then maybe you’ll feel better because of it.

I mean who says we can’t have days where we just write whatever is in our minds or just random posts to where it doesn’t have to make sense for once it can just be freely writing, if that makes any sense, I don’t know if it does, but I hope you all know what it is that I mean………I feel i’m gonna look back on this post and just go “WHAT DID I JUST WRITE” I might regret it, I might not, hey I might just even look back and laugh at it or even be surprised I don’t know, I guess i’ll see tomorrow morning.

I’m gonna head to sleep now, okay i’m gonna get a snack first and then head to sleep, I hope you all have a goodnight/morning and or evening, it’s gonna be something looking back at this post tomorrow.

 

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~

 

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Care To Sit And Chat!? (Nov 9, 2018)

Disclaimer: This was written earlier around 4pm my time, it’s close to around 10:30pm now just to give you guys a heads up, it was my earlier thoughts and I just kinda wanted to share a bit.  

Okay so i’ve been sitting at my computer for a good few minutes now, trying to figure out what it was I wanted to write about. I was considering writing a little love letter, like an ode to my boyfriend, but I didn’t think you’d want to read that so I changed my mind and kinda instead felt maybe I should hand write one, I honestly feel that would mean a lot more then writing it on my blog. I’ll be honest with you though, I don’t really have a topic to write about at the moment, so i’m pretty much just writing as I go, just to see what comes out and maybe they’ll be something there as i’m writing you know!?

I guess I could try and tell you guys what’s in my head or how my day was and what I did, it might be boring though, but maybe you’ll enjoy a bit of it……..I don’t know. I’ll start by telling you the reasoning for me wanting to write something sweet for my guy at first, don’t worry it won’t be super sappy promise, well i’ll do my best to make sure it’s not. The reason I first thought about writing a sweet little letter to my boyfriend as a blog post is because today is his birthday………unfortunately I was unable to spend it with him, due to him living not near me, he’s from the UK, so you can probably guess what kind of relationship we’re in………..

It’s hard, because I wanted to be able to spend his birthday with him, the same way he spent mine with me and knowing I couldn’t be there on his birthday, it sucks you know…….but to look on the bright side of it, at least i’ll get to spend part of it with him when we speak soon, so that’s good, I get to see his face and that smile that I love so much………yeah sorry it’s kinda headed in the sappy lane, i’ll switch over to something else in a second don’t worry.

I don’t normally write stuff like this because I don’t know……..I just feel like I shouldn’t write it, but when your mind is constantly just thinking of that person, it hard not to want to get it out a bit, he’s my world and the light of my life and I guess all of this is because i’m missing him and I just always want him near me you know!? I know that we’ll get there soon though, just gotta keep going and work hard so we’re able to get that even when somedays are harder than most. I just wanted to get that out a bit, also Happy Birthday my love if you’re reading this, I miss and love you loads.

Switching over to something less sappy though don’t worry I won’t go on and on about it even though I could and would but, I won’t put you guys through that. Let’s talk on what else happened today, like for one I was super tired this morning, still am, I didn’t sleep til about close to 2am last night because I was writing a blog post, which is kinda my fault, I could’ve wrote it earlier, buuut I didn’t so, you know you get what you give, is that the saying!? I’m not really sure, it might be.

Anyway my day didn’t quite start til about 11am. I didn’t wake up at a 11am, I woke up early, I just didn’t have the energy to start anything til around that time, okay close to 12pm more like. I was gonna do a new video of my what I like to call chatting session All Things Random and I set everything up to do it, but it was almost 3pm when I was thinking of recording and I like to record early so I don’t have to record while people are around, plus I didn’t want to record the video and me be super tired while recording, so I decided to do that tomorrow instead.

After deciding that I was like okay so i’m not doing that today, so i’m gonna try and write 2 blog posts today so that way I feel a little productive and I don’t feel like I didn’t do anything. So because now I said that, I have to go through with it and I don’t have any idea of what my next post is gonna be about a little later tonight, right now it’s around 5pm close to 5:30pm and it looks and feels like it’s 8pm, but it’s not, so that’s fun. That’s pretty much all that happened throughout my day, oh also to update you from my last blog post Ashley Tisdale is making a music video for her new single Voices In My Head and i’m super excited about it, it’s been too long and I can’t wait to see how it comes out, I feel it’s gonna be really good knowing Ashley, I like all her music videos to be honest.

So yeah that’s all I have for you guys, my day’s been pretty alright in case you guys think that I didn’t have a good one, I did, just had a few moments is all. I hope you don’t mind these kind of posts, I guess you can call them evening blog pages, now that i’m really thinking about it, I might just write this one in one of my journals as well and I might do more of these every now and again, not all the time just certain days, anyway I hope you all are enjoying the night, i’ll see you again before going to sleep with something new.

 

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~

 

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