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Let’s Talk: Encanto (Movie Thoughts)

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Happy Monday, Good Morning to all those reading this at whatever time you may happen to come across this! In case you’re wondering, I’m feeling a bit energetic today, so I’m trying to keep this energy going in a more productive kind way, also I’ve been singing a lot of Encanto today, as well as in the past few days so that’s another reason for my energetic mode! Hopefully you all are having a good day so far and that you’re keeping as warm as you can with the cold weather that came upon us this past weekend or just keeping warm in general with the fact that it’s starting to really feel like Winter this time around and that you’re all doing okay too!

Alrighty now that we’ve said our Good Mornings and how do you do’s, let’s get into today’s topic….that is Encanto, I know this is about 2 weeks late to when I originally said I was going to do it…..sorry about that, I ended up, not actually being able to do it like I wanted then, plus I ended up becoming quite under the weather those days so that’s why you have yet to hear the episode that I said I’d record.

I’ve still yet to record the episode, but before I do that I wanted to simply write down my thoughts first that way it’s sorta laid out and makes it easier for me to talk about, I’m not sure if I’ll get too detailed on my thoughts here or in the episode when I’m recording we’ll see how it all goes, but without further ado…..let’s talk Disney’s Encanto! Now if you read my last post that I wrote involving Encanto, you would have learned that I did re watch it and I might’ve mentioned getting super emotional about it the second time, if I didn’t well now you know!

I can’t even begin to share my love for this movie and how many times I’ve sang certain songs from it, but it really is a good movie, like if you have yet to watch Encanto, I would definitely recommend checking it out, hands down! It’s quite the experience and the meaning of it isn’t at face value like most movies are, there’s different interpretations you can take from it, even though the main meaning of it is there.

I’m sure we all know that the first viewing of movies and music and all that is different compared to listening or watching something the 2nd or 3rd time around, by then although there is already a knowing of what’s coming and what’s happening, there’s still parts of it that make it feel like you’re watching it for the very first time again and that’s because what you might’ve missed the first time with it, you’re seeing those things a second time for the first time and with the knowledge of really getting to see it all again in full detail, it makes the 3rd viewing of it also slightly new, but not entirely only the perspective of it changes!

What you thought the first time, becomes different the second time adding one perspective on top of another and around the 3rd time….you know what’s coming and you’ve seen everything for the most part, but with those two combined it’s another first time viewing now that you were able to truly experience it all! Now that being said there could be another perspective and interpretation that you gain from those two watches or listen in case you are hearing or listening to it it for the 3rd time, because you enjoyed it that much, but I’m saying it more on the fact of when combining the first and second viewing another first time experience only this time you know a lot more, hopefully all that made sense, I tried wording it the best way I knew how so I’m hoping that it didn’t get too confusing!

ANYWAY…..Encanto has so much to it, it’s the first movie in a very long time that focuses more on family and that isn’t just about a love story, as much as I love my love stories in movies, being the hopeless romantic that I am….but it’s refreshing to see something different and see this different that is also very relatable to your experiences and having that be there whether it wants to be brought up or not! The amount of times that I tried my HARDEST not to cry in the start of the movie, because I already knew what was going to be revealed, is a tough one to count okay….I was holding it all in up until the middle to end like it’s that kind of movie.

Watching Encanto a second time and really taking it all in, hearing the songs all over again and seeing certain scenes, you really do feel the movie and can’t help, but get a little lost with it! You feel for the main character Mirabel and even the other characters that have to deal with the things that they go through, even though I’ve watched it the first and second time I am trying not to spoil things too much here just in case some of you out there have yet to watch it…..

However I can’t promise there will be no spoilers when I do get around to recording the episode that from the looks of it, might just be a bit different to this post, meaning there will be more things said to elaborate on, but this is practically the base of it all until I actually do record and say other thoughts that I haven’t shared here…..I could share it all, but just know it’ll be a long post if I go and do that which is why I’m not going to do that, honestly I do watch to go into more detail voice wise, but I also wanted to jot certain thoughts of it down in writing…..but yes…..Encanto just has it’s own thing to it that if you’re not paying attention you need to, I mean you don’t actually, but it does helps and you learn a lot as well…..

plus who doesn’t want to listen to that soundtrack that I will eventually most likely also do a podcast episode on maybe, I might split it with a post like I’m doing here in the sense of writing out my thoughts of it in detail and sharing those thoughts differently, but the same in an episode or something I’ve still yet to decide on that, but just know I do plan on discussing the soundtrack to Encanto because it’s amazing and needs to be talked about just as much as the movie also I just want to share my personal favorites and my least, but not because their bad, just more on the fact of they would be the ones that I just don’t listen to as much if that makes sense the whole soundtrack is fantastic I just have my favorites that’s all!

Honestly…..I just flipping love this movie, not because it’s relatable and I understand the meaning to it for the most part, but just because it’s got that something that we haven’t seen in a very long time and the fact that the writers and everyone that worked on Encanto went ahead and weren’t afraid to discuss the topic that are shown throughout it and that everything they did was delivered and received well just shows how much they get it, how much people needed that to be out there so it could be understood and realized, take that in whatever way you feel best, but it’s a movie that we didn’t know we needed until it arrived and I could not be any more happy that it’s out and that people feel and can connect with it the way that they have so far that I’ve noticed!

It really is a breath of fresh air and I hope that we continue to get more movies like it, that allow for other people from different cultures to have their stories and way of life to be shown and learned about from other’s perspective so that way, we all get a better understanding of each other all while trying to evolve in the best way possible moving forward…..so far that’s my thoughts that I got for this post, I would say that this specific blog post is of bigger perspective combined with my own thoughts that I had originally and eventually learned more in detail of watching certain videos to others thoughts as well!

I have more to say, I just can’t say it all here, but just be on a lookout for the continuing of Encanto, in a podcast episode with some theories that I found interesting, some of them I felt myself when watching the movie, while with others it was more “I could see that happening” or just because it’s interesting and wanted to talk about it! Also the soundtrack as I stated earlier will be talked about eventually soon that you will know when you see it!

Take care, stay safe and watch Encanto or don’t whatever you feel, but just consider it maybe…..

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

M O N D A Y S!

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Mondays are the days that begin again, it brings connection which allows the rest of the days to follow soon after! We often see Mondays in a Garfield the cat sort of way, it’s not everyone’s favorite day, but the way I like to see it, with Mondays you get more of a clean slate with it. Monday’s aren’t really a favorite of mine either, but I have grown to appreciate it a little more, it’s not a bad day specifically it all just comes down to what actually transpires within the day that can leave it feeling like the best day ever or the most crappiest day ever, but it also comes to how well you handle and get through the day in the start of the week!

Mondays can always feel like a chore to get through, but the reason for that isn’t the day itself, but the energy we put out with it, we look at Monday’s and think “Ugh” not realizing that those thoughts have the ability to lead out the rest of our days for that week. It’s true…..the energy that you put out will always be the energy that is given back to you, it’s a reflection and if you keep the reflection the same, you leave no room for it to be different….unless you switch up the energy!

You can still feel those emotions, you just got to be mindful of them…..which can be a bit hard, to be quite honest, I struggle with this sort of problem, now I don’t mean in a sense of not liking Mondays, like I said I’ve grown to respect Mondays, I see it in a different way and feel it to have a specific theme! To explain it, would be hard, so it may not make much sense! The way I look at it, is…..we all feel the days differently in a more deeper way that can be hard to pin point, yet it still feels to be of some kind of importance, now what kind of importance it is, comes down to what it feels like to you!

I’ll try and give an example the best way I’m able to, so it can kind of make sense…to me, Mondays have this sort of putting pen to paper kind of thing to it, so brainstorming in a way, preparing for whatever it is that needs preparing and working towards how you want the rest of the week to play out, not in a busy way, but in a more efficient way that’s not going to leave you feeling like there’s still loads to do at the end of it! I also feel music to be involved in some way, but that’s because I love music, but for some reason for me I think of Mondays and music comes to mind first, but it also has that feeling of coming across something new, new music, new video games, potential ideas of some sort those kind of things, just full of new discoveries!

Mondays have a practice vibe to it, it’s not about getting everything done all at once, but just trying to figure out efficient ways of doing things, learning to include the practice of managing things better and seeing how well you’re able to prepare yourself in a more still kind of way if that makes better sense….if it doesn’t that’s okay, but that how I always feel Mondays to be like at least to me when thinking about it!

Now I may have wrote all of this, but it doesn’t mean I’ve mastered any of it….it’s actually one of the things I struggle with, knowing how to prepare things out properly, now planning may not be a strong suit of mine, I’m more with the go with the flow kind of girl, but that doesn’t mean I’m going to stop trying to figure it out, eventually it will click and I’ll know that I will better understand it in a way that it becomes second nature in way, it just comes with practice same with everything else!

Back to the whole energy of Monday’s though, hopefully I didn’t get too off track there and that this all still makes sense, my deliveries aren’t always the greatest I know, but to wrap everything up in a somewhat slightly nice slanted bow…..Monday’s don’t have to always seem so draggy and chore daunting, it can be fun and full of excitement, you just have to give it the energy you want out of it and shield off any negative projectiles coming at you the best way you can….really it just comes down to making the best out of a situation and being mindful of what thoughts and emotions you’re giving off for the day!

If you start the week off in a panic….the rest of day is going to be filled with chaos most likely (not always) but it will feel like it! If you wake up thinking to yourself “I just want it to be Friday already” knowing the week just started then don’t be surprise when you feel it to be Wednesday, but it’s actually Tuesday! We have to try and give each day the best energy we can, we don’t have to be feeling 100%, however if the day is feeling super crappy, find something that will help change up that crappy energy or if you find it’s going slow….and you’ve done everything you needed to do that day….don’t be afraid to use that extra time on yourself if it’s needed!

Maybe there’s something you meant to do, but never got around for, you can always use that extra time for that thing you’ve been wanting to do….if you have that extra time, try and see in what ways you can use it! Maybe you don’t have that extra time and the day has flown away from you, if that’s the case try not to get too upset on not getting all that you wanted done that day, like I said not everything needs to be done all at once…..allow yourself to leave room for what hasn’t been done then for another time, because 9/10 it’s meant for another time, allow yourself to finish up what it is your doing in the moment and leave what you weren’t able to do for later.

Mondays are at the beginning of the week for a reason…..we need Monday in order for the other days to flow properly without, it would always feel like something is missing…..Mondays are what a blank canvas is before the creativity start flowing, it’s about preparation in getting things ready before you’re really ready to go, that’s what Monday’s mean to me, maybe it means something different to you! Feel free to share what you feel when you think of Mondays!

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

An Introvert That Loves To Talk…..

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What does it mean to be an introvert!? Well if I’m being honest….it’s a bit different for everyone so to describe it would be quite hard, most people think that being an introvert means that you don’t really like talking to people or that you’re very shy when really, that’s not always the case! Introversion is a little more than that and not all introverts are the same either…..in fact did you know that there is such thing as being a social introvert!?

It’s true! There’s also thinking introverts, which I can’t really explain that well, but I can share the video that explains different kinds of Introverts, there’s many others, but this is the one that I learn that social introvert is an actual thing from: The 4 Types Of Introverts: Which One Are You!?

Now before we continue on I just want to say I am feeling slightly under the weather at the current moment as I’m writing this…..so if you happen to see this a little bit after it’s because I’m going to be taking my time with this post. I actually started writing this the other day so Monday, it’s Wednesday now a bit early until the morning as I’m continuing this post, normally I can knock most of my blog posts within a few hours, but there are some where I’ve either started them and never shared them or I have them drafted in hopes of getting back to them, but never quite do…..

So if you if you do happen to see this on a whole different day and not today on the 8th of Dec….just know it’s because 1. I’m not feeling well and my brain needs extra time and 2. I’m just wanting this post to make sense and to come out well! Without further ado let’s get back to talking about Introversion…..

So what’s it like to be an introvert? I can’t really explain it for other people, but for me…..the best way I can explain it is…..I like my own space, I don’t like being around too many people and if you were to ask where I like to be the most I’d say at home playing Animal Crossing which is the gospel truth (if anyone gets that reference then you understand what I mean)

Now I know I just stated that I like to stay to myself, however I do like to socialize somewhat, not always, but sometimes and when that happens just know I’m coming out of myself, out of comfort and putting myself out there when honestly just trying to start a conversation with someone can be a bit daunting at times for me, especially when it’s a new kind of field I’m in! That being said I’m what you call a social introvert, which means that although, I’m very quiet at times and not one for big social events…..I’m very talkative, I love to talk!!

If you don’t know me by now then this will be of news to you, but really ask anyone I know and they’ll tell you how much I’m able to talk if you let me especially if it has to do with something I’m really interested in! Don’t get it wrong though, just because I love to talk, doesn’t mean that I love to chat with everybody! I will however, it’ll just be minimum conversation if either I’m just getting to know you or if I’m not really feeling social that day and sometimes if I feel a bit uncomfortable!

It’s a bit hard to explain properly, I like to call myself a weird breed at time, because I am I’ll admit it! I’m not everyone’s cup of tea or whatever drink is your favorite thing and I’m aware of that which is why I will often stay to myself most of the time, but I do try to chat things up with people even when I’m extremely not for it, which leads to the next introverted part of me which would be the anxious introvert and I also learned that was a thing in the video I shared with you earlier!

There are many kinds of introversion, most people tend to be extroverts and can thrive off being around other people and I give those people props, I can only handle a certain amount of noise, people and other busy, loud and fast paced things before I go into a hermit stage and don’t want to be bothered by anybody….I’m okay with people I’m close with that’s where you’ll notice my energy constantly flowing compared to when I’m just meeting someone and trying to see what it is they like and what not, it’s a bit of a fuss ball with me….don’t ask why I just said fuss ball, it was the first thing to come to mind sooo, I thought I’d use it!

With me it depends who I am around on whether you get the full Alexa experience with me or just the introverted got to get to know first before truly opening up and once that happens just prepare yourself that’s all I’m going to say…..I guess I just know what it is I like and don’t like and so with that little bit of knowledge, I choose who I want in my circle to be close to me and who I would rather talk to here and there….I’m the kind of person where I don’t just let anyone in, so if I see you as something special and to be of an interesting person and choose to include you in that circle or odd shape that I have…just know that it’s a big thing to me as well as you’re someone that I truly and deeply care about!

I could probably say a lot more here, but I might save some for another time, I did plan on making a video or podcast episode on this topic sometime soon so if there’s other things I feel I want to add, I will, these are just a bit of thoughts I felt like sharing!

Would you consider yourself Introverted or Extroverted Or Maybe A Bit Of Both!?

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

So We’ve Entered December….

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We’re now on the second day of December and let me tell you….it’s one of them chaotic days, you know the stressed out, everything is everywhere and all you want to do is close your eyes and take a nap and just listen to the silence around you, yeah that kind of day! It sorta slowed down a bit as I’m writing this, but earlier, there was a lot going on.

I can’t believe we’re nearing the end of the year, talk about 2021 flying by yeah!? It doesn’t help that it’s around the holidays too, I mean the holidays are ALWAYS busy with everyone doing late Christmas shopping trying to get everything done all at once and probably driving themselves mad to be fair with how hectic it gets around this time of year, I mean it never fails, but we just learn to accept it as it is!

Last week when we we’re still in the month of November, even though it ended two days ago….still, when I tell you last week was busy….it was busy….everything was happening within that whole week, Thanksgiving/my nephews birthday as well as his party after his birthday, there was just a lot of events in one day and hey you would think after it was over that you’d be able to relax somewhat, but noo, not quite!!

Now we’re in a whole new month and the years practically over…..and Christmas is making it’s way towards us, I mean it’s a couple weeks away, but if you really think about it, it’s already here, It was here once November started and once Halloween left the building…..I can’t really say what this years been like is that weird to say!? Some people might be able to talk about all that’s happened with them and everything they’ve been up to and what they’re planning on doing for the upcoming year…..however I feel like it’s still a bit uncertain just what will come for the new year….as far as what this years been like, well…..a lot of different things happened, some slightly big, some not that big!

I had a few new experiences, nothing too dramatic though, but they were still nice ones nonetheless! I did have some plans that didn’t quite go accordingly, but that’s okay, a lot of the time, things work out better when they aren’t planned, but just because, plans don’t happen in the time you want them too, doesn’t mean it won’t happen later down the line, everything happens for a reason, if it’s meant to happen it will always find a way and I will always believe that to be true, so…..if plans fell short for some of you out there this year, don’t give up on them, maybe those plans will transform into something completely different then what you might have initially thought and will end up surprising you in a way that you have yet to imagine!

Other than that, it’s been quite the year, full of many ups and downs and whirlwinds galore, 2021 has brought a lot of mixed feelings for everyone, including myself, but there’s still time to make the most of the year with these next few weeks of December, if it’s been tough, just keep doing your best and have faith that it’ll turn around soon enough! Sorry if this post is a short one…..kind of dealing with a headache at the moment, just a mild one though, plus I’ve been a bit low on energy, but I wanted to try and write something for today!

I hope that you all have been having a good day and week, take care, stay safe and happy holidays!

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

11:11….This Is Where You Make A Wish

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Good Afternoon…..Happy Thursday or as Isabelle from Animal Crossing would say Friday’s Eve which is a bit true if you really think about it…..I mean every time Thursday rolls around you know it’s time to celebrate because that’s when you know you’re close to the weekend time! I hope that everyone’s week has been going alright….I must say this week has gone by pretty quickly don’t you think, I mean the fact that we’ve already arrived at Thursday and we’re almost at Saturday is a bit mad, but it’s also good too so I won’t complain about it!

Now I know what you’re probably thinking….what is this title of a post!? Well if you don’t already know today is November 11th, that might not seem like a very important thing and for some it might not be, as far as you’re concerned it’s just a month and a day, but the fact that we’ve come to the 11th month on the 11th day, is very big actually, it’s a bit hard to explain it, but if you know anything about it then you’ll understand what I mean here. If you don’t quite get what the importance is with 11:11 then I’m probably going to sound crazy…..but to put it in few words in the best way that I can explain it….11:11 is the number of being aligned, so if ever you are to see this number it means that you are exactly where you’re supposed to be in this moment, at least that’s part of it anyway, this number can mean a lot of different things!

Believe it or not it’s not only 11:11 that is important, although it’s what most people know of to be of importance the most, but every number is important! If you’re constantly seeing the same number all of the time however, be it a favorite number, your birthday or just a random number that you find follows you everywhere you go, you might want to look into that number, there could be a message in them for that you need to know! Every number has it’s own special thing to it, but it’s when a single number is tripled or you see it as a 4 digit, maybe 5 digit number to where it can become even more powerful!

So for example say you see the number 555 or 444 and it’s not just once that you see it, maybe you notice you’re seeing it twice in one day or every time you are out for a walk….if you’re constantly seeing these triple digit numbers, take a really good look at them….especially if ever you find yourself wondering about them and why you’re always seeing them so much! You might at times come across numbers like 2222, 3333 and are wondering what exactly they mean….just know you might want to add it to your “definitely need to look into that” list, when you start seeing 4 digits instead of 3 it means you’re meant to pay close attention!

When these numbers appear constantly they’re inviting you to research the message they have for you, so that you can understand what it is they want you to know! It probably doesn’t make much sense I know, it’s okay if this sound like a weird language, but there is something to them, if you choose to look into them! So if you ever feel yourself becoming just a little curious to why you’re always seeing the same number over and over again, it’s probably because there’s a message for you that is important for you to know! Numbers are a bit weird and they can seem quite complicated, but they can be pretty helpful in knowing things that may be going on in your life that you may not be aware of!

It’s kind of like getting a message in a bottle every day or anytime you need to know something that you may have missed, it keeps you in the know and allows you to stop and really think about certain things! It can also be a good way to know if you’re on the right track! What I mean by that is say you have an idea, but you aren’t really sure if you should go forth with it or you just need a bit of encouragement…..it could also just be maybe you’re wanting a confirmation on something that may come out to be exactly what you had in mind originally, things like that it’s the best way I can explain it at least….

There’s many ways though to find out if you’re on the right track of something, but numbers are one of the best ways of knowing more, without knowing more if that makes sense!? That way you get to understand better and really know what something is, be it a thought, emotion, a random idea, whatever it is you’re needing or may need help with!

Back to 11:11 though…..there’s more to this number then what I’ve explained, but if you want to keep it simple and you believe in what most people call superstitions, if you haven’t already…..make a wish later on tonight at 11:11pm and when you do take a deep breath with your eyes close and think of something that you would like to happen or would want and wish for it! Let the universe know what it is you have in your heart that you would like to share and if you don’t have anything specific in mind you can always just choose to have something continue that is very important to you and show that you appreciate and are grateful for those things!

You don’t have to feel like you need to say a lot, you could just say thank you to what you already have and just for the moment that you’re in and if you want you could even use that wish for someone else to have, it’s whatever you feel and how you choose to use that wish, I hope that you all choose well, take care, stay safe and have a good rest of the day!

Update

Here’s my latest podcast episode, I actually recorded it a little bit earlier during the late evening, I’m not going to lie it’s a bit of a weird one, also it’s got a bit of this post in it, but it’s not all the same, if you’re interested check it out! There’s a glitch again…so if you see episode 45 instead of 46 you know why…..I’ll give it a day to fix itself until then…..you can listen to the episode here: It’s November 11th….and I’ve Got A Few Things To Say With It Ep. 46

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

1st Of October…..Happy Weekend Everyone!!

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It took me a minute to try and come up with a title…..Happy October 1st, we’ve arrived to another weekend, who else is happy!? I hope that you all had a nice week and that September left you feeling pretty okay at the end….I don’t know about anyone else, but I felt like the last day of September went on a bit long, but then again it was the last day so I guess it wanted to stay for as long as it could which is why it felt a little dragging!

That was yesterday, we’re now in a whole new month and it’s Friday can’t get any better than that am I right!? I’m feeling a little excited today I don’t particularly know why….but I’ve been trying not to question it, I’m just embracing it as it comes all while trying not to let it all out at once…..I have to keep it balanced don’t want to waste all that energy in one take! I’m not really sure what most people are hoping for out of this month, I feel like it unfold in many different ways….for me I just want to continue having inspiration and creativity flowing towards me as well as just hoping for this month to be a good one

We’ve crossed the spooky parts of town in what is October, spooky equals Halloween and Halloween equals: Candy, Costumes, Halloween movies and the things that people look forward to when October arrives! We’re also getting more colder weather, seriously…..I know in the beginning of September it felt like Summer hadn’t gone anywhere, but once we were at the last days of September…..the air changed so quick!! I went outside yesterday a few times and during the late evening I wanted to see what it was like and ooof, was it chilly out and I was only there for a split second so you know that fall has definitely arrived! After all that heat we were getting, Autumn finally showed up and let us know she was around!

So with that information, just make sure you’re grabbing your coats, sweaters, cardigan, gloves and maybe a scarf, but only if you need it of course, just make sure that you’re staying warm because that’s important coming from someone that gets cold very easily, it’s very important! All that aside, I’m excited to see what this month has in store…..I do have some ideas on what I would like to bring and share with you guys….mainly for my podcast…..in terms of this blog…..I’m hoping to get inspiration and bring some nice and hopefully interesting ideas that will be enjoyed, I’m going to try anywhere!

If I’m being honest, I’ve not really been in the zone with writing, I’ve been trying to get some posts out, but I also have been struggling to come up with ideas for this blog, so if you see I’m not writing as much just know I’ll get there eventually, I’m just trying to get inspired! I’ve been wanting to be more creative with this blog, but I’m also not sure how to do it just yet…..

Plus I’ve found that in the month of September, I was becoming a little busy, nothing too dramatic….I’ve just been preparing for a trip that I’ll be going on soon, but that’s not until the month of November, which I am super excited for by the way, I can’t wait for November to arrive…..but more on that later when we get closer to it of course!

I’m looking forward to seeing what October has coming, I hope you guys are too!

Update:

Here’s my latest podcast episode that I recorded earlier today, it’s all about the month of October similar thoughts to this post, but also a bit different, check it out!

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Up And Early….With Some Thoughts!

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Good Morning! Happy Saturday hope you’re all having a very nice and relaxing weekend or just a nice weekend, if you’re up and running around today! I got up a bit early today for no reason, but then went back to sleep for a while, originally when I got up it was about 7:48am I believe, I had a feeling it was early the first time I got up, I just didn’t know it was that early and when I went back to sleep and got up again, it was about 8:26am! I tend to get up around 8am anyway so that’s my usual time of getting myself up, if my body wakes me up early….I’ll get up about 7am and will stay up during that time if I feel I can’t get back to sleep or I’m just feeling like an early bird!

but if I’m just getting up early for nothing, I’ll randomly find myself up between the times of 2am, 3am, 4am, 5am & 6am, lately though the earliest of early of me getting up will be about like maybe 5am or 6am tops the other times are only when I have too much in my head and I have trouble sleeping…..the latest that I tend to get up or prefer to get up is 9am…..sometimes on rare occasions 10am, but that’s only when I’m really really tired and haven’t slept in a while, it’s not my preferred time to get up, but when it happens I know it’s because I barely slept so I try not to beat myself up when I do get up at that time!

I don’t really know why I’m writing about this so if you’re confused well so am I, sometimes I just write whatever feels like coming out and I try not to question it, but I don’t have a clue on why I just explained all of that to you guys…..don’t mind me! Hopefully everyone’s morning has gone well, I know for some of you out there, it’s probably the afternoon or getting close to the evening time, It’s 10am now as I’m continuing writing this post….when I got up this early morning I sat outside for a bit and was taking a lot of things in, for one….you know we’ve arrived in September cause it’s getting more chilly out, although it tends to be pretty cold in the early mornings anyway, but even when it’d not super early and the suns out beaming all over you, you tend to notice how different the air is and how cooler it’s gotten compared to the other days!

You know it’s September when you start to see more Crows flying by, before you’d only see them here and there, but the amount of crows I’ve been seeing since September started just by sitting outside is a good amount to count, it’s quite mad! I know I recently talked about doing a lot of thinking about things, which I am, I’ve not stopped thinking recently, there’s a lot going on personally, some a little too personal to share on here, although sometimes I want to, but I don’t for the simple fact of, it’s not everyone’s business, there are things you keep to yourself and there are things you only share with close people…..

Sometimes though, you don’t even want to share it with the people around you either, because you feel like it will only burden them and it’s best to not say anything and deal with it yourself! However it can get a lot to handle and sometimes you don’t know what to do, but you keep trying anyway, even when you know you should probably stop…..and you want to stop, but then just when you think that everything is good…..it comes right back and you’re there having to deal with it again! You keep strong though and you push through!

but life will keep pushing you until you do something and that could either be approaching the situation and facing the music or you leave it alone and sometimes life pushes you, for you to leave it alone or for you to finally say “THAT’S IT, NO MORE” I guess it all comes back to choosing your battles knowing when to fight or to just surrender, lay down the sword and walk away…..sometimes that’s hard because it could mean leaving something that was once important to you behind…..but at some point you have to realize that you can’t fight every battle and you can’t be the one to fix everything! You can be there for people and you help them in the best way possible, but if they refuse to listen and just continuously bring nothing, but drama after drama, you have to think about what’s best for you and your health!

Ask yourself if you want to keep fighting this fight!? Don’t get me wrong some things are definitely worth fight for, like love, happiness and whatever else you feel is worth it! That being said…..there are things that don’t need to always be fought over and if you find yourself stuck in the same old storm and fighting the same battle constantly, eventually you’re not going to have enough energy left to fight or just use for yourself and that’s where you’ll need to worry because without energy, you’ve already lost the battle….so save your energy and use it wisely on what to use it on!

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Happy National Relaxation Day….

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So apparently it’s National Relaxation Day…..I didn’t know that until I went onto Twitter to see Nintendo themselves posting about it with an Animal Crossing post earlier…..you’d think that it’d be easy to relax especially during the weekend, I mean that’s normally when people relax, chill and enjoy themselves, but sometimes relaxation feels like a whole task to master…..there’s moments where I can get into a relaxed state and then quickly I find myself becoming a little uneasy, it sounds a little weird, but I don’t really know how to relax if I’m being honest!

This has got to be one of my most un relaxed weekends that I have had in a very long time…it’s probably my most sleepless weekend too, I’ve just been full of a lot of thoughts lately and I’ve been trying to put them all to the side and not think so much, but it’s not really been easy, I’m not trying to complain by the way….that’s just how I’ve been feeling

All that said, my weekend hasn’t been a bad weekend, it’s just not been my favorite in terms of not being able to relax or sleep properly, other than that it’s okay…..I wish that I had more to say in this post, but I honestly cannot think at all so I’m just going to keep this one short…..I think I’m going to take a couple of days off from writing for a bit, I don’t know, I may not at the same time, although I feel I maybe should just to until I feel better, in terms of energy,

I feel I’ve been going on low energy for a bit now so depending how I feel will determine if I write often, It might not be for as long as I think so if I don’t write tomorrow, I may write Tues and if not Tuesday then Wednesday there is something I have in mind that I want to record for a podcast this week so whatever day that is, I’ll also do a post, I’ll try not to stay away too long, but if I feel that I’m not in the best headspace then I’ll have to allow myself to take the time that is needed before I come back here even though I’ll probably fight with myself on it, we’ll see what happens!

I hope you guys have a good rest of the night and that you’re enjoying your relaxation and that you’re all okay, see you soon!

Here’s my latest podcast episode if you guys want to check it out: *quick update…..I missed spelled the name of the artist, I fixed it, but some of it is still there…sorry lol*

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Honestly….I Want To See You Be Brave (Title May Change)

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There comes a moment, well I guess you can say there comes a good amount of moments in life where you have to make some really hard decisions and sometimes those decisions aren’t always the easiest, most times you’ll find that not a lot of people agree with the decisions you make, but whether they agree with them or not, it’s up us to decide what we feel works best for us and if it’s also healthy for us as well! What I mean by that is if you find that you’re in a situation where everyday it’s always issue after issue and no matter how much you try to make it better, it never feels like it gets anywhere, that’s where the really big decision comes in…..you have to ask yourself is this worth the time and energy am I sacrificing too much of my happiness trying to make everyone else happy!?

Sometimes it’s difficult because you feel like with certain situations you don’t have a choice, especially when say it’s family or really close friends or just anyone you feel a great connection with! If you are the kind of person that always puts everyone else’s needs before their own this can be especially difficult and a bit of a battle to get yourself out of, but once you do get out of it, you’ll start to find yourself getting more and more better and you’ll also start to become happier because you’re not having to always please people, you might have moments where you feel slightly guilty, but that’s only due to the fact that you’re used to helping so many people out without a single thought about yourself so it’ll feel a little weird at first of course!

However you have to know when to say no and that it’s okay to say no, as hard as it is, it’s important for your wellbeing, if you’re constantly agreeing to everything that someone says or always saying yes when really you mean no, you don’t give yourself that proper attention that is needed and when you know you have no energy left, yet you still try and give everyone what their asking you for…..it’s just going to be this endless cycle only you’ll be the one without energy while others knowing they have their own energy, continue to take all of yours!

You never want to allow yourself to enter that cycle, but then you ask yourself, how do you know you are in that situation!? Sometimes it all goes based off feeling, so if someone askes you for something or to do something, whatever the question or situation is and inside you feel like it’s not right or maybe you just don’t want to do it in that moment, yet you do it anyway because you’re being asked that’s the first sign of it’s okay to say no when you feel it to be no…..as for situations alone, you have to know which ones are worth putting yourself into and which ones are best to stay out of, it’s not always an easy thing to do, but for the best shield for yourself,

Don’t know how else to state it….it’s important to be aware of and if people choose to scold you for wanting to stay away from all the drama and not wanting to be around them because it’s never a good moment or there’s always something then just a genuine let’s spend time together or conversate and all that jazz, then those are the people you want to keep at a distance, if they can’t respect that then you’re best to just keep to yourself and look towards filling your circle with better surrounding people that you know will keep your energy high and not the other way around, the people who really care will always support you, even if they maybe don’t agree, a good support system will always encourage you to just go out there and do your best and will always want to see you happy!

I express a little more on this topic in my latest podcast episode, it’s a bit lengthy, but I felt it was important and wanted to share on it, if you would like to have a listen, check it out:

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Bursting Energy…..

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Happy Friday! Hope you’re all doing well this fine afternoon…..I got a bit of too much energy right now as I’m writing this and I’m not quite sure how to handle it, I feel good today, I feel a lot better than these past 2 days, the only thing is, I just don’t know what to do with myself with this amount of energy, I don’t want to use it all in one go, I would like to pace it better, but I’m finding myself slowly draining it by each super thought that fills me with excitement or just by thinking too much about things….not in a bad way, but just by like I said getting myself excited with ideas and looking forward to things, for example I’ve got 2 podcast episodes that I’m eager to do that will be coming in the next week or 2, they’re both childhood related and I’m excited to put my thoughts on them after so long, you’ll know about them in due time don’t worry!

Now as for the other thing that always tends to leave me excited when thinking about it, is something that I find myself going back to, that I want to try, that I have yet to try my hand at, I always think about it, but I’ve not yet decided on fully giving it a go even when I do feel it! Recently I’ve been researching on it more and every time I do, I get both happy and nervous about it, but I don’t know I just feel it to be something that keeps kind of calling to me to check it out, I just get nervous!

Although, I always on occasion and if not that, then here and there looking more and more into it and I feel like it’s a good time to see about it and see if I can find myself getting used to a lot, again I just get nervous thinking about it because I don’t know if I’ll be good at it, but then I think well I won’t know unless I give it a try and it’s not something that I need to be serious about in a sense of I can just be me and do it how I feel it to naturally come out, it’s just a nervous feeling one reason being because it’ll require me to show my face again and not just my voice which is something that I haven’t quite done in the past few months and it’s one of the reasons I haven’t decided on it just yet.

I know I’m still becoming more comfortable with my voice and so combining the two is a bit nerve-racking for me, I just get very uncomfortable in front of a camera, even though I’ve done it plenty before, but regardless to if it’s been so long or not it still takes me time to adjust when in front of a camera, part of me doesn’t mind it, but there’s also a part of me that would rather not, yet I also find myself thinking about doing it again…..I’m a weird one okay, I’ve accepted it!

I’m also very expressive though, when I’m passionate about something I either talk with my hands or I move my whole body and this even happens when I’m writing, I can’t help it lol! I’m considering it very thoroughly though it’s always in the back of my mind, I feel like if it was something that I felt strongly to do where it kept coming to me…..I’d pick a random day that felt good to do it and then tell you about it after I’ve done it and that’s how you know I went for it by being very curious and then saying you know what “let’s try it” Prepare yourself because that just might happen!

P.S.

I uploaded another episode to my Podcast yesterday so I’m just updating this post to share it, it’s a bit of a weird episode somewhat, but I feel there may be charm with it, possibly lol, if you would like to check it out you can find it here: Let’s Talk: Months & Animal Crossing (Friday Mood) You can also listen to it on Spotify as well!

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa