1st Of October…..Happy Weekend Everyone!!

It took me a minute to try and come up with a title…..Happy October 1st, we’ve arrived to another weekend, who else is happy!? I hope that you all had a nice week and that September left you feeling pretty okay at the end….I don’t know about anyone else, but I felt like the last day of September went on a bit long, but then again it was the last day so I guess it wanted to stay for as long as it could which is why it felt a little dragging!

That was yesterday, we’re now in a whole new month and it’s Friday can’t get any better than that am I right!? I’m feeling a little excited today I don’t particularly know why….but I’ve been trying not to question it, I’m just embracing it as it comes all while trying not to let it all out at once…..I have to keep it balanced don’t want to waste all that energy in one take! I’m not really sure what most people are hoping for out of this month, I feel like it unfold in many different ways….for me I just want to continue having inspiration and creativity flowing towards me as well as just hoping for this month to be a good one

We’ve crossed the spooky parts of town in what is October, spooky equals Halloween and Halloween equals: Candy, Costumes, Halloween movies and the things that people look forward to when October arrives! We’re also getting more colder weather, seriously…..I know in the beginning of September it felt like Summer hadn’t gone anywhere, but once we were at the last days of September…..the air changed so quick!! I went outside yesterday a few times and during the late evening I wanted to see what it was like and ooof, was it chilly out and I was only there for a split second so you know that fall has definitely arrived! After all that heat we were getting, Autumn finally showed up and let us know she was around!

So with that information, just make sure you’re grabbing your coats, sweaters, cardigan, gloves and maybe a scarf, but only if you need it of course, just make sure that you’re staying warm because that’s important coming from someone that gets cold very easily, it’s very important! All that aside, I’m excited to see what this month has in store…..I do have some ideas on what I would like to bring and share with you guys….mainly for my podcast…..in terms of this blog…..I’m hoping to get inspiration and bring some nice and hopefully interesting ideas that will be enjoyed, I’m going to try anywhere!

If I’m being honest, I’ve not really been in the zone with writing, I’ve been trying to get some posts out, but I also have been struggling to come up with ideas for this blog, so if you see I’m not writing as much just know I’ll get there eventually, I’m just trying to get inspired! I’ve been wanting to be more creative with this blog, but I’m also not sure how to do it just yet…..

Plus I’ve found that in the month of September, I was becoming a little busy, nothing too dramatic….I’ve just been preparing for a trip that I’ll be going on soon, but that’s not until the month of November, which I am super excited for by the way, I can’t wait for November to arrive…..but more on that later when we get closer to it of course!

I’m looking forward to seeing what October has coming, I hope you guys are too!

Update:

Here’s my latest podcast episode that I recorded earlier today, it’s all about the month of October similar thoughts to this post, but also a bit different, check it out!

Monthly Chats (October Thoughts) Ep. 42 Daydreamer's Podcast

Happy Friday and Happy October 1st everyone! Hope all is well! In today's episode, there quite a few things that we'll be discussing, from upcoming video game announcements, Halloween and what we should or are hoping to expect to be arriving within the month of October! It's just your monthly chatting sessions with a few things added to the conversation…..

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Up And Early….With Some Thoughts!

Good Morning! Happy Saturday hope you’re all having a very nice and relaxing weekend or just a nice weekend, if you’re up and running around today! I got up a bit early today for no reason, but then went back to sleep for a while, originally when I got up it was about 7:48am I believe, I had a feeling it was early the first time I got up, I just didn’t know it was that early and when I went back to sleep and got up again, it was about 8:26am! I tend to get up around 8am anyway so that’s my usual time of getting myself up, if my body wakes me up early….I’ll get up about 7am and will stay up during that time if I feel I can’t get back to sleep or I’m just feeling like an early bird!

but if I’m just getting up early for nothing, I’ll randomly find myself up between the times of 2am, 3am, 4am, 5am & 6am, lately though the earliest of early of me getting up will be about like maybe 5am or 6am tops the other times are only when I have too much in my head and I have trouble sleeping…..the latest that I tend to get up or prefer to get up is 9am…..sometimes on rare occasions 10am, but that’s only when I’m really really tired and haven’t slept in a while, it’s not my preferred time to get up, but when it happens I know it’s because I barely slept so I try not to beat myself up when I do get up at that time!

I don’t really know why I’m writing about this so if you’re confused well so am I, sometimes I just write whatever feels like coming out and I try not to question it, but I don’t have a clue on why I just explained all of that to you guys…..don’t mind me! Hopefully everyone’s morning has gone well, I know for some of you out there, it’s probably the afternoon or getting close to the evening time, It’s 10am now as I’m continuing writing this post….when I got up this early morning I sat outside for a bit and was taking a lot of things in, for one….you know we’ve arrived in September cause it’s getting more chilly out, although it tends to be pretty cold in the early mornings anyway, but even when it’d not super early and the suns out beaming all over you, you tend to notice how different the air is and how cooler it’s gotten compared to the other days!

You know it’s September when you start to see more Crows flying by, before you’d only see them here and there, but the amount of crows I’ve been seeing since September started just by sitting outside is a good amount to count, it’s quite mad! I know I recently talked about doing a lot of thinking about things, which I am, I’ve not stopped thinking recently, there’s a lot going on personally, some a little too personal to share on here, although sometimes I want to, but I don’t for the simple fact of, it’s not everyone’s business, there are things you keep to yourself and there are things you only share with close people…..

Sometimes though, you don’t even want to share it with the people around you either, because you feel like it will only burden them and it’s best to not say anything and deal with it yourself! However it can get a lot to handle and sometimes you don’t know what to do, but you keep trying anyway, even when you know you should probably stop…..and you want to stop, but then just when you think that everything is good…..it comes right back and you’re there having to deal with it again! You keep strong though and you push through!

but life will keep pushing you until you do something and that could either be approaching the situation and facing the music or you leave it alone and sometimes life pushes you, for you to leave it alone or for you to finally say “THAT’S IT, NO MORE” I guess it all comes back to choosing your battles knowing when to fight or to just surrender, lay down the sword and walk away…..sometimes that’s hard because it could mean leaving something that was once important to you behind…..but at some point you have to realize that you can’t fight every battle and you can’t be the one to fix everything! You can be there for people and you help them in the best way possible, but if they refuse to listen and just continuously bring nothing, but drama after drama, you have to think about what’s best for you and your health!

Ask yourself if you want to keep fighting this fight!? Don’t get me wrong some things are definitely worth fight for, like love, happiness and whatever else you feel is worth it! That being said…..there are things that don’t need to always be fought over and if you find yourself stuck in the same old storm and fighting the same battle constantly, eventually you’re not going to have enough energy left to fight or just use for yourself and that’s where you’ll need to worry because without energy, you’ve already lost the battle….so save your energy and use it wisely on what to use it on!

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Happy National Relaxation Day….

So apparently it’s National Relaxation Day…..I didn’t know that until I went onto Twitter to see Nintendo themselves posting about it with an Animal Crossing post earlier…..you’d think that it’d be easy to relax especially during the weekend, I mean that’s normally when people relax, chill and enjoy themselves, but sometimes relaxation feels like a whole task to master…..there’s moments where I can get into a relaxed state and then quickly I find myself becoming a little uneasy, it sounds a little weird, but I don’t really know how to relax if I’m being honest!

This has got to be one of my most un relaxed weekends that I have had in a very long time…it’s probably my most sleepless weekend too, I’ve just been full of a lot of thoughts lately and I’ve been trying to put them all to the side and not think so much, but it’s not really been easy, I’m not trying to complain by the way….that’s just how I’ve been feeling

All that said, my weekend hasn’t been a bad weekend, it’s just not been my favorite in terms of not being able to relax or sleep properly, other than that it’s okay…..I wish that I had more to say in this post, but I honestly cannot think at all so I’m just going to keep this one short…..I think I’m going to take a couple of days off from writing for a bit, I don’t know, I may not at the same time, although I feel I maybe should just to until I feel better, in terms of energy,

I feel I’ve been going on low energy for a bit now so depending how I feel will determine if I write often, It might not be for as long as I think so if I don’t write tomorrow, I may write Tues and if not Tuesday then Wednesday there is something I have in mind that I want to record for a podcast this week so whatever day that is, I’ll also do a post, I’ll try not to stay away too long, but if I feel that I’m not in the best headspace then I’ll have to allow myself to take the time that is needed before I come back here even though I’ll probably fight with myself on it, we’ll see what happens!

I hope you guys have a good rest of the night and that you’re enjoying your relaxation and that you’re all okay, see you soon!

Here’s my latest podcast episode if you guys want to check it out: *quick update…..I missed spelled the name of the artist, I fixed it, but some of it is still there…sorry lol*

Now Playing….Trampoline By Shaed (Feat Zayn) Ep. 33 Daydreamer's Podcast

Happy Friday Everyone! Hope that you're all well, in today's episode I thought we'd change up the energy and talk about some music, I'll be discussing the song Trampoline by Shaed featuring Zayn and sharing my thoughts on it, as well as the original version, this song has been in my head for a while and I just felt like talking about it!

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Honestly….I Want To See You Be Brave (Title May Change)

There comes a moment, well I guess you can say there comes a good amount of moments in life where you have to make some really hard decisions and sometimes those decisions aren’t always the easiest, most times you’ll find that not a lot of people agree with the decisions you make, but whether they agree with them or not, it’s up us to decide what we feel works best for us and if it’s also healthy for us as well! What I mean by that is if you find that you’re in a situation where everyday it’s always issue after issue and no matter how much you try to make it better, it never feels like it gets anywhere, that’s where the really big decision comes in…..you have to ask yourself is this worth the time and energy am I sacrificing too much of my happiness trying to make everyone else happy!?

Sometimes it’s difficult because you feel like with certain situations you don’t have a choice, especially when say it’s family or really close friends or just anyone you feel a great connection with! If you are the kind of person that always puts everyone else’s needs before their own this can be especially difficult and a bit of a battle to get yourself out of, but once you do get out of it, you’ll start to find yourself getting more and more better and you’ll also start to become happier because you’re not having to always please people, you might have moments where you feel slightly guilty, but that’s only due to the fact that you’re used to helping so many people out without a single thought about yourself so it’ll feel a little weird at first of course!

However you have to know when to say no and that it’s okay to say no, as hard as it is, it’s important for your wellbeing, if you’re constantly agreeing to everything that someone says or always saying yes when really you mean no, you don’t give yourself that proper attention that is needed and when you know you have no energy left, yet you still try and give everyone what their asking you for…..it’s just going to be this endless cycle only you’ll be the one without energy while others knowing they have their own energy, continue to take all of yours!

You never want to allow yourself to enter that cycle, but then you ask yourself, how do you know you are in that situation!? Sometimes it all goes based off feeling, so if someone askes you for something or to do something, whatever the question or situation is and inside you feel like it’s not right or maybe you just don’t want to do it in that moment, yet you do it anyway because you’re being asked that’s the first sign of it’s okay to say no when you feel it to be no…..as for situations alone, you have to know which ones are worth putting yourself into and which ones are best to stay out of, it’s not always an easy thing to do, but for the best shield for yourself,

Don’t know how else to state it….it’s important to be aware of and if people choose to scold you for wanting to stay away from all the drama and not wanting to be around them because it’s never a good moment or there’s always something then just a genuine let’s spend time together or conversate and all that jazz, then those are the people you want to keep at a distance, if they can’t respect that then you’re best to just keep to yourself and look towards filling your circle with better surrounding people that you know will keep your energy high and not the other way around, the people who really care will always support you, even if they maybe don’t agree, a good support system will always encourage you to just go out there and do your best and will always want to see you happy!

I express a little more on this topic in my latest podcast episode, it’s a bit lengthy, but I felt it was important and wanted to share on it, if you would like to have a listen, check it out:

Wind Of Change….(Personal Thoughts) Ep. 30 Daydreamer's Podcast

Happy Wednesday! Hope you're enjoying the day…we've reached episode 30….wow! In today's episode, we go a bit personal with it, I had a lot of thoughts that I wanted to share with this episode and it's pretty much based on a situation that I'm dealing with currently! I don't normally share on personal issues, but I felt I wanted and needed to say some stuff and so this episode might be a little heavy topic wise, but I try to keep it a little light as well, without all the extra details so it's not all that bad, just some thoughts…  

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Bursting Energy…..

Happy Friday! Hope you’re all doing well this fine afternoon…..I got a bit of too much energy right now as I’m writing this and I’m not quite sure how to handle it, I feel good today, I feel a lot better than these past 2 days, the only thing is, I just don’t know what to do with myself with this amount of energy, I don’t want to use it all in one go, I would like to pace it better, but I’m finding myself slowly draining it by each super thought that fills me with excitement or just by thinking too much about things….not in a bad way, but just by like I said getting myself excited with ideas and looking forward to things, for example I’ve got 2 podcast episodes that I’m eager to do that will be coming in the next week or 2, they’re both childhood related and I’m excited to put my thoughts on them after so long, you’ll know about them in due time don’t worry!

Now as for the other thing that always tends to leave me excited when thinking about it, is something that I find myself going back to, that I want to try, that I have yet to try my hand at, I always think about it, but I’ve not yet decided on fully giving it a go even when I do feel it! Recently I’ve been researching on it more and every time I do, I get both happy and nervous about it, but I don’t know I just feel it to be something that keeps kind of calling to me to check it out, I just get nervous!

Although, I always on occasion and if not that, then here and there looking more and more into it and I feel like it’s a good time to see about it and see if I can find myself getting used to a lot, again I just get nervous thinking about it because I don’t know if I’ll be good at it, but then I think well I won’t know unless I give it a try and it’s not something that I need to be serious about in a sense of I can just be me and do it how I feel it to naturally come out, it’s just a nervous feeling one reason being because it’ll require me to show my face again and not just my voice which is something that I haven’t quite done in the past few months and it’s one of the reasons I haven’t decided on it just yet.

I know I’m still becoming more comfortable with my voice and so combining the two is a bit nerve-racking for me, I just get very uncomfortable in front of a camera, even though I’ve done it plenty before, but regardless to if it’s been so long or not it still takes me time to adjust when in front of a camera, part of me doesn’t mind it, but there’s also a part of me that would rather not, yet I also find myself thinking about doing it again…..I’m a weird one okay, I’ve accepted it!

I’m also very expressive though, when I’m passionate about something I either talk with my hands or I move my whole body and this even happens when I’m writing, I can’t help it lol! I’m considering it very thoroughly though it’s always in the back of my mind, I feel like if it was something that I felt strongly to do where it kept coming to me…..I’d pick a random day that felt good to do it and then tell you about it after I’ve done it and that’s how you know I went for it by being very curious and then saying you know what “let’s try it” Prepare yourself because that just might happen!

P.S.

I uploaded another episode to my Podcast yesterday so I’m just updating this post to share it, it’s a bit of a weird episode somewhat, but I feel there may be charm with it, possibly lol, if you would like to check it out you can find it here: Let’s Talk: Months & Animal Crossing (Friday Mood) You can also listen to it on Spotify as well!

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Random Days Of Productiveness (Extra Boost)

So it’s Friday which technically means the weekend has arrived and who doesn’t love that!? I don’t know how you guys are getting on with your Friday, but for me….. I don’t really know where to go really, I just feel like I want to do a lot of things, but I don’t know what those things are exactly, you know what I mean!? It’s like you feel your energy is a bit like woosh,

but you have no idea why, all you know is that your mind is on go, so like you feel more productive in a way than you might on most days, I don’t know if it’s like this for some of you, but I always feel like I just have random days where i’ll get up feeling inspired to be productive out of nowhere, now i’m not saying that’s a bad thing in fact, it’s probably a very good thing, because it’s like my brain finally has something in mind

That it wants to do and so it’ll kind of give me some ideas throughout the morning to see how we want to go about things I guess you can say and this always happens, out of all the days, there’s always that one random day throughout a random week to where i’m just in this mode of extra productive, like I don’t even play New Horizons that’s how much of a mode I end up being in, I know that doesn’t sound like a big deal and it’s probably considered a good thing as well which yes……i’ll admit that!!

I just find it to be wild though how it’ll just randomly happen, it’s really weird, but I guess I shouldn’t go questioning it, those days are probably the best kind of days for me in a sense because it’s making me want to push forward than on normal days, sometimes though, when in that mode, I still have some trouble deciding on where exactly I want my focus to be on

and so it’ll leave me stressing a bit on it, but I always try and take it without having it go away from me if that makes sense!? There are days where I probably don’t use those days as well as I should, but I still try my best with it, even if I don’t always grab it right away, it’s interesting though, but good!!

Have you guys ever had those kind of days!?

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

May To Go With June To Arrive…..

So it’s the end of a month that month being May and tomorrow we’ll be closer to Summer and into a new month called June…..I wish I could tell you how exactly I feel knowing we’ve reached Summer territory or just about going into a new month all together, but I really don’t know,

It’s weird because toward the beginning of this year everything felt like it was going slow….mainly around March time, that was a very long month for some reason and then everything started happening and we had to go into lockdown and practice social distancing, still do to be fair……this year just really turned everything upside down and threw us in all sorts of directions.

Now I won’t go fully into it, because I don’t really like going into things that are very personal…..but yesterday was a very odd day, well actually the odd day started Friday into yesterday…..but it was just a very busy day, but not in the way you would think…..it was also pretty overwhelming at least for me, there was just so much happening some things out of enjoyment and some not expected, but expected at the same time if that makes sense!?

It’s hard to really explain without going into full details about it, it’s like have you ever looked around and seen so much going on, yet at the same time, you find that you don’t really know how to feel!? Not only that, but you then notice how what you’re feeling is completely different to everyone’s feelings……again it’s hard to explain…..point is……

Yesterday was a lot and it took way too much energy than expected out of me……it was sorta like, the energy was borrowed in a way and once I had used it all, I had to find some more energy to keep going I didn’t really get time to find a little peace and quiet and when I did it was when a lot of things weren’t really happening…..it was just a lot to take in within the moment and just a day as a whole………it wasn’t a favorable kind of day,

but it was okay I guess……I can’t really explain yesterday…..let’s just say it was filled with a lot of emotions and some unexpected things.

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Hold Your Defenses…..and Judgements……

By keeping our defenses at bay we keep from allowing what could potentially cause some kind of harm from entering, meaning if we go and pull out our defenses too soon, we may accidentally expose ourselves to unwanted situations, just by unawarely stepping on an unnoticed land mine, lying around……we have to try and stand guard even when we may not agree on certain circumstances, if we don’t allow judgements to target our mind, than they can have no affect on our state of mind.

Meaning our defenses are safe from impulsive actions, it’s not about always giving a reaction or feeling the need to add an opinion to every little thing we seem to disagree upon, but by allowing the judgements to seep through like sap from an oak tree, we keep from enjoying the sweetness of the sap and instead put our focus on a more bitter taste, that is not really meant to be there, but is now, because we chose to keep our attention on what could’ve had less of an affect had we just thought it through a little.

Now this isn’t something we need to wrap ourselves in frustration with if we did happened to go on our first instinct and find that it may not have been the best reaction and only affected us in a negative way than what we may have initially intended, while in the process also plummeting our own energy in the not so best way…….when that happens, keep away the judgements towards yourself and instead try and regroup, by doing that we learn to settle the mind and bring it back from a stressful state instead of allowing it to fully go out of control, become aware of your thoughts within that moment, show patience towards yourself as you’re regrouping,

and just keep your focus centered and know that sometimes the battles we think of challenging, may not actually need to be challenged, standing ground doesn’t always mean going at the first attack and when you see judgement heading towards you, allow it, but try and keep the interaction at a minimum or don’t interact at all and keep your peace of mind at peace.

You don’t want to lose any energy that keeps you afloat, when you pass judgement or receive judgement, that energy then turns bitter causing drainage (again in the not best way) losing you to miss out on any enjoyment that you might’ve been looking forward to whether planned or not in the process, so when you feel your guard getting ready to jump on impulse or you feel a judgement coming along, remember to take a second look at it and choose that battle wisely before taking action (preserve the energy)

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Ways Of Productivity…..

It’s the 5th of May today and I believe I just rhymed a moment ago……I know this month just started a few days ago, but anyone else feel it moving a little quickly and slowly at the same time!? Just me okay…..how are you guys doing, have you been holding up well with everything!? Are you feeling okay, how’s the week been treating you so far!? I know things are still ongoing, but I do hope you’re all doing alright at least!!

On to productivity…..we all have different ways of being and keeping productive, some of us are more productive in the morning, some around the afternoon and then you have those little percentages of people that are more productive around the evening, towards the dead of night to be exact

We all have a specific time of day that we may feel more energized, creative or just have times that we prefer overall, whether those times work within or productivity or not. Now even when we try to be more productive with our time, we don’t always know the best way to keep productive, I don’t know about you guys, but I find that my productivity switches at times,

Some days I find that I can be more productive in the morning time and sometimes I do better around the afternoon, it’s actually a preferred time for me and where I feel my productivity works better, on rare occasions i’ll have some random energy that finds it’s way to me somehow and will feel inspired for a moment to use my productivity during the evening,

but those are rare times, I tend to have my productivity come through between the morning and the afternoon, but mostly around the afternoon. Some may say the mornings are better to be productive, but it’s all on where you feel most inspired and creative!! I won’t say i’m always super productive and I don’t always use my time wisely the way I should i’ll admit

but trying to focus on being more productive with my time is something, i’ve been doing my best with, trying to keep in mind and take notes on (both mentally and actually) speaking of I did a video (I know lame way to add that in…..believe me I always find it a little awkward at times doing that)

no, but I did do a video talking about Productivity and trying to prioritize our time a little better, what is expressed in the video i’ll just keep there so you can hear it for yourselves in case you’re curious, you can check it out here: Productivity & Prioritizing I feel there’s some stuff that I should probably expand on now that i’ve written this post…..if it’s still in my head i’ll do it, but for now i’ll just write it down as a later idea, I might not choose to have it be recorded in a video kind of way, but more in a way that i’ve kinda been going back in forth with as an idea for a bit now…..

Where would you guys say you’re more productive in the day!?

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Getting Back On Track…..

Trying to come up with some kind of a grand opening for these post or at least one that makes sense anyway isn’t all that easy at times, sometimes there’s gonna be days where you just have to not try so hard and just let things come out as it wants to, right now I have no idea where this post is going to go nor do I know what exactly i’m going to be typing next, i’m kinda just going off the top of my head here and you know what!?

Sometimes you gotta say to yourself that “hey that’s alright” no need to think of something so intensely all the time, just go as you’re going, will it makes sense!? Maybe, but also maybe not, the important thing is you’re trying to get back on track in someway right!? I’ll be the first to say these past two weeks haven’t been the most productive at least not in the productive kind of way that it probably should have been,

but sometimes that happens, you’re gonna have days, more than that even where you find you’ve ended up by a pond of some sort not really knowing exactly how you got there, until you’ve realized you’ve been there a bit longer than you should’ve you know!? Once you realize though,

You know that from there, you’re going to have to find your way back on track again and sometimes that can be a little hard……not really knowing where you should start or what you should get back to first, there’s times where we may even forget where exactly we left off and that’s alright.

Going off track even though it can be a little of a hassle, especially when you know that you really should be staying focused, sometimes it can a little helpful too, it may not seem like it, but stepping away from walking a good few miles can be a good way of refueling any lost energy we may have needed to recharge on, sure we may have wandered off unknowingly or maybe knowingly, in the end though, we always do find our way back from where we wandered off to, sometimes it can just take a bit…..

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa