M O N D A Y S!

Mondays are the days that begin again, it brings connection which allows the rest of the days to follow soon after! We often see Mondays in a Garfield the cat sort of way, it’s not everyone’s favorite day, but the way I like to see it, with Mondays you get more of a clean slate with it. Monday’s aren’t really a favorite of mine either, but I have grown to appreciate it a little more, it’s not a bad day specifically it all just comes down to what actually transpires within the day that can leave it feeling like the best day ever or the most crappiest day ever, but it also comes to how well you handle and get through the day in the start of the week!

Mondays can always feel like a chore to get through, but the reason for that isn’t the day itself, but the energy we put out with it, we look at Monday’s and think “Ugh” not realizing that those thoughts have the ability to lead out the rest of our days for that week. It’s true…..the energy that you put out will always be the energy that is given back to you, it’s a reflection and if you keep the reflection the same, you leave no room for it to be different….unless you switch up the energy!

You can still feel those emotions, you just got to be mindful of them…..which can be a bit hard, to be quite honest, I struggle with this sort of problem, now I don’t mean in a sense of not liking Mondays, like I said I’ve grown to respect Mondays, I see it in a different way and feel it to have a specific theme! To explain it, would be hard, so it may not make much sense! The way I look at it, is…..we all feel the days differently in a more deeper way that can be hard to pin point, yet it still feels to be of some kind of importance, now what kind of importance it is, comes down to what it feels like to you!

I’ll try and give an example the best way I’m able to, so it can kind of make sense…to me, Mondays have this sort of putting pen to paper kind of thing to it, so brainstorming in a way, preparing for whatever it is that needs preparing and working towards how you want the rest of the week to play out, not in a busy way, but in a more efficient way that’s not going to leave you feeling like there’s still loads to do at the end of it! I also feel music to be involved in some way, but that’s because I love music, but for some reason for me I think of Mondays and music comes to mind first, but it also has that feeling of coming across something new, new music, new video games, potential ideas of some sort those kind of things, just full of new discoveries!

Mondays have a practice vibe to it, it’s not about getting everything done all at once, but just trying to figure out efficient ways of doing things, learning to include the practice of managing things better and seeing how well you’re able to prepare yourself in a more still kind of way if that makes better sense….if it doesn’t that’s okay, but that how I always feel Mondays to be like at least to me when thinking about it!

Now I may have wrote all of this, but it doesn’t mean I’ve mastered any of it….it’s actually one of the things I struggle with, knowing how to prepare things out properly, now planning may not be a strong suit of mine, I’m more with the go with the flow kind of girl, but that doesn’t mean I’m going to stop trying to figure it out, eventually it will click and I’ll know that I will better understand it in a way that it becomes second nature in way, it just comes with practice same with everything else!

Back to the whole energy of Monday’s though, hopefully I didn’t get too off track there and that this all still makes sense, my deliveries aren’t always the greatest I know, but to wrap everything up in a somewhat slightly nice slanted bow…..Monday’s don’t have to always seem so draggy and chore daunting, it can be fun and full of excitement, you just have to give it the energy you want out of it and shield off any negative projectiles coming at you the best way you can….really it just comes down to making the best out of a situation and being mindful of what thoughts and emotions you’re giving off for the day!

If you start the week off in a panic….the rest of day is going to be filled with chaos most likely (not always) but it will feel like it! If you wake up thinking to yourself “I just want it to be Friday already” knowing the week just started then don’t be surprise when you feel it to be Wednesday, but it’s actually Tuesday! We have to try and give each day the best energy we can, we don’t have to be feeling 100%, however if the day is feeling super crappy, find something that will help change up that crappy energy or if you find it’s going slow….and you’ve done everything you needed to do that day….don’t be afraid to use that extra time on yourself if it’s needed!

Maybe there’s something you meant to do, but never got around for, you can always use that extra time for that thing you’ve been wanting to do….if you have that extra time, try and see in what ways you can use it! Maybe you don’t have that extra time and the day has flown away from you, if that’s the case try not to get too upset on not getting all that you wanted done that day, like I said not everything needs to be done all at once…..allow yourself to leave room for what hasn’t been done then for another time, because 9/10 it’s meant for another time, allow yourself to finish up what it is your doing in the moment and leave what you weren’t able to do for later.

Mondays are at the beginning of the week for a reason…..we need Monday in order for the other days to flow properly without, it would always feel like something is missing…..Mondays are what a blank canvas is before the creativity start flowing, it’s about preparation in getting things ready before you’re really ready to go, that’s what Monday’s mean to me, maybe it means something different to you! Feel free to share what you feel when you think of Mondays!

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Happy Holidays, May It Treat You All Kind!

Ahhh the holidays…..some people love it, while others…..loath it! To be fair the holidays are always a bit of an up in the air kind of topic, it’s always getting mixed feelings whenever it rolls around! The way I see it however is, I try and make the most of the holidays, it’s not always been the greatest of times, but even then I know that you can always choose to focus on the best parts of it. I think one of the reasons most people don’t really enjoy the holidays is due to the fact that, the people they celebrated those times with are no longer around, so every time it does come to the jolliest of jolly days…..it’s hard to get into the spirit of it!

Which I understand, it’s never easy to go through life without always having that one person there to help you get through it or just help to be the best part of it….and when that person or number of people are no longer here…..it just always feels like something is missing and no matter how hard you may try to put it in the back in of your mind, you’re always going to find yourself feeling that heaviness of not having that person there.

I was thinking about this to myself not that long ago as I was washing the dishes, it’s been a bit of a morning coming from a very long eventful week, it’s not been super crazy the morning anyway, there was just something that happened yesterday evening that had the morning be a little down-ish, but I like to think that it’s a little bit better now, maybe not in a complete sense of it, but a good sense of it nonetheless!

Anyway, I was thinking to myself on how if it were possible to always have certain people with us in the sense of the people that are no longer here….we wouldn’t have to worry and they would just be with us always, but as we all are aware deep down, that’s not always possible…..and as much as I don’t want to say it, the reality of it is that it wouldn’t be life is we had the choice to have that happen.

Life is a very interesting thing, but one of the things to life is that although we have control of certain ways of life, we don’t have control of everything and that’s something that no matter how much we know it and how much we wish we did….there’s no denying that we don’t and that’s where it will always be hard, especially when it comes to those that are very special in our lives or when trying to do something even! Whether we all feel it or not, we all like a bit of control let’s face it, but it’s when there are things that are out of our control where we stress ourselves out more, knowing deep within us, there’s nothing we can do about it,

Yet we will still try and have it in our minds until we’re blue in the face because it’s just difficult to comprehend, we may accept it after fighting so long to not want to understand, but it doesn’t mean that it’s still easy…..

There’s many reasons to why the holidays are always such a rough time for most people. It could be that something big happened during that time and not in a good way, not talking on the fact of losing people here, but more in a sense of having something deep and personal happen! Maybe for some, you might’ve been battling inner demons for a specific amount of years until eventually getting through it and coming out on the other side safely or just not having the best holiday experiences, due to family not always being the best, not having anyone to celebrate it with and many other reasons.

So whenever it comes around it’s just always this….not wanting to use the word Trauma, but maybe for those out there it could be for that reason, where a big Traumatic event happened during the holidays or it just not always been positive whenever it did come to this time of year….like I said, the holiday times are rough and it’s always when it gets close to the end of the year because that’s when we do most of our reflecting, with all the things we felt, what we went through, trying to release everything in our hearts and mind in hopes that those things don’t follow us into the new year, which sometimes it does, because we don’t allow ourselves to let go of all those things that kept us up all night and feeling so stressed out!

We may feel like we let it all go, but we still carry certain events, thoughts, emotions with us and I’m not saying it’s bad, it’s good to keep things close to our hearts, it’s just the things that we choose to carry are the same things that we can’t control instead of just allowing some of those uncontrolled things to unfold the way they’re meant to all while accepting and letting go of the things that may be unfinished for a reason…..

As for the holidays, yeah it’s hectic and full of mixed emotions, but it’s not always bad, there’s always something to look forward to, we just have to be willing to see it and trust that it will always lead somewhere good, be it big or small….I think we all sometimes forget what the holidays are truly about, which is why the whole magic and feel of it gets a bit lost, but it doesn’t mean that it’s not still there, it’s always there, it can just take a while to really see it, due to the journey being a bit bumpy and going all over the place, but even then we should always try and appreciate it, because without all our journey experiences, we wouldn’t be who we are today!

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Up And Early….With Some Thoughts!

Good Morning! Happy Saturday hope you’re all having a very nice and relaxing weekend or just a nice weekend, if you’re up and running around today! I got up a bit early today for no reason, but then went back to sleep for a while, originally when I got up it was about 7:48am I believe, I had a feeling it was early the first time I got up, I just didn’t know it was that early and when I went back to sleep and got up again, it was about 8:26am! I tend to get up around 8am anyway so that’s my usual time of getting myself up, if my body wakes me up early….I’ll get up about 7am and will stay up during that time if I feel I can’t get back to sleep or I’m just feeling like an early bird!

but if I’m just getting up early for nothing, I’ll randomly find myself up between the times of 2am, 3am, 4am, 5am & 6am, lately though the earliest of early of me getting up will be about like maybe 5am or 6am tops the other times are only when I have too much in my head and I have trouble sleeping…..the latest that I tend to get up or prefer to get up is 9am…..sometimes on rare occasions 10am, but that’s only when I’m really really tired and haven’t slept in a while, it’s not my preferred time to get up, but when it happens I know it’s because I barely slept so I try not to beat myself up when I do get up at that time!

I don’t really know why I’m writing about this so if you’re confused well so am I, sometimes I just write whatever feels like coming out and I try not to question it, but I don’t have a clue on why I just explained all of that to you guys…..don’t mind me! Hopefully everyone’s morning has gone well, I know for some of you out there, it’s probably the afternoon or getting close to the evening time, It’s 10am now as I’m continuing writing this post….when I got up this early morning I sat outside for a bit and was taking a lot of things in, for one….you know we’ve arrived in September cause it’s getting more chilly out, although it tends to be pretty cold in the early mornings anyway, but even when it’d not super early and the suns out beaming all over you, you tend to notice how different the air is and how cooler it’s gotten compared to the other days!

You know it’s September when you start to see more Crows flying by, before you’d only see them here and there, but the amount of crows I’ve been seeing since September started just by sitting outside is a good amount to count, it’s quite mad! I know I recently talked about doing a lot of thinking about things, which I am, I’ve not stopped thinking recently, there’s a lot going on personally, some a little too personal to share on here, although sometimes I want to, but I don’t for the simple fact of, it’s not everyone’s business, there are things you keep to yourself and there are things you only share with close people…..

Sometimes though, you don’t even want to share it with the people around you either, because you feel like it will only burden them and it’s best to not say anything and deal with it yourself! However it can get a lot to handle and sometimes you don’t know what to do, but you keep trying anyway, even when you know you should probably stop…..and you want to stop, but then just when you think that everything is good…..it comes right back and you’re there having to deal with it again! You keep strong though and you push through!

but life will keep pushing you until you do something and that could either be approaching the situation and facing the music or you leave it alone and sometimes life pushes you, for you to leave it alone or for you to finally say “THAT’S IT, NO MORE” I guess it all comes back to choosing your battles knowing when to fight or to just surrender, lay down the sword and walk away…..sometimes that’s hard because it could mean leaving something that was once important to you behind…..but at some point you have to realize that you can’t fight every battle and you can’t be the one to fix everything! You can be there for people and you help them in the best way possible, but if they refuse to listen and just continuously bring nothing, but drama after drama, you have to think about what’s best for you and your health!

Ask yourself if you want to keep fighting this fight!? Don’t get me wrong some things are definitely worth fight for, like love, happiness and whatever else you feel is worth it! That being said…..there are things that don’t need to always be fought over and if you find yourself stuck in the same old storm and fighting the same battle constantly, eventually you’re not going to have enough energy left to fight or just use for yourself and that’s where you’ll need to worry because without energy, you’ve already lost the battle….so save your energy and use it wisely on what to use it on!

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Let’s Talk: Clocker

Happy Thursday! Hope you all are well and safe, boy was yesterday quite the day, I don’t know how many people experienced last nights hurricane, we had a lot of flooding happening, water even came into our house, it wasn’t too bad, we caught it before it got worst, but it was a good amount of water, but more like puddles of water so nothing got damaged luckily, in other places though that’s a different story, but it was okay! For those who also experienced the really unexpected bad storm, I hope you all are doing well and that it wasn’t too bad for you guys!

Now let’s talk about what this post is about…..you’re probably looking at the title going “huh!?” Clocker for those unsure, is a video game that I downloaded not that long ago, I’ve only played it once, it’s pretty much a puzzle game with a pretty neat story, you can also consider it an adventure game as well! Clocker from what I gathered playing it is about a father trying to get back to his daughter, I’ll try not to spoil the game too much in case some of you find it interesting and want to play it for yourselves, but pretty much you are given this old looking Clock by some random old guy and as you advance in the game, you find that time has stopped and you’re there trying to figure out how to restart it so that you can get back to your daughter!

There’s more to it obviously, but you have to play it to understand the concept of it! Like I said it’s a really neat game, it’s different to what I would normally play, but it’s really nice, in the game the clock that you get from the old guy, you soon discover that it let’s you control certain events so whatever is frozen you can help advance it and rewind to get through each section so you can collect the things that are needed, did I mention that the father character in the game fixes clocks for a living!? So being that you disable and reassemble clocks and watches and that, you have to get all the missing pieces that came off from the stopwatch, yeah! Like I said it’s pretty cool, I didn’t get that far into the game, I’m kind of stuck on a level, I would get so close to solving it, but will still end up missing something so I got to go back and figure it out!

I wasn’t expecting to enjoy the game has much as I did, when I first played it it wasn’t hard to understand, you start off taking apart a watch and going through the story mode of the game with certain dialogs, which was kind of fun, I liked taking apart things, I haven’t played it in a couple of weeks though, but I will eventually get back into it soon, it was really fascinating! I have a feeling I know what the message of the game is, but before I share it, I want to play it more to see if it is what I think it is, which it might end up being cause it seems to be going in that direction, but I want to enjoy the game and discover what other things it has going for it, just play it, understand it better, once I finish the game I will do a part two on it and update you on it’s story and let you know if I got the message to it correct! Hopefully I didn’t spoil anything on the game for you guys if I did….I’m sorry, but if I didn’t then cool!

I would recommend anyone who wants to try out a new game to give this one a try, the graphics and gameplay may be a little different to what you might like in a game, depending what kind of games you like and all, but I still would say to give it a try, it might surprise you and who knows it might be your new favorite game, but if it’s something that you think you personally wouldn’t go for then that’s okay too, I didn’t think I was going to go for it before I actually played it, but I also still had it in my wish list to try, because it was something that looked interesting, but everyone’s different!

If this game is something that catches your attention then go get it, it’s actually not that bad in price! I got it during a sale, but I think it’s about 6 dollars-10 the max…..correction it’s actually 4 dollars ($3.99 USD 3.59 GPB) I went and checked, but yeah you can find this game on the Nintendo eshop, if this game is something you’d consider then I definitely recommend it! Part 2 of this post will be up eventually and that post will be my full thoughts on the game once I’ve finished it of course!

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Ways Of Productivity…..

It’s the 5th of May today and I believe I just rhymed a moment ago……I know this month just started a few days ago, but anyone else feel it moving a little quickly and slowly at the same time!? Just me okay…..how are you guys doing, have you been holding up well with everything!? Are you feeling okay, how’s the week been treating you so far!? I know things are still ongoing, but I do hope you’re all doing alright at least!!

On to productivity…..we all have different ways of being and keeping productive, some of us are more productive in the morning, some around the afternoon and then you have those little percentages of people that are more productive around the evening, towards the dead of night to be exact

We all have a specific time of day that we may feel more energized, creative or just have times that we prefer overall, whether those times work within or productivity or not. Now even when we try to be more productive with our time, we don’t always know the best way to keep productive, I don’t know about you guys, but I find that my productivity switches at times,

Some days I find that I can be more productive in the morning time and sometimes I do better around the afternoon, it’s actually a preferred time for me and where I feel my productivity works better, on rare occasions i’ll have some random energy that finds it’s way to me somehow and will feel inspired for a moment to use my productivity during the evening,

but those are rare times, I tend to have my productivity come through between the morning and the afternoon, but mostly around the afternoon. Some may say the mornings are better to be productive, but it’s all on where you feel most inspired and creative!! I won’t say i’m always super productive and I don’t always use my time wisely the way I should i’ll admit

but trying to focus on being more productive with my time is something, i’ve been doing my best with, trying to keep in mind and take notes on (both mentally and actually) speaking of I did a video (I know lame way to add that in…..believe me I always find it a little awkward at times doing that)

no, but I did do a video talking about Productivity and trying to prioritize our time a little better, what is expressed in the video i’ll just keep there so you can hear it for yourselves in case you’re curious, you can check it out here: Productivity & Prioritizing I feel there’s some stuff that I should probably expand on now that i’ve written this post…..if it’s still in my head i’ll do it, but for now i’ll just write it down as a later idea, I might not choose to have it be recorded in a video kind of way, but more in a way that i’ve kinda been going back in forth with as an idea for a bit now…..

Where would you guys say you’re more productive in the day!?

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

For The Moment….

For the moment, you have to let it go, I know it’s hard and you may not want to, but for the moment you have to, it’ll come back around, you just have to give it time to do so, everything takes time, no matter how fast we may want it to go or how bad we want it to happen, it’s still going to take time, if we tried to rush everything we had going on, we wouldn’t be able to see all the progress we’ve made along the way, when we try and rush things we don’t give it the time it needs to fully unfold, sure it can turn into a stressful matter because we don’t know how everything will play out….

Not knowing can get pretty frustrating, but trying to rush things to happen is much more frustrating, because you’re expecting there to be quick results, you’re wanting everything to happen right away, you gotta give it the time it needs to come together, what is yours, will always be there for you, it’s not going anywhere, just because it may go for a while doesn’t mean that it’s going to go forever, it’s still there, but sometimes it has to go away in order for it to come back to you better.

It’s not always clear why and at times it’s not going to be and that’s okay, but you need to know there’s nothing to worry about, things just need time, you gotta give it time, trust that everything is working in the order it needs to, for the moment let the worries, stress and everything else go, put it to the side and let the control of wanting everything to play out a certain way go.

Everything will soon fall into place, but for the moment let it go, anytime you’re feeling this way, look back at this post or find a way to sit with this feeling and accept it, don’t fight it so much, instead try and look at it with different eyes, try to understand it and even if you don’t truly get it, know that that’s okay, but don’t feel you need to give up, you don’t have to give up,

Just GIVE IT TIME, LOOSEN UP and relax, stop stressing, it’s going to work out and it will come together, so take a breather, recollect and trust, keep that hope close to you and keep it in a place of safe keeping until then.

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Time……

Fast time, slow time, what time is it!?

My time, your time, who’s time is it!?

Is it wrong, is it right, why is it hard to pick a time!?

No time to worry, no time to stress,

All we need to do is figure out a time to sort it……

We can sort it, I know we can, it’s just all on the time.

No timing is right, no timing is wrong,

All that matters is that it’s sorted…….

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~