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2022….Feels Weird

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Happy New Year to you all! I hope that you were able to enjoy your weekend slash holiday season, it was a bit weird how both Christmas and New Years fell on the same weekend like day, both were on a Friday and Saturday, apparently it’s not the first time it’s happen….I’m just noticing it now, I guess that tells you how much I pay attention when it comes to the calendar!

I still can’t believe that we’re already in 2022….I wrote the date down for the first time today and it just felt weird to kind of see, it’s like even when you know it, seeing it can be a bit hard to process for a while, at least within the first couple of days whenever we arrive in the new start of a year, although 2021 was just 3 days ago, but it’s still leaves you a bit surprised!

Hopefully most of you out there have had a good start to the year already, there may be a few of you that are still trying to find your footing into this new year and if that is the case, just know that you don’t have to be hard on yourself if 2022 has left you feeling as though you have to have most things in play already, it’s okay if you’re still trying to sort out how you want this year to mean for you, not everyone is the same, we all process things differently and some of us need some time to work out how we’re going to stack those Legos and decide what it is we want to paint, whatever pace you’re at right now just keep going!

If you find that things are moving for you nice and smoothly great, but if you feel you’re having to tinker with a couple of things here and there and think a little bit that’s fine too, there’s nothing wrong with knowing that you may sigh as you’re working on certain projects and what not, realizing it’s going to take a bit longer! Sometimes you have to tinker and look into what might be the problem of the situation in what you’re focusing on to be able to understand it better, you may even find that there’s absolutely nothing wrong with it and that maybe it’s just a small issue at hand that can easily be fixed!

And if not, well that’s why you try something new and see if that works out better, there’s ways to get anything to work, sometimes all that’s needed is a bit of tweaking for something to come together, it could be in a way that you had envision or in a way that you may not have saw it at first, but found it to be better than what you originally had in mind, now those moments are my favorite sometimes, although I like when things come out how I had felt it to look like, but there are days where it doesn’t happen like that and I’ll change it as a temporary fix only to like it better the temporary way because it looked best over the original!

I find when that happens, you come across unexpected inspiration that you weren’t even looking for, but it just so happened to come across to you accidently, although I like to think that nothing is accidental when it involves being inspired it’s just the fact of certain inspirations coming to you in unexpected ways, if you stumble across it, it was probably because you were meant to stumble across it, be it accidental, on purpose or just randomly! There’s no coincidences in anything, at least it’s what I like to believe!

What was the actual point to this post!? I’m not sure, I just know it’s been a good while since I’ve written anything and I guess I’m feeling 2022 will be more of inspiration in some way and that could mean a lot of different things for some of you out there, whatever it means to you is how it will show itself and I guess whatever it means to me….will show itself the way it feels best, in the mean time I’ll be tinkering with different ideas!

That all being said, I do hope 2022 is treating you guys well, we’re already on the 3rd day of January….weird to say, I know….but I hope you’re doing well and that you’re taking care of yourself, please stay safe out there, I know there’s a lot of people that have been catching this virus left and right these past few days, so please protect yourself and keep others safe, keep your hands clean, wear your masks, all the safety things that is needed, just be careful if you’re out…..Happy New Year and welcome 2022

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

January, January….

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With this month pretty much over now, you’re probably asking yourself “hey how do you think it went!? Don’t ask me i’m still wondering that myself, you got your good days and your not so great day, but overall i’m still not completely sure how this month went, after being away for 3 months on here and just recently returning, you’d think i’d have a lot to say, well to tell you the truth, I really don’t!! Not as often as i’d like at least! However, I still try to bring something and i’m realizing that it’s probably going to be in the spare of the moment for a bit longer, unless I have something I really want to talk about, not thoughts related, but more on things that bring joy and happiness to me in the moments that they do.

My thoughts lately have been a bit everywhere these days with reasonings to it, but also just because they’re everywhere, whether that makes sense or not, hopefully you still get what i’m trying to say….i’m trying to find different things that I can share that will have me coming back here just wanting to share and maybe it’s going to take just a little bit longer and that’s something I have to be okay with….not just with being on here,

but in general, there are things in mind that I have been jotting down and although the thought and idea of it makes me excited….it’s still something that I get nervous about because it’s a whole new thing that i’ve yet to try and take a chance on…i’ve been trying to map it out, in a way I feel might work for me, in a sense where it doesn’t appear as too intimidating, as well as just trying to get myself warmed up for it!!

I may have it written down in a journal yes….but I know there’s a difference between it being an idea and thought compared to actually giving it ago and that’s what i’m trying to get myself warmed up for, being ready for this step of trying something new and just seeing what happens and it’s something I also find myself worrying about, but at the same time i’ve been trying not to bring it as a worry, but see it as something that i’m just preparing for and wanting to have it work out alright before fully getting into it, it’s just a double checking of everything making sure i’m okay with what I have set to go forth with if that makes sense!?

If I had to say how I think this month went, I guess that would be it, just having the thought of wanting to be better prepared for what i’m actually trying to do or better yet, having the idea of what i’m wanting to do….a lot of stuff has been coming out of nowhere and not saying that it’s a bad thing because most times things that come out of nowhere tends to be good and work out well, but sometime you just want to take a moment to really say to yourself “okay let me think about this for a second” with life a lot of things get rushed passed you and it can get very overwhelming and so having that little bit of spared time to really sit and reflect can save a lot of stressful days and help to clear the mind a little so you can feel a little better with where you feel you’re going with whatever journey you find yourself walking….that’s my view of this month!!

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Hiii…..Happy Late New Yeeear Along With All The Other Holiday’s Prior!!

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Alright let’s get this all out of the way without being awkward about it!! I’ve been gone for quiiite a while now as most or some may have noticed, my last post was back in October of last year, but as we all know we’re now in the year of 2021, it’s a bit crazy when you think about it I know!! Now we are in mid January close to moving to a New month, but we’ve still got a couple more days to this month before we transition over to that month so don’t go worrying too much about it!!

You might be wondering why i’ve been away for quite some time and the truth to that is……there was nothing for me to bring here…..I didn’t have much to say…..i’ve been also trying to figure out a lot of things in terms of not just new ideas, but I wanted to bring for myself, now whether that makes sense or not is to tell…..I didn’t feel happy with a lot of things, as much as I tried to share here, nothing ever felt important to share and because of that…..I just felt like I needed to step back from the things that I was doing within that time.

There was a lot of sorting that was needed from me and I felt and knew that, i’d like to say that i’ve sorted it all and i’m all good to go, but the truth is that’s not the case lol, there are still things that i’m working on, but from where I was and where i’m at now i’ve gotten a bit better that i’ve had the most trouble with, that aside I do still feel like I have a bit more to go before i’d say i’m at least 80-95% good!! 100% is a little too high right now for me to rate, but i’m in no rush to get to that percentage if i’m being honest I know i’ll get there eventually!!

In terms to how i’m feeling, obviously you have your days, that’s just part of being human, but for the most part i’d say i’ve been pretty alright, I feel good, but not GOOD with capital letters, it’s a little hard to explain,

I guess it’s kinda like a temperature thermostat, but instead of it telling you where you’re at on a hot/cold scale, it tells you where you’re at on a feeling scale and mine is at pretty alright/good, pretty alright is the middle and good (lower case letters) is just above it!! That’s where i’m at right now overall, which is good for me for now, I still worry about a lot of things that’s never going to change, but i’ve been slowly trying to embrace things more which is still new to me, but i’ve gotten better at it that I can say!!

I like to say that i’m still a work in progress, but slowly, yet surely I feel myself getting there little by little and i’m happy with myself about that, I still feel scared a lot of time with not really knowing where i’m going next, but that’s a fear within me that i’m doing my best to get over, I have been thinking of ideas where I have in mind of heading next, it’s something I have yet to try, but it’s something that has caught my interest and once I sort that all out i’ll speak of it more later down the line of course….

I do have another idea in mind that i’m probably going to try to mix in with my other idea, however this idea is one i’ve already had in my head for a while now…..again still have to sort it out first, obviously i’ll be doing it one by one because that’s the only way i’ll be able to fully give attention to it, but that’s just the half of it kinda….i’ve already written down slight notes to what I have in mind so i’d have an idea of how to do it, but because it’s something new and something that i’ve yet to try, I get nervous about it not knowing how it’s going to be, but if i’ve learned anything lately it’s to just let things happen when they happen and try not to think about it too much….which is something i’m still getting used as you can tell ha……

I’m sure once I get there, everything will just come through right then there, I just have to not think too much on it and let myself explore and figure it out on the way as scary as it may be and all, I just have to keep my focus on one thing at a time and know that everything else will follow along in the time that it’s supposed to. Excited, yet terrified in a good way of course!! I hope you all have been well and that this year has been treating you well, if you too are still on the journey of discovery of ones self,

know that no matter how worried you may be or how scared you may be…….it’s okay to feel that way….just take it one by one and whatever moment you’re in right now, embrace it and let it lead you somewhere you’d never think of going, in someway it’s bound to surprise you with where it takes you and wherever that may be….I wish you all the best on your adventures ^_^ Happy New Year and here’s to unexpected journey’s!!

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa