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Friday Moods

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Happy Friday! I hope everyone has been well and that you’ve been enjoying the new month! I’m a little surprised knowing that we’re in June now, normally when a new month rolls around I just accept that it’s here and leave it be, but we’re really in the month of June…..and we’re at the second week of it at that…..It’s a little weird because it sorta feels like mid June then beginning of it, which technically we are nearing the middle of June so i’m not too far off with how this month is feeling.

We’ve come to another end of the week, part of it went pretty quickly, honestly I think the only day that felt very long was Tuesday other than that, this week pretty much flew by, maybe it’s just me, I don’t know the second week of June has felt somewhat weird, not in a bad way, but it did feel weird. You know i’m just going to be honest here, I’m not really sure what exactly I’m trying to write here in this post…..I felt the need to write something, however I don’t necessarily know what I was feeling to write, so there’s a good chance that this post won’t really be that long, sorry about that….I’m not going to count this one as my monthly chat where I express how the month as been and how it’s going, if I am to be honest….I sorta woke up feeling….how to express it!?

Maybe a little unmotivated as well as not even sure what I’m feeling to be fair, sometimes I’ll just have random moments where I don’t feel like I’m there, like I know what I’m doing and I can see myself doing certain things, but I’m just not 100 percent there and when I run into those kind of days, I try to figure out what it is that I’m feeling and sometimes I can pin point it a little, but there’s other days where I find myself having somewhat of a hard time figuring it out! I’m not exactly sad and I’m not angry, but I’m also not quite up there energy wise…..

If I had to give it a percetage, I would say….45/50 ish percent on the mood scale, I feel fine, but not fine! I don’t usually express on my moods honestly like that, but I’m hoping that it’s okay to feel that way and be open about it….I’d say that it’s okay that I am feeling that way, because as human beings we don’t always allow ourselves to feel the things that we’re feeling in the moment, especially when we know we aren’t feeling the greatest or we’re not exactly feeling like ourselves and maybe that’s why we give ourselves a hard time, we’re always trying to push those unwanted feeling away and just pretend that we’re okay when we know that we’re not really doing okay and it’s completely alright to not feel 100 percent all the time!

At the end of the day, we’re all human, we all feel and sometimes our moods are just not there and that’s okay, we need those not so great days in order to continue to be our best selves, it’s not always the good moments that allows us to be who we are, it’s important that we have crappy/shitty days, we need to feel those things in order to grow, without those not so great days we wouldn’t be 100 percent us, we’d only be half of that, it takes a lot of strength to be honest about how you’re really feeling even if you aren’t feeling great, now you don’t need to say it out loud, but it is important that you at least acknowledge your emotions, especially when you don’t want to, because when you find yourself not wanting to be bothered with your own thoughts and feelings that’s when you should check in the most!

Again you don’t have to express it out loud if you don’t feel like you want to, but just identify it, see it, feel it and allow them to be! If you want to express those feelings you can, only you will know whether you feel like letting it out or not, but if you don’t know that it’s okay too, when you’re ready you will, but don’t push them away from yourself if you need a moment, be sure to take that moment and remember that this too shall past and eventually you’ll start feeling okay!

I honestly didn’t expect to write this much, I really believed it was going to be a short one, but apparently I needed to say this….so if by any chance someone right now happens to come across this post and you find any of this helpful, I’m glad to hear it! I hope that you’re doing alright and enjoying this Friday and if you’re not I hope that you have a well deserved relaxed weekend and I really hope this upcoming week is a little better for you! Take care ^_^

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

June Days…

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Happy Friday, hope you all are having a good one! I hope the title is alright for this post, it kind of sounds like it can be a person’s name, I didn’t know what else to title it, it’s alright for now, I don’t mind it! Speaking of June, we’re coming to the last few days of it, how crazy is that! This month has been mixed for me, I’ve enjoyed it, but I’ve also felt a lot of things with it, this upcoming weekend, literally will be a very significant day for me, I’ve already spoken about it in a recent post, but this Sunday is going to be a year that I’ve not had my dog with me, probably not the biggest thing to a lot of people, but it’s big to me, I won’t discuss more than I’ve already spoken on it, but that’s one of the things that has me feeling a bit mixed with this month!

On the other hand, yesterday we got a very beautiful Supermoon a.k.a Strawberry Moon in the late evening, I made sure I was outside to check it out, I was out there from 7:30pm I’d say to pretty much midnight, although I could’ve gone outside at about 9pm-10pm, the moon took a little long to arrive, but just in case I saw it earlier I didn’t want to miss it, by the time I got inside it was 11:57pm, I didn’t realize I was going to be out there that long, but I was, when I saw it I couldn’t help, but take pictures, the plan was to only take a few and then sit with the moon…..that didn’t happen though, I did stand with it for a bit, before calling it a night, but it was really gorgeous, it was so bright, I was excited when I saw it, it was definitely worth staying out that late for, that was the good part of June!

There’s been a few good moments and some not great moments, but if I’m being honest, I kind of knew it’d be that way, there was a lot going on so I guess I’m not too surprised, although I like June….Summer, well it’s not my favorite, but it’s been okay, I still find it insane how we’re already close to July…..that’s crazy, this year seems to be going slightly faster, but it’s still in no rush which is good you know, still if feels like we just got into this month, but just like with all the other ones, they weren’t design to stay for too long, just for the time being, like I said though, we still have a few more days left to enjoy with June, so just like my normal’s say in Animal Crossing let’s make the most of the day or shall I say days!

I wanted to share some pictures that I took last night, but they aren’t coming up on my computer sooo, I’m going to have to sort that, I’ll show you guys another time! Sorry this wasn’t a long post, but before we sign off I do have something for you guys, I recorded another episode today, it’s a just chatting kind of episode, I had some thoughts I wanted to get out, I hope you guys like it!

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Just Chatting….(Oct 5, 2019)

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Hey everyone, if that’s not the most standard way of a greeting you’ve ever heard, I don’t know what it right now, but since we said it, might as well continue going with it right!? I hope you’ve all been having a good weekend and doing well, I know I haven’t written in a few days, i’ve already checked that thought off my list so you guys don’t have to……I really don’t know what to talk about if i’m being completely honest here, I thought i’d just chat away if you don’t mind, sometimes you just need to do that, you know!?

This weeks been quite something I gotta say and I don’t know in what way to put it and when I say that, I mean more on whether it was in a good way or not….I guess it was okay, but at the same time, not, I really don’t know how to feel about these past few days, today’s been a mixture of feelings, it was alright, but not, like I really don’t know how to feel today, if I can say anything about today though it’s that i’ve been in thought mode,

but if i’m being honest, i’ve been that way these past few days, okay maybe a week or two, see, i’m everywhere I tell you!! I’ve been doing my best to keep focus and occupied and it’s worked, it’s only when i’ve stopped and i’m not focusing on something to keep my head from spiraling to where I start to go on a journey let’s just say, there’s a lot of things i’m feeling that it’s hard to pick one out of the bunch, I hate when that happens…..

Also I had this very weird dream last night, yeah I know random, but it’s true, I don’t even know where to begin to describe it, I only remember bits and pieces of it….let’s see, the setting was an odd setting, I think I was brought somewhere as like a helper of some sort I really don’t know, it seemed as though I was in some kind of institute or asylum maybe, at least that was the feel of it anyway, there were people in the place where I was who, i’m not really sure how to say it, but they were like patients pretty much, they weren’t fond of having company, I don’t remember much about the dream, but there was one part I remember kinda pretty well,

I was across from this girl, she very light skinned and had blond hair, I remember asking her, her name and she did not like that question and kinda started going away from me, she didn’t say words, but she made a sound, I then told her she didn’t have to tell me her name and she calmed down a bit, I then started getting closer to her to let her know I wasn’t trying to harm her or anything, I don’t think she thought I would harm her,

But from what I could remember she seemed unsure, at least that’s how i’m going to describe it anyway I think I was going for a hug of some sort, the last thing I remember was getting close to this random girl and then her turning and before I woke up it looked like she was going to bite me or something, it was like a weird vampire/zombie kind of situation,

It’s the only way I could explain it, I know this is weird dream to have, but it was a weird dream, I didn’t quite understand that one and i’ve had a lot of weird dreams before. I really don’t know what this post is about, I just kinda wanted to write something today since it’s been a few days, sorry if this ones very short and doesn’t make a whole lot of sense,

If it helps i’ll add another random thing to this post and say that it’s midnight and i’m just having dinner and when I say dinner I mean just rice, reason I stepped out for a few hours I ended up coming back around 11 and yeah I made the quickest thing to have in my stomach before I go to sleep which will be soon, most likely around 12:30am of some sort,

Hopefully i’ll be able to sleep, i’m really tired, but sometimes it takes me a while to actually get to sleep and my minds been pretty preoccupied today so we’ll just see how the night goes in terms of catching some z’s and that, I should be okay, but I don’t know….I guess I should close off this post now,

I was going to write something else, but i’ll just save it for later on today, since it’s now Sunday, I hope you all have a very good night and that you all are doing well, speak to you soon.

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa

March 19, 2019

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Green like the forest, blue like the sea and when it comes to the other colors, just throw them all on a canvas and see if you can find something in it that speaks to you, see if you’re able to see something else within all that paint. If you can, tell me what you see or if it’s a personal thing just tell yourself what you see instead, how does it make you feel, what does that hidden image mean to you!? Try and connect with it if you can………….

You might be wondering why I just wrote all of that, well i’m trying something different, instead of thinking about what exactly to write about, i’m just having it to where, words are just being added as I go along, it may not make sense, but what’s the harm in just writing a few random words, or just wanting to see what comes out of you and why it’s coming out of you!?

Just like painters sometimes just throw paint on a canvas to see what comes out of it, i’m just trying to throw random words together to see what it comes out to be later………sure I may look at this and be like “what the heck is this, this doesn’t make any sense!?” but at least it’ll be something to read back and go “oh remember when I wrote this, come to think of it……..

Why did I write this!?” the best part about that is, I can go and look back and have it where I try and remember what mood I was in when I decided to write this weird post or go back and try and figure out if whether there was some kind of meaning behind it somehow……….it may not be, but who knows maybe if I read it back, i’ll have a different kind of interpretation for it……..it’s like when a painter creates a new painting, in the moment as they’re painting it, they don’t really know what it is their exactly painting…..

They just go based off a mood they’re feeling or are inspired by something……..it’s not until their finished with that painting to where they then come up with some kind of interpretation for it. Sometimes that interpretation may change over time to them, depending on whether they still feel the same about it or if they may see it differently……….

It’s all in the eyes of the artist and how they feel on it, so when it comes to this post, right now, i’m not really sure what my meaning for it is, I just know I felt like writing it, now when I read it back in second, whatever my interpretation for it is after, that’ll be what the meaning of it is, now if I ever decide to read this back later however, i’ll probably feel the same about it ooor i’ll change my mind and it’ll have a whole new meaning to it, i’ll let you know if I ever return to this post in an update………..

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~

Theme Post: Mood

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Originally Written Mar 1st

Alrighty so I had a little trouble coming up with something to write about today, I did write something earlier, but that was just a small post, so I went and asked for a little inspiration, my mom gave me an idea, but I wasn’t really sure how to write about it, so I asked my brother for a theme to write about and he gave me the theme mood……….so i’m going to give it a try.

I’m at my mom’s job today, she owns a nail salon and originally her suggestion for a theme was to write about nails and i’m not really a huge nail person, even though she does do my nails at times, so that was a suggestion that I wasn’t sure on and that’s why I asked my brother.

Now with the theme being about moods, I asked my mom, brother and other people that I knew for something that when they look at it, you know like an object or something, what mood does it put them in, as an idea so I could talk about it from my point of view, I listed a few things and chose ones that I felt I could give you my best mood description on…….

Let’s get into it shall we!?

Moon: Whenever I see or noticed the moon, I become happy, I especially love it when there’s a full moon out, it’s like whenever you see the moon it just makes you want to look at it, it always just grabs your attention the minute you see it, you can’t really help it, it just draws you in you know!?

Stars: As you can tell there’s a small theme happening, but I just really like the night, there’s something about it, but I think the best thing about the night time is getting to see stars, every time I see the stars, just like the moon I get very happy, I always loved the stars, there’s just something about them….

You just can’t help, but get a little lost and admire them whenever they’re in the sky, some are bright, some not so bright, but they’re very beautiful the way they light up the night.

Whenever it comes to the night time and the stars and the moon, for me i’m always just lost in wonder and curiosity, I always enjoyed science and learning about the planets, stars and stuff like that so, so anytime those kind of things are mentioned I get excited!!

Colors: What do I feel when I think of colors……..it depends on the color, you can feel a lot of different moods with color, for example purple I think of it as being the main base of moody colors, it can make you feel good or it can be the color that puts you in a weird mood………purple for me though I would say when I think of it I feel calm, it’s a soothing color to me.

As for the color green, because it’s my favorite color I always feel happy, I just love the color green, so yeah depending on what color it is, depends on the feeling i’ll get from it.

Autumn: Whenever I think of the season fall, it puts me in a cozy kind of mood which I like, I enjoy being in……..a little too much, but I like the feeling of cozy, I like Autumn leaves, cardigans, the way the trees are, I just really love that warmth and cozy feeling that the fall season brings.

Kids: We all know that with kids they are always filled with a little joy and happiness, they’re innocent beings who are always so curious and playful and everything, so you can’t help, but smile being around them.

For example…….I saw my little cousin yesterday and I wasn’t really in the best of moods, but seeing her made me feel a little better, she’s something that little girl, but she also always seems to know how to make you smile, because of the way she is, although she loves testing people by having them chase after her and just being too smart for her own good, you can’t help, but love her!!!

Kids know how to get to you and that’s why, even when you’re not in the best of moods you can’t help, but feel a little happy and smile whenever they’re around.

Music: Now we all know that music can gives you different emotions, so it’s hard to say what mood music gives me, because it all the feels, it makes me happy, sad, emotional, excited, music just takes you on a roller coaster, depending on what mood you’re in, will depend on how the music hits you.

Speaking of music Anna Kendrick in Pitch Perfect 3………AMAZING!!! hearing her sing makes me happy, she has a very distinct and unique voice and I love it!! I think I just got an idea off of this too……….

Glitter: What are my feelings towards glitter……….well I don’t really like glitter all that much, it’s fine to use when making something, but let’s be honest, it’s annoying when it gets everywhere, you think you got rid it, but glitter always ends up somewhere on you or around you somehow which can be irritating, because then you wonder where it came from when you find it.

Some people love glitter, I on the other hand, well……..I don’t hate it, but I don’t love it either………it’s alright, the only problem with it is, it just gets everywhere…………

Coffee: Whenever I think of coffee, I automatically think of a cafe or coffee house, mainly cafe though, but when it comes to feeling, it’s weird because I use to always drink coffee, now I only drink it sometimes, but when I did drink coffee a lot, my mood was always in two states, tired or up a bit so depending on what time I drink it, depends on my mood.

Tea: If you’re going to do one, might as well do the other too while you’re at it and since i’ve been drinking more tea then coffee, it’s only right to give it a mood description as well. Whenever I think of tea, I feel calm……tea always tend to calm me down whenever i’m feeling nervous or anxious, sometimes my emotions will still get to me, but having tea next to me, even when i’m still feeling emotions, I don’t know it makes me feel better……….

Wrestling: This is going to be the last one that I do, now I haven’t watched  wrestling a lot, but when I do watch it, I do get excited and happy, I also get  upset and angry at times too when there’s a match I don’t like or something  happened during the match that I didn’t agree with, so wrestling is another  thing that leaves me with mixed emotions, but I do love and enjoy it whenever I watch it, even when there’s stuff I don’t really agree with or like from it. 

There’s a whole lot of different things that we come across where you just have a specific feeling towards it, it doesn’t have to make sense and it doesn’t have to be anything specific, anything can make you feel something.

It all depends on what it is you gravitate towards and what speaks to you the most, but also just random things that make you feel good and all that jazz, but yeah those are just a few things that when I think about them or see them, these are the feelings and moods that I feel with them if any of that makes sense……..

What about you guys!? What’s one thing you can think about, that gives you a feeling towards it!?

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~