Just Chatting….(Oct 5, 2019)

Hey everyone, if that’s not the most standard way of a greeting you’ve ever heard, I don’t know what it right now, but since we said it, might as well continue going with it right!? I hope you’ve all been having a good weekend and doing well, I know I haven’t written in a few days, i’ve already checked that thought off my list so you guys don’t have to……I really don’t know what to talk about if i’m being completely honest here, I thought i’d just chat away if you don’t mind, sometimes you just need to do that, you know!?

This weeks been quite something I gotta say and I don’t know in what way to put it and when I say that, I mean more on whether it was in a good way or not….I guess it was okay, but at the same time, not, I really don’t know how to feel about these past few days, today’s been a mixture of feelings, it was alright, but not, like I really don’t know how to feel today, if I can say anything about today though it’s that i’ve been in thought mode,

but if i’m being honest, i’ve been that way these past few days, okay maybe a week or two, see, i’m everywhere I tell you!! I’ve been doing my best to keep focus and occupied and it’s worked, it’s only when i’ve stopped and i’m not focusing on something to keep my head from spiraling to where I start to go on a journey let’s just say, there’s a lot of things i’m feeling that it’s hard to pick one out of the bunch, I hate when that happens…..

Also I had this very weird dream last night, yeah I know random, but it’s true, I don’t even know where to begin to describe it, I only remember bits and pieces of it….let’s see, the setting was an odd setting, I think I was brought somewhere as like a helper of some sort I really don’t know, it seemed as though I was in some kind of institute or asylum maybe, at least that was the feel of it anyway, there were people in the place where I was who, i’m not really sure how to say it, but they were like patients pretty much, they weren’t fond of having company, I don’t remember much about the dream, but there was one part I remember kinda pretty well,

I was across from this girl, she very light skinned and had blond hair, I remember asking her, her name and she did not like that question and kinda started going away from me, she didn’t say words, but she made a sound, I then told her she didn’t have to tell me her name and she calmed down a bit, I then started getting closer to her to let her know I wasn’t trying to harm her or anything, I don’t think she thought I would harm her,

But from what I could remember she seemed unsure, at least that’s how i’m going to describe it anyway I think I was going for a hug of some sort, the last thing I remember was getting close to this random girl and then her turning and before I woke up it looked like she was going to bite me or something, it was like a weird vampire/zombie kind of situation,

It’s the only way I could explain it, I know this is weird dream to have, but it was a weird dream, I didn’t quite understand that one and i’ve had a lot of weird dreams before. I really don’t know what this post is about, I just kinda wanted to write something today since it’s been a few days, sorry if this ones very short and doesn’t make a whole lot of sense,

If it helps i’ll add another random thing to this post and say that it’s midnight and i’m just having dinner and when I say dinner I mean just rice, reason I stepped out for a few hours I ended up coming back around 11 and yeah I made the quickest thing to have in my stomach before I go to sleep which will be soon, most likely around 12:30am of some sort,

Hopefully i’ll be able to sleep, i’m really tired, but sometimes it takes me a while to actually get to sleep and my minds been pretty preoccupied today so we’ll just see how the night goes in terms of catching some z’s and that, I should be okay, but I don’t know….I guess I should close off this post now,

I was going to write something else, but i’ll just save it for later on today, since it’s now Sunday, I hope you all have a very good night and that you all are doing well, speak to you soon.

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa

March 19, 2019

Green like the forest, blue like the sea and when it comes to the other colors, just throw them all on a canvas and see if you can find something in it that speaks to you, see if you’re able to see something else within all that paint. If you can, tell me what you see or if it’s a personal thing just tell yourself what you see instead, how does it make you feel, what does that hidden image mean to you!? Try and connect with it if you can………….

You might be wondering why I just wrote all of that, well i’m trying something different, instead of thinking about what exactly to write about, i’m just having it to where, words are just being added as I go along, it may not make sense, but what’s the harm in just writing a few random words, or just wanting to see what comes out of you and why it’s coming out of you!?

Just like painters sometimes just throw paint on a canvas to see what comes out of it, i’m just trying to throw random words together to see what it comes out to be later………sure I may look at this and be like “what the heck is this, this doesn’t make any sense!?” but at least it’ll be something to read back and go “oh remember when I wrote this, come to think of it……..

Why did I write this!?” the best part about that is, I can go and look back and have it where I try and remember what mood I was in when I decided to write this weird post or go back and try and figure out if whether there was some kind of meaning behind it somehow……….it may not be, but who knows maybe if I read it back, i’ll have a different kind of interpretation for it……..it’s like when a painter creates a new painting, in the moment as they’re painting it, they don’t really know what it is their exactly painting…..

They just go based off a mood they’re feeling or are inspired by something……..it’s not until their finished with that painting to where they then come up with some kind of interpretation for it. Sometimes that interpretation may change over time to them, depending on whether they still feel the same about it or if they may see it differently……….

It’s all in the eyes of the artist and how they feel on it, so when it comes to this post, right now, i’m not really sure what my meaning for it is, I just know I felt like writing it, now when I read it back in second, whatever my interpretation for it is after, that’ll be what the meaning of it is, now if I ever decide to read this back later however, i’ll probably feel the same about it ooor i’ll change my mind and it’ll have a whole new meaning to it, i’ll let you know if I ever return to this post in an update………..

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~

Theme Post: Mood

Originally Written Mar 1st

Alrighty so I had a little trouble coming up with something to write about today, I did write something earlier, but that was just a small post, so I went and asked for a little inspiration, my mom gave me an idea, but I wasn’t really sure how to write about it, so I asked my brother for a theme to write about and he gave me the theme mood……….so i’m going to give it a try.

I’m at my mom’s job today, she owns a nail salon and originally her suggestion for a theme was to write about nails and i’m not really a huge nail person, even though she does do my nails at times, so that was a suggestion that I wasn’t sure on and that’s why I asked my brother.

Now with the theme being about moods, I asked my mom, brother and other people that I knew for something that when they look at it, you know like an object or something, what mood does it put them in, as an idea so I could talk about it from my point of view, I listed a few things and chose ones that I felt I could give you my best mood description on…….

Let’s get into it shall we!?

Moon: Whenever I see or noticed the moon, I become happy, I especially love it when there’s a full moon out, it’s like whenever you see the moon it just makes you want to look at it, it always just grabs your attention the minute you see it, you can’t really help it, it just draws you in you know!?

Stars: As you can tell there’s a small theme happening, but I just really like the night, there’s something about it, but I think the best thing about the night time is getting to see stars, every time I see the stars, just like the moon I get very happy, I always loved the stars, there’s just something about them….

You just can’t help, but get a little lost and admire them whenever they’re in the sky, some are bright, some not so bright, but they’re very beautiful the way they light up the night.

Whenever it comes to the night time and the stars and the moon, for me i’m always just lost in wonder and curiosity, I always enjoyed science and learning about the planets, stars and stuff like that so, so anytime those kind of things are mentioned I get excited!!

Colors: What do I feel when I think of colors……..it depends on the color, you can feel a lot of different moods with color, for example purple I think of it as being the main base of moody colors, it can make you feel good or it can be the color that puts you in a weird mood………purple for me though I would say when I think of it I feel calm, it’s a soothing color to me.

As for the color green, because it’s my favorite color I always feel happy, I just love the color green, so yeah depending on what color it is, depends on the feeling i’ll get from it.

Autumn: Whenever I think of the season fall, it puts me in a cozy kind of mood which I like, I enjoy being in……..a little too much, but I like the feeling of cozy, I like Autumn leaves, cardigans, the way the trees are, I just really love that warmth and cozy feeling that the fall season brings.

Kids: We all know that with kids they are always filled with a little joy and happiness, they’re innocent beings who are always so curious and playful and everything, so you can’t help, but smile being around them.

For example…….I saw my little cousin yesterday and I wasn’t really in the best of moods, but seeing her made me feel a little better, she’s something that little girl, but she also always seems to know how to make you smile, because of the way she is, although she loves testing people by having them chase after her and just being too smart for her own good, you can’t help, but love her!!!

Kids know how to get to you and that’s why, even when you’re not in the best of moods you can’t help, but feel a little happy and smile whenever they’re around.

Music: Now we all know that music can gives you different emotions, so it’s hard to say what mood music gives me, because it all the feels, it makes me happy, sad, emotional, excited, music just takes you on a roller coaster, depending on what mood you’re in, will depend on how the music hits you.

Speaking of music Anna Kendrick in Pitch Perfect 3………AMAZING!!! hearing her sing makes me happy, she has a very distinct and unique voice and I love it!! I think I just got an idea off of this too……….

Glitter: What are my feelings towards glitter……….well I don’t really like glitter all that much, it’s fine to use when making something, but let’s be honest, it’s annoying when it gets everywhere, you think you got rid it, but glitter always ends up somewhere on you or around you somehow which can be irritating, because then you wonder where it came from when you find it.

Some people love glitter, I on the other hand, well……..I don’t hate it, but I don’t love it either………it’s alright, the only problem with it is, it just gets everywhere…………

Coffee: Whenever I think of coffee, I automatically think of a cafe or coffee house, mainly cafe though, but when it comes to feeling, it’s weird because I use to always drink coffee, now I only drink it sometimes, but when I did drink coffee a lot, my mood was always in two states, tired or up a bit so depending on what time I drink it, depends on my mood.

Tea: If you’re going to do one, might as well do the other too while you’re at it and since i’ve been drinking more tea then coffee, it’s only right to give it a mood description as well. Whenever I think of tea, I feel calm……tea always tend to calm me down whenever i’m feeling nervous or anxious, sometimes my emotions will still get to me, but having tea next to me, even when i’m still feeling emotions, I don’t know it makes me feel better……….

Wrestling: This is going to be the last one that I do, now I haven’t watched  wrestling a lot, but when I do watch it, I do get excited and happy, I also get  upset and angry at times too when there’s a match I don’t like or something  happened during the match that I didn’t agree with, so wrestling is another  thing that leaves me with mixed emotions, but I do love and enjoy it whenever I watch it, even when there’s stuff I don’t really agree with or like from it. 

There’s a whole lot of different things that we come across where you just have a specific feeling towards it, it doesn’t have to make sense and it doesn’t have to be anything specific, anything can make you feel something.

It all depends on what it is you gravitate towards and what speaks to you the most, but also just random things that make you feel good and all that jazz, but yeah those are just a few things that when I think about them or see them, these are the feelings and moods that I feel with them if any of that makes sense……..

What about you guys!? What’s one thing you can think about, that gives you a feeling towards it!?

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~