Early Morning Thoughts….

Well it’s about 4am at the current moment, yeah I’m not really sure why i’m up so early either…..I’ve tried going back to sleep, but I haven’t had much luck so here I am writing a post this early in the morning! Hope everyone’s morning is going well so far, I know it’s been a bit of a while since I went ahead and wrote anything….I’ll be honest I haven’t really felt the need to write, lately I’ve only been writing every now and again. I guess that’s just where I’m at currently just writing every now and again, when I started this blog, it was because I felt I didn’t really have much of a voice, I was having a very hard time expressing myself out loud vocally

It was thanks to a very good friend of mine where I found out about WordPress, she helped me set it up and everything and from there I now had a place to express myself freely in anyway I liked and saw fit, plus I always used to write anyway just in a journal, I never really thought to express my feelings using a blog site before, but after learning about it, I started writing to help me get my feelings out that were hard for me to express naturally! It’s coming to 4 years of creating this blog and although I don’t write as much to when I first started, I still hold a very big fondness of the site I created….I know it probably sounds weird that I’m speaking about this especically so early in the morning, let alone randomly, but I’m hoping that you understand regardless!!

I’m always writing, even when I’m not writing if that makes sense!? No matter where I am or where I go I tend to have some kind of journal on me, I may not write in it all the time, but I know that if I were to need it, all I have to do is go into my back and jot down a few things and then some….but I should try and be honest and say that I do sometimes get tired of writing and when I say it like that I don’t mean it in a bad way, I’m not saying I don’t ever want to write again….I just for one know myself very well and I know that me not writing just won’t happen, but sometimes I write a lot, like more than I expect sometimes and although I’m always amazed by how much I get out that way…..

I just would like to be able to show myself more and be okay with expressing it vocally without feeling like I’m going to say the wrong thing or just not have that same confidence that I do when I am writing, I really don’t like having to be afraid of saying what it is that is on my mind and hoping that when I’m expressing it, I’m not sitting there wondering to myself “is it going to be understood, will I say it the same way I’m thinking it!?” because I always know that it’s not going to come out the same, it always comes out a totally different way and having to explain what I actually mean to certain people, just….raises my Anxiety and stress levels up, I try not to be that way at times, but sometimes it’s a little impossible especially when you’re someone with a lot of patience who does their best to make sure they’re really understanding people and what their feelings!

That all being said however, as much as I may not want it to be sometimes, writing is my way of expressing myself clearly without much worry, even when I’m afraid to say things….it always shows patience with me as weird as it is to say, but it’s the truth! If were to tell you the many times I was terrified of writing things down, always getting myself anxious and stressed out because I didn’t know where to start, but eventually something would come out and I would just follow it from there, I know I’ve improved in being more open when I speak,

but I also know that I still struggle to get my true feeling inside out, especially when I need it to count most and that’s what where I need to build my courage towards standing up for the things I feel strongly about regardless to how it gets interpreted and if I have to write it down just to get it out there, then I need to not be afraid of using what works to my adventage when I feel myself struggling the most to get it out vocally…..it will always leave me emotional, for different reasons 1. because of how easily frustrated I get with myself and 2. because I know that once I do get out what it is I need to get out, that I am going to feel loads better about it and say “see it wasn’t so bad….sorta” right after i’ve given myself so much headaches about it!

It can be a lot to deal with sometimes, but I know that the only way things move forward is by trying even when it seems hard, I always feel the need to say something, but never do because I hold myself back a lot, I know I’ve evolved a lot from before, it’s just putting those things into orbit that I have trouble with, oh and in case it wasn’t clear….this is me also apologizing for not writing in a while, even though I did say that my writing was slowing down and that I wouldn’t be writing as much, but still I always feel I should at least write sometimes….but I’m giving myself permission to be okay with writing when I feel it to be necessary,

We’re all human and we shouldn’t put ourselves in a tight hold so much, but anyway it’s almost 5:30am as I wrap up this post, I’m going to try and get a bit more rest, I’ve only slept 4 hours, I’ll be missing the sunrise, but that’s okay I’ve seen half of it, hope you guys have a good rest of the day, take care and stay safe!

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

So We’ve Entered December….

We’re now on the second day of December and let me tell you….it’s one of them chaotic days, you know the stressed out, everything is everywhere and all you want to do is close your eyes and take a nap and just listen to the silence around you, yeah that kind of day! It sorta slowed down a bit as I’m writing this, but earlier, there was a lot going on.

I can’t believe we’re nearing the end of the year, talk about 2021 flying by yeah!? It doesn’t help that it’s around the holidays too, I mean the holidays are ALWAYS busy with everyone doing late Christmas shopping trying to get everything done all at once and probably driving themselves mad to be fair with how hectic it gets around this time of year, I mean it never fails, but we just learn to accept it as it is!

Last week when we we’re still in the month of November, even though it ended two days ago….still, when I tell you last week was busy….it was busy….everything was happening within that whole week, Thanksgiving/my nephews birthday as well as his party after his birthday, there was just a lot of events in one day and hey you would think after it was over that you’d be able to relax somewhat, but noo, not quite!!

Now we’re in a whole new month and the years practically over…..and Christmas is making it’s way towards us, I mean it’s a couple weeks away, but if you really think about it, it’s already here, It was here once November started and once Halloween left the building…..I can’t really say what this years been like is that weird to say!? Some people might be able to talk about all that’s happened with them and everything they’ve been up to and what they’re planning on doing for the upcoming year…..however I feel like it’s still a bit uncertain just what will come for the new year….as far as what this years been like, well…..a lot of different things happened, some slightly big, some not that big!

I had a few new experiences, nothing too dramatic though, but they were still nice ones nonetheless! I did have some plans that didn’t quite go accordingly, but that’s okay, a lot of the time, things work out better when they aren’t planned, but just because, plans don’t happen in the time you want them too, doesn’t mean it won’t happen later down the line, everything happens for a reason, if it’s meant to happen it will always find a way and I will always believe that to be true, so…..if plans fell short for some of you out there this year, don’t give up on them, maybe those plans will transform into something completely different then what you might have initially thought and will end up surprising you in a way that you have yet to imagine!

Other than that, it’s been quite the year, full of many ups and downs and whirlwinds galore, 2021 has brought a lot of mixed feelings for everyone, including myself, but there’s still time to make the most of the year with these next few weeks of December, if it’s been tough, just keep doing your best and have faith that it’ll turn around soon enough! Sorry if this post is a short one…..kind of dealing with a headache at the moment, just a mild one though, plus I’ve been a bit low on energy, but I wanted to try and write something for today!

I hope that you all have been having a good day and week, take care, stay safe and happy holidays!

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

11:11….This Is Where You Make A Wish

Good Afternoon…..Happy Thursday or as Isabelle from Animal Crossing would say Friday’s Eve which is a bit true if you really think about it…..I mean every time Thursday rolls around you know it’s time to celebrate because that’s when you know you’re close to the weekend time! I hope that everyone’s week has been going alright….I must say this week has gone by pretty quickly don’t you think, I mean the fact that we’ve already arrived at Thursday and we’re almost at Saturday is a bit mad, but it’s also good too so I won’t complain about it!

Now I know what you’re probably thinking….what is this title of a post!? Well if you don’t already know today is November 11th, that might not seem like a very important thing and for some it might not be, as far as you’re concerned it’s just a month and a day, but the fact that we’ve come to the 11th month on the 11th day, is very big actually, it’s a bit hard to explain it, but if you know anything about it then you’ll understand what I mean here. If you don’t quite get what the importance is with 11:11 then I’m probably going to sound crazy…..but to put it in few words in the best way that I can explain it….11:11 is the number of being aligned, so if ever you are to see this number it means that you are exactly where you’re supposed to be in this moment, at least that’s part of it anyway, this number can mean a lot of different things!

Believe it or not it’s not only 11:11 that is important, although it’s what most people know of to be of importance the most, but every number is important! If you’re constantly seeing the same number all of the time however, be it a favorite number, your birthday or just a random number that you find follows you everywhere you go, you might want to look into that number, there could be a message in them for that you need to know! Every number has it’s own special thing to it, but it’s when a single number is tripled or you see it as a 4 digit, maybe 5 digit number to where it can become even more powerful!

So for example say you see the number 555 or 444 and it’s not just once that you see it, maybe you notice you’re seeing it twice in one day or every time you are out for a walk….if you’re constantly seeing these triple digit numbers, take a really good look at them….especially if ever you find yourself wondering about them and why you’re always seeing them so much! You might at times come across numbers like 2222, 3333 and are wondering what exactly they mean….just know you might want to add it to your “definitely need to look into that” list, when you start seeing 4 digits instead of 3 it means you’re meant to pay close attention!

When these numbers appear constantly they’re inviting you to research the message they have for you, so that you can understand what it is they want you to know! It probably doesn’t make much sense I know, it’s okay if this sound like a weird language, but there is something to them, if you choose to look into them! So if you ever feel yourself becoming just a little curious to why you’re always seeing the same number over and over again, it’s probably because there’s a message for you that is important for you to know! Numbers are a bit weird and they can seem quite complicated, but they can be pretty helpful in knowing things that may be going on in your life that you may not be aware of!

It’s kind of like getting a message in a bottle every day or anytime you need to know something that you may have missed, it keeps you in the know and allows you to stop and really think about certain things! It can also be a good way to know if you’re on the right track! What I mean by that is say you have an idea, but you aren’t really sure if you should go forth with it or you just need a bit of encouragement…..it could also just be maybe you’re wanting a confirmation on something that may come out to be exactly what you had in mind originally, things like that it’s the best way I can explain it at least….

There’s many ways though to find out if you’re on the right track of something, but numbers are one of the best ways of knowing more, without knowing more if that makes sense!? That way you get to understand better and really know what something is, be it a thought, emotion, a random idea, whatever it is you’re needing or may need help with!

Back to 11:11 though…..there’s more to this number then what I’ve explained, but if you want to keep it simple and you believe in what most people call superstitions, if you haven’t already…..make a wish later on tonight at 11:11pm and when you do take a deep breath with your eyes close and think of something that you would like to happen or would want and wish for it! Let the universe know what it is you have in your heart that you would like to share and if you don’t have anything specific in mind you can always just choose to have something continue that is very important to you and show that you appreciate and are grateful for those things!

You don’t have to feel like you need to say a lot, you could just say thank you to what you already have and just for the moment that you’re in and if you want you could even use that wish for someone else to have, it’s whatever you feel and how you choose to use that wish, I hope that you all choose well, take care, stay safe and have a good rest of the day!

Update

Here’s my latest podcast episode, I actually recorded it a little bit earlier during the late evening, I’m not going to lie it’s a bit of a weird one, also it’s got a bit of this post in it, but it’s not all the same, if you’re interested check it out! There’s a glitch again…so if you see episode 45 instead of 46 you know why…..I’ll give it a day to fix itself until then…..you can listen to the episode here: It’s November 11th….and I’ve Got A Few Things To Say With It Ep. 46

Let's Talk: Encanto (Movie Thoughts) Part 1 Ep. 48 Daydreamer's Podcast

Happy Wednesday, in today's episode we finally get to discuss one of my current favorite movies that is Encanto, I didn't get to say all that I wanted to share so we'll be doing a second part sometime soon, but for the most part I did get to give my some thoughts about the film, so I hope you like the episode, I had a lot of energy when recording this one!! 
  1. Let's Talk: Encanto (Movie Thoughts) Part 1 Ep. 48
  2. Getting Organized….Where To Start? (Blog Post) Ep. 47
  3. It's November 11th….and I've Got A Few Things To Say With It Ep. 46
  4. Animal Crossing In November…..(Slight Monthly Chat) Ep. 45
  5. Animal Crossing Direct Thoughts (Part 1) Ep. 44

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

February Snow, Thursday Madness….

With the start of February already here, you’d think that it would fly by quick, the first week of it anyway, but I don’t know I feel like this week has been slowly coming, almost dragging in a way, the season itself, I guess is enjoying it’s stay, it’s been a very odd Winter if you really think about it, when you don’t really expect snow to show, it ends up surprising you and coming out of nowhere…but at least you can say this Winter has really felt like it’s seasonal intentions, compared to prior years before.

Today feels like a whole traffic jam of a day though, weird way to describe a day I know, but it was the first thing that came to my mind when I thought about the day so far, at least that’s what my day feels like! It’s gotten a little bit calmer however within the hour which is pretty nice I must say!! One thing that seemed to work and help a bit was to put on some headphones and play some music to block out any excessive noise, I actually had a few ideas for posts while listening to some music so keep a look out!

Sometimes you just need something to replace a bit of extra noise and bring in more peaceful sounding noise, it may only do a bit in the moment, but that’s all it really takes to change the pace of things and get the crowded energy to loosen up a bit and enjoy something for a while, it doesn’t necessarily have to be music of course, it can be anything you feel to be your go to of tuning out and immersing yourself into whatever works for you, for me it’s music and watching my favorite videos/channels ect…it all comes down to what your go to de stressor or moment of peace is!!

My current listens are the Frozen 2 Soundtrack (mainly the 4-7 songs I play on a daily) other add in’s are Harry Styles two songs Adore You & Watermelon Sugar (I haven’t heard the whole album yet, soon though soon) that’s pretty much it at the moment, but until I get tired of the songs which I haven’t yet and i’m hoping it stay that way, but until I get tired of it, i’m still going to jam out to those songs non stop!! Sorry if this post was a little short, but hope you’re all having a good Thursday and that the rest of the week, tomorrow and it as a whole was/is a good one and I hope your weekend turns out well too!!

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa