Changes and Transformations….

Good Morning, hope that you all have been well these days! We’re now a week into the month of March for many out there, a lot has probably happened already be it big or something small that you’ve been also looking forward too and for others March might still feel like you’re just getting started and that’s perfectly okay! We all have a specific pace that we start with, things could be going really fast and quick for a lot of you, while for some March could be catching you by surprise where things start feeling a bit unexpected, in a sense where, you may find yourself more busy then usual or in other ways where you may not normally be used to if that makes sense!?

Yesterday I found myself deep in thought about a lot of things, I was out for most of the day so it was a bit productive, however I wasn’t really in a talkive mood, I mean don’t get me wrong I did speak a bit, but I wasn’t in my usual talkive state that I normally am….a lot of the time when that happens, it’s because I just have a lot on my mind and it gets to the point where I don’t really want to talk…..in those moments talking for me becomes a bit of chore to deal with so I like to say as little as I can if I’m able to! I started to become a bit more chatty during the evening though, but it still took me a while!

I guess it’s just my way of processing my own thoughts and dealing with them in some way, I normally try and distract myself when I start getting really into my own mind, but I also know when I need to allow my thoughts to be what it is they are and not push them aside, by doing that it’s only going to come at you harder so you want to make sure that your being considerate with yourself in those times of deep thinking…..yesterday I had a thought to myself regarding my surroundings, but involving how everything’s changed!

All the places that I once knew and saw growing up, most of them are all different now, building that, were once there are no longer around and if they are, they’ve changed so much to where you don’t really recongize them, it’s kind of like seeing a time lapse of what you used to know recontructed right before your eyes, but you’re seeing the transformation of what it was then, to what it is now and seeing that, seeing all the places that you’ve grown up with change and look completely new to what you used to see, it really hits you just how much things really transform an old shop that you may have gone to a lot when you were a kid, is either no longer there or isn’t quite the same as you once remembered it!

It’s a mind blowing experience because even though you know it’s different, there something in you that feels like you still need a bit of time to process it fully, yet you never really get the chance to, due to the fact that it’s already changed and transformed so much that you don’t get much room to feel it entirely the way you want. It’s the same with people, although they have certain things with them that stayed the same, you already know that they too have transformed and are a lot different to what you remember them to be, but be it so,

There’s always that part of you that hopes that the relationship that you had with them and the bond that you once shared didn’t change and a lot of the time you find it did, but you do get those one of kind moments where even though you and that person have grown and seen things in a more….I guess you can say mature perspective to how you used to see things….even though all that’s happened, you find that it’s easy for you to just come back together as if nothings changed at all and just pick up where you left off….with those moments though it can feel a bit nervewracking and scary, it’s like meeting someone that you already know for the first time all over again….and it’s not something you would normally think to get nervous about, but you do because you know it’s different!!

You start feeling like you have to prepare yourself again and get ready for it, it’s like a new journey and adventure that you know, but don’t know at the same time so you’re kind of just hoping for the best and for things to turn out okay, it’ll sometimes even leave you wondering if they still feel the same about you even if you know they do, you still can’t help, but have those thoughts in mind that, now that doesn’t neccasarily mean it’s a bad thing, it’s just curious wonders! That being said, you won’t really know unless you put yourself out there to feel those things and be okay with feeling them, I like to think they’re normal, it just simply shows how much you really truly and deeply care as well as how much that person still means to you!!

Fear or no fear, changes and transforamtions will always happen, even if you don’t really get the chance to take it in the way you want or you find you aren’t able to really prepare, it’s okay….I guess the best way to look at it is to just give it a go anyway when it involves a new experience, but if it involves a change that you have no control of, like seeing a place you once knew when you were younger in a whole new way, you kind of just have to adapt the best way you can with it, keep those memories close to you always and whatever connection you made with it…..just know that it will always be with you, never be afraid of changes and don’t be afraid of transforming the way you feel you are wanting to, it’s all part of living life so try not to hold yourself back from experiencing all that you want to experience at the end of the day you gotta do what makes you happy!!

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

It’s Feb 22, 2022 (2/22/22)

You might have noticed that today feels a little more significant compared to other days and even if it doesn’t feel different, I’m sure that you had a moment where you might have looked at the calendar today and thought “huh interesting” after realizing todays date! Now I’ve spoken about numbers and numerology before all while explaining how I’m not that the biggest fan of math, but regardless to my feelings with the number subject, numerology is just one of those things that is kind of hard to pin point and what I mean by that is there’s just something about it that always leaves me curious with it to where I feel the need to what to look up certain numbers when their lined up like today’s date is or just when seeing the number 11:11 or 555!

Now I won’t go too into it as I know I already shared my thoughts about it previously before, plus I wouldn’t even know what to say exactly, so who knows how long this post will be, I honestly don’t feel it’ll be too long, but then again I’m not sure if it’ll be true, there’s times where I think a post is just going to be, only but a few lines long and it’s more than what I expect so haha!

Now if you’ve been wondering just what the numbers 2/22/22 means well, I wouldn’t be able to tell you off the top of my head, without looking it up myself, speaking of I actually did look it up because as I stated earlier I was very curious and just wanted to know it’s meaning and in case some of you would like to know or have been curious yourself about it, to try and sum it up really…the number 2/22/22 it’s got a very detailed meaning within it and one of those meanings comes in the form of taking charge of your life and not feeling bad about how you choose to live it, it also talks about balance and instability, but also not allowing yourself to get caught up in the chaos of your surroundings and learning to keep positive even during difficult times!

I know with that last part it’s a lot easier said and then done, believe me I know, for me yesterday was a very rough day, these past few days have been a bit harder to handle, but yesterday I have to say definitely took the cake, but it’s not really about pretending that your emotions don’t exist or that you have no right to feel the way you might be feeling, what it really comes down to is letting yourself feel the things your feeling, but also being aware of how you react to situations!

Look I’ll admit that sometimes it’s harder to push through days when you already can feel it within yourself that it’s not your day or a day in general, I think in order to really embrace what number 2/22/22’s message is trying to share, we need to allow ourselves to feel our emotions, so that we’re not just pushing them down and keeping everything bottled up! I understand that not everyone likes expressing themselves because they either don’t want to be a burden, they don’t want to share what is actually bothering them or they don’t actually know how to express their thoughts well so they just keep it all to themselves….but when you hold your thoughts and feelings in especially for a prolonged period of time, you’re only hurting yourself,

Eventually all the things that you’ve hidden under the surface will start brewing and before you know it, you’ve gone from being an inactive volcano to an active volcano and everything that you’ve tried so hard to keep within starts looking like magma flowing about and you find yourself looking at it wondering how you allowed yourself to let it get that bad! I know I’ve gone all science here, but what I’m trying to get at is, we have to be okay with feeling our feelings, but also not think that because we feel them, we can’t talk about them if we feel we need to, although sometimes we may not want to share them right then and there, which is okay….

It’s alright to want space and time to think about things and really take them in, if you feel that to help you best! Most times it helps to take that moment so you’re able to keep all those thoughts and feelings at a happy medium so they’re not just coming out without much of a thought, it’s better to think and then react then to react first then think! It helps to really bring clarity and a different responds and way of explanation compared to just going off to what the first reaction might’ve been!

It also helps if we didn’t give ourselves a hard time about it as well, most times we forget though….but back to what today brings and what this once in a lifetime line up of aligned numbers is wanting us to take in and keep as a reminder, what is that reminder exactly!? Well today brings the message to keep going and to know that whatever struggles and difficult times that we may find ourselves in that no matter what we can overcome them! We have to keep in our minds the saying of “This Too Shall Pass” and that “all is well and will be well” even when it may seem like it won’t in the moments!

We have the ability to turn any situation into a positive one in someway or form, honestly I feel like with yesterday being the way it was…..it kind of felt like a test with the chaos happening, like it was a challenge to see basically saying “how do you chose to react!?” So it really comes down to knowing when to choose a battle, most of the time, the universe will play out certain scenes/scenarios for you so you can really be aware and understand which approach to take!

That also just goes with when choosing where you want to go, no matter what you do and how you choose to live your life, you will always have to know when to react to things and when not to react, as well as how to react….we always have a choice and it’s important that we pick our next action to those choices wisely so that way we know we’re doing our best to making sure that things go smoothly and that we’re really taking everything in properly!

We’re coming to the last hour of Feb 22, 2022 so whatever you feel it’s meaning to mean to you, keep it in mind and if life is feeling a bit upside down at the moment, know that it doesn’t always mean it’s a bad thing, so just keep pushing, keep doing your best and live your life how you feel you want to live it…..it’s okay to be afraid, change isn’t always an easy thing to embrace, but it is necessary in growth and when you allow yourself to grow, that’s when you start seeing things really kick off…..in a good way and sometimes you have to go through those tough periods in order to see what is really going on and is being brought to you (as hard as it is to see) so even when the nerves start up, keep going and do what you like and what you feel you want to do!

I would definitely say to look up this number you’d be surprise to what you may find, that’s all I have here, I hope that you had a good/decent/okay day and happy synchronistic Tuesday!!

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

2022….Feels Weird

Happy New Year to you all! I hope that you were able to enjoy your weekend slash holiday season, it was a bit weird how both Christmas and New Years fell on the same weekend like day, both were on a Friday and Saturday, apparently it’s not the first time it’s happen….I’m just noticing it now, I guess that tells you how much I pay attention when it comes to the calendar!

I still can’t believe that we’re already in 2022….I wrote the date down for the first time today and it just felt weird to kind of see, it’s like even when you know it, seeing it can be a bit hard to process for a while, at least within the first couple of days whenever we arrive in the new start of a year, although 2021 was just 3 days ago, but it’s still leaves you a bit surprised!

Hopefully most of you out there have had a good start to the year already, there may be a few of you that are still trying to find your footing into this new year and if that is the case, just know that you don’t have to be hard on yourself if 2022 has left you feeling as though you have to have most things in play already, it’s okay if you’re still trying to sort out how you want this year to mean for you, not everyone is the same, we all process things differently and some of us need some time to work out how we’re going to stack those Legos and decide what it is we want to paint, whatever pace you’re at right now just keep going!

If you find that things are moving for you nice and smoothly great, but if you feel you’re having to tinker with a couple of things here and there and think a little bit that’s fine too, there’s nothing wrong with knowing that you may sigh as you’re working on certain projects and what not, realizing it’s going to take a bit longer! Sometimes you have to tinker and look into what might be the problem of the situation in what you’re focusing on to be able to understand it better, you may even find that there’s absolutely nothing wrong with it and that maybe it’s just a small issue at hand that can easily be fixed!

And if not, well that’s why you try something new and see if that works out better, there’s ways to get anything to work, sometimes all that’s needed is a bit of tweaking for something to come together, it could be in a way that you had envision or in a way that you may not have saw it at first, but found it to be better than what you originally had in mind, now those moments are my favorite sometimes, although I like when things come out how I had felt it to look like, but there are days where it doesn’t happen like that and I’ll change it as a temporary fix only to like it better the temporary way because it looked best over the original!

I find when that happens, you come across unexpected inspiration that you weren’t even looking for, but it just so happened to come across to you accidently, although I like to think that nothing is accidental when it involves being inspired it’s just the fact of certain inspirations coming to you in unexpected ways, if you stumble across it, it was probably because you were meant to stumble across it, be it accidental, on purpose or just randomly! There’s no coincidences in anything, at least it’s what I like to believe!

What was the actual point to this post!? I’m not sure, I just know it’s been a good while since I’ve written anything and I guess I’m feeling 2022 will be more of inspiration in some way and that could mean a lot of different things for some of you out there, whatever it means to you is how it will show itself and I guess whatever it means to me….will show itself the way it feels best, in the mean time I’ll be tinkering with different ideas!

That all being said, I do hope 2022 is treating you guys well, we’re already on the 3rd day of January….weird to say, I know….but I hope you’re doing well and that you’re taking care of yourself, please stay safe out there, I know there’s a lot of people that have been catching this virus left and right these past few days, so please protect yourself and keep others safe, keep your hands clean, wear your masks, all the safety things that is needed, just be careful if you’re out…..Happy New Year and welcome 2022

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

An Introvert That Loves To Talk…..

What does it mean to be an introvert!? Well if I’m being honest….it’s a bit different for everyone so to describe it would be quite hard, most people think that being an introvert means that you don’t really like talking to people or that you’re very shy when really, that’s not always the case! Introversion is a little more than that and not all introverts are the same either…..in fact did you know that there is such thing as being a social introvert!?

It’s true! There’s also thinking introverts, which I can’t really explain that well, but I can share the video that explains different kinds of Introverts, there’s many others, but this is the one that I learn that social introvert is an actual thing from: The 4 Types Of Introverts: Which One Are You!?

Now before we continue on I just want to say I am feeling slightly under the weather at the current moment as I’m writing this…..so if you happen to see this a little bit after it’s because I’m going to be taking my time with this post. I actually started writing this the other day so Monday, it’s Wednesday now a bit early until the morning as I’m continuing this post, normally I can knock most of my blog posts within a few hours, but there are some where I’ve either started them and never shared them or I have them drafted in hopes of getting back to them, but never quite do…..

So if you if you do happen to see this on a whole different day and not today on the 8th of Dec….just know it’s because 1. I’m not feeling well and my brain needs extra time and 2. I’m just wanting this post to make sense and to come out well! Without further ado let’s get back to talking about Introversion…..

So what’s it like to be an introvert? I can’t really explain it for other people, but for me…..the best way I can explain it is…..I like my own space, I don’t like being around too many people and if you were to ask where I like to be the most I’d say at home playing Animal Crossing which is the gospel truth (if anyone gets that reference then you understand what I mean)

Now I know I just stated that I like to stay to myself, however I do like to socialize somewhat, not always, but sometimes and when that happens just know I’m coming out of myself, out of comfort and putting myself out there when honestly just trying to start a conversation with someone can be a bit daunting at times for me, especially when it’s a new kind of field I’m in! That being said I’m what you call a social introvert, which means that although, I’m very quiet at times and not one for big social events…..I’m very talkative, I love to talk!!

If you don’t know me by now then this will be of news to you, but really ask anyone I know and they’ll tell you how much I’m able to talk if you let me especially if it has to do with something I’m really interested in! Don’t get it wrong though, just because I love to talk, doesn’t mean that I love to chat with everybody! I will however, it’ll just be minimum conversation if either I’m just getting to know you or if I’m not really feeling social that day and sometimes if I feel a bit uncomfortable!

It’s a bit hard to explain properly, I like to call myself a weird breed at time, because I am I’ll admit it! I’m not everyone’s cup of tea or whatever drink is your favorite thing and I’m aware of that which is why I will often stay to myself most of the time, but I do try to chat things up with people even when I’m extremely not for it, which leads to the next introverted part of me which would be the anxious introvert and I also learned that was a thing in the video I shared with you earlier!

There are many kinds of introversion, most people tend to be extroverts and can thrive off being around other people and I give those people props, I can only handle a certain amount of noise, people and other busy, loud and fast paced things before I go into a hermit stage and don’t want to be bothered by anybody….I’m okay with people I’m close with that’s where you’ll notice my energy constantly flowing compared to when I’m just meeting someone and trying to see what it is they like and what not, it’s a bit of a fuss ball with me….don’t ask why I just said fuss ball, it was the first thing to come to mind sooo, I thought I’d use it!

With me it depends who I am around on whether you get the full Alexa experience with me or just the introverted got to get to know first before truly opening up and once that happens just prepare yourself that’s all I’m going to say…..I guess I just know what it is I like and don’t like and so with that little bit of knowledge, I choose who I want in my circle to be close to me and who I would rather talk to here and there….I’m the kind of person where I don’t just let anyone in, so if I see you as something special and to be of an interesting person and choose to include you in that circle or odd shape that I have…just know that it’s a big thing to me as well as you’re someone that I truly and deeply care about!

I could probably say a lot more here, but I might save some for another time, I did plan on making a video or podcast episode on this topic sometime soon so if there’s other things I feel I want to add, I will, these are just a bit of thoughts I felt like sharing!

Would you consider yourself Introverted or Extroverted Or Maybe A Bit Of Both!?

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Happy Holidays, May It Treat You All Kind!

Ahhh the holidays…..some people love it, while others…..loath it! To be fair the holidays are always a bit of an up in the air kind of topic, it’s always getting mixed feelings whenever it rolls around! The way I see it however is, I try and make the most of the holidays, it’s not always been the greatest of times, but even then I know that you can always choose to focus on the best parts of it. I think one of the reasons most people don’t really enjoy the holidays is due to the fact that, the people they celebrated those times with are no longer around, so every time it does come to the jolliest of jolly days…..it’s hard to get into the spirit of it!

Which I understand, it’s never easy to go through life without always having that one person there to help you get through it or just help to be the best part of it….and when that person or number of people are no longer here…..it just always feels like something is missing and no matter how hard you may try to put it in the back in of your mind, you’re always going to find yourself feeling that heaviness of not having that person there.

I was thinking about this to myself not that long ago as I was washing the dishes, it’s been a bit of a morning coming from a very long eventful week, it’s not been super crazy the morning anyway, there was just something that happened yesterday evening that had the morning be a little down-ish, but I like to think that it’s a little bit better now, maybe not in a complete sense of it, but a good sense of it nonetheless!

Anyway, I was thinking to myself on how if it were possible to always have certain people with us in the sense of the people that are no longer here….we wouldn’t have to worry and they would just be with us always, but as we all are aware deep down, that’s not always possible…..and as much as I don’t want to say it, the reality of it is that it wouldn’t be life is we had the choice to have that happen.

Life is a very interesting thing, but one of the things to life is that although we have control of certain ways of life, we don’t have control of everything and that’s something that no matter how much we know it and how much we wish we did….there’s no denying that we don’t and that’s where it will always be hard, especially when it comes to those that are very special in our lives or when trying to do something even! Whether we all feel it or not, we all like a bit of control let’s face it, but it’s when there are things that are out of our control where we stress ourselves out more, knowing deep within us, there’s nothing we can do about it,

Yet we will still try and have it in our minds until we’re blue in the face because it’s just difficult to comprehend, we may accept it after fighting so long to not want to understand, but it doesn’t mean that it’s still easy…..

There’s many reasons to why the holidays are always such a rough time for most people. It could be that something big happened during that time and not in a good way, not talking on the fact of losing people here, but more in a sense of having something deep and personal happen! Maybe for some, you might’ve been battling inner demons for a specific amount of years until eventually getting through it and coming out on the other side safely or just not having the best holiday experiences, due to family not always being the best, not having anyone to celebrate it with and many other reasons.

So whenever it comes around it’s just always this….not wanting to use the word Trauma, but maybe for those out there it could be for that reason, where a big Traumatic event happened during the holidays or it just not always been positive whenever it did come to this time of year….like I said, the holiday times are rough and it’s always when it gets close to the end of the year because that’s when we do most of our reflecting, with all the things we felt, what we went through, trying to release everything in our hearts and mind in hopes that those things don’t follow us into the new year, which sometimes it does, because we don’t allow ourselves to let go of all those things that kept us up all night and feeling so stressed out!

We may feel like we let it all go, but we still carry certain events, thoughts, emotions with us and I’m not saying it’s bad, it’s good to keep things close to our hearts, it’s just the things that we choose to carry are the same things that we can’t control instead of just allowing some of those uncontrolled things to unfold the way they’re meant to all while accepting and letting go of the things that may be unfinished for a reason…..

As for the holidays, yeah it’s hectic and full of mixed emotions, but it’s not always bad, there’s always something to look forward to, we just have to be willing to see it and trust that it will always lead somewhere good, be it big or small….I think we all sometimes forget what the holidays are truly about, which is why the whole magic and feel of it gets a bit lost, but it doesn’t mean that it’s not still there, it’s always there, it can just take a while to really see it, due to the journey being a bit bumpy and going all over the place, but even then we should always try and appreciate it, because without all our journey experiences, we wouldn’t be who we are today!

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

The Journey Of Learning & Growing….

One of the best things to witness is watching someone grow and evolve, be it a child, someone that you saw go through a very tough point in their life or even just you yourself, there’s no age limit when it comes to learning and growing…..you could be in your 50s and you may already know a whole lot, but that doesn’t mean you can’t still learn something new let alone won’t learn something new, there’s so much to life that will always leave us surprised even when you think you’ve seen it all already!

I’ve witness a few transformations, a lot of them may not be fully, but I’ve seen a few and the ones I have seen, still amaze me and sometimes I find myself thinking about those transformations, I’ve watched my boyfriend come out of something that he struggled with for a while, not necessarily in person, but just the aftermath of what happened in his life in that time, it’s how we met, he was just starting to get back to himself again! I’ve seen my nephew who I consider my nephew, I first met him when he was 3, so I’ve only known him for a year now pretty much and I remember how he’d never wanted to listen to anyone, you know usual kid stuff, his favorite word was always NO and you couldn’t tell him anything, without him crying and throwing tantrums and wanting everything to be his way

and then you have his mom who worked all the time and when it came to trying to stop him from having those tantrums it was hard for her to put her foot down with him, obviously no parent wants to yell at their child, any good parent anyway, it’s hard because you try to be a parent, but you also don’t want to be a parent in a sense of when your child starts throwing those tantrums and they aren’t listening to you, you don’t want to have to punish them for it, because all you want is for them to see you in the best light possible and when you come to those moments to where you know there needs to be rules……it can be hard, but sometimes you know you have to do it!

But back to what I was talking about…..all three people here have gone through big transformations and you wouldn’t believe it if I told you, my boyfriend one of the biggest transformation I’ve ever seen and also haven’t seen, but if you knew him when I met him and you were to see and learn about everything he endured, you’d be extremely surprised, it still surprises me when I think about it sometimes, just to see and learn the difference in the person that he once was to who he is now, like I wouldn’t know where to begin on that story, hopefully I’ll be able to really tell it or have him tell it one day, I mean it is story about his journey anyway and it really is a beautiful and life changing one at that! I’m very proud of how far he’s gotten, I love you Jord, forever and always!

As for my Nephew…..he’s 4 now, but will be turning 5 in November and let me tell you something, he is one hell of a smart kid, seriously and he’s gotten a lot better at really trying to understand everything, he doesn’t give you too much of a issue now when you are telling him not to do something or you’re trying to help him learn certain things, he actually listens expressing something to him which I’m glad to see, it was a mission and a half when I first met him, he talks a whole lot more now, like a lot, he wouldn’t really say much before, he was just always shy and wouldn’t come up to you, he’d just be in his own little world, now forget about it!! He will talk to you for hours if he really wanted to, he’s quite the character, very silly, but he’s the sweetest boy every, he’s very kind, he likes making people laugh and just showing you things all the time, buut don’t let his adorableness fool, he knows what he’s doing!

He’s a little demon and I say it all the time to him, which he knows too because he always laughs about it! He knows how to get what he wants, however he knows who to go for when he wants something, spoiler it’s not me, he knows better than to pull anything with me, like I said he’s a smart one, I wouldn’t be surprised if he turned out to be an evil genius, I’m joking, he’s a good kid when he wants to be, but he’s also grown to know better and I just hope that continues the older he gets!

Lastly, we come to my Nephew’s mom who has also transformed a lot from when I met her, she’s kind of hard to explain with her transformation though, but I’ll do my best, when I first started coming around and hanging out with her, she was always working, but she worked from home, so she always tried her best to balance out work and her son and when I was hanging out with her as she was working, I would notice a lot that she was having to do, when it came to her son like I said earlier it was hard for her to put her foot down with him at first, because she didn’t like having to be that….not strict parent, cause she’s really not that strict, but he’d would get babied a lot before, he still does, but it’s not so much from his mom these days, but the grandparents…..you know how that goes!

It was hard for her to tell him when he was doing something wrong and when it came to punishment so that he learns that he can’t do certain things, with work she was always stressing, she dealt with a lot….I guess the only way I can say it is her transformation comes from how she’s grown as a parent from when I met her and what I know her to be now as well as how certain parts of her personality has changed and grown, she’d always wanted to please everyone even when she didn’t want to do whatever it was that she didn’t want to do, she’s showing more of her voice with people,

Which is good and she would always feel like nothing was going her way, but now everything is now working for her which is great, in terms of her son, she’s learn to put her foot down with him more and not let him try and control her and what I love about that is, I feel since then, both her and her son have gotten more closer and it’s a beautiful things to see, because you can tell she loves her son and only wants the best for him and that’s how parent should be and he loves her which is also wonderful! I’ve witness what she had to go through before and I’m so proud of her for how far she’s come even if she doesn’t know it, she’s an amazing mom and an amazing person, as well as a really good friend and I’m glad that I got to know her and continue to get to know her, fun fact, we’ve crossed paths before me and her a few time even, but we never actually encountered one another face to face just always by a pass by, it wasn’t until she started dating my brother to where we finally met, I guess you can call it a small word!

The three people I just spoke about all mean something to me and I’m glad to know them and have them apart of my life, I’m glad that I’ve been able to experience the transformations they’ve gone through, they all have taught me a lot of things as well as important lessons and are still teaching me a lot even if they don’t know it necessarily, but I wouldn’t trade them and all that they’ve taught me for the world and if ever down the line our journey’s together were to take different paths or transform in some kind of way to where I still have them in my life, I’m always going to take what they’ve given me and do my best to make sure I never forget it!

F.Y.I. I didn’t expect to write all of this, the way I did, I just felt very strongly to write this for some reason so I did, call it a moment of a thought in time!!

P.S.

By the way, I’ve switched up my podcast episode schedule just for this week, so instead of Monday, Wednesday and Friday, I’m doing Tuesday, Thursday and Saturday (I’m going to try for Saturday anyway) again just for this week, I just felt like switching things up a a bit! You can check out yesterday’s episode here:

Take Flight Like A Bird…. Ep. 37 Daydreamer's Podcast

Happy Tuesday everyone, hope your having a good day! In todays episode we talk a bit about birds and the way they fly, not just about that though, it gets a bit deeper than that, we're always afraid to explore the unknown and take those big leaps that we've been wanting to take, but isn't that what life's about!? Facing those unsure feelings and seeing where it takes you, just like that Moana song, one day I'll know how far I'll go!!

All The Love ❤ ❤ ❤

Lexa

Let’s Talk: Clocker

Happy Thursday! Hope you all are well and safe, boy was yesterday quite the day, I don’t know how many people experienced last nights hurricane, we had a lot of flooding happening, water even came into our house, it wasn’t too bad, we caught it before it got worst, but it was a good amount of water, but more like puddles of water so nothing got damaged luckily, in other places though that’s a different story, but it was okay! For those who also experienced the really unexpected bad storm, I hope you all are doing well and that it wasn’t too bad for you guys!

Now let’s talk about what this post is about…..you’re probably looking at the title going “huh!?” Clocker for those unsure, is a video game that I downloaded not that long ago, I’ve only played it once, it’s pretty much a puzzle game with a pretty neat story, you can also consider it an adventure game as well! Clocker from what I gathered playing it is about a father trying to get back to his daughter, I’ll try not to spoil the game too much in case some of you find it interesting and want to play it for yourselves, but pretty much you are given this old looking Clock by some random old guy and as you advance in the game, you find that time has stopped and you’re there trying to figure out how to restart it so that you can get back to your daughter!

There’s more to it obviously, but you have to play it to understand the concept of it! Like I said it’s a really neat game, it’s different to what I would normally play, but it’s really nice, in the game the clock that you get from the old guy, you soon discover that it let’s you control certain events so whatever is frozen you can help advance it and rewind to get through each section so you can collect the things that are needed, did I mention that the father character in the game fixes clocks for a living!? So being that you disable and reassemble clocks and watches and that, you have to get all the missing pieces that came off from the stopwatch, yeah! Like I said it’s pretty cool, I didn’t get that far into the game, I’m kind of stuck on a level, I would get so close to solving it, but will still end up missing something so I got to go back and figure it out!

I wasn’t expecting to enjoy the game has much as I did, when I first played it it wasn’t hard to understand, you start off taking apart a watch and going through the story mode of the game with certain dialogs, which was kind of fun, I liked taking apart things, I haven’t played it in a couple of weeks though, but I will eventually get back into it soon, it was really fascinating! I have a feeling I know what the message of the game is, but before I share it, I want to play it more to see if it is what I think it is, which it might end up being cause it seems to be going in that direction, but I want to enjoy the game and discover what other things it has going for it, just play it, understand it better, once I finish the game I will do a part two on it and update you on it’s story and let you know if I got the message to it correct! Hopefully I didn’t spoil anything on the game for you guys if I did….I’m sorry, but if I didn’t then cool!

I would recommend anyone who wants to try out a new game to give this one a try, the graphics and gameplay may be a little different to what you might like in a game, depending what kind of games you like and all, but I still would say to give it a try, it might surprise you and who knows it might be your new favorite game, but if it’s something that you think you personally wouldn’t go for then that’s okay too, I didn’t think I was going to go for it before I actually played it, but I also still had it in my wish list to try, because it was something that looked interesting, but everyone’s different!

If this game is something that catches your attention then go get it, it’s actually not that bad in price! I got it during a sale, but I think it’s about 6 dollars-10 the max…..correction it’s actually 4 dollars ($3.99 USD 3.59 GPB) I went and checked, but yeah you can find this game on the Nintendo eshop, if this game is something you’d consider then I definitely recommend it! Part 2 of this post will be up eventually and that post will be my full thoughts on the game once I’ve finished it of course!

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Transitions With Rain….

Good Morning and Happy September 1st! Hope that you all are having a good one so far, it’s a bit mad that August is now over, which means that we’re getting closer and closer towards the cooler and colder days so say farewell to the short sleeves, capris/shorts and beach days, unless you’re planning to go somewhere where it’s summer year round or your moving to a more hotter environment if you are then you can just keep all your summer clothes out and say hi to summery weather again pretty soon! I’ll never understand how people can live in very hot places, I was in PR for a week and a few days back in July and oh my gosh, I could not handle the heat every single day, I was done with it by Day 3 of being there, I wouldn’t be able to live in a place that’s hot all the time, so it always mind boggles me how some people genuinely talk about how their going to move to places like PR or Florida!

Ask me that and I’m like no thanks, I never wanted to live in hot places, I really don’t like Summer that much, some days are fine, but after a while I’m hoping for Fall or Spring to roll around, I love Spring and Autumn, because with Spring it’s not too hot and you can enjoy the weather without it being too much, it’s always breezy during that season and with Autumn…..it’s always just cool, not too cold, you can wear cardigans, boots, sweaters, both Spring and Fall have the right amount of warm and cool and you can’t go wrong with that, might be just me that thinks that, but it’s true!

I probably already spoke about this a few times, but when I was younger I always wanted to go to the UK and visit, not only that, but I always pictured myself living there as well, I don’t know why!? I just always felt a connection with it and so it was always on my Wishlist to go over there and see what it’s like, I still feel that and still hope to go there, plus I always thought that it had pretty good weather, like over there is always just cool weather and that! I know it tends to rain over there a good amount, although I did learn recently that it’s not all of the UK where it rains! I guess we just assume that it’s always raining overseas because it’s what we hear….like I used to think that it always rained in London,

but noo, in England it doesn’t rain as much as people think, it’s actually just in Scotland that it rains mostly and if I remember correctly that’s because they’re closer to the mountains compared to other places within the United Kingdom, it’s quite an interesting thing to learn! England’s weather is similar to our weather though, which is cool, it’s nice knowing that it’s both the same and different at the same time! Don’t really know why I’m taking about the weather over in the UK, I guess it was in my mind and so I thought I’d let it out!

Let’s talk about September that was the whole point of this post anyway right!? It’s a weird start with a September for me anyway, although now that I’m thinking about it, I kind of have been feeling like that with these past few months lately, them being weird and all, not sure why, but today specifically started off weird, I woke up feeling fine and then emotions started coming to me and fear crept up on me, right when I was about to record a new podcast episode, I have no idea why it happened, but I did push through after I gave myself a bit, but it was just very weird, I recorded the episode and even talked a bit about what I was feeling and other things, I’m debating on whether or not to post it, but I feel seeing that I’ve got and mentioned it in this post that I might as well go through with sharing it!

I feel like September is going to be another odd month, but I also believe that it will hold something good and unexpected and that we shouldn’t give up on it too quickly, I mean it just started so it’s best to keep our heads up and look for the good that it has in store or at least expect what is coming without expecting it if that makes sense!? Pretty much just keep a look out for it, but still try and keep yourself productive and slightly busy and whenever it arrives you’ll be both happy and a little surprised as well, sometimes that’s the best experience!

Update:

Here’s my new podcast episode, it’s got a mixture of both August and September thoughts as well as some other things!

Let's Talk: A Bit Of August and September (Plus Some Personal Thoughts) Ep. 36 Daydreamer's Podcast

Happy September 1st everyone, hope all is well! In today's episode we discuss quite a bit, it's kind of a weird one! There's some thoughts about the month of August and how it went, as well as how the start of September is going! I've also shared some personal thoughts both with the start of this month and in general, a lot of different emotions going on in this episode as well! 

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Honestly….I Want To See You Be Brave (Title May Change)

There comes a moment, well I guess you can say there comes a good amount of moments in life where you have to make some really hard decisions and sometimes those decisions aren’t always the easiest, most times you’ll find that not a lot of people agree with the decisions you make, but whether they agree with them or not, it’s up us to decide what we feel works best for us and if it’s also healthy for us as well! What I mean by that is if you find that you’re in a situation where everyday it’s always issue after issue and no matter how much you try to make it better, it never feels like it gets anywhere, that’s where the really big decision comes in…..you have to ask yourself is this worth the time and energy am I sacrificing too much of my happiness trying to make everyone else happy!?

Sometimes it’s difficult because you feel like with certain situations you don’t have a choice, especially when say it’s family or really close friends or just anyone you feel a great connection with! If you are the kind of person that always puts everyone else’s needs before their own this can be especially difficult and a bit of a battle to get yourself out of, but once you do get out of it, you’ll start to find yourself getting more and more better and you’ll also start to become happier because you’re not having to always please people, you might have moments where you feel slightly guilty, but that’s only due to the fact that you’re used to helping so many people out without a single thought about yourself so it’ll feel a little weird at first of course!

However you have to know when to say no and that it’s okay to say no, as hard as it is, it’s important for your wellbeing, if you’re constantly agreeing to everything that someone says or always saying yes when really you mean no, you don’t give yourself that proper attention that is needed and when you know you have no energy left, yet you still try and give everyone what their asking you for…..it’s just going to be this endless cycle only you’ll be the one without energy while others knowing they have their own energy, continue to take all of yours!

You never want to allow yourself to enter that cycle, but then you ask yourself, how do you know you are in that situation!? Sometimes it all goes based off feeling, so if someone askes you for something or to do something, whatever the question or situation is and inside you feel like it’s not right or maybe you just don’t want to do it in that moment, yet you do it anyway because you’re being asked that’s the first sign of it’s okay to say no when you feel it to be no…..as for situations alone, you have to know which ones are worth putting yourself into and which ones are best to stay out of, it’s not always an easy thing to do, but for the best shield for yourself,

Don’t know how else to state it….it’s important to be aware of and if people choose to scold you for wanting to stay away from all the drama and not wanting to be around them because it’s never a good moment or there’s always something then just a genuine let’s spend time together or conversate and all that jazz, then those are the people you want to keep at a distance, if they can’t respect that then you’re best to just keep to yourself and look towards filling your circle with better surrounding people that you know will keep your energy high and not the other way around, the people who really care will always support you, even if they maybe don’t agree, a good support system will always encourage you to just go out there and do your best and will always want to see you happy!

I express a little more on this topic in my latest podcast episode, it’s a bit lengthy, but I felt it was important and wanted to share on it, if you would like to have a listen, check it out:

Wind Of Change….(Personal Thoughts) Ep. 30 Daydreamer's Podcast

Happy Wednesday! Hope you're enjoying the day…we've reached episode 30….wow! In today's episode, we go a bit personal with it, I had a lot of thoughts that I wanted to share with this episode and it's pretty much based on a situation that I'm dealing with currently! I don't normally share on personal issues, but I felt I wanted and needed to say some stuff and so this episode might be a little heavy topic wise, but I try to keep it a little light as well, without all the extra details so it's not all that bad, just some thoughts…  

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Talks Of Conversations….

Good Morning, I hope you all having a good one and that your day is going well so far! It’s been a while that I’ve wrote a post during the morning hours, normally I tend to write between the early afternoons when morning is just transitioning toward the afternoon or around the late evenings….so morning posts are a bit rare for me, but sometimes I’ll start writing in the morning, but most of time, my posts don’t get done until the afternoon, I guess it depends when I feel I have things to say!

Speaking of things to say, you ever have a lot that you want to get out and then you do, but then you wonder if you’ve said everything alright!? Like in the moment you express how you’re feeling it and you try to find the best words possible so it doesn’t come off a certain way while expressing those thoughts and feelings, yet you still find yourself wondering if everything you said came out okay…..it’s a very hard line at times to know that what you’re saying, is being processed well! We can’t help our emotions sometimes, no matter how much we try to keep it from being taken a certain…..those things can be a little out of our control!!

The reason I’m writing this the way I am is because, yesterday I went and recorded a new episode for my podcast and the topic I’ll admit was a bit on the gray area side, but it was something I felt needed to be expressed, it’s related in a more personal manner without trying to give away all the details, I’m not one to share super personal issues and that are going on in my personal life, because not everyone needs to know all the details, but if there is something within my personal life that I feel strongly on to share and turn it into something a little helpful then I’m going to try and do my best to share it in a more insightful kind of way if that makes sense!?

There’s some stuff that has been going on within my life, but I don’t talk on them due to the fact that it is pretty personal and are most of the time private situations that you would rather sort with the party of people either in the situation or where you feel more comfortable expressing to those who you feel close to about either the whole situation or just part of the situation going on! You never want to air out any dirty laundry that you had in mind to get to washing, but never actually got around to or because some people don’t mind them being out in the open, even when you’ve tried to tell them, it’s not a good idea, yet you find them out there anyway!

I know there are some people that don’t mind the drama of others, but I’m never going to fully put any of my personal issues out there for everyone to see, I don’t like confrontation, if I have an problem with someone or about something, I would want to sort it with that person or whoever is involved and if it’s just something and not someone, I like to see if I’m able to handle it first and come up with some kind of solution and if I know I’m having a bit of an issue, I’ll then ask someone for a bit of help not always because I’m one where if I do have a bit of a problem, I’ll go a long while before actually telling someone I’d like help and sometimes people closest to me will sense I’m having some trouble and will offer help without me asking, but yeah….plus not everyone likes others being in their business anyway!

That all being said….if there is something you have in your heart to say, don’t be afraid to say it, even though I’m not one to fully go into detail about my life and what is happening privately speaking, if you find that going into details about what you’re feeling works best for you, whether it’s blogging about it, speaking about it in different ways do what you feel is best for you, I know some people find more relief that way when speaking on private matters in these and many different kind of ways, if you’re someone that doesn’t mind having your drama in the open then hey more power to you! I’m not that kind of person, but I know people live their lives differently and you can’t control how other people do things!

I prefer to keep personal issues personal, unless there’s something I feel I want to say with the situation without deeply diving into it, the only way that I will is if I’m really close to someone and they ask or if people around me already know about the situation, however if we’re talking publicly on these type of platforms, if there’s a topic in the situation that stands out to be important, I will do my best to take what stands out and turn it into some kind of positive/insight in case someone out there may be dealing with a similar problem and is looking for a little advice…..I’m hoping all of this made somewhat of sense!

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa