Stay Strong Your Breakthrough Will Come Within Time Dear………

Life can be rough sometimes as we all know, but we go through it and do the best that we can to keep our heads up when stuff around us start to fall apart, but let’s face it we all know that eventually we’re all gonna have a few breakdowns from time to time and we can try and save face and be positive about everything, but most of the time it’s just not gonna work. So what do you do when you’ve had so many good days where you’ve felt the most confident you’ve ever felt in ages and then out of nowhere there’s that one day where you just come undone and feel like if what you’re even doing is worth it or you just feel defeated of some sort!? I don’t have the answer really to this, but what I can say is, if you are feeling like you’re coming undone…….just let it out and feel what you’re feeling, sure maybe you don’t know why it is you’re feeling the way you are, but letting it out and knowing you’re feeling the way you do helps you to not have to hold it in, because you should never hold in your feelings, know that it’s okay to fall apart once in a while, especially when you’ve held yourself together for so long.

Falling apart doesn’t mean that you aren’t strong, having the feeling of wanting to fall apart sometimes is only you being human and you have every right to feel the emotions that you do, I think I said this before and if I didn’t i’ll say it now, no one is 100 percent happy all the time, you can try and be, but eventually everything around you, within you and just everything in general will catch up to you and you’re not gonna have any choice, but to breakdown and just let your emotions take over. They say we have the power to control our thoughts and that’s true, but sometimes when we try and control our thoughts sometimes they can get the better of us and whatever we’re feeling just starts to come out all at once just like a scattering rainstorm and once that happens there’s really nothing we can do in that moment, but to just let it happen.

No one likes to breakdown especially when it hits you out of nowhere, it makes you feel like your weak even when you tell yourself it’s normal, but no matter how much you try and pick yourself up, you know that you’re just gonna end up breaking down anyway, but just know that breakdowns aren’t a bad thing. Breakdowns help you get all those emotions you’ve been keeping pent up for so long out, but sometimes they like to sneak up on you when you’re at your highest, pretty much reminding you that your other emotions exist too not that we don’t know that, but don’t think that when you have your moment of vulnerability that you should dismiss it and not feel it………no feel it because if it’s happening it’s because you need to let it out and don’t worry about what others think when it comes to your emotions, everyone has their breaking point so don’t feel bad for having yours when you do.

With all that said even when you’re breaking down, once you stop feeling it and you’ve let out all the emotions that you could, remember that even when you’re coming undone you’re still strong and you still have so much to give. It’s okay to fall down sometimes as long as you get back up and keep on pushing, even when you’re at your lowest of lows just keep on pushing and stay as strong as you can until you have to let your emotions out again, everything that’s happening is gonna makes you so much more stronger than you already are, you just gotta be willing to fall a few times, but even when you do fall just know that you won’t be on the ground for long, either you’ll get yourself up or you’ll have someone willing to help you through it all, while make sure that you’re okay in the process.

Know that within time everything you’re going for and are keeping your focus on will see the light and will all be worth it, you just hang in there and keep going and remember breakdowns are just for the moment so don’t stress too much on it, just let them happen when they do and like the title of this blog post says, stay strong and know that your breakthrough will come within time, you’re doing great with whatever it is you’re doing, so don’t let others discourage you and don’t let yourself fall too far, if you happen to let yourself fall too far just know that if you want to, you’ll find your way back. Trust in yourself and keep going after what you want, sooner or later you’ll get there and when you do, take that well deserved breath and take everything in while you’re at it, there’s a possibility you’ll fall apart and break down, but this time it’ll be different.

Okay so that’s all from me for now, I hope you all are able to take something from today’s blog post and if you’re going through a rough time at the moment I hope you’re okay and I wish you nothing, but the best for you in your life journey, know that you are all greatness if you believe in yourself and the things you’re capable of. Stay strong, keep pushing and know that everything will be alright and it’ll work out. Hope you guys have a goodnight/morning and or evening.

 

All The Love ❀ ❀

~Lexa~

 

 

Dealing With Anxiety, Depression, Eating Disorders And Other Mental Illnesses…….

Let’s talk about dealing with Anxiety for a moment shall we!? I’m gonna be the one to say it and i’m sure a lot of you will agree if you too deal with anxiety on a daily basis. Anxiety is the WORST sometimes, especially when you’re dealing with something that shouldn’t be that big of a deal, but it is for some reason, it’s like no matter what you do your brain just likes to remind you there’s a problem and that it’s totally gonna make it a bigger problem then it actually is. Now i’ll be real because that’s why i’m writing this and I want to be as real as I can when it comes to my blog posts. I feel if you’re expressing yourself and words fail you when you need it most, writing about how you feel is the best way to get everything you’re thinking and feeling out, when you feel like you can’t really talk to anyone because they won’t really understand and get it, so you think to yourself “well since no one will listen or I know they’re not gonna understand and get it, i’ll just write it.” Writing really is a nice way to just de stress and get all your thoughts out of your mind, i’ve spoken about this before in my finding your happy place blog post, If you haven’t read that one you can read it here:Β Finding Your Happy Place…..

Anyway to dealing with Anxiety………this is a little hard for me because I don’t really like to talk about it, I only speak about it to certain people that I trust and are really close to me and the ones that I tell they either get it and understand because they too deal with certain things in their life or if they don’t get it, they will take the time to try and understand what it is i’m going through. When I was about 19 years old i’d say, I was in my teens (late teens) I had just graduated from high school or it was around the time I graduated. I went to see this specialist and with me i’m not really comfortable around certain people if I feel some kind of energy i’m not use to or that I don’t like, I stay away from it because I don’t like the way it makes me feel, so obviously if you know somethings bothering or you don’t like someone or you get a weird vibe you keep yourself away right!? So we saw this specialist and right away the vibe that I got even before I went inside the office they were in I hated it, I just didn’t like the atmosphere of the place, I hated everything about it, made me super anxious and it felt weird.

So we go into the office of the specialist who was speaking with me and I couldn’t make eye contact because I was super uncomfortable, I just wanted to get out of there so bad. While being in there, they had me do some…….I don’t know what it is, but it kinda is to see what is wrong with you, all I remember is having to look at pictures and tell them what I saw in them and also look at this book with different things in it and I think remember it or copy what I saw (It was a long time ago so I barely remember) but while doing those activities I still didn’t make eye contact with the specialist and if I did it was only for a second, like literally a second. Long story short…….good news is I was told i’m a really good visual learner and that made me happy, next part didn’t though………because he then says I have a problem with looking people in the eyes (Only people I don’t trust or like) that’s when I learned that what I had was anxiety………now I know there are a lot of different types of anxiety, but I was never really informed on which one I had so I don’t know exactly the kind I have…….but yeah I found out that I had developed anxiety and I never really understood what that was until I was told I had it. When you’re told that you’re dealing with some kind of mental illness it’s not always easy to process how you feel in that moment and to those around you, because they don’t understand it entirely and what it does to you, to them everything you’re feeling isn’t a big deal you know.

People who deal with a mental illness, be it Anxiety, Depression, Eating Disorders and all the different issues people go through on a daily basis. To them everything they’re feeling is real, it’s not just something in the moment, it’s not something you should be brushing off as just another problem and they’ll deal with it and be fine the next day……no…….those kind of illnesses don’t just go away, it’s there from the day they know they’re dealing with something, but don’t really understand what it is yet and i’ll be there for the rest of their life. People don’t understand that when it comes to dealing with a mental illness there’s a whole lot to learn, It’s not just “oh they’re going through their problems again or they’re having some kind of a bad day but no worries they’ll get over it and be okay” That’s not how it works. You ever heard that saying where it goes “The people who are the most happy are the ones suffering the most” Yeah that saying is true, people who have a daily battle within themselves, but try to save face just so people don’t ask them what’s wrong because they don’t want to have to face that fear of “if I tell them they will just think it ones of those normal issues that everyone goes through and tell me to just get over it” or they think they are being a burden on you so they won’t dare cross that line of feeling like fool and putting their mental issues on to someone else. I know that everyone goes through difficult times in their lives, but you also have to keep in mind that some people go through so much worst then what everyone thinks.

For those people who sit there and say “oh i’m so depressed” freely sure you might be, but why don’t you live in the mind of someone who deals with actual depression every day of their life. Same goes for someone dealing with anxiety and or other mental illnesses, you can’t just think that, that’s how it is because there’s a lot more to it then what society projects it as, A WHOLE LOT MORE…….When it comes to me, dealing with my anxiety is hard, i’m not gonna lie, people who deal with it will get it. Again I don’t know what kind of anxiety I have, I don’t think it’s social anxiety because when I want to i’m very expressive and I know how to make friends, but that’s only when I feel like I don’t have to pretend, I can just be me and I feel comfortable with my surroundings and with certain people. Although if you were to ask my family they’d probably tell you i’m anti-social, because honestly I don’t come out of my room so much. I stay to myself and in my room all the time, but that’s only because I enjoy being by myself, I prefer to be in my own space where I know I can be me and not have to worry about anything. When i’m around the right people though it’s like i’m a totally different person because like I said before, when I feel comfortable I can be very out-going and I enjoy myself.

If you were to watch me closely, you’d see how I am when i’m around friends or people i’m comfortable with, compared to when it’s just me and my family, it’s not that I don’t want to be around them, it’s just not my thing and plus I got so use to being by myself in my own space, it just kinda stuck with me……..To conclude what my point is here, when it comes to people who deal with Anxiety, Depression, Eating Disorders and other types of mental illness. You have to be kinder to them, you can’t just brush off their issues as normal things. You have to help them through it, talk to them about their feelings, reassure them, that kind of help, forcing them to come to you is not what you should do, go to them and really listen to how their feeling, don’t hear them, really listen. Let them know that whatever they’re going through, you’re there to help them get through it and you’re there if they need you. Stop treating mental illnesses like it’s nothing because to me and everyone else going through it, it’s not just nothing, it’s everything.

For those dealing with Anxiety, Depression and other mental illnesses, there are people who will help you and listen to you, don’t keep your emotions in, talk to someone, a friend, close family members just someone you trust and you know will really take the time to listen and also there’s a lot of different hotlines you call if you just need someone and you feel like no one will listen to you. Remember to hang in there and even though it doesn’t seem like it, things will get better and you will get through it.

That’s all from me I know this is probably the longest blog i’ve ever written, but I just felt that I had to say this because there are people dealing with these kinds of mental illnesses on a daily basis and people don’t seem to understand how serious it really is. I just hope that I said everything okay and yeah……I just want you all to know that this is from my point of you on everything and also has to do with what I feel when it comes to dealing with my Anxiety. I hope you’re all doing okay and I hope you have a good night/morning/evening.

 

All The Love ❀ ❀

~Lexa~

 

 

What do you do, when your mind constantly keeps you from staying positive?

It’s funny I actually wrote a journal entry on this last night, well the being positive part ha…….anyway the question i’m asking and maybe you are asking as well, what do you do when your mind constantly keeps you from staying positive!? That is the question isn’t it……Well to answer this question, that’s a little hard because I don’t even know half the time what to do when you’re trying your hardest to stay positive, but then end up having to face negative situations. It’s like no matter what you do the negatives always seem to overpower the positive mindset your trying to hold within yourself…..but even when that is, always try your hardest to breakthrough those negatives and keep that positive light you have even if it isn’t a lot.

As long as you have at least that bit of hope, faith, good light and energy for yourself that’s all you need and that’s all you should always focus on, no matter how bad everything is or seems around you always do everything you can to focus on your good light and good energy because that will help you through all of your darkest days even when it doesn’t seem like it. There will always be some days where you have to constantly battle within yourself trying to keep upbeat and positive when all you want to do is just stay within your thoughts and just deal with the negatives, but believe me when I say dealing with the negatives going on in your life isn’t the best thing for you, sure it’s easier to have your mind be clouded by all things bad and everything, but there’s always gonna be something there to help you outweigh the negatives and turn them into positives be it: Watching your favorite youtube channel, reading a book, listening to your favorites songs or even just sharing a laugh with some good and close friends.

No matter what it is that stops you from walking that positive road your trying to walk, you can always count on there being something to distract you from your mind and make you smile and happy again, even if it’s just for a little bit……always remember dark times aren’t always going to be around even though in the moment it seems that way, you will always find something to keep you going and help you through your path in life. Remember to keep in mind that you are stronger than your thoughts, all the difficult times you encounter in your life and just everything that is meant to keep you down.

That’s all I have to say with this one, hope I made sense and hopefully helped someone where they take this and keep it in their minds……….okay well I hope you all have a lovely day and i’m sending those who are going through a tough time at the moment or in general all the love and positive energy you might need ^_^

 

Stay strong, Keep moving forward and All the love to you all ❀ ❀

~Lexa~