It’s Beginning To Look A Lot Like Christmas…However It Sure Doesn’t Feel Like It!

So it seems we’re getting closer to Christmas time along with the new year, we got 4 more days before everyone’s saying Merry Christmas and one more week left before we’re saying farewell to 2021 and how’s it going 2022! I can’t even begin to tell you where this year has gone especially when it comes to the month of December….this month approached us so quickly and just as we were getting comfortable with it, thinking it was going to stay a while like the rest of the other months, it surprised us all with how close it is to finishing, LITERALLY December is over next week and I don’t know how to feel about that exactly!?

You know I was thinking out loud to myself earlier this morning, I had a few thoughts and the best way for me to get my thoughts out is speaking out loud to myself, it helps me to not keep certain emotions in…..I probably could’ve written it down as well, but it wasn’t in my mind to that in the moment so I was just letting it out to the air! I know that probably sounds weird, but I feel it to really help, sometimes I don’t always want to talk about things to people so I say it to myself that way it’s out of my head.

I won’t talk about everything I thought about, but I will talk about a specific thing…which actually came out of nowhere to be fair…..I had a thought where I thought about dealing with things, now this may come out as deep, although it’s not what I’m intending for it to be, but if it does then it does…..anyway when it comes to dealing with things and this could be in a general state…..as humans….we don’t necessarily have to deal with anything really, yes there are things that we have to accept in our lives, but the real question or statement to it shall I say isn’t about dealing with things, but more adapting to it, where it’s a choice!

What I mean by that is, when we’re surrounded with different scenarios, situations, people even, we have the choice of whether we want to allow those things into our lives, as well as choosing whether we want to adapt to those things…..life is always going as we know, we also know that there’s always something new to experience with it and a lot of the time we aren’t aware to what those things are and so we tend to be left with surprises from it!

That being said….just because there’s a lot going on with life it doesn’t mean that we have to always adapt to everything, although we should try our best to accept things as they are, even when it’s something we may not want to accept in the moment, it’s important to know that there’s a difference to accepting something and having the choice to adapt to that same thing…..it’s like flowers…..I know weird example I’m about to give, but it’s the first thing that came to mind so it’s what I’m going to use, flowers are very interesting!

If you’re lucky you may just see one sprout through concrete…..but with most flowers they all have a season, most of them tend to grow during the Springtime, but there are others that grow in the Summer and Fall and there are very rare and unique ones that might just grow during the Winter time, now you might be asking yourself where am I going with this…..to bring it back the best way I know how…..with most flowers they know their season and although there are flowers that will adapt and grow in the other seasons, most of them are Spring time flowers and won’t grow in any other season, but it’s because it’s how their made, they accept it!

What I’m trying to say here is, we’re not always meant to adapt to certain things, we can choose to adapt and put ourselves into something and be around people that are a little different to us, but that we know can help us in some way, however we don’t have to feel like we have to force ourselves to adapt to things that we know within ourselves isn’t who we are! When we find ourselves in those situations, it’s important to hear what our inner voices are saying, so if you’re in a place and you start to feel like you’re not meant to be there….really listen to that feeling!

If you find yourself surrounded by people and you’re feeling more out of place then you are enjoying yourself then really look at that, sometimes you can have moments where it’s more out of shyness then you feeling you’re just there and that’s it, it really depends on the situation there, but if you genuinely feel like you’re always invading people personal space even when they tell you you’re not or you just feel like it’s not your kind of scene then that’s when you want to look into it deeper!

Now I’m not saying don’t go out of your comfort because it’s important to do that every now and again, because it allows you to gain new experiences and see things in a whole new way to what you were use to, as well as getting to meet new people, some of them will have shared interests and will be similar to you and some will be the complete opposite to you, but sometimes that’s the best thing because you don’t want everyone to be like you it’s good to have that one person that’s more realistic and will tell you “hey you might want to re look at this” or tell you if you’re going a little off track, but not in a way of saying their way is right and your way is wrong, but just by letting you know they care and always want to make sure you’re good!

Those are the people you want in your life, you want someone to be your Ying to their Yang, you can’t have one without the other….but to get back on track…..It’s important to know yourself and what feels right to you and what doesn’t…..in terms of people, as much as we may want all that come into our lives to stay…..not all of them are going to….so as we wrap up the year within the next few days…..whoever chooses to adapt and stay in our lives will and those who feel it’s time for them to move on in whatever way or form…..

Well you should always choose to thank them for being with you for the time that they were and accept the situation however it may come, when it comes to all the other things look at what they are and decide if whether you want to adapt to them or not and whatever you choose, always try your best to accept even if it feels hard at first, always accept it!

Take care, stay safe and happy holidays!

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Now Playing: 7 Years By Lucas Graham

This song might be one of the hardest songs to at least try and come up with an opening for! Hope you all are having a nice Wednesday….my Wednesday is a bit all over the place, I had a bit of a sleepless night yesterday so I’m not entirely well rested, but I got a bit of sleep….and I say that because I’m writing this post at the current moment so my mind focus is half way there today which I can deal with!

I’m not really sure how many of you remember this beautiful tune let alone have even heard of it, if you haven’t listen to 7 years By Lucas Graham, I would definitely recommend it, the storytelling within this song will have you in tears and leave you with chills and if it doesn’t I still think that you will feel something with it, I mean I’ve just recently came back to this tune, like I have always know it to be around and there with all the other songs I half and half listen to on my Spotify, but before I could never listen to it often because of how moving and deep it was!

Anytime it would come on, I would skip it, not because I didn’t like it! I love 7 years like I said it’s one of Lucas Grahams best songs that he released, although I don’t listen to a lot of his stuff, I still truly appreciate it for what it is and how deep he was willing to go with the lyrics, but I always had to skip this one and the reason is because I honestly didn’t want to cry every time I heard it! I listened to this song TWICE yesterday and both times I had tears coming down my face as nerdy as that sounds, but I’ll admit it, I can’t help myself when I hear good music and to me 7 years is good music!

It’s like that with a few songs truthfully, but we’ll just keep on the topic here, I don’t know what it is about this song, it really gives you mixed emotions in a sense of you hear it and you can’t help, but to hear it more than once to really take in the lyrics, however you also don’t want to listen to it, because of how well it pulls at your emotions and gets you to really think and understand the perspective he was singing from.

It leaves you feeling as though with each lyric…..it’s not just a personal thing for him, but it feels like a personal thing to you as well, there’s a lot that is relatable about the song which is why you would feel it deep within the soul and core of yourself! It’s funny because, it was this year that this song sorta came back to me, it was when I went to PR for the first time and I heard it on the radio and as much as I wanted to skip it, I could not so I had to listen to it, after that trip though, I hadn’t heard it for a few months, until around maybe mid November I want to say to….I stop listening to music for a bit on Spotify and literally yesterday I heard it again…..

It’s actually pretty fitting for the season seeing that it was released during the month of December and if you really take it in and feel it, you’ll notice how it’s about reflection and what season do we do the most reflecting!? Winter, why!? Well the reason to that is due to the fact that it gets closer to the end of the year and so we tend to recollect every thought, every moment and just everything in general because that’s our way of getting ready for the new year to come and it’s for that reason alone that when you hear this song, you feel the winter atmosphere within it!

It’s cold and not in a heartless way, but in a way of just allowing our minds to wander and ponder about all these unknowing feelings that we kept in for so long, as well as some feelings we didn’t even know we had lingering inside of us until they decided to surface…..and it’s songs like 7 years that really gets you to do some of your own self reflection and understand certain situations better, understand your own or other people’s emotions and all that jazz! It can also help to force out anything that you felt yourself bottle up for a while,

Afraid of sharing what it is what you may have been truly feeling…7 years to me is literally what a sleepless night feels like…..not being able to rest, because you’ve got a million and 5 thoughts coming at you all at once where you feel you won’t be able to sleep until your brain is done getting rid of all those backed up junk mail that we just keep storing away up until it’s time to sort through them always on the days that you may not really want to if I’m being honest….I still feel I have more to say with this song, I don’t know how much more really, but all I know is…..I feel there’s more I would like to add giving my thoughts on the song, I’ll stop here and if I have any other feeling on it, I’ll write it down and share them, maybe as an upcoming episode or video…..if not then I’ll just part 2 it as a blog post….we’ll see how it goes!

If you’re interested in checking out the song, I’ll share the link to it for you guys! That’s everything for now, I hope you all have a good rest of the day, take care, stay safe and I’ll see you soon!

7 Years By Lucas Graham

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

I Don’t Know If You Know This, But Christmas Is Literally Next Week!!?

Happy Holidays!!

It was yesterday that I came to the realization that we’re only 1 week away from Christmas…..1 WEEK!! I don’t know why December feels like it both just started and has more days to it then normal!? At least this year, am I the only one that feels that way? Possibly…..maybe…..I guess part of me isn’t ready to start 2022 yet, although I also am because I’m hoping for this upcoming year that is 2022 to have some kind of big change that ends up good and more than I could ever hope for!

Not saying I can’t make something big happen myself although when it comes to trying to make big things happen it can be kind of intimidating because who knows if it’ll be really big or something that feels big, but is actually just small, you know what I mean!? Not that there’s anything wrong with having something feel big, but is actually small in comparison to what you may have had in mind…..what I’m trying to say is I just would like 2022 to be the year that everything falls in to place, however way it may land or choose to land!

To be able to make up our minds about certain things that we may have wanted to do for a very good while now, but somewhere deep down we’re still afraid to do anything about it, finally choosing a direction to go in and sticking with it because it something we truly believe in and truly see it to be the better thing for us in the end or because we know we’re really interested and happy doing those things we love!

Not wanting to regret a single thing that comes next and just allowing ourselves to just go for those things, not wanting to be afraid and feeling like we soon won’t have a choice because we already made the choice, even if it feels wrong at first, but really just turns out to be something we were actually looking for and wishing to happen or maybe even weren’t looking for…..

Don’t you just want to be able to get up in the morning and always know you have something to look forward to, wake up knowing you’re where you’re truly meant to be!? Where you have always wanted to be despite the fears and doubts that constantly float around in your head? Don’t you want to be happy? Maybe you’ve really been wishing to be near that special someone for quite sometime and at the moment you haven’t really been able to see that person, but you know you’re wanting so bad to have them close by without always having that thought of I wish they were…..

maybe there’s something you’ve had your heart set out to finally pick up a new hobby or creative spark, but have been feeling a little low on energy or not feeling it to be the best time, due to being overly busy or just because you really haven’t had time to get around to it! If there’s anything I would like to come from 2022 that I can honestly say would make it if not the best year, but where I would consider it the best year overall, is to uncover a new found creative spark where I can have endless amount of creativity where I’m left happy everyday and to finally reunite and have my guy by me always….

Those two thing…..would make 2022 an automatic favorite, everything else that follows and comes with the year will be bonuses, but if I had to really say what I would like to come from this upcoming year it would be unlimited amount of creativity and reuniting with my love….if I were to add some other things in there…..I would say…..more adventures, letting go any fears and uncertainties, new transformations…..I guess I would just be open to anything that I have yet to discover! 2021 has been rough…..there’s been some new things, but there’s also been a few postpones, which I know happens sometimes it’s for the best and maybe you find you need a bit more time to sort things out properly!

I think we’re all in need for 2022 to be that sense of fresh air that we haven’t had in a while, be that start of something new and different to what we already know, a new kind of adventure that we know is calling to us, but are having trouble answering and letting in because we don’t know what will come of it…..that’s how I’ve been feeling these days I guess….and it’s the first time in a very long while that I’m sharing my own personal thoughts where I don’t feel like I have to figure my words out….this is just what I feel, what I have been feeling, but didn’t come around to truly knowing how to express these thoughts until now!

I guess winter really is the best time to reflect on all that we’ve kept bottled in…..2021 had it’s best and not so great moments and the realization that it’s practically over is really….something, we only have Christmas and then we’re off to a new year, so if you have any last minute reflection to do…..definitely think about them, ask yourself what it is you want to happen for this upcoming year, leave the fear to the side, the worries and try to just look for the road and if you can’t find it…..let your heart and intuition guide you to what feels right and when you do…..keep following it even if you are scared, you will always get to where you need to, you just have to be willing to take that leap and trust that where you land is going to be safe and lead you to where you’re meant to be!

Safe travels wherever you go, Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays!!

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

So We’ve Entered December….

We’re now on the second day of December and let me tell you….it’s one of them chaotic days, you know the stressed out, everything is everywhere and all you want to do is close your eyes and take a nap and just listen to the silence around you, yeah that kind of day! It sorta slowed down a bit as I’m writing this, but earlier, there was a lot going on.

I can’t believe we’re nearing the end of the year, talk about 2021 flying by yeah!? It doesn’t help that it’s around the holidays too, I mean the holidays are ALWAYS busy with everyone doing late Christmas shopping trying to get everything done all at once and probably driving themselves mad to be fair with how hectic it gets around this time of year, I mean it never fails, but we just learn to accept it as it is!

Last week when we we’re still in the month of November, even though it ended two days ago….still, when I tell you last week was busy….it was busy….everything was happening within that whole week, Thanksgiving/my nephews birthday as well as his party after his birthday, there was just a lot of events in one day and hey you would think after it was over that you’d be able to relax somewhat, but noo, not quite!!

Now we’re in a whole new month and the years practically over…..and Christmas is making it’s way towards us, I mean it’s a couple weeks away, but if you really think about it, it’s already here, It was here once November started and once Halloween left the building…..I can’t really say what this years been like is that weird to say!? Some people might be able to talk about all that’s happened with them and everything they’ve been up to and what they’re planning on doing for the upcoming year…..however I feel like it’s still a bit uncertain just what will come for the new year….as far as what this years been like, well…..a lot of different things happened, some slightly big, some not that big!

I had a few new experiences, nothing too dramatic though, but they were still nice ones nonetheless! I did have some plans that didn’t quite go accordingly, but that’s okay, a lot of the time, things work out better when they aren’t planned, but just because, plans don’t happen in the time you want them too, doesn’t mean it won’t happen later down the line, everything happens for a reason, if it’s meant to happen it will always find a way and I will always believe that to be true, so…..if plans fell short for some of you out there this year, don’t give up on them, maybe those plans will transform into something completely different then what you might have initially thought and will end up surprising you in a way that you have yet to imagine!

Other than that, it’s been quite the year, full of many ups and downs and whirlwinds galore, 2021 has brought a lot of mixed feelings for everyone, including myself, but there’s still time to make the most of the year with these next few weeks of December, if it’s been tough, just keep doing your best and have faith that it’ll turn around soon enough! Sorry if this post is a short one…..kind of dealing with a headache at the moment, just a mild one though, plus I’ve been a bit low on energy, but I wanted to try and write something for today!

I hope that you all have been having a good day and week, take care, stay safe and happy holidays!

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Happy Holidays, May It Treat You All Kind!

Ahhh the holidays…..some people love it, while others…..loath it! To be fair the holidays are always a bit of an up in the air kind of topic, it’s always getting mixed feelings whenever it rolls around! The way I see it however is, I try and make the most of the holidays, it’s not always been the greatest of times, but even then I know that you can always choose to focus on the best parts of it. I think one of the reasons most people don’t really enjoy the holidays is due to the fact that, the people they celebrated those times with are no longer around, so every time it does come to the jolliest of jolly days…..it’s hard to get into the spirit of it!

Which I understand, it’s never easy to go through life without always having that one person there to help you get through it or just help to be the best part of it….and when that person or number of people are no longer here…..it just always feels like something is missing and no matter how hard you may try to put it in the back in of your mind, you’re always going to find yourself feeling that heaviness of not having that person there.

I was thinking about this to myself not that long ago as I was washing the dishes, it’s been a bit of a morning coming from a very long eventful week, it’s not been super crazy the morning anyway, there was just something that happened yesterday evening that had the morning be a little down-ish, but I like to think that it’s a little bit better now, maybe not in a complete sense of it, but a good sense of it nonetheless!

Anyway, I was thinking to myself on how if it were possible to always have certain people with us in the sense of the people that are no longer here….we wouldn’t have to worry and they would just be with us always, but as we all are aware deep down, that’s not always possible…..and as much as I don’t want to say it, the reality of it is that it wouldn’t be life is we had the choice to have that happen.

Life is a very interesting thing, but one of the things to life is that although we have control of certain ways of life, we don’t have control of everything and that’s something that no matter how much we know it and how much we wish we did….there’s no denying that we don’t and that’s where it will always be hard, especially when it comes to those that are very special in our lives or when trying to do something even! Whether we all feel it or not, we all like a bit of control let’s face it, but it’s when there are things that are out of our control where we stress ourselves out more, knowing deep within us, there’s nothing we can do about it,

Yet we will still try and have it in our minds until we’re blue in the face because it’s just difficult to comprehend, we may accept it after fighting so long to not want to understand, but it doesn’t mean that it’s still easy…..

There’s many reasons to why the holidays are always such a rough time for most people. It could be that something big happened during that time and not in a good way, not talking on the fact of losing people here, but more in a sense of having something deep and personal happen! Maybe for some, you might’ve been battling inner demons for a specific amount of years until eventually getting through it and coming out on the other side safely or just not having the best holiday experiences, due to family not always being the best, not having anyone to celebrate it with and many other reasons.

So whenever it comes around it’s just always this….not wanting to use the word Trauma, but maybe for those out there it could be for that reason, where a big Traumatic event happened during the holidays or it just not always been positive whenever it did come to this time of year….like I said, the holiday times are rough and it’s always when it gets close to the end of the year because that’s when we do most of our reflecting, with all the things we felt, what we went through, trying to release everything in our hearts and mind in hopes that those things don’t follow us into the new year, which sometimes it does, because we don’t allow ourselves to let go of all those things that kept us up all night and feeling so stressed out!

We may feel like we let it all go, but we still carry certain events, thoughts, emotions with us and I’m not saying it’s bad, it’s good to keep things close to our hearts, it’s just the things that we choose to carry are the same things that we can’t control instead of just allowing some of those uncontrolled things to unfold the way they’re meant to all while accepting and letting go of the things that may be unfinished for a reason…..

As for the holidays, yeah it’s hectic and full of mixed emotions, but it’s not always bad, there’s always something to look forward to, we just have to be willing to see it and trust that it will always lead somewhere good, be it big or small….I think we all sometimes forget what the holidays are truly about, which is why the whole magic and feel of it gets a bit lost, but it doesn’t mean that it’s not still there, it’s always there, it can just take a while to really see it, due to the journey being a bit bumpy and going all over the place, but even then we should always try and appreciate it, because without all our journey experiences, we wouldn’t be who we are today!

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa