I can’t believe it! New Horizons has came to a year of being released…..I remember watching the trailer for this game and how excited I was knowing we were getting another Animal Crossing game, the last game in the series was New Leaf and when Nintendo announced we would be getting a whole new experience with it I couldn’t wait to play it!! Originally it was thought to come out back in 2019, but it ended up being delayed and pushed back to 2020 of March on the 20th, when learning that my first thought was…..it would’ve been cool if it was in February, because then it would’ve came out February 20th, 2020 (2/20/20) that would’ve been something….March wasn’t a bad month for it to come out either, don’t worry I’m not complaining or anything, I just thought it would’ve been cool that’s all!
Knowing that we were getting a New Animal Crossing game was the important thing, I’ve been a fan of this game for a very long time, played it on the Gamecube, Wii, 3DS and now I’m enjoying it on the Switch and I couldn’t be any happier, I love the game, it’s one of my all time favorites, it’s my top played game actually haha!! I also got two Islands, so you know it’s a favorite of mine.
(I haven’t quite been on my second Island in a hot minute….I’ve got my reasons okay nothing against the game or my villagers there…I just think it was time to focus on my main Island, plus I both wanted and needed to give it a bit of love sooo)
Back to the post…although the game came out on March 20th of last year, I didn’t start playing the game until April so while most people played it on release day….I started on my Island a month after, but everyone plays at different stages so it’s allll right! To know that it’s already been a full year of this game, is insane, there’s a lot that I have enjoyed with it and playing it for a longer period of time after a while, there’s also a couple of things that I’d say could be improved on now that I’ve played it long enough, however I won’t get to it here, this post is more talking on the good stuff, the celebration of it being a year of gameplay for everyone, as much as I would love to say it all here….I’m gonna wait on it, because I’ve got a better and fun idea for it, some of you might already know and if not you’ll soon see!!
Animal Crossing: New Horizons so far, has been very good, it came to us in a time that we really needed it, with the whole Pandemic being a big issue that we had to take precaution on, everyone was put on lockdown and we weren’t able to come out of our houses for a long while unless we really needed something of course and with not being able to be around friends/certain family members or being able to go to certain places, most of us became bored out of our minds, not only that, but it just became really tough to get through after a while, not being able to leave our houses, in fear of not knowing what would happen or even knowing the risks…..
So for New Horizons to release in the time it did and become our little escape from what was/still is our reality and be that light to help us get through all of this, it couldn’t have dropped at a better time!! Even people who never played, let alone probably never heard of the game, even they grabbed a copy and gave it a try and some of them even became fans out of it, it brought together old and new communities and helped people to de stress and relax for a couple of hours without the worry!! They got to experience something new from it, heck people who were already a fan, like myself got to experience something different with the whole Island introduction of it, making the island how you want (with some limits) but also getting to see the different things that were added that we never had before until this game, so there’s just a lot to thank this version of Animal Crossing for, because in the era that we were forced to be in, this game this game became our Savior in making sure we didn’t lose our heads and allowed us to focus on something a lot nicer and positive for a while!!
Yeah it’s got it’s moments where you get a little frustrated with it, mainly when terraforming and other things, but it’s still a pretty great game overall and I’m glad we have it, so Happy 1 year Anniversary New Horizons, thank you for being our enjoyment and the escape that we needed during this crazy era that 2020 brought, may you continue to bring us great things with this game, now that you’ve got updates!!
Yes I know the anniversary was yesterday, but I didn’t get a chance to write on it and that’s why I’m doing it today, it’s only a day late, it’s the weekend of it, better late than never right!?
Episode 2 of my podcast is now up….it took me a bit to get it up, due to having to re record and look it over, it’s pretty much a part 2 to this post, but this time I give my thoughts on some of my favorite features that’s been added to the game, discuss what I feel needs a little improvement and also give a Wishlist to what I would like to see added in future updates, if you would like to check it out, you can take a listen here: Let’s Talk: 1 Year of Animal Crossing New Horizons
Before we get to this review I just wanted to quickly brief some things the reason I didn’t post this right after I finished my review is because I felt it was a little long with both updates I have going on right now,
I wrote the intro two days ago, but I didn’t hear the album until yesterday, the intro explains why, my mood has kinda been a weird one lately, but I did go and re listen to Symptoms and wrote all my thoughts about it after the second listen of it, I just wanted to shorten the length of this post and not have two things going on, hopefully it’s still not too long with this little update disclaimer, before we move on I just want to say that not a lots changed with my thoughts about it, only one thing, but it’s good so don’t worry…..not that you are i’m sure…..anyway let’s get to it shall we!?
May 12 2020 around 4pm in the afternoon
Okay so i’m about to re listen to Symptoms and re share my thoughts about it since my first listen of it, which was only a week ago actually, which is odd because it feels a lot longer than a week, I don’t know why!? Now i’ll be a little honest…….i’ve kinda sorta, have been putting it off, not because I don’t like it, but because I just haven’t been in the mode to sit and re hear it!!
The days I planned on re looking at it, I just wasn’t feeling it, so I would keep adding it towards a later date pushing it further and further back, but today we’re just going to do it, normally when listening to an album that i’ve gotten into or ones that I have on my listen to list that I feel I want to share and talk about, I like to record my reaction to it first and then give it at least a day to sink in before I write my thoughts on it as a post, it’s WAAAAY past a day as you already know……sorry about that…..but we are going to listen to it though and see if any of my thoughts went and changed within a week of the first listen of it, i’m excited to re hear it and get a refresher on it
Hopefully I still like the whole album, i’m sure I will, but opinions change so we’ll see!!
First song on the list…..which is the title of this album Symptoms:
Alright so here’s what I got on this song…..I felt it had a very nice chillness to it, I was feeling some emotions while listening a little, but that could’ve been some random ones trying to come up for all I know, but yeah,
There’s not too much to say on this one, the lyrics are good and so is the song….also remember when I said something changed a little from my first review of this album!? Yeah well this is what changed, when I first heard this song, I wasn’t sure how to feel about it, I knew I liked the song, but I didn’t know what to think of it at first, now i’m here to say that, it kinda feels like it could be a favorite…….probably need to hear it a third time,
before adding it to the definite list, that being said, i’ve also kinda set it out to be a favorite soooo……let’s just say……it is….but not definitely, definitely just yet, yeah!? okay glad we’ve discussed it!!
Next we have the runner up track of the album……Looking Glass
Have I set that up alright, did it make sense!? Hopefully it didn’t sound too cheesy, I know it might be a hit or miss there……i’ll take my chances….moving on though, okay so this song……..I love the grooviness of it and the lyrics are probably one of my favorites on this album, you just, you feel it……if I could describe it, i’d say it’s like a dance track, but it’s a very interesting song as well…..actually now that i’m thinking about it,
It sorta reminds me of another Ashley Tisdale song from her album Headstrong called Not Like That (which is one of my favorites off that album) because of the lyrics mainly, not comparing or anything, both songs are different of course, if you heard not like that and this song than you might hear it, but you might not as well, either way I really like this song,
my only thing with is…….I would’ve liked the beat to play by itself without some of the lyrics from the chorus finishing it off, only because I really like hearing the best, but that’s just a minor thing, when I heard it again, it really wasn’t that bad, so either way of it ending is fine, overall though the song is great, is it a favorite!? Kinda…..it’s the same as the first song, where it’s a favorite, but it’s not exactly on the favorite list, but also is…..
Let’s just say both Looking Glass and Symptoms are on the list…..they’re just written in pencil, but will soon be inked in the more I listen to them!!
In third place….no i’m kidding, the third track on this album is……Love Me and Let Me Go
Okay so this is probably one of what I would consider to be an interesting song to talk about, looking at the title you might think of it to be a specific thing, however when you hear it, you might find that it’s completely different to what you might’ve thought it to be……when I first heard this song, I felt it was a song written for herself as past tense or more like a letter to herself, but not at the same time, it’s hard to explain, but if you hear it, it might make sense, the second time hearing it though……
There was a song that actually came to mind when she was singing the lines “i’ve been chained up to my mind” and “tryna to leave it all behind” both from the first verse, however they have different lines to them, now at first I couldn’t quite put my finger on the song that it reminded me of, but after giving it a quick listen to it again…..I now know what it is…..it was a Matt Cardle song called When We Collide if you don’t know him he’s a great artist, he was actually on the X Factor (UK Version) great voice this one, but yeah this songs great, it’s actually one of my favorites,
but yes, Love Me and Let Me Go reminded me of that song, just with the way it was sung, he kinda does the same thing in the first verse of this song too and I just found it interesting that it reminded me of that, but back to the song we’re discussing off the Symptoms album it’s a great song, chorus is nice, the meaning with it is also pretty great, speaking of, I didn’t know what this song was actually about, I felt it was sung more towards herself, but when looking up the lyrics to get the lines to what I was talking about, I learned that,
I was correct in a way, it’s not a song towards herself per say, but to her Anxiety, which makes a whole lot of sense looking at it now and I gotta say I might just love it more, but even if I didn’t just find that out, I would’ve still said it was great and that I love it!!
On to one of my definite favorites on this album: Insomnia
Now I must note that when I realized this song was next when re listening to Symptoms, a smile came across my face, I LOVE THIS SONG!!!……LIKE LOVE IT!! it’s just soooo good this one, I mean if I had to describe it which I did when jotting down notes while listening to it……it’s quite subtle for one, definitely intimate, but not in the way where it’s too much, it’s the right kind okay!! There’s some temptation to it, but it’s not a bad temptation,
What I mean by that is, both the beat (music) and lyrics of the song just combined so well together, the beat does a great job at pulling you in and the lyrics just complement it sooo nicely, you know you’re getting a really nice meal with it, it’s great, I could try and explain it more, but i’m just going to tell you to listen to it, because it’s really great, after re hearing it,
I played it back about three times maybe before moving on the the next song that’s how much of a favorite of mine it is……..just…..beautiful!!
Moving on…..to track 5……Vibrations!!
Okay now just because the into of it is shorter than the others doesn’t mean that I didn’t like the song…….the same way I felt about it the first time, is the same way I feel about it now……it’s a pretty alright song, not a lot to say with it…..it’s one of those chill tracks, laying low and just enjoying the company of someone or maybe just your own company, which ever you prefer, but you can’t go wrong with a fun time and that’s what this song brings, I feel this might be a kind of soft spot kind of song, where it’s not a favorite per say, but I still can appreciate it for what it is and enjoy it at the same time!!
Track 6…….Under Pressure
Which happens to have some shorter thoughts to the one prior, which is just I love it!!…….seriously that’s all, it’s one of those relatable songs, that you feel once you hear the lyrics, the title really does say it all, but it’s a great song, but I really love about it though is, although the lyrics express on feeling under pressure, no pun intended……it also turns it around and makes it into a positive which is good……..so yeah, it’s good song!!
We’ve now reached track 7 or as I like to call it number SEVEEEEEEEN!! (if you watched my Jonas Brothers album review, you’ll get it!!) track 7…..True Romance
There’s a reason I say it like that, lately and don’t know why, but number 7 seems to be the number that just gets my emotions running because in my Jonas Brothers album review of Happiness Begins, number 7 was a favorite and had my emotions going a little and in this album review of Symptoms, number 7 happened to also get my emotions running and so i’m just accepting that it’s going to be like that with these kind of songs,
I’m not even going to express my thoughts on this one because it’s the same reaction I had when I first reviewed it, I still love it, the lyrics still get me and it’s still a favorite of mine and that’s a definite on that one!!!
Track 8……Voices In My Head
Now i’m sure most or if not some of you will remember that I gave my thoughts one this song around the time it was out for, if you haven’t you can find it here: Voices In My Head (Thoughts) because I heard this song, I wasn’t going in not knowing what to expect from it, like the other songs off the album when I first heard them, so re hearing it my reaction for it never changed, I actually love this song, it’s one of my favorite, I still listen to it from time to time and if I don’t……i’m most likely singing it to myself because it decided to get stuck in my head randomly on a certain day so yeah, but it’s great song, also very relatable and super catchy might I add!!
We’ve come to the last track of the album, track 9…..Feeling So Good!!
I actually don’t have that much to say about it…..when I first heard it I believe I had the same reaction, it a nice fun song, about feeling good and just enjoying yourself really……I did say that this could’ve been on the Happiness Begins album, because I could definitely see Joe, Nick and Kevin singing this song as well, maybe with Ashley, have them featured on it, you know…..just saying…….no, but seriously (hint, hint. wink. wink.)
Good song this one is, I feel like I heard some people in the background at the end of the song…..specifically Vanessa!? HSM cast cameo within the song!? others possibly, most likely…..who knows right!? Okay i’ll stop now, sometimes I just can’t help myself……
Everything I said in my first reaction of it, I also said that I wish this album had more songs, because 9 wasn’t enough….still slightly feel that way with it, because I want to hear more Ashley Tisdale songs, but now i’m okay with what we got with the Symptoms album, there wasn’t one song that I didn’t like, which is good because that’s what I wanted originally and i’m glad that didn’t change in this second review of it!!
I really did enjoy re listening to it, Symptoms is a really great album, I love it and i’m looking forward to hearing more of Ashley Tisdale when we do, she really is a favorite of mine to both watch and listen to!!
I tell you some people sure know how to communicate……I say that sarcastically by that way, in case that was missed!! Now i’m going to try and keep things on a positive outlook to this topic, because it just seems really easy to go on a negative rant here and i’m not going to lie to you guys, buuut, it’s kinda what i’m feeling here, however i’m going to do my best to keep it the rant from overpowering here…..Let’s just talk calmly about this!!
Before anything though……..i’m going to take a small break so I can eat, i’m kinda hungry so…..be right back (Lunch Break……) Back….sorry that took a while, you know I forgot just how good goldfish snacks are, if you’re not careful you’ll end up eating the whole bag, I had to put it away from me that’s how addictive they are, still good though!!
Anyway on to the topic of communications……now we all know that communications is a way of expression, when we communicate we tell about the things that we feel as well as what we care about, but it seems these days communication is a little hard to reach at time, scratch that it’s not the communication that’s hard, but the listening that seems to be the issue at times, why is that!? When did listening become so hard to do!?
Now let’s get this straight alright, sometimes we aren’t all great listeners and when we know we should be, we still sometimes have a hard time taking things in the way we should……it’s a weird thing, but even when listening and communicating is a hard thing, sometimes we need to know when to really listen, if there’s something that needs expressing we have to learn how to shut our mouths and open our ears, that’s how we show our support and love to people and if happens that someone we may just be encountering for the first time needs to express something,
That’s how we show care and compassion as human beings, sometimes we all have a little too much we’re trying to handle, some of those things being mentally or emotionally and so forth and because we do, we just need a little support, we may not ask about it, but sometimes you can just feel it or see even, we don’t always have to show support in a huge way, sometimes a simple ear to lend can be that big support that someone needs,
Having a chat can even be a big thing for some, I don’t think we look at listening and communicating as an important thing these days, some people would rather sit silently, not saying that’s a bad thing, because it’s not, it’s just sometimes silence can seem like an enemy and can be a little loud for our psyche to deal with especially when thoughts start being added the mix.
So just because silents can be a good thing for us, doesn’t mean we always want to sit with it for a long period of time…..sometimes we need distracts that help get us out of our heads and a good distraction is communicating in what ways!? Well that depends on what’s needed,
Sometimes it’s talking about what we’re feeling, other ways it’s talking randomly and seeing how weird the conversation can get, but the take away to those conversations is also listening, opening our ears and turning up the volume a little so we’re hearing everyone word possible,
That’s how we understand each other better and sometimes by doing that we help someone feel a little better and vice versa!!
Good morning everyone, hope all your weeks are starting out alright and that you had a nice weekend!! Okay so some of you might be a little confused about the title, why are we talking about Yoga!? Well I attempted it yesterday and kinda wanted to share on it, from trying it yesterday though i’m feeling some soreness this morning, are you meant to feel sore after doing yoga!? It’s been a while that’s why i’m asking……
Now originally I was going to write about it, but as I was writing the post, it kept getting longer and longer and so I ended up doing a video on it instead and after editing that video well…..it was still quite long, I had a lot to express on it I guess, originally it was 30 mins and that was because it was the untouched version, by editing it though, it came out to 24 mins and 33 secs. Now that’s still pretty long compared to what I would’ve wanted it to come out to, but I think it came out alright and I was pretty happy with it!!
I do try to keep my videos and posts from exceeding a certain amount of talkage time (I don’t think talkage is a word, but just go with it okay) but yeah I try to keep at a certain length when writing and recording, but I can’t seem to help myself when expressing and so that’s why it always ends up being quite longer than I anticipated……
Here’s a quick run down of the video, i’ll share what I had originally wrote down, but it’s probably going to be worded differently:
So after waking up pretty early yesterday, I did a 7 min mediation and than I decided to do a little yoga as well, now I probably should’ve started a little easy to warm myself up and get use to the stretches and all that, but I instead went for a 40 min yoga video focusing on bringing creativity out of you, now I know what you’re saying “40 mins isn’t that bad” very true, yes…..except
That 40 min video took me about 2 HOURS!! Yes 2 hours to get through, luckily it was still morning time and that I got up a little early today as well, i’m finding the earlier you get up the more the morning feels like it’s there for a while as well as the day, if that makes sense!?
So yeah that’s just a little peak on my Yoga attempt after not doing it for a while, there’s also some fun moments in there as well as other things expressed!! Now you know why it’s so long, had I written it instead, you’d be reading for hours, but if you want to take a look at my latest video, you can watch it here: Let’s Talk: Yoga (Patience, Breath Work ect….)
Also if you want to try out the yoga video I did, you can find it here: Awaken The Artist Within|Yoga With Adriene it’s a great workout, but you just gotta have patience with it as well as yourself, just do your best!!
I think i’m going to keep this post short and sweet, well i’m not sure whether it’ll actually be short, but I know it won’t be super long either, I don’t know what it is, but i’m not really all that sure on today and by that I mean, that really actually, I don’t know if that makes sense….
It’s just one of those i’m not really sure how to feel kind of days, i’ve been more in thought mode than speaking mode most of the day and to tell you what i’m thinking about, well lets just say, okay well you know when you’re looking straight out towards the ocean and the waves are going in and out onto the sand, yeah that’s how my head has been, just in and out,
You’d think that be a good thing and quite calming if you’re thinking about waves, well it’s not all bad, it’s just moments when you find yourself deeply thinking where you’re supposed to be careful and you tell yourself that, but you can’t seem to keep away from the whole ocean, so to prevent a full on emotional wave, you have to snap yourself out from going that deep and i’ve been having to do that a few times today……today has been a bit weird,
but I think if you just take a bit of time and be aware of ones feelings instead of trying to ignore it it’ll keep you from having to over feel it, you know what I mean!? All i’m going to say is, if you guys are having one of those days as well don’t be afraid to accept that you’re feeling weird or sad and just not really sure on how to feel, it’s okay to allow yourself to be aware of those feelings, ignoring them will only heighten them to become louder.
You don’t have to like it and you don’t have to want to share a space with it, but it’s important to be aware of them, if you feel emotions coming along, just them out, don’t keep them buried beneath, if you need some time, take it, don’t feel like you can’t, just be aware and accept what you’re feeling. In the moment it’s hard, but eventually it’ll pass and be okay, maybe not fully, but a least you’ll feel somewhat better knowing you’ve given yourself the time and allowance to just feel what you’re feeling.
I’ve already written a part one on the talks of self care, hence why you’re reading part 2, part 1 was more of a personal kind of talk, while this one will hopefully be talked about differently, in honor of World Mental Health Day, which is today (now yesterday) in case some of you didn’t know, don’t worry I actually didn’t know myself so if you forget or just genuinely wasn’t aware it’s okay, no worries, now my first write about self care isn’t up just yet, i’m still looking it over and reading it, it should be up before you see this though or you might see this one first and that one second,
I’ll try and keep it in order so it doesn’t get confusing, but I just wanted to let you know about that. I wanted to try and talk a little more about the importance of self care, because I don’t think people take it much into consideration and take it as serious as it should be, i’ve already stated in my first post how I have trouble with this, self caring isn’t really a big strong suit of mine, I find it weird, but i’ve realized how important it is to look after yourself. When it comes to self care, it’s surprisingly really difficult to keep yourself well, it shouldn’t be, but it is…..for some reason when it comes to our own well being, it’s a thought that is far from our minds, why!?
Well that’s a question that probably crosses our mind, yet it’s also a question that we tend to ignore if it does, now i’m not going to pretend that I know exactly what i’m talking about, because I don’t, I don’t really know much when it comes to self care, so I wouldn’t be able to tell you the ins and outs to it all, I’m actually just now learning about it properly myself, while having to adjust to it as well…..the only thing that I can say with it is,
As much as it may not seem like a big thing, it totally and definitely 100% percent is a big thing, most of us however ignore that fact and just continue to go about everything as if we can handle it all when in reality, that’s not always possible, we all have our breaking points and we all need a time and space to be able to just not deal with things for a bit, it’s well needed you know!? but in all seriousness, it is important to make sure you’re good and well, especially when dealing with mental health, I don’t think this can be expressed enough, people don’t think that mental health is a serious issue, but it really is, if you’re not well mentally, you won’t be able to be well in other aspects that are needed, everything starts with your mind.
If your mind is upside down and is just a complete mess, it’ll start to effect everything else around you as well, that’s why it’s important to make sure anything and everything that is within your headspace is filled with things that aren’t going to be harmful to you, easier said then done I know, believe me, I have a hard time keeping this in mind too, I struggle with Anxiety so my head is always being filled with so much it’s ridiculous!!
Some days are better than most, while on other days it tends to heighten and go into overload, it’s like having a whole lot of emails in your inbox and as you go through them all, you find most of what’s in your inbox, is just junk mail and so you go to delete them, but you realize you have a lot of junk mail then you know what to do with and you’re trying to figure out the best way to just get rid of it all, but you don’t know where to start and what’s actually important, so you’re just sitting there going through them all and although your concentrating hard on those emails, inside you’re freaking out and losing your mind just trying to get through it all.
The only thing with this email inbox is, it’s an everyday process and it seems like it keeps piling and piling and you wish you didn’t have to deal with it, but unfortunately it doesn’t go away, however it is maintainable, but it does come with some emotional and physical side effects…..
Sorry I think I went away from the topic for a bit, getting back on track, keeping your headspace clear from all things harmful and negative is a tough tasks to accomplish, it’s not impossible, it’s just hard. Anxiety though isn’t the only mental health issue that people deal with on a daily basis, people also struggle with depression, bi-polar disorders, eating disorders and so many other forms of mental health issues that’s out there……
Anxiety and depression are the most talked about in the mental health world, but those aren’t the only ones that people go through, it’s important to look at other issues just as much as we look at Depression and Anxiety, on the statistic outlook scale (hopefully that made sense) although they have different effects and are formed differently, they still connect in the same way, because they all stem from our emotions and thoughts.
It’s hard to wrap our heads around what causes some of us to have more of an effect then others when it comes to dealing with mental health, we all know it has to do with our brains and having some parts unlatched and disconnected from the rest of whatever is going on inside our brains, but when it comes to the science of it, it’s still a little complicated understanding fully, at least it’s one that i’m unable to explain properly to you guys.
But let’s not complicate things here, as much as I love and enjoyed science back in school, still enjoy it actually, also yes I know mental health is a more psychology related topic, then actual science, however you still use science with psychology i’m pretty sure, so it’s still in the same boat technically, don’t actually quote me on it though, because I know nothing alright.
Back to self care, because that’s what we were talking about here, it’s important to take care of yourself, plain and simple, I know it can be hard to take your focus away from everything and keep yourself from stressing and getting overwhelmed and that, but you have to know when to slow down and take a break at times so your able to function properly through the days, if you stop yourself from taking the time that you need to reboot and recharge you’ll end up crashing and breaking down to the point where you’ll find it extremely difficult to get back to where you left off…..
You don’t ever want to have it get to that point, so you have to try and keep a balance with everything, this coming from a girl where the word balance is nowhere near her daily vocabulary, it’s not even on a list, with that being said, self care is something we all have to try and practice, especially when it’s something that we aren’t really used to, it can be a challenge, but it doesn’t mean that it’s something not worth giving a chance, I mean it shouldn’t even be considered as an option, self care should be taken as an everyday kind of thing, but knowing how most of us operate……
We’re not always going to be able to look after ourselves the way we normally should, but that doesn’t mean we shouldn’t still take care of ourselves. If we can’t commit to self care everyday, we should at least try and pick certain days throughout the week plus the weekend where we look at what we’re lacking or need improving on and do our best to work at that as much as we’re able to, so for example:
If you’re the type who struggles to relax or you don’t know how to, finding ways and practicing relaxation can help you to learn to take it easy a little bit more, plus it’ll keep your stress levels down while giving you the ability to clear away a good amount of headspace so your able to focus better.
This is something that I need to really practice a whole lot, because I don’t do that often, I would rather stress myself out then relax, that’s how much I give myself a break on things I feel I need to do better at, yeah…..but there’s a lot of ways to self care i’m sure and keep the chaos from becoming too chaotic, mental health and self care, should always go hand in hand, there should always be a balance between them, because without one, the other wouldn’t know what to do, so it helps to keep them together so that way you feel at ease, if not entirely, at least you know you’ll feel a little better with it.
How’s everyone doing these days, hope well!! Now I know what some of you are probably thinking, “Where have you been!?” and if you aren’t thinking that well then, that’s okay, but I will sorta explain why I haven’t written anything new for the past 2 to almost 3 weeks, I think the longest i’ve went not posting is about a few days maybe a week, this times a new record, we surpassed a week of not posting, can we get an hurrah!?
No i’m kidding, I haven’t posted on here for a reason, you see i’ve been away due to my brain thinking a lot mainly on where i’m going or want to go at least……there’s a lot of things that I haven’t really expressed on here, I might do that one day, not sure when exactly, but one day……
I still haven’t gained that much courage to do so just yet. Now even though I haven’t written and posted anything new on my blog in a good while, I have been still writing, just more handwriting then typing, i’m actually close to filling one of my journals, not quite finished, but it’s getting there i’d say.
So yeah, i’ve been trying to really think on what I want to do (career wise) this isn’t anything new really, it’s something that i’ve been switching back and forth with for a good while now, i’ve just been putting it off for a good amount of time and you know what that’s no one else’s fault but mine, you think you’re fine with something, but then realize you’re not.
So yeah there’s that for one……i’ve also been trying to get better at certain things…..still sorta working on that……i’m kinda feeling a bit of stress and pressure and that’s me doing that to myself because I really want to get somewhere and feel good about it, I mean we all do don’t we!?
There’s a lot let’s just say, but i’m doing my best to work it all out so I could move forward from where i’ve always been stood, if that makes sense!?
I must say this has got to be the most i’ve written in a while on here, which is surprising for some reason, because normally I write a lot, in my journals at least, i’m not sure how often i’ll be posting on here, I kinda purposely stepped away from here just so I can get my head straight and that, plus i’ve been wanting to make this blog better and i’m not sure in what way I want to do that, maybe it’ll be more personal or something, i’m not sure yet.
Hopefully it’ll all just happen naturally, but yeah that’s just a bit of an update I guess you can say, I don’t know what else to say, I hope you’re all doing well and having a good day sorry it’s taken me a few weeks to write, I kinda felt as though I didn’t have much to say so I didn’t, I have missed it though I won’t say I didn’t, i’m always on here believe it or not haha……
That’s all I have for now, but I will post something again soon, maybe not this week or maybe, who know, I might surprise you and post something one of these days or during the weekend, i’ll go based on if I feel I want to say something or how i’m feeling, right now it’s just how things are going,
But you guys enjoy the rest of your day or night depending on what time of day it is where you are and i’ll write to you guys again soon.
P.S.Since we’re coming to the closing days of Summer I thought i’d share something I made a while ago, I was meant to post it, but never did…..
Quick Note: I started this on the 20th of July, but had to do some more looking over and that, some of my original thoughts I kept in and some I added, I also removed some that I felt weren’t needed, I did my best on this topic so I hope it came out okayand I hope you enjoy the read.
Okay so this is a bit of a hard topic to discuss, i’m not sure how this post is going to turn out, but hopefully it comes out okay…….just a bit of a disclaimer warning, the topic that will be discussed in this post has to do with Eating Disorders so if this is a very sensitive topic for some of you out there and a bit triggering, I understand not wanting to read on, but if you’re comfortable and are okay reading upon this topic then by all means do so…..
When it comes to Mental Health a lot of people don’t really take it as seriously as it should or needs to be and it’s sad because, it’s important to treat it seriously, just because it’s not physical doesn’t mean there’s no effect and that it’s not still harmful……
There’s many different mental health disorders out there, although they’re different, they still share the same effect inside, however there are some that are much more dangerous than others, one of them being Eating Disorders…….i’ll be honest here, I don’t really know too much when it comes to eating disorders, but I have learned a bit about it,
By looking into it a little to get a better understanding and even getting some insights on what it’s like dealing with it and from the knowings of it and the effects it can have on you, lets just say it’s a real tough road walking down, especially when it comes to the recovery process of it.
Now i’m not sure how serious people take Eating Disorders, you would think it’d be one of the topics that is talked about a lot, but when you really think about it, we don’t really hear that much on it, which is a bit surprising because it’s something that should be payed more attention to.
Now I want to talk properly about this, because there’s a lot of things to eating disorders that not many are aware of, most people have a stereotype on it, which isn’t really fair because there are things with it that you won’t know unless you personally lived it, which a lot of us haven’t, but there are some that have or are living it right now and we don’t even know…..
What we may see it as, is completely different to what it actually is like, now my reasoning for wanting to talk upon this topic is for a few reasons, but also because of a video that I watched a few days ago, that was sent to me by my boyfriend who……well had a very similar experience with it…..
I won’t express too much on it though as it’s his story to tell, but he did say it was okay to talk about how he’s been though something similar to the story here……the video that i’ll be giving some insight on is about a Youtuber by the name of Eugenia Cooney, not sure how many of you exactly know of her, maybe you know her well or have just heard about her……a few days ago, Shane Dawson (another Youtuber) made a video on Eugenia,
I don’t know how familiar some of you are with Shane or if you even watch any of his videos, but he has a few series that he does, one of them is focused on helping people and sometimes even going back and revisiting pasts things that he hasn’t really been able to face before, it’s pretty good, i’ve watched a hand full of them……this specific video however, discusses Eugenia and her struggles with her Eating Disorder…….
I gotta say, this video has to be one of the most serious videos, Shane’s ever done and he’s made quite a lot…….I don’t know a whole lot about Eugenia Cooney, i’ve heard of her and have seen her before, but i’ve never actually watched any of her videos…..watching this video though, i’ll admit was really hard, it was also very emotional, I held my breath a lot watching it.
It’s kinda tough to describe this video, I feel it’s something you have to watch for yourself in order to really understand the situation and everything with it, but what I will say, is that you learn a lot from this while gaining insights to what it’s like for those who suffer from eating disorders, as well as learn on the different types of eating disorders and what kind of things happen with those types, if that makes sense!?
There’s a lot of mixed emotions in this video, although it’s very serious, there’s also some pretty nice light hearted and good moments within it as well, there was a few moments in the video that were a bit hard to watch, one of the moments was when they would show Eugenia’s videos….
Now I don’t know if it was a streaming kind of video that she did or a live chat event, but there was this girl and i’m not going to say what she said because you’ll see it in the video if you watch it, but…..
She started off with a very sweet and lovely comment to Eugenia letting her know how pretty she is which was really nice…..a few moments later however, she said something that…..probably shouldn’t have been said, it was that uncomfortable of a moment that I had to actually pause the video.
I mean i’m sure the girl didn’t intend for what she said to come out the way it did or anything, I mean you knew she was a fan of Eugenia and that she cared, she sounded like a very lovely girl, but I don’t think she understood by her saying what she did especially LIVE, the way she did……really set with Eugenia, like you could literally see the change of expression on her face and her eyes, it was one of the toughest moments to see in the video…..
Sometimes we don’t realize the things we say, as well as the way we say them, to us it may not be that bad…..however to others it’s a whole different story, especially when you see or know someone is going through something difficult that they may not be able to see or may not even know about……it’s important to really think about that kind of thing.
If you know or see someone isn’t well or they’re just getting well again, take a moment to really think about the things you’re saying before you find the words coming out of your mouth…….but i’m sure the girl didn’t mean harm with it, so no blame game here, sometimes we make mistakes, even if it’s the tiniest of ones, it happens, it’s just live and learn that’s all.
There were other moments that were a bit hard to watch, but a specific moment that I also wanted to talk about was not one that was hard to watch per say, but one that made me a bit nervous and that was when it came to Shane asking Eugenia questions on everything…..in the beginning of the video, there was this lady I can’t remember her name, but she was explaining to Shane the different questions you shouldn’t ask someone dealing with an eating disorder and the things you shouldn’t say to them…..
Watching the whole video, I was just nervous, thinking to myself “I hope the questions he’s asking are alright” luckily it all went well with the questions, even though the topic of it was hard as well.
I liked how comfortable Shane made Eugenia feel when he visited her and talked to her, it was real nice, i’m sure she was very nervous about doing this whole thing and talking about it as well, but it was good to see that there wasn’t any awkward moments with it.
There was a lot of moments that were very interesting to learn about within the video, if you want to check that out for yourself to get a better insight about Eating Disorders I linked it for you guys, it’s worth watching.
Continuing on the topic of Eating Disorders as a whole…..I can’t really say what exactly it’s like dealing with it, because i’ve never actually experienced it before, for people who have dealt with the disorder or are dealing with it now even, I know it’s not an easy topic to talk about it.
This is a real issue that shouldn’t be overlooked…….there are a lot of people who are secretly suffering with this and aren’t asking for help and that kind of thing is scary, because even though they aren’t directly asking for help, in way they are, only they’re going to say it…….
Sometimes it’s hard to see what’s going on in these kind of situations and unless you’re very close to someone, you won’t really see it, you might get hints here and there, but it’s not going to be something you catch on to right away……learning a bit about it, i’ve learned that people who suffer with eating disorders are really good at hiding it, again you may think you’re able to catch on to it quickly, but that’s not always the case.
Something i’d like to point out is that, when we think of eating disorders, our brains naturally and automatically think females suffer from it and that’s because it always been seen as and I know this is probably the wrong way to quote it and I apologize in advance, but it’s always just been seen as a “Female thing only”
When in fact that is faaar from the truth…..on the stereotype side of town, it’s like that, if you only knew the half of it though….because if you did, you’d find out males suffer from it too, maybe even more, we wouldn’t know about that though because a lot of the males that do suffer with an eating disorder, don’t speak up about it and that’s because there’s already a perspective on it, which isn’t right……
When you think of other disorders such as anxiety, depression, bi-polar disorder all those things, it’s not just seen as a one sided thing, any person, guy or girl can suffer from them, yet when it comes to eating disorders, it’s only looked at on the females perspective and maybe that has to do with the fact that more females speak up on it, however that doesn’t mean that it should be normalized as just females go through it because that’s not true.
Males that suffer with an eating disorder, don’t really get taken that seriously causing most of them to suffer in silence when they shouldn’t have to……I don’t want to say it’s an image thing, however it kinda is in a way, which is sad because it shouldn’t be like that, we shouldn’t have it where if a male is struggling with an eating disorder they shouldn’t come out about it…….not trying to go away from the topic, but I will for a second,
Only because it’s the same as if someone was being abused, majority of the time, people will only see it from a girls perspective when in fact guys also get abused……yet we don’t talk about that and sometimes that can be one of the main factors of an eating disorder starting because of the way they’ve been treated before, but my point to this though is just like girls,
Guys too can be affect by it, just because we don’t hear much about it, doesn’t mean it’s not happening……we aren’t the only ones that go through rough times, although guys are built to be strong and protect and all that, we need to understand that they too have feelings and they also go through these kind of issues. We shouldn’t be shutting them out and making them feel as though if they do suffer from any sort of disorder or other things in general that they shouldn’t be allowed to share it or speak up about it.
It’s important to not only treat these kind of things seriously, but also treat each individual the same way, especially when dealing and suffering with things like eating disorders and that, everyone should have a right to express they’re emotions and feelings as well as things they’re going through.
We should never make someone feel as though their feelings don’t matter or that the issues they’re dealing with aren’t as important as someone else’s……there’s a lot to learn with this topic, things that may be seen as simple, aren’t always and when it comes to things we think we know on this topic or even someone, there’s a high chance that we have no clue, what we say and how we say it does have an affect, even when we see it as harmless.
Final Thoughts: We don’t know what people are going through and with this kind of thing it’s really important that we take it seriously and try to help in the best way possible, even if we aren’t sure how…….
If you know or sense someone close to you or someone you think needs help is suffering help them, try and be there for them, talk to them and if you’re worried or you aren’t sure what to do, there are people that can help and there’s even numbers to call.
If someone out there is reading this and is suffering with an eating disorder or recovering from one (GUY OR GIRL) know that everything is going to be okay and that there are people that can help you get better, I know it won’t seem like it, but you aren’t alone and again if you’re a guy or a girl whose just starting to recover or have successfully recovered,
I’m proud of you and i’m sure those around you, are proud of you as well (although I don’t know many of you) still, I know it’s a hard road you’re walking or have had to walk before and I know that even though there maybe some of you who have fought through this, I know that the journey of it will never be over as it sticks with you for life, but even though that maybe so, you should be very proud of yourself, not only for how far you came from it,
but also because you went through it and are still going through it, but have stayed strong and continued on, I know it’s not the easiest thingandI know that for some of you, there might even be a time where you fall into a relapse with it, but just know if that does occur don’t feel ashamed about it and don’t think that you did wrong, because you didn’t, you’re not weak or anything like that, it’s just a rebuild and process thing, but it’ll all be alright.
If there are people out there who have had someone in their life relapse or know someone whose relapsed, don’t scold them about it…..reassure them and let them know that you’re there for them, support and love them through those times, because believe me they’re already beating themselves up about it, they don’t need scolding or any of that, all they need is love and support.
There’s still a whole lot more to eating disorders than i’m able to explain, this was just my observation and thoughts on it from what I learned, again i’m no expert and have no experienced with it, the only people that can really tell you what it’s like dealing with it and the situation with it as a whole are the ones that have or are going through it……
If you have any thoughts you want to share or add to any knowledge that you think I should know on the topic of eating disorders go ahead, if there’s something I said wrong or messed up on, please do let me know, in the best way possible of course, I really would like to understand this better.
Last thing, if any of you out there, need a place to go to chat or anything like that, you don’t have to, but you’re more than welcome to here, but if you’re wanting or looking for a bit more help, here’s a few links to websites that might just be what you need and for those who want to understand more about this as well, I left some links for you as too.
We all have them, sometimes we wish we didn’t, but then we wouldn’t really be human would we!? Here’s the thing……sometimes we let our own feelings get in the way of how other people feel, we may not try to do it intentionally, but sometimes we end up doing it unconsciously knowing creating a bit of a mess……although we have our own issues and problems to sort through, doesn’t mean we should ignore everyone’s else’s.
It’s okay to take time to work through your own feelings and emotions, but when it’s the only thing we focus on, we tend to fail at acknowledging how someone else maybe feeling, which is important because we don’t know half of the things that people go through or deal with alone.
We say we listen and that we understand but do we really!? Believe it or not besides communication, listening and understanding (as well as other things) are the two main things that are needed in order to build a healthy and better relationship with someone, whether it’s romanic, non romantic, a friendship kind of relationship whatever, it’s important to take others emotions and feelings into account…..
Really thinking about it, it’s no wonder, most people separate from other people or keep things to themselves……we as humans aren’t the best people these days, especially when it comes to communicating, listening and understanding someone, we’re so wrapped up in ourselves and our own life, that we will just brush off anything that doesn’t revolve around our own feelings which can be quite selfish at times.
We shouldn’t be telling people to go away because we have our own things to worry about or we just aren’t feeling what their feeling, sometimes we need people or we just want to talk to someone, whether it’s a serious topic or a random one, telling someone to go away or to stop talking, causes a lot of the issues that we encounter in day to day life…….
When I was younger I used to get told all the time to stop talking so much or that something else was more important than expressing something that I wanted to express, so I know what that feels like…..the feeling of wanting to talk to someone, but being told to go away or being ignored when your saying something, it hurts….
It’s no wonder people keep things to themselves these days, I mean really who can they talk to if people don’t want to listen!? It’s why most of us develop or have some kind of mental illness, we bottle things up because we feel we have to or we think if we talk about what we’re feeling no ones going to really listen or understand anyway so why even bother!?
A lot of the time we don’t even take mental illnesses serious, even though we should because it’s one of the things that can be harmful to someones life, if not taken seriously enough, that kind of thing should never be ignored, but overall dealing with feelings, stress, thoughts anything…..
It’s not just us dealing with it, there’s always someone going through a rougher time, dismissing or skipping over how someone else feels, will only cause them to closed themselves in more and not express how they’re really feeling and if they do try to express their emotions and thoughts, they’re going to think twice about it because they don’t know if it’s okay and that they should or if it’s just going to be a waste of their time.
People can be very stubborn and not realize that, they’re not the only ones that hurt, we don’t take in other peoples feelings the way we should and it’s because of that, people will tend to distance themselves or drift away, it’s not always because they want to, sometimes it’s because they feel they can’t talk to anyone or that no ones going to listen, other times it’s fear of being rejected or that their just bothering people…….
Sometimes the best way to really know how someone is feeling is to ask them directly and not in a forceful way, genuinely ask them, how their doing and if they’re okay and want to talk, if they don’t want to talk right away give them a bit of time and try and ask again later, sometimes you have to go out of your way in order to really understand someone one, even if they don’t want to talk, try to listen and understand how their feeling,
Without criticizing them and trying to add your input in, if their expressing why it is they feel the way they do and are talking to you about it, listen!! If they say “this is how I feel and i’m telling you this is why i’m feeling it” don’t say “okay this is how your feeling, this is what I think” (sorry to say it this way, but it’s the only way it’s going to come out )
DON’T ADD YOUR INPUT……unless they ask for it and if or when they do, try and be understanding with it, help them sort through their feelings and or thoughts and help them come up with a solution to help them get through it. When expressing our thoughts and feelings, all we want and need is someone to just listen and understand…..
Just like when we are needing for someone to listen to us, we should be able to do the same for other people who are needing it, we should never make someone feel like they can’t talk about their own issues or express themselves, especially when their trying to express on something serious.
Whether we like what we’re hearing or not, we shouldn’t go shutting down other people’s emotions, we’re human and one of the things we are born with is compassion and if we can’t bother to really hear someone out when they’re begging for it secretly or desperately wanting someone to talk to, that says a lot about who we are and it’s not good……
We all have feelings and stresses in life, but we can still take time to try and get to know, as well as listen and understand someone.
Instead of judging someone and assuming all kinds of things and that, ASK!! if you really want to know or are curious on how someones doing or what’s going on in their life, just ask them, you might get a lot more out of them than asking someone else about it……
P.S. Sorry if this came out jumping at you haha, didn’t mean for that, I just had a lot to get out and this was the only way I guess I was able to get it out, hope you’re all doing well and having a good day!!
The other day I was watching one of my favorite gaming channels Jacksepticeye (well I watch him quite a lot actually) you might remember me talking about him before or you might not, he’s quite the entertainer, his content is very interesting and he has a very unique and great personality!! He not only plays video games, but he also has original content that is a little more intimate, by that I mean not video game type videos,
but more the kind that make you laugh when you’re having a rough day and need something to pick you up. Some people like him and others tend to stay clear of him because of personality and how weird he is, but I don’t think he’s that bad, but everyone has their own view on things and that is perfectly fine, I still enjoy his content, but anyway……
Let’s talk about the game, I don’t really know how to introduce the game to, because it’s on the serious part of town…..the name of the game is called Missed Messages and it’s a pretty deep and interesting kind of game…..
It’s based around self harm and suicide, but has other things to it as well that is a little more lighthearted, although it is pretty sensitive, so if you don’t want to get into those topics that’s okay, the game does warn you with any possible triggers before playing the game, but for some who are interested in seeing what the game is like, I would say check it out,
I don’t really know how to describe the game, so i’m just going to let it speak for itself, so if you do watch it you’ll understand it a lot better, i’ll leave it in case you are curious to seeing how the gameplay is. It’s actually pretty nice from the looks of it, it’s one of those choice based games to see the different outcomes to the story, but with a deeper meaning to it of course…..
It has a pretty cool art style to it as well, when you first look at it, it’s pretty calming and chilled, but the more you get into the story, it does get pretty intense……but the reason I bring up this game, is the message that comes with it.
It shows you just how much you don’t know, when it comes to someone and what they’re thoughts are, they could seem fine, yet you wouldn’t know that deep down, that’s not exactly how their feeling, unless you really get to know them and just talk to them. People are so used to keeping things bottled in and because they’re so used to it, they have trouble asking for help or just opening up alone about things in general….
We’ve all been there, where if there’s something we’re struggling with or dealing with, we keep it to ourselves thinking we can handle it and adding our problems onto someone else, even though it shouldn’t be a worry or they may not have a problem with you coming to them,
You still think of it as being a burden in a way and so we chose to just keep to ourselves to avoid adding to their problems even if we are secretly needing a bit of comfort or reassurance.
It’s easy to have a simple conversation when it comes to things you might have in common with someone or something random and that……but when it has to do with a problem or something that is hard to talk about that’s when it becomes difficult and where people start to shut down and sometimes that’s dangerous if you’re not careful, in many different ways.
However it isn’t always dangerous, some people just prefer to be alone and stay to themselves, which is fine, there’s nothing wrong with that, but sometimes it’s good to see how people are from time to time, because you don’t always know what they’re dealing with and the kind of struggles they’re going through, even if you aren’t sure what to do,
Just showing them that you’re there if they need you and even sitting with them in silence would probably mean so much, sometimes not saying anything is better than trying to say something, most of the time all people really need is comfort and reassurance and just for someone to be there.
Final Thoughts:Just by watching the gameplay, it looks like a pretty great game to play or check out, I don’t really play games as often as I used to and when I did, it was mainly on my Xbox One or my 3Ds, sometimes my tablet too although I rarely play with it now…..but this game is something I think should be given a try and if you don’t want to play it, i’d say it’s worth checking out, there’s so much more to it than just the art style…….
You get a lot of realness and emotion from it as well, believe me it’s worth the time and understanding with the message that it’s trying to share with everyone, even Jack shares his thoughts on it, as well as knowing that kind of struggle that is talked about in the game, so if you’re willing, seriously check it out, I think you’ll find it very interesting and maybe even helpful too.
Here’s the game if you want to check it out: Missed Messages if it’s too much while you’re watching it remember you don’t have to continue, but if you do continue I hope you enjoy the story and gameplay of it!! If there’s anyone who is having a hard time and wants to talk, could be about anything, music, favorite tv shows or you need someone to just vent to a little, you’re more than welcome to here, i’ll be happy to be an ear for you.