Now Playing: Still Alive By Alexz Johnson

Goood Morning, hope you’re all having a good one so far! Today we’re going to finally get to the post that I’ve been meaning to get to, we’re going to be discussing one of my all time favorite artists Alexz Johnson and her latest album Still Alive! Now I’ve been doing a bit of thinking and by a bit of thinking I mean I literally just thought about this a minute ago as I’m writing this post…now the thought here is that I’m going to give my thoughts in a form of writing with each track we take a look at within the album in the best way that I can express them, because for some reason I feel like with this album, I can better explain it in writing then when verbally talking about it.

That being said, I still am going to give other thoughts on it in one of my podcast episodes, well I’m going to try to anyway, I want to express on this album in both a writing sense and as a podcast episode because I feel there’s just so much to this album that is hard to explain in just a few words, plus I thought writing my thoughts on the album would be better than listening to an hour long podcast so to save you all from that we’re going to focus on giving our best thoughts in a blog post instead lol!

First up on the album is a song called Saving The Train:

When I first heard this song I actually didn’t really know how to describe this one, the first verse talks about about learning to let go of certain baggage’s, you know releasing all the things that we find hard to get rid of, be it emotionally, mentally things like that, as for the chorus I still don’t quite know what exactly it means, I felt like it could’ve been related to saving of a relationship in a way, but I’m still trying to figure out what it means, for the most part one of the messages in this song is in order to heal from past situations and just in general, you have to let them go so you have a better and clearer mindset/headspace….It’s a good song!

Next Up…..Chicago:

One of my favorites on the album, this one speaks of going on a journey full of adventure, moving forward, it’s also got a bit of self discovery to it! It’s also got a relationship feel to it, but it’s more rocky this time around, despite all those thoughts, it’s a pretty great song, the bridge is my favorite part she’s got some great vocals there which is why I like it, it’s simple, but still good, the whole songs great really!

Moving on to the third track of the album which is called…..Running With The Devil :

This song is actually one that’s been revisited, as well as Chicago and apparently Saving The Train (which I didn’t actually know) and a couple more that we’ll get to, pretty much this whole album is filled with songs that have been revisited and done differently then it’s original counter part except for maybe 4 songs some are new ones, but Running With The Devil, this one at one point I wasn’t the biggest fan of when I heard the very first version, I didn’t hate it, there was nothing wrong with it, it was just one of those songs that I never listened to that much,

That was until this album came out, now it’s one that is probably one of my if not favorites than most liked, I listen to it more now than I did the original…..there’s a lot that you can take from this song, for me I felt this song to be about facing inner demons, you know like when you just got a lot going on, but you don’t really express on it, it’s also got a hope feeling to it, there’s so much to this song that is just hard to explain so just listen to it and maybe it’ll make better sense, but this is a good song and is worth checking out!

4th track off the album is…..Living In Colour:

Yes that’s how color is meant to be spelled, I’m not trying to be fancy, it’s literally how it’s written on the album and in the UK so it’s right okay! Now that that’s settled…..I flipping love this song, it’s different to what I’m used to from Alexz, but I love it, it’s got a retro vibe going with it, it’s got a groovy sound, it’s such a great song, it’s all about living in the moment of things and just enjoying yourself in whatever you do…..there’s more I’m going to say with it, but later, just know it’s a good one, you might have to listen to it a few times to get into it, but it’s so worth it!

Mambo #5….okay not really, but we are taking a look at track 5 which has got to be one of my all time favorite songs off this album and that song is….. Still Alive:

This is probably one of the best songs off this album it’s soooo good, super emotional of course, she wrote this in tribute to her sister that had passed away from Cancer, it’s just such a beautiful, beautiful song, everyone just needs to give it a listen and check it out for yourself….I’m telling you, you’ll love it!

Moving on to track number 6…..Lost and Found:

This is a good song, I don’t really know how to describe it, but it’s good, I did say this has a feeling about speaking your truth, it’s the only way I knew how to best describe the song, it might have a completely different meaning to it then what I thought it to be, also this is another revisited song that she did, but give this one a listen see what you think!

Track 7….Shout:

This song is different to the one I know, which by that you can probably guess it’s revisited and you’d be right, I remember hearing this version for the first time and just not being used it, I’ve listened to the original so many times, I mean it’s one of my all time favorites and to hear this one, I didn’t know what to expect, which version do I like better!? Both I love the original and really like this version too, I do have to say that some things with it haven’t changed, while other things did! So you’re still getting some of the original listen with it, but you also get something new at the same time which is a nice balance, like they both maybe different in a sense of arrangements and swapped lyrics here and there, but they’re still both great in their own way so I’m with it and I hope you guys give both versions a listen, I love this song!

On to the next one that is track 8…..Swallowed:

Second to last revisited song, Swallowed is an interesting song, the best way I was able to describe this song is similar to what anxiety and paranoia might feel like and I’m only saying that because of the lyrics, when you listen to it, you might sense a worry of many things, so like when she’s singing the lyrics it can sound like she’s having a bit of an overthinking moment happening, however when the chorus kicks in, it fades away, like I said it’s very interesting that for me it’s hard to really put words to it, my interpretation might now actually be what it means, but then again it is my interpretation of it, it’s going to mean something different to everyone, but nonetheless, it’s a pretty nice song and deserves to be listened to!

3rd to to last song, which is track 9 we have a very good song in…..No Shame :

I LOVE THIS SONG! It’s got such an upbeat chill vibe to it to where you just can’t help, but get into the groove of it, I can’t explain this one, just listen it, the lyrics literally speak for themselves, just by hearing the song….you’ll understand why it’s called No Shame, like Alexz knows what she wants with this song, but the way she does it, is clever, it’s tempting this song and I’m HERE for it!

Yaaaay I love talking about this one, I present to you my other favorite song, track 10…..Golden:

This is the other emotional song besides Still Alive, this song is so beautiful and breathtaking, her vocals are just heaven here, literally she’s got sooo much soul in this song and the best part about is it’s for her Daughter, need I say anymore!? I love it, it just leaves you in tears and fills your heart up, this song is literally Golden point blank, seriously listen to it you’ll fall in love with it, I promise, I always get happy when this song comes on, whether I’m sad, happy, just not feeling the day, the minute this song comes on…..my emotions and feelings don’t matter, they don’t exist, all that exist is this song and Alexz Johnson’s vocals with it and that’s the truth!

Last, but certainly not least…..we have the last revisited song on the album and last song of the album…..Weight:

Can I say favorite!? Cause it definitely is, it’s got a really nice message to it, it talks about feeling like you have so much going on like literal Weight that you’re carrying, feeling like you can’t ever catch a breath, but it also talks about not having to carry it all alone that when you need someone to take a bit of the load off, that they’re will always be someone there to be that support, at least that’s my interpretation of it anyway, I sometimes feel it’s got a bit of a different meaning going on with it, but I still feel like that’s what it can mean too! This ones a really good one, like I said it’s one of my favorites and I enjoy singing along to it when it comes on or to myself at times, it’s just that good!

Final Thoughts!?

Listen to the album, take in her beautiful powerful soothing voice, enjoy the lyrics and just bask it in man, it’s definitely one of her best albums, along with A Stranger Time, that was a good album, but Still Alive there’s just something about it that I can’t explain, maybe it’s just Alexz, every time she drops a new album or a song, I love it instantly, I’m probably being bias here, because she’s one of my favorite artist, but she never makes a bad song, even with the songs I don’t really listen to often, I still don’t think of them as bad, sometimes you just have certain songs you prefer more over the others, but that doesn’t necessarily mean they’re bad, they’re just not ones that are often listened to, this album though is just *chef kiss* beautiful, I think most of you will enjoy it, but that is all my thought for the album, definitely check it out!

P.S.

It’s still May so the anniversary of it still counts, so with that Happy 1 year anniversary Still Alive, I love you!

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Today’s Theme Word Is….Why!?

Confused aren’t you!? Yeah I figured I mean who writes that as a title….apparently this girl here! Now I’m not going to ask any why questions, because then it’ll just bring down the mood of things, what I’m going to do instead is try my best to turn it in a way, you might be thinking to yourself what I mean on that…..let me just state that I don’t really know myself I’m just going to go with it here! We have the word Why as our theme and we’re wondering what’s going on with it, well they’re both starter titles of two songs that ended up in my head, one of the songs that started my day was Sabrina Carpenter’s song Why which is one of my favorites by the way, I woke up singing it myself this morning for some random odd reason, didn’t question it, I just simply went with it while it was hanging about.

Then we have the song Why So Serious by Alice Merton, which I just found out is a UK artist a bit of moment ago when I looked up the meaning to the song, because it got stuck in my head, I mean I did listen to it a bit earlier today which could be the reasoning for that, but I also was listening to other songs which means either one of those songs could’ve gotten stuck in my head, but nope just this song so far, not that I’m bothered, I actually really like the song, I was just curious to what it actually meant and I found out what it meant and then I laughed and smiled to myself because it’s meaning is something that is hard for me to get passed, not in a bad way, just more on the sense of taking it as advice in a way, pretty much the song is all about trying to take life less seriously, which is something I always tend to have a bit of an issue with, I do try, but there are times when my mind gets the better of me and makes me worry about the smallest things that I know aren’t necessarily a big thing….it’s just how my mind is okay!

That aside, I like the song, both songs actually, but Why So Serious by Alice Merton is really good song, I just finished discuss a bit about it on my new episode of my podcast, yeah that podcast that I keep mentioning here and there, just to remind you guys in case you want to check it out, speaking of reminders this song is actually written as a reminder for Alice like, she wrote the song as a note for herself, I won’t get too much into because I actually spoke about it in my recent episode, even though I already kind of told you it’s meaning there still is a little bit more too it, not too much, but a bit and I actually think it’s pretty cool how she chooses to go about writing her songs….

I know that obviously everyone writes from personal experience and everything, I mean I like to think that every kind of music has something personal about it….whether it’s by lyrics or just instrumental wise, you can tell a whole lot on what someone is trying to say with an instrument, sure there aren’t any words to interpret it’s meaning and emotion, but if you really listen to an instrument at times you can just feel what it’s trying to communicate, sometimes without realizing it, it can catch you off guard, but I guess we can save that one for another time, because that’s not what this post is about is it!? I mean it can be, but I think I’ll save it for later, I didn’t quite expect it to go that deep there…..but you can always feel what an artist is saying with how well they express through their lyrics and I always love hearing it,

Sometimes it’s one of the best ways you can relate to and Why So Serious is one of those songs that I find myself connecting to a bit, plus you got to love it’s groovy electropop sound to it….I just found out she in the electropop genre, which is pretty cool, I only have one rule with music, I just gotta like it and it has to make sense so I guess that’s two!? As long as I feel the song and connect to it or just enjoy it in general I’m perfectly fine with it and I like Alice Merton, so far, she’s a pretty good artist…..same goes for Sabrina Carpenter she’s got some good songs too and she’s a good actress as well, definitely recommend checking them both out if you never heard of them before or are just curious!

PROMO TIME:

Seriously guys, I get really weird doing this, believe me okay….but I just uploaded a new episode to my podcast talking about Alice Merton and her song Why So Serious as well as some other things so if you want to check that out you can find the episode here: Now Playing…..Why So Serious by Alice Merton on Anchor where I normally record and it’s also on Spotify along with all the other episodes I’ve done *hint, hint* but yeah, check it out if you get curious, alright promo over!

Hope you all are having a good one!

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Now Playing: What A Feeling By One Direction (Lyric Observation)

Originally Written March 15th, Finished March 18th

Goooood Afternoon!! Hope everyone’s week is starting off well and that all your weekend’s were nice and enjoyable, hope you all are doing well too….now normally when I do these Now Playing….(Insert song or album here) posts we talk about a specific song and it’s meaning or we look at an album to a favorite artist of mine and give thoughts on the album…..today it’s going to be a liiiittle different, not extremely, it will still be at the core of it’s true heart, discussing music and all that jazz, only this time we’ll be focusing on two lyrics within the same section of the song, to put it in better words…..we’re going to be taking a look at the bridge part of this song….why!?

Well, I woke up singing this part of the song to myself this morning, as it still continues throughout the day and had some thoughts come through with it so that’s what we’re doing today, plus I feel like this will be a fun challenge of some sort to try for myself and see what comes with it!! Now I want to say this isn’t going to be a lyric breakdown, but I’m not sure how true that is so let’s not say that at all….even though I just did….on with the song yeah!?

Now if you were to hear the song as whole and listen to each lyric, you might not know right away it’s true meaning or you may know what it means or at least what it’s trying to say, as we know everyone has their own interpretation when it comes to music, artwork, even life itself, but that’s what keeps things interesting, knowing that everyone sees and hears things differently, if we all heard and saw things the same we wouldn’t have things like miss heard lyrics to laugh at, I love it when people interpret a song lyric that’s different to what it’s actually, it makes for a fun time getting to hear all the different things being heard

Although I do also get a little upset when lyrics are sung wrong, purposely mainly, not all the time, but if you sing a song and happen to sing a part of the lyrics wrong, 9/10 I’m there like “what are you doing, that’s not how the song goes” I’ll then sing the actual lyrics so you know how it’s meant to go, now if you didn’t know and you were just singing the song to what you thought it said, then I won’t bother with you too much….I will not, not bother you, because I’ll still want you to know it’s actual sayings, however I’ll be light hearted about it and laugh at it, call it the perfectionist in me okay…I mainly tend to do this most with music, because I love lyrics so much and so I get a little over protective of it…..

That being said I too have a little fun with messing lyrics up on purpose at times, not always, just when I want to mess with someone or just to make myself laugh….so I’m not one to talk…..now that we’ve gone and discussed that, let’s get to the actual post here, otherwise I’m going to have to change the title of this post to how I feel about miss heard lyrics…maybe we’ll make it a bonus post!

First lyric of the bridge that we’re going to be talking about is the line “Whatever chains is holding you back, holding you back, don’t let ’em tie you down” Now this line is quite obvious to what it’s saying, it’s talking about chains and the weight of them, it’s more metaphorically than literal, but these lyrics to me are expressing a form of overcoming and that could be of anything really, it doesn’t necessarily have to refer to something specific, it’s more of a reassurance that no matter how much things tend to get or how difficult something maybe to pull through, we don’t need to let the chains of what is holding us bound (figuratively) keep us at that low point!

Whenever there’s a will, there is always a way, even when in the moment it doesn’t seem/feel like it, sometimes we just need to think outside the box, as well as look at things from a different perspective to try and see it, even if that means literally going upside (Big Hero 6 reference) there’ll be moments where it may take a while, but it all comes down to just having hope and faith that it’ll be alright in the end!!

Moving on to the next part of the bridge, where we look at the lyrics reading “Whatever change is holding you back, holding you back, tell me you believe in that!? Now I remember listening to this song one time, really listening to the lyrics, all while singing along of course and I remember hearing this line and feeling a little realization, probably because I had just understood the lyrics, well this one at least and was pretty amazed by it!

When you hear the line, there’s a lot of things you might make from it, for me I felt the meaning to be of embracing something, embracing change….for a lot of us, change is a very hard thing, for a very long time I saw as a hard thing myself, still probably do if I’m being honest! The only difference to it now is, I’ve been learning to be okay with allowing things to change in the way that it feels the need to go, revisiting the lines “Whatever change is holding you back, holding you back, tell me you believe in that!?” Whenever Harry sings this line….it’s like he’s pleading with you to feel it….and what I mean by that is, he’s asking you to believe in that change, don’t run from it!

We all get scared when it comes to something that’s new, something we’ve never seen before or felt even and because of those feelings instead of embracing it as we’re meant to…..we run away, even when that something maybe good for us!! We run away out of fear, but not only that, we run out of defense, some of us are very guarded so when it comes to any sort of change we keep it at an arms length reach, however we don’t reach for it to see where it may lead and that’s the thing that hold us back, like the lyric repeats…..it’s not until we dig deep do we realize that maybe the reason we keep running or avoiding change is because we believe in it, in a way “Tell me you believe in that!?”

Tell me, you believe this thing that you’re trying to keep away from….it’s because we believe in the things that we do to why we get scared, why we choose to go the other way instead of just seeing what could be of it!! Here’s the thing though when we believe in something strongly no matter what we do, it’s always going to find a way to us even when we don’t want it to, you can’t run from something that’s chooses to be around, it always finds a way to get you to notice and sooner or later, you find that you do notice!!

Change is an inevitable thing it’s going to happen regardless to how we feel with it, but it doesn’t need to be something that we turn away from all together, we can be scared about it, but we have to trust that whatever happens that it’s going to bring us somewhere nice and somewhere it sees best for us that stuff being things we don’t quite see, but what we feel inside as individuals, we never know what path we’re going to take in life until we’ve gotten there ourselves, maybe not always completely, but we’re always lead in the right direction even when we don’t know it….in each of our journey’s we have something we are holding on to, something that gives us some kind of hope and with that hope we’re feeling something…..we’re believing and are trusting that whatever and wherever our journey’s lead, it’ll all be good, we just got to believe it!!

Now whose to know if that’s exactly what that part of the song means, it might mean something completely different to my interpretation of it, I might have to ask One Direction what the inspiration was behind this song or maybe I’ll just go with my interpretation of it, either way it’s got a meaning!! What’s your take on the lyrics!?

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Now Playing: Slow Burn By Kacey Musgraves

I heard this song for the very first time in a very long time yesterday and I forgot just how good this song is, it used to be one of my favorites to listen to, I hadn’t heard it in a while, but i’m glad that I was curious enough to revisit it and hear it again!! Kacey delivers this song so beautifully, I mean she literally takes her time to sing every lyric of the song going with the theme of it very well, I listened to it about 3 times today in one sitting within the same hour…seriously the lyrics are probably one of my favorites and i’ve listened to a lot of songs, if you asked me to name my top five favorite songs with the best lyrics this would probably be in the top five, it’d be pretty high on a list anyway!

Now i’m going to be honest here…..i’ve not really heard a lot of Kacey Musgraves songs, i’ve only heard a hand full of her songs, but she’s got a very unique voice and the songs that I have heard are really good, Follow Your Arrow, Rainbow, I even love her version of All Is Found from the Frozen 2 soundtrack, I like it a lot actually, Slow burn though, there’s just something about that song, I remember when I first heard it and in the moment I thought “I can really feel these lyrics” like I felt some kind of connection with them and I would listen to it constantly, I just felt it spoke volumes, if you’ve ever heard it you’ll understand what I mean by that!

If you never heard it before and you decide to give it a listen, you’ll find it right away, this song is literally about enjoying things at a slower pace, taking things in as they come and being okay with being a bit of a slow burner, I consider myself to be that as well if i’m being honest here, if you really think about it….this song is quite fitting with where we all are in life at the moment with the pandemic still going on, it’s not all the way done and it’s not going to be all the way done for a good while, but in some cases it’s getting there, but in others it’s still got a long way to go…..but that aside

This song is a really nice song to sit back and relax to, especially when you feel things starting to become a little overwhelming within the day or week even, it gives you a bit of a reminder that it’s alright to slow things down a bit if you you need to and tells you to embrace taking your time more with things and acknowledge small things around you!!

It’s even got it’s own witty and fun lyrics to it, one of my favorites being the opening line “Born in a hurry, always late, haven’t been early since 88′ I love that line, it’s like she’s making light of herself saying the last time she was early to anything was when she was born and now she just always running late for everything, I like songs like that, where the artist make slight fun of themselves, because their giving you a side to them that they probably don’t share often so when they add those little moments they’re letting you in on a secret part of them which is nice!!

You don’t always get that from artists, so when you do you feel like you’re apart of something which is one of the best feelings you can have……but Slow Burn is just a really nice song, Kacey really does perform it well and whether I listen to it all the time or every so often I think it’ll always be one of favorites to look for, hit play and just enjoy it, possibly along side some coffee, tea or while in nature, it goes well with that!!

If you’re into giving it a listen you can listen to it here: Slow Burn you can also search it up on Youtube or any other music streaming platforms that you have, you might even have the CD which works too, whatever you have do give it a listen it’s worth it!!

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Let’s Talk: Songwriting

The process of songwriting is a little hard to explain unless you yourself know a little about it, what I love about songwriting is the access of being able to express freely without feeling you have to hold much back, sure you can’t say everything you may want into just one song, but you can say majority of what it is your feeling in the moment and have it still be what you want to say, even if it’s just one of the things you want to say!!

It’s slight complicated, but also not that complicated, all songwriting is and expects of you is to speak what it is you feel to be true to you and say it with pride, you can’t write a song unless you feel something or have something to get you inspired by for a songwriting session to soon take form….and that can come from many places, a person, an object, heck even a flowing river can be taken as inspiration!! Maybe another song sung by someone else will be the thing to strike a cord within yourself to then get you to grab a pen/pencil and get expressing it can come pretty much anywhere which is the best thing in my opinion really!

A lot of the time I find myself singing random songs that come out of nowhere and most of the time, i’m either in the Kitchen or Bathroom (not going to go too far with that explanation don’t worry) it is true though, whenever I sing to myself those are the locations where I get my random sing alongs from, sometimes I also get them when i’m outside sitting in some grass, but those times are on special occasions though!!

There are moments where when i’m listening to an artist and listening to their songs and i’ll wonder just how they were able to write their songs the way that they did, for example Harry Styles…..now we all know him as a former member of One Direction of course, but Harry has some amazing songwriting skills, i’ve been listening to him a lot more recently hence why I chose to have him be an example to this post, I can’t explain his way of writing, but each time I hear his songs, they always amaze me, he expresses in a way that leaves you interested on the story he’s trying to convey as he’s singing about it, if you’ve never heard a Harry Styles song I would suggest you do, because you’d be surprised just how well he is at it!!

Another artist that leaves me wondering on their way of writing is Zayn , another member who was apart of One Direction yes, I know, but aside from both him and Harry both being in the band, once they exited out from One Direction, you saw a massive transformation within both their music and personalities as well, Zayn though after his departure you wouldn’t believe how different his writing style was compared to when he was in the band, like complete opposite to being in the band!!

I remember when I heard about Zayn’s departure from the band and at the time, I was just getting into One Direction after telling myself that I wouldn’t like another boy band after being a really big fan of the Jonas Brothers, like it was only them and no one else….but once I did allow myself to enjoy their music and soon later get to know a little about them, I was okay, I also told myself that they would be the last and only boy band that I liked along with the Jonas Brothers, only those two that’s it!!

I kept that vow to this day, but back to Zayn leaving the band, when I heard about it, I was slight upset not gonna lie, but I also said to myself that if that’s what he felt he wanted that i’d be happy for him and once he left, although it was weird, I was excited to see what kind of new sound he was going to share with us!! Fast forward a bit to where he just released his new album Mind Of Mine and what was shared was something I honestly wasn’t expected, but also kinda figured he’d do at the same time,

but nonetheless I was surprised about it!! To explain his style of writing, i’ll have to re listen to really get my thoughts on it, not that I haven’t already been listening to Zayn, i’ve also recently been revisiting some of his songs as well, but I still don’t know how to truly explain it just yet, but we’ll come back to it! The one thing I can say is that both Zayn and Harry, have similar ways of expressing themselves in their songs, however they are also very different, their tones are different, the styles are of their songwriting is different, but if you listen to them both carefully, you’ll be surprised on how in depth they are with their songs.

That’s the beauty though with songwriting you can either be very direct with the message you’re trying to express or if you’re the kind of person who likes to have people guessing, then forcing people to dig deep and discover the true hidden message you’re trying to get at is something that can works too, I love both tactics, because I always like looking for the meanings behind songs that are written! Lyrics have always been my favorite thing about a song, sure beats and instruments within songs are nice as well, but at heart i’m lyricist and that’s something I know i’ll always be and it’s for that reason I like songwriting!!

I love discovering artists that have a unique way of jotting down their thoughts, from Harry Styles, to Zayn, Alexz Johnson (who I love with everything in my heart and soul, she is amazing!!) The band PVRIS, Scott James, Lux Lisbon, Michael Kilbey, Ashley Tisdale…..there’s so many more, I just can’t think of them all, but there’s so many different artists that i’ve had the pleasure of discovering and listening to where i’ve listen to their songs and i’m just blown away with how they write their songs, it’s amazing and I just love it so much and it’s fun to listen and see if you can understand the meaning of what they’ve written as well as see if you’d be able to interpret it in many different ways, but for me mainly, I listen to these artists because their songwriting abilities are just so well written that when it’s performed you can’t help, but feel drawn and infatuated by their choice of words within the songs that they share with everyone and it’s great!!

P.S. This post was inspired by both Zayn and Harry Styles because of how much i’ve been listening to them these days, don’t be surprised if you see me reviewing their albums soon, it’s kinda an idea already anyway so this is just me giving you a heads up on it

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

White Spotted Ladybug (Bird)

Good morning everyone, hope everyone’s day is going alright and you’re all keeping safe and doing your best to stay healthy too, so I thought i’d talk about something, I wanted to share a dream I had last night, now I had a lot of different dreams during the night, but there’s a particular part of my dream that I wanted to discuss a bit, you may probably already know what that thing is based off the title of this post, i’ve been trying to figure out what exactly this dream means, but i’ve not been able to really figure it out.

Let’s just start with what I actually remember to this part of the dream, so in the dream, I remember walking up to something, it looked like an entry way to what could’ve been leading towards some kind of trail in the woods of some sort who knows, but there was an open gate to where I was in the dream, now I remember about to walk through the gate, where I could see a lot of leaves, probably coming off trees, but something had caught my eye to the right of me, upon looking at it a little closer I saw that it was a ladybug

Now as we all know, most ladybugs or birds as that’s their proper name, all have black spots on their back, not all ladybirds, but most of them do or at least are known to have them, but what was interesting was when I looked at them, instead of seeing black spots, I saw white spots upon the back of the ladybug and these spots were placed in a circle, which was a little weird to me, I then looked around a bit and saw another ladybug with the same white spots only that ladybug from what I can remember it’s spots were a little spread out like most ladybugs at least it seemed like it was,

So as you can see I made a little example to help you get an idea to what I was talking about, it’s simple and there’s not a lot to it I know, but the main things that I felt should be in it I kept, I did try to detail it out for you guys, but it wasn’t quite coming out the way I had in mind, but the main focus here is the ladybug with white spots, I also added the fence to showcase the entry way that was with my dream……..Imagine the white spots in a circle.

I did see a small black dot on this one, but it was very small, it was very weird, i’d never seen that before, I thought looking it up would help to get a better understanding on the meaning, but I could really find anything, just the normal meaning to what a ladybug means in a dream……but yeah I just wanted to share that, if any of you have an idea to what it could mean, do share, maybe some of you could help me to understand it in some way.

But that’s all I have to that, hope everyone’s well and doing okay, you all stay safe and be careful if some of you are out an about and if you’re home try and stay calm, I know this is a stressful time for some or most even, but things will be alright in time, take this time to rest if you need to, maybe do things that you haven’t been able to get to in this time, but most importantly just stay calm and keep your head up and know that it’s going to be alright!!

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Vividly Dreaming…..

We all have dreams, even though some of us don’t really tend to remember most of them, now you might be thinking, didn’t we talk about this before!? Possibly yes……okay yes we did, I did a recent video about it about last week or so, I was thinking of doing a video about it earlier, but I figured since I already did one it wouldn’t make sense, but maybe i’ll still do it, I feel like I didn’t quite say the things I wanted to quite the best in that one a little,

plus in this one, I would’ve spoken about an actual dream had or just vivid dreams in general……I mean have any of you ever had a dream where you remembered EVERYTHING that happened within it and if not EVERYTHING, most of it at least!?……Have you ever wondered after waking up from that said dream to what exactly it all meant and why you dreamt what you did!?

As we all know most of dreams, if we remember it, have a way of feeling very real sometimes, say for example, in the dream you’re having a conversation with someone on the phone, that conversation can really make you feel as if you actually spoke to whoever you spoke to in a phone conversation, I mean it’s not like you’re just talking into a phone,

You actually hear a voice on the other end, telling you things, expressing themselves……those moments can really leave you scratching your head sometimes…….you might even recognize the voice if you’re really paying attention, sometimes you won’t, sometimes the person speaking to you is someone you sorta know, but haven’t seen before properly……..

There could even be moments where when you’re having a conversation with them and they might start speaking in a whole different language in which you don’t really know that well or not at all even, it’s weird…….

You’re wanting to understand what their saying and there’s moments where you don’t, I know that’s a very specific example, reasoning for that is I had that kind of dream last night, where there was a phone conversation and at the end of that conversation the whole language changed, it went from normal to where I was understanding everything to the last few lines being said in like Spanish or something, it was weird…..

Besides that, dreams are quite something, most of us probably don’t think of dreams to be anything other then, some kind of entertainment or things that play in our heads while we’re sleeping, but dreams they’ve got a lot of hidden messages within them, it all just really comes down to whether we choose to pay attention to our dreams and what exactly they’re saying, in order to actually receive and know or at least get some kind of idea to what those hidden messages are, we may not know right away, but it’s always good to look into them just to see if, maybe we’re missing something.

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

My Blank Cardboard Piece, Is Molly Mahoney’s Block Of Wood From Mr. Magorium’s Wonder Emporium……..

Originally Written April 3 2019

Confused right!? Well if you don’t know about this movie, don’t worry I didn’t know about it either until I came across it randomly I think last weekend or something, I think I had just finished watching another movie and that had come on, being it was my first time watching it, I wasn’t sure what the movie was going to be like, I remember when it first started though I was confused on what exactly was going on.

The opening to it was just very bizarre, I had my tv muted and with it being muted, the intro to it seemed to just go on forever, every time I glanced up at my tv. Now when the movie did finally start, I wasn’t really paying that much attention to it at first, but then I ended getting curious about it whenever I would stare at my tv, so I unmuted it and started paying attention to it a bit more and I gotta say after watching it………

I thought it turned out to be a very good movie in the end actually, the story and meaning behind it was just very heartfelt i’ll say, it actually got me emotional, shocker I know haha……..I don’t get emotional over anything, who says that I have a soft heart and that I can be a pretty good emotional wreck most of the time, come on pffff stop it, I don’t do that………..crazies.

Back to the post though, Mr Magorium’s Wonder Emporium, sure is some movie, now i’ve never really done a review with movies, almost did, but I ended up never sharing it i’ll be honest here, i’m not going to do a review for this movie, but I do want to talk about one of the main big parts about the movie, but before I get to that, let me just briefly try to sum up the whole premise of it.

The movie is based around different characters you have the main character Mr Magorium who is and i’ll quote what is says in the summary for the movie the store’s 243-year-old proprietor, then you have the second main character who is Molly Mahoney and the two supporting characters by the name of Henry Weston and Eric Applebaum……..

The character however that I want to discuss is Molly………so Mr Magorium is leaving his famous magical toy store and wants to pass it down to Molly who works alongside him as the manager of the store, he passes it down to her without her even knowing about it as well as not even knowing he’s leaving the store all together………now Molly her character……..is a real special kind of character, when I watched this movie I connected pretty well with her, it’s really weird how much I connected to her, but I did.

Molly happens to be this former child piano prodigy who is a little stuck in her life and doesn’t really see herself as much more than just a former piano player. Now Mr Magorium and Molly’s relationship in the movie, is probably to me one of the best, if you happen to watch the movie you’ll understand what I mean when I say that.

In the beginning of the movie, she meets up with him and talks to him about the way she’s feeling, telling him that “she’s stuck” to where he then leads her someplace and he gives her this huge block of wood as a gift…….which she accepts with good heart.

He then tells her “unlikely adventures, require unlikely tools” she asks if they’re going on an adventure, he tells her they’re already on one, then gives her something else to take with her, saying “With faith, love, this block, (the one she holds) and accountant mutant……you may find yourself somewhere you’ve never imagined.”

You can watch that scene here:

Mr Magorium Gives Molly A Block Of Wood

I gotta say watching that scene again made me laugh and smile because it’s a pretty nice scene between the two, but to kinda sum up everything, this whole movies is pretty based around the store being passed down to Molly and her not really seeing herself as this person that’s capable of running the store the way Magorium has and just not seeing herself as this more than kind of person that he’s sees her as.

Even though he knows that she’s full of wonders, she in herself does not see nor believe it……….however there’s this one part of the movie where she tries to really understand what it is that Magorium sees in her, asking Henry the accountant who doesn’t know how to have fun (a.k.a the just guy)

Molly asks him what it is that he sees when he looks at her, which he just goes on to compliment her and she laughs about it, but asks him if whether he was able to see some kind of sparkle from her, to where he answers confusedly what kind of sparkle she means………where she answers “something reflective of something bigger that’s trying to get out” but then just turns away from the conversation in the end.

“Do You See A Sparkle!?” Scene Henry & Molly (Store Scene)

It’s a real good scene because it’s like even though she continuously thinks she isn’t this more than kind of person, you see that she does wonder about having that sparkle and wants to be more than what she believes herself to only be…………there’s a few times where she does things that she doesn’t notice because it’s just naturally coming out of her, but she still has a lot of that self doubt that makes her believe that there’s no sparkle……..

Now there’s a part that I don’t want to spoil because I really feel like you guys should check this movie out, because you might enjoy it, so i’m just going to say this, it takes a whole lot of convincing to her, for Molly to really embrace and truly see what it was that Magorium actually saw in her, for her to finally understand that she was more than what she believed herself to be………….now going back to what I said earlier…………

I really connected with Molly and you know this is probably going to sound really cheesy or weird, but do you ever get that thing where, you’re feeling or thinking something and you end up coming across something else that is pretty based off what it was you were just thinking or feeling, as if you were supposed to come across it, you know what I mean!?

Stuff like that, when I came across this movie, I was feeling pretty down and I remember that because, I had just finish speaking with my boyfriend about what I was feeling, I was a little bit of a mess and was just in my head about things and so I decided to watch a movie for some reason to relax for the night and then this movie was just about to come on, mind you I had never seen this movie ever so I didn’t know what exactly it was going to be about, until I actually sat and watched it and when I did it was like “woah”

So i’m guessing, well not guess I feel like that movie was there for me to watch and I know that probably sounds really weird and everything, but I don’t know, they say things aren’t a coincidence right!? Maybe that wasn’t a coincidence, I felt something that day and then this movie happened to be playing, what are the odds of that!?

Originally I wasn’t going to even bother watching it, I was planning on changing it actually, but I don’t know I felt the need to want to check it out and i’m glad that I did, because it was a really great movie and I really did enjoy it, I enjoyed it so much I rated it on my tv.

I really like the meaning behind it and the story telling of it, i’m surprised that I didn’t catch this movie when I was younger, you would think I would see this movie around the time it came out, but hey it came around at some point for me to watch so.

If you’re still confused about the title, well i’ll explain, so I was stressing out, had a bit of a scattered mind the other day, actually it was yesterday (now the other day) but I said this in my latest post that I wrote, that whenever I get overwhelmed I go into an organizing/cleaning mode.

So the other day, I felt the need to organize things and we had these boxes that were in the kitchen for a good amount of time, one was broken and the other hadn’t been used yet. Part of the one that was broken I threw out, but there was another part from it that I well………kept, you might be asking why I kept it and that’s because when I saw it, the first thing I thought about was the block of wood that Mr Magorium gave Molly in the movie.

I remember staring at it for a good while just to kinda give me something else to focus on for a bit to get out of my head and then after a bit I just kinda went back into my brain anyway, but I then later brought the cardboard piece in my room and i’ve been glancing at it every now again since then and it may sound weird, but when I look at it, I smile.

Call me a nerd or weird if you want, that’s fine I don’t mind, but just like the title says, my blank cardboard piece is Molly Mahoney’s block of wood…….

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~

Music Song Review/Song Interpretation: She Used To Be Mine By Sara Bareilles (Inspired Post) (Dec 14, 2018)

Originally Written Dec 9, 2018

Hey there everyone, hope you’re all doing well, today I want to talk music and the artist and song that i’d like to talk about today is Sara Bareilles and her song She Used To Be Mine. Just to give you guys a heads up, I actually wrote this post a couple of days ago, but didn’t really get around to finishing it, until now. I had the song in my head for two days and so I thought, let’s talk on it and while we’re at it, let’s see if we’re able to interpret the song as well.

So to kinda introduce Sara Bareilles a bit, just in case you aren’t completely sure on who she is, Sara is a musician well a singer/songwriter, you might have heard a few of her songs before, she had this one song that was pretty popular back in the early 2000’s called Love Song. I think that was actually her breakout hit, but i’m not sure, so don’t quote me on it. You might’ve also heard Brave which is another popular song from her, i’m sure there’s a lot of songs that are very well known, but for those of you who have heard the songs or they sound familiar to you, well she’s the one who sings them, in case you didn’t know.

She’s also an actress, but is known for musicals mainly, i’m not sure if she’s been in movies or anything, but I know that she has starred in a couple of Broadway musicals before. You might be aware of one, the most recent musical that she’s been in is called Waitress, I think she’s a writer to that musical, I don’t think to the play, but I believe she wrote a few songs for it.

She of course has her own music, I have two of her albums…….well one is her album and the other one is the soundtrack to the musical Waitress, the album that I have is called The Blessed Unrest which came out in 2013, you can find the song Brave on that one and as for the other song that I mentioned before, Love Song can be found on her album Little Things which came out in 2007, there’s a whole lot of other albums and songs that she has, but those are the two that I thought i’d talk on a bit since those are the two songs that most people might know from her.

Moving on though to the song that inspired me to write this post, now if you didn’t know or maybe you did, the song Used To Be Mine comes from the musical Waitress……..now i’ve never watched Waitress, but i’ve been wanting to watch it ever since I heard Sara Bareilles was gonna be apart of it, but it would only be for a short time and every time I would think of checking it out……I would always miss her, but I found out a few days ago that she’s coming back for a few more shows next month and will only be there until February, so I still have a chance to go see the musical and see her as well in it, I heard that it’s very good, so I really want to check it out.

Let’s go on with the song shall we!? Used To Be Mine is one of my favorite songs from Sara Bareilles, it’s a very beautiful song, when you hear it, it just grabs you and pulls you in, at least that’s what it does to me when I hear it. The lyrics are very deep and let’s not even forget the piano that brings it all together as well as the other instruments with it………..I can’t even describe it, it’s just amazing, we’ll just say that!! The song is just great as a whole and Sara’s voice with it, just brings the song to life in a way that……..is just hard to explain, it’s like………I don’t know how to describe it, all I can say is, you really feel the song and the emotion that she brings to it, if you haven’t heard the song, listen to it, really listen to it, you’ll know what I mean when you do.

Now I know that everyone will most likely interpret this song in many different ways, which is expected when listening to a song, even if the artist themselves tell you exactly what the song means, you’ll always have your own meanings for it. When I first heard this song, i’m sure it got to me, I can’t really remember my actual reaction of it, but every time I hear it now, the lyrics, reading it and the song in general, gives you that feeling of woah because you connect with it right away and for a lot of people like myself it’s relatable.  

Here are some of the lyrics to the song: 

It’s not simple to say
That most days I don’t recognize me
That these shoes and this apron, that place and its patrons
Have taken more than I gave them

It’s not easy to know
I’m not anything like I used be, although it’s true
I was never attention’s sweet center
I still remember that girl

She’s imperfect, but she tries
She is good, but she lies

She is hard on herself
She is broken and won’t ask for help
She is messy, but she’s kind
She is lonely most of the time
She is all of this mixed up and baked in a beautiful pie
She is gone, but she used to be mine

I was originally gonna break down the lyrics to this song, but I decided instead I want to let it speak for itself, looking at these lyrics, there isn’t any other way to interpret them. I tried to break these lyrics down and I was having trouble doing so and that’s why I would rather the lyrics do the speaking then me try and break them down and my words end up all over the place you know!? That being said, my interpretation on this song, my meaning for it, is completely, different to it’s actual meaning. It might be the same, but it’s also very different………..In the song she’s pretty much reflecting on the way her life is and looking back on who she once was, compared to who she is now……..from the lyrics you can see that the reflection that she’s expressing, she isn’t all too fond of the way things are going, but also from a different angle you can also see the emotions that she’s feeling, is more on the scared side of town and being confused and just overall thinking about everything that has happened.

In the chorus you can see that she is aware of all the flaws that she carries with her from being imperfect, to saying that, although she says that she’s good, she isn’t truthful about her actual feelings, she’s her own worst enemy when it comes to wanting to get things right and even though she knows that she needs help and is broken inside, she won’t let people know that, because to her it’s being vulnerable and she’d rather pretend that she’s fine then have people see that she’s hurting and unhappy, so that’s the first part and chorus (Hook, to be more technical) of the song.

Here’s more of the lyrics from the song:

It’s not what I asked for
Sometimes life just slips in through a back door
And carves out a person and makes you believe it’s all true

And now I’ve got you
And you’re not what I asked for
If I’m honest, I know I would give it all back
For a chance to start over and rewrite an ending or two
For the girl that I knew

Who’ll be reckless, just enough
Who’ll get hurt, but who learns how to toughen up
When she’s bruised and gets used by a man who can’t love
And then she’ll get stuck
And be scared of the life that’s inside her
Growing stronger each day ’til it finally reminds her
To fight just a little, to bring back the fire in her eyes
That’s been gone, but used to be mine
Used to be mine

So this part of the song, i’m not even gonna break it down or interpret it, at least not all of them, certain parts I will, but only to interpret what I originally thought it was about. As you can see there’s a lot more emotion put into this part and you can probably figure out what it’s about or maybe you already know because you’ve heard the song already, but i’m not gonna tell you what the actual meaning to this song is, because I want to see if you’re able to figure it out if you don’t know what the actual  meaning to it is.

This part of the song always makes me want to get emotional, in this part of the song, it picks up and becomes a lot more intense to where you really feel it, you don’t even have to listen to it to feel it, just reading these lyrics, if you’re like me and love finding out the meaning to songs and pretty much everything else, you feel it……….not just the song, but you feel for the writer of the song as well, because they went out of their way to write this powerful, emotional and touching song that just leaves you speechless, they didn’t have to write any of it, but they did because although it was extremely personal, they still felt they needed to share it, which is incredible. 

Now here’s the part where I tell you my interpretation on the song, well certain parts of the song that is and what I thought it mean’t. In the second verse, if you look at the lyrics……..there’s a part in it where she talks about, the way life does things and how it presents you with something or someone in this case, pretty much throwing you off which is why she says to herself that if she could, she’d go back and change a couple of things and have it play out a different way to how it turned out to be.

In that whole part, you can kinda pick up that she’s self reflecting, whenever she sees and feels that she’s different and is completely disconnected from her old self in a way. She sees this new version of her and is having a hard time relating and embracing it in a way, which is why she sings the lines “You’re not what I asked for, if i’m honest, I know I would give it all back for a chance to start over and rewrite an ending or two, for the girl that I knew” Those lines right there, are one of the lines I relate to and i’m sure a lot of you do too if you know the song. 

I’ve changed a lot this year and I can’t tell whether it’s good or not, for me it’s half and half, but I know that a lot of us go through a change that we weren’t really expecting and sometimes we change and become a whole new person, which we know means that we’re growing and coming into our own in a way, but sometimes it’s hard because when you’ve been a certain way for so long and something or even a few things start to change with you or about you, it’s like you’re meeting and seeing this whole new person, but you aren’t exactly sure how you feel about it.

Being someone you don’t recognize, when you thought, you knew the kind of person you were, automatically you’re gonna want to go back and change a few things, but you know that you can’t, so it’s like you’re completely stuck with this new version of you that you really didn’t ask for and even though, you try to get back somehow, you feel deep down somewhere that, no matter how hard you try, you’re not gonna get  that version of you back, at least not in the same way you always had her or him.  

The last part of the song that I want to talk about is the part where she sings: “She’ll get stuck and be scared of the life that’s inside her, growing stronger each day, til it finally reminds her, to fight just a little and bring back the fire in her eyes, that’s been gone, but used to be mine” Now this part always gives me goosebumps and sometimes leaves me emotional, because I relate to it so much for a reason that is hard to explain, I love that line, it’s one of my favorites in the song, it’s just one of those lines that speak to you on a deeper level and that’s why I love this song so much, because there’s certain parts in it that I feel and connect with emotionally.

The actual meaning to it, knowing it now, when you hear it, it makes sense and you won’t be able to see it as anything else as much once you know the actual meaning, but for me when I first heard it, I interpreted it in a completely different way to how it is originally, the meaning I took from that part is a very personal one, but overall I looked at the song as her singing about self reflection as well as self discovery.

It’s amazing how you can listen to a song and even when you find out the actual meaning to that song, we still create our own interpretation for it. I can see why a lot of artist when you ask them what’s the meaning to a song that they’ve written, a lot of the time they won’t say because 1. they know even when they tell us the meaning, they know that we’ll just come up with our own and 2. sometimes their songs don’t really have a deep meaning behind it, sometimes the song just comes to them without having a specific backstory on it and if there is one, it’s just a random one.

That’s why a lot of them just say they’ll leave it up for interpretation so they won’t have to give it away or sometimes it’s just too personal that they would rather have people come up with their own meaning then have it be explained. So that is all I have for this post, let me know in the comments below, what your thoughts are on this song, have you heard it and if you have, feel free to share your interpretations on it. 

All The Love ❤ ❤ 

~Lexa~

Lyrics Source: https://genius.com/Sara-bareilles-she-used-to-be-mine-lyrics

Curiosity & Meaning (Nov 28, 2018)

This post doesn’t have a title yet as i’m writing this, but i’m sure once I finish writing i’ll figure one out. I’m not really sure how i’m gonna write about the topic i’m gonna touch upon, i’m just gonna let it come to me as i’m writing so hopefully this all makes sense somehow………alrighty so I can’t be the only one who does this, but I tend to find myself really looking into things when i’m sure that I don’t need to………? I don’t really know how to explain it, but anytime I feel something or something catches my attention I have to look into it, I don’t know why, but I just do, i’m always super curious on everything, it’s like I can see something or hear something and I feel the need to looking more into it instead of just taking it as I see or hear it the first time. 

For example whenever I see certain birds, bugs and sometimes numbers I always go and look up the meaning to why i’m seeing them if that makes sense. Like today for a example, I took my dog for a walk because she was going nuts so I took her out for a quick walk so she’d calm down and as I was walking I saw a lot of birds flying around, now it might not mean anything to you guys, you’re probably thinking “Okay cool, you saw birds, I see birds all the time too, what’s the big deal!?” I don’t know I can’t explain it, all I can say is, it’s different……..I wouldn’t look too much into it, if it was just me seeing them once and a while or just once you know, but when you start to see certain birds, bugs or even numbers more often then normal, yeah you might start to look into it a bit too, would you not!?

I know it probably sounds weird and you’re probably thinking i’m weird or something and that’s okay, I know that everyone is different……….I always feel that everything has a certain meaning to it though, which is why I tend to look into things way more than I should sometimes, I don’t know, I guess I like to get a better understanding to everything the best way that I can so that’s probably why, even if a lot of the things I look into don’t have much meaning at all. To go back to what I was previously talking about though, when I was coming back home all these different kind of birds just casually flew by me, but there were a few birds with the group of ones that flew past me, that caught my attention and those birds were: a Blue Jay, a Red Cardinal, a Robin and a Gray Mockingbird.

The Robin flew past me, along with the Blue Jay, as for the Gray Mockingbird, it was in a different tree and so was the Cardinal. As I was admiring the other birds, I heard a noise and when I turned around I got surprised when I came across a dog that I hadn’t run into for a while, normally I used to see this dog whenever I took a walk or when I would bring my dog along with me, now this dog is obviously own by other people of course, so I would only see it in the backyard of it’s home.

Every time I would walk by, it would come running towards the fence and bark at me, but after a while I stopped seeing it. I would walk sometimes and go looking to see if it was around and it wasn’t so I wasn’t sure whether the people moved or something so I stopped looking for it…..kinda i’d always take a small peak to the backyard to see if he was there……..he wasn’t……..today though, I didn’t look at the backyard and the one time where I don’t look, here he comes running towards the fence, barking, it caught me off guard because again I hadn’t seen that dog in a long time, so when I did I was happy and said hi and that it’s been a while, I don’t think the dog remembered me though, I wouldn’t be surprised if he didn’t either, but yeah that was interesting.

As I was walking back towards my house, I wasn’t really paying attention at first, so I don’t remember what happened exactly, all I remember is walking and then turning my gaze toward this bridge close to my house and I stop and looking at me was the Mockingbird. I was so amazed and shocked that I couldn’t take me eyes off it, it was so beautiful seeing it up close, normally if I saw it, it would be like away from me on a fence or in front of my house or something, but this time it was literally in front of me, well as close as i’m ever gonna get to it, it was sitting in between a tree, but we kinda I would say connected somewhat in a way or i’m probably looking way into it……..I know it probably sounds crazy, but I don’t know……..I felt a little sense of a connection with it, again it could just be me.

After seeing it and making eye contact with it, it flew past me onto another tree that was across the street from me. As I continued to walk I couldn’t help, but look back at the Mockingbird…….every step I took, I just looked back at it, I was just so amazed by it, it’s such a pretty bird, of course the other birds like the Blue Jay, Cardinal and Robin are too, but there was just something about the Mockingbird that stayed with me longer then if I were looking at the other birds I mentioned.

I’m sure that all of this won’t make any sense to you and that’s okay, I just wanted to share that with you guys. It’s weird because I find myself really looking more and more into certain things then normal people would, I was thinking to myself about when all of this started and I can’t really pin point when exactly, but I seem to find myself really curious to all these things i’m mentioning and I don’t really know or understand why, but I just do for some weird reason, I don’t know how to explain it. 

All The Love ❤ ❤ 

~Lexa~