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I Don’t Know If You Know This, But Christmas Is Literally Next Week!!?

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Happy Holidays!!

It was yesterday that I came to the realization that we’re only 1 week away from Christmas…..1 WEEK!! I don’t know why December feels like it both just started and has more days to it then normal!? At least this year, am I the only one that feels that way? Possibly…..maybe…..I guess part of me isn’t ready to start 2022 yet, although I also am because I’m hoping for this upcoming year that is 2022 to have some kind of big change that ends up good and more than I could ever hope for!

Not saying I can’t make something big happen myself although when it comes to trying to make big things happen it can be kind of intimidating because who knows if it’ll be really big or something that feels big, but is actually just small, you know what I mean!? Not that there’s anything wrong with having something feel big, but is actually small in comparison to what you may have had in mind…..what I’m trying to say is I just would like 2022 to be the year that everything falls in to place, however way it may land or choose to land!

To be able to make up our minds about certain things that we may have wanted to do for a very good while now, but somewhere deep down we’re still afraid to do anything about it, finally choosing a direction to go in and sticking with it because it something we truly believe in and truly see it to be the better thing for us in the end or because we know we’re really interested and happy doing those things we love!

Not wanting to regret a single thing that comes next and just allowing ourselves to just go for those things, not wanting to be afraid and feeling like we soon won’t have a choice because we already made the choice, even if it feels wrong at first, but really just turns out to be something we were actually looking for and wishing to happen or maybe even weren’t looking for…..

Don’t you just want to be able to get up in the morning and always know you have something to look forward to, wake up knowing you’re where you’re truly meant to be!? Where you have always wanted to be despite the fears and doubts that constantly float around in your head? Don’t you want to be happy? Maybe you’ve really been wishing to be near that special someone for quite sometime and at the moment you haven’t really been able to see that person, but you know you’re wanting so bad to have them close by without always having that thought of I wish they were…..

maybe there’s something you’ve had your heart set out to finally pick up a new hobby or creative spark, but have been feeling a little low on energy or not feeling it to be the best time, due to being overly busy or just because you really haven’t had time to get around to it! If there’s anything I would like to come from 2022 that I can honestly say would make it if not the best year, but where I would consider it the best year overall, is to uncover a new found creative spark where I can have endless amount of creativity where I’m left happy everyday and to finally reunite and have my guy by me always….

Those two thing…..would make 2022 an automatic favorite, everything else that follows and comes with the year will be bonuses, but if I had to really say what I would like to come from this upcoming year it would be unlimited amount of creativity and reuniting with my love….if I were to add some other things in there…..I would say…..more adventures, letting go any fears and uncertainties, new transformations…..I guess I would just be open to anything that I have yet to discover! 2021 has been rough…..there’s been some new things, but there’s also been a few postpones, which I know happens sometimes it’s for the best and maybe you find you need a bit more time to sort things out properly!

I think we’re all in need for 2022 to be that sense of fresh air that we haven’t had in a while, be that start of something new and different to what we already know, a new kind of adventure that we know is calling to us, but are having trouble answering and letting in because we don’t know what will come of it…..that’s how I’ve been feeling these days I guess….and it’s the first time in a very long while that I’m sharing my own personal thoughts where I don’t feel like I have to figure my words out….this is just what I feel, what I have been feeling, but didn’t come around to truly knowing how to express these thoughts until now!

I guess winter really is the best time to reflect on all that we’ve kept bottled in…..2021 had it’s best and not so great moments and the realization that it’s practically over is really….something, we only have Christmas and then we’re off to a new year, so if you have any last minute reflection to do…..definitely think about them, ask yourself what it is you want to happen for this upcoming year, leave the fear to the side, the worries and try to just look for the road and if you can’t find it…..let your heart and intuition guide you to what feels right and when you do…..keep following it even if you are scared, you will always get to where you need to, you just have to be willing to take that leap and trust that where you land is going to be safe and lead you to where you’re meant to be!

Safe travels wherever you go, Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays!!

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Pondering Of Emotions….

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You ever feel a certain emotion, but you’re just too afraid to talk about that emotion!? Something in you wants to express truthfully to the feelings you feel, but you don’t instead you just ponder about whether or not to be expressive about it! That’s what I’m feeling right now, I know I’m having all these different emotions swimming around in my mind, but I can’t quite bring myself to talk about them and part of that reason is well I don’t like talking about how I actually feel, yet at the same time, I don’t ever know to express about, like I never know where to start, so I always find myself thinking on my emotions trying to gather some kind of words to start off….

For the past 2 days, I’ve been feeling very anxious, I could feel my anxiety jump a few levels too high to where I want them to be and whenever I get anxious I start overthinking and when I over think I go into a panic mode and then become very frustrated with how I’m feeling causing myself to later become emotional right after and I always do it and I always get mad myself for it, I know it’s something I shouldn’t be upset with myself for, but I still do!

I try not to think about it and by trying not think on it, I end up thinking on it more and then I become more frustrated on it, I got a lot of worries in me that I find hard to get rid of and I don’t know why exactly….but I know it doesn’t help to ignore the emotions or have them put away for another time, by not addressing the feelings that we find crowding us a little too much, we create more frustration within ourselves, we never really sit down and ask ourselves why we are feeling the way we are, when we feel them, we look away from them and try and distract ourselves with something else and when we feel them becoming more of a “too close step back a bit” feeling we start getting agitated by it.

We never feel like we’re allowed to feel the things we do, but the best way to handle those unpleasant emotions is to let them be, in a sense of when you feel them, let yourself feel them, don’t fight with them or push them to the side because then that creates more resistance when turning them away…..we have to tell ourselves that it’s okay to be uncomfortable with our not so great emotions, by accepting them, it makes it easier to let them go naturally without all the push backs and anger that we bring to ourselves because of them!

It’s okay to ask and question those emotions because it may help to get to the root of what is actually going on under the surface of it! If we can accept those good feeling moments where we are at our best, why can’t we do the same when we’re feeling at our worst!? There’s no good without the bad and no bad without the good, it’s all in the balance of it all, we need to feel like shit sometimes, we can’t always expect to feel like a bunch of happy dogs running around full of energy, sometimes we need to sit in a corner and just feel whatever it is we are feeling because that’s how we get over them, it’s how we start to feel better!

So if you were to ask me how I’ve been feeling…..I’m just a little Under Pressure at the moment, but I know eventually I’ll be alright! Hope all your days are going well!

P.S.

I only expressed on these emotions after watching a video last night, if you would like to watch that video, you can find it here: How To Control Your Anxiety (as an Empath)

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

25-26

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Quite the title I know, I’m just kidding haha! Don’t really know why I chose that as the title, it just randomly came to me and I thought it was a neat one, plus it’s pretty themed too, I’m just going to say that….I’ve got a couple thoughts that I wanted to get out, I’m doing a bit of self reflecting, been kind of doing it for about a few days now, maybe a couple of weeks….I tend to self reflect on random occasions to be fair! I already sorta let most of my thoughts out yesterday as a Podcast episode, although I haven’t actually quite posted it just yet, I’ve been thinking about it though, I don’t normally like to talk upon my own thoughts and feelings as I’ve stated a few times before on here…..I don’t like talking about what I’m thinking, It feels weird to me, I don’t really like having that kind of low energy type thing….

I prefer to talk about things that I enjoy and mean a lot to me instead of my actual feelings, because no one really likes to share that kind of thing especially when you know you’re in this deep thought mode, you try and brush it off and put it away, but you tend to notice that it’s never quite far from you and with the way I always find myself thinking….no one wants to hear that all the time and that’s just how I genuinely feel, it’s why I rarely share on what I’m feeling, like I know it’s alright to share your emotions at times, but I just always find it hard for me to do, because I never can find the words to make it sound less…..complaint like, I don’t know why I always feel it to be such a bothersome thing, I just always do! I know there’s nothing wrong with it…..I just have a hard time expressing my true emotions to people,

I rather try and work through my current thoughts in the moment when I’m feeling it and not have to talk about it to people…..but I guess when you need to let it out, you need to let it out….keeping it to yourself isn’t always the best thing, although if it’s not your thing then you shouldn’t force yourself, because eventually when you feel like you’re ready to express yourself, I always feel you will in some way or form….we all have moments and sometimes we all just need to allow ourselves to have those moments, be it in private, sharing to someone else or just when you feel you may need a bit before actually being vocal about your thoughts and emotions, it all comes down to preference!

When it comes to sharing on things that can be hard to share, it’s okay if you’re the type that only shares every now and again and if you’re someone that finds it works better when you share you’re thoughts not daily, but every other day that fine too, but if you’re someone that rarely shares because you find it a bit hard or because it’s not your thing that’s alright too, whatever works best, we just got to accept the type of person we are when it comes to that, I’m in between every now and again and rarely, sharing upon my thoughts is something I don’t really like doing, but if I feel that I need to, in order to give myself a bit of a clear and refresh mind then I will even when it’s a bit hard,

For the most part though a lot of my thoughts lately are out of my worries and fears and me overthinking everything, not that I do it on purpose, I really do try not to think the way I do, but sometimes my mind can just get to me a bit, I guess you just have to allow it to be sometimes as well as do your best to not let it get to you too much! How have you all been feeling lately!?

Update A.K.A Promo Time!!

I ended up re recording that podcast episode I was talking about earlier in the post, I wanted to do it differently, so if you would like to check it out you can find it here: Just Chatting it’ll be up on Anchor as well as Spotify just a heads up (on Anchor it’ll say May 7th and on Spotify it’ll say May 8th, I think the times a bit different on Spotify I’m not really sure) but it’s just a chill chatting session on a few thoughts I had similar to this post, just with a bit more added so if you get curious check it out!

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa