The Journey Of Learning & Growing….

One of the best things to witness is watching someone grow and evolve, be it a child, someone that you saw go through a very tough point in their life or even just you yourself, there’s no age limit when it comes to learning and growing…..you could be in your 50s and you may already know a whole lot, but that doesn’t mean you can’t still learn something new let alone won’t learn something new, there’s so much to life that will always leave us surprised even when you think you’ve seen it all already!

I’ve witness a few transformations, a lot of them may not be fully, but I’ve seen a few and the ones I have seen, still amaze me and sometimes I find myself thinking about those transformations, I’ve watched my boyfriend come out of something that he struggled with for a while, not necessarily in person, but just the aftermath of what happened in his life in that time, it’s how we met, he was just starting to get back to himself again! I’ve seen my nephew who I consider my nephew, I first met him when he was 3, so I’ve only known him for a year now pretty much and I remember how he’d never wanted to listen to anyone, you know usual kid stuff, his favorite word was always NO and you couldn’t tell him anything, without him crying and throwing tantrums and wanting everything to be his way

and then you have his mom who worked all the time and when it came to trying to stop him from having those tantrums it was hard for her to put her foot down with him, obviously no parent wants to yell at their child, any good parent anyway, it’s hard because you try to be a parent, but you also don’t want to be a parent in a sense of when your child starts throwing those tantrums and they aren’t listening to you, you don’t want to have to punish them for it, because all you want is for them to see you in the best light possible and when you come to those moments to where you know there needs to be rules……it can be hard, but sometimes you know you have to do it!

But back to what I was talking about…..all three people here have gone through big transformations and you wouldn’t believe it if I told you, my boyfriend one of the biggest transformation I’ve ever seen and also haven’t seen, but if you knew him when I met him and you were to see and learn about everything he endured, you’d be extremely surprised, it still surprises me when I think about it sometimes, just to see and learn the difference in the person that he once was to who he is now, like I wouldn’t know where to begin on that story, hopefully I’ll be able to really tell it or have him tell it one day, I mean it is story about his journey anyway and it really is a beautiful and life changing one at that! I’m very proud of how far he’s gotten, I love you Jord, forever and always!

As for my Nephew…..he’s 4 now, but will be turning 5 in November and let me tell you something, he is one hell of a smart kid, seriously and he’s gotten a lot better at really trying to understand everything, he doesn’t give you too much of a issue now when you are telling him not to do something or you’re trying to help him learn certain things, he actually listens expressing something to him which I’m glad to see, it was a mission and a half when I first met him, he talks a whole lot more now, like a lot, he wouldn’t really say much before, he was just always shy and wouldn’t come up to you, he’d just be in his own little world, now forget about it!! He will talk to you for hours if he really wanted to, he’s quite the character, very silly, but he’s the sweetest boy every, he’s very kind, he likes making people laugh and just showing you things all the time, buut don’t let his adorableness fool, he knows what he’s doing!

He’s a little demon and I say it all the time to him, which he knows too because he always laughs about it! He knows how to get what he wants, however he knows who to go for when he wants something, spoiler it’s not me, he knows better than to pull anything with me, like I said he’s a smart one, I wouldn’t be surprised if he turned out to be an evil genius, I’m joking, he’s a good kid when he wants to be, but he’s also grown to know better and I just hope that continues the older he gets!

Lastly, we come to my Nephew’s mom who has also transformed a lot from when I met her, she’s kind of hard to explain with her transformation though, but I’ll do my best, when I first started coming around and hanging out with her, she was always working, but she worked from home, so she always tried her best to balance out work and her son and when I was hanging out with her as she was working, I would notice a lot that she was having to do, when it came to her son like I said earlier it was hard for her to put her foot down with him at first, because she didn’t like having to be that….not strict parent, cause she’s really not that strict, but he’d would get babied a lot before, he still does, but it’s not so much from his mom these days, but the grandparents…..you know how that goes!

It was hard for her to tell him when he was doing something wrong and when it came to punishment so that he learns that he can’t do certain things, with work she was always stressing, she dealt with a lot….I guess the only way I can say it is her transformation comes from how she’s grown as a parent from when I met her and what I know her to be now as well as how certain parts of her personality has changed and grown, she’d always wanted to please everyone even when she didn’t want to do whatever it was that she didn’t want to do, she’s showing more of her voice with people,

Which is good and she would always feel like nothing was going her way, but now everything is now working for her which is great, in terms of her son, she’s learn to put her foot down with him more and not let him try and control her and what I love about that is, I feel since then, both her and her son have gotten more closer and it’s a beautiful things to see, because you can tell she loves her son and only wants the best for him and that’s how parent should be and he loves her which is also wonderful! I’ve witness what she had to go through before and I’m so proud of her for how far she’s come even if she doesn’t know it, she’s an amazing mom and an amazing person, as well as a really good friend and I’m glad that I got to know her and continue to get to know her, fun fact, we’ve crossed paths before me and her a few time even, but we never actually encountered one another face to face just always by a pass by, it wasn’t until she started dating my brother to where we finally met, I guess you can call it a small word!

The three people I just spoke about all mean something to me and I’m glad to know them and have them apart of my life, I’m glad that I’ve been able to experience the transformations they’ve gone through, they all have taught me a lot of things as well as important lessons and are still teaching me a lot even if they don’t know it necessarily, but I wouldn’t trade them and all that they’ve taught me for the world and if ever down the line our journey’s together were to take different paths or transform in some kind of way to where I still have them in my life, I’m always going to take what they’ve given me and do my best to make sure I never forget it!

F.Y.I. I didn’t expect to write all of this, the way I did, I just felt very strongly to write this for some reason so I did, call it a moment of a thought in time!!

P.S.

By the way, I’ve switched up my podcast episode schedule just for this week, so instead of Monday, Wednesday and Friday, I’m doing Tuesday, Thursday and Saturday (I’m going to try for Saturday anyway) again just for this week, I just felt like switching things up a a bit! You can check out yesterday’s episode here:

Take Flight Like A Bird…. Ep. 37 Daydreamer's Podcast

Happy Tuesday everyone, hope your having a good day! In todays episode we talk a bit about birds and the way they fly, not just about that though, it gets a bit deeper than that, we're always afraid to explore the unknown and take those big leaps that we've been wanting to take, but isn't that what life's about!? Facing those unsure feelings and seeing where it takes you, just like that Moana song, one day I'll know how far I'll go!!

All The Love ❤ ❤ ❤

Lexa

Let’s Talk: Clocker

Happy Thursday! Hope you all are well and safe, boy was yesterday quite the day, I don’t know how many people experienced last nights hurricane, we had a lot of flooding happening, water even came into our house, it wasn’t too bad, we caught it before it got worst, but it was a good amount of water, but more like puddles of water so nothing got damaged luckily, in other places though that’s a different story, but it was okay! For those who also experienced the really unexpected bad storm, I hope you all are doing well and that it wasn’t too bad for you guys!

Now let’s talk about what this post is about…..you’re probably looking at the title going “huh!?” Clocker for those unsure, is a video game that I downloaded not that long ago, I’ve only played it once, it’s pretty much a puzzle game with a pretty neat story, you can also consider it an adventure game as well! Clocker from what I gathered playing it is about a father trying to get back to his daughter, I’ll try not to spoil the game too much in case some of you find it interesting and want to play it for yourselves, but pretty much you are given this old looking Clock by some random old guy and as you advance in the game, you find that time has stopped and you’re there trying to figure out how to restart it so that you can get back to your daughter!

There’s more to it obviously, but you have to play it to understand the concept of it! Like I said it’s a really neat game, it’s different to what I would normally play, but it’s really nice, in the game the clock that you get from the old guy, you soon discover that it let’s you control certain events so whatever is frozen you can help advance it and rewind to get through each section so you can collect the things that are needed, did I mention that the father character in the game fixes clocks for a living!? So being that you disable and reassemble clocks and watches and that, you have to get all the missing pieces that came off from the stopwatch, yeah! Like I said it’s pretty cool, I didn’t get that far into the game, I’m kind of stuck on a level, I would get so close to solving it, but will still end up missing something so I got to go back and figure it out!

I wasn’t expecting to enjoy the game has much as I did, when I first played it it wasn’t hard to understand, you start off taking apart a watch and going through the story mode of the game with certain dialogs, which was kind of fun, I liked taking apart things, I haven’t played it in a couple of weeks though, but I will eventually get back into it soon, it was really fascinating! I have a feeling I know what the message of the game is, but before I share it, I want to play it more to see if it is what I think it is, which it might end up being cause it seems to be going in that direction, but I want to enjoy the game and discover what other things it has going for it, just play it, understand it better, once I finish the game I will do a part two on it and update you on it’s story and let you know if I got the message to it correct! Hopefully I didn’t spoil anything on the game for you guys if I did….I’m sorry, but if I didn’t then cool!

I would recommend anyone who wants to try out a new game to give this one a try, the graphics and gameplay may be a little different to what you might like in a game, depending what kind of games you like and all, but I still would say to give it a try, it might surprise you and who knows it might be your new favorite game, but if it’s something that you think you personally wouldn’t go for then that’s okay too, I didn’t think I was going to go for it before I actually played it, but I also still had it in my wish list to try, because it was something that looked interesting, but everyone’s different!

If this game is something that catches your attention then go get it, it’s actually not that bad in price! I got it during a sale, but I think it’s about 6 dollars-10 the max…..correction it’s actually 4 dollars ($3.99 USD 3.59 GPB) I went and checked, but yeah you can find this game on the Nintendo eshop, if this game is something you’d consider then I definitely recommend it! Part 2 of this post will be up eventually and that post will be my full thoughts on the game once I’ve finished it of course!

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Transitions With Rain….

Good Morning and Happy September 1st! Hope that you all are having a good one so far, it’s a bit mad that August is now over, which means that we’re getting closer and closer towards the cooler and colder days so say farewell to the short sleeves, capris/shorts and beach days, unless you’re planning to go somewhere where it’s summer year round or your moving to a more hotter environment if you are then you can just keep all your summer clothes out and say hi to summery weather again pretty soon! I’ll never understand how people can live in very hot places, I was in PR for a week and a few days back in July and oh my gosh, I could not handle the heat every single day, I was done with it by Day 3 of being there, I wouldn’t be able to live in a place that’s hot all the time, so it always mind boggles me how some people genuinely talk about how their going to move to places like PR or Florida!

Ask me that and I’m like no thanks, I never wanted to live in hot places, I really don’t like Summer that much, some days are fine, but after a while I’m hoping for Fall or Spring to roll around, I love Spring and Autumn, because with Spring it’s not too hot and you can enjoy the weather without it being too much, it’s always breezy during that season and with Autumn…..it’s always just cool, not too cold, you can wear cardigans, boots, sweaters, both Spring and Fall have the right amount of warm and cool and you can’t go wrong with that, might be just me that thinks that, but it’s true!

I probably already spoke about this a few times, but when I was younger I always wanted to go to the UK and visit, not only that, but I always pictured myself living there as well, I don’t know why!? I just always felt a connection with it and so it was always on my Wishlist to go over there and see what it’s like, I still feel that and still hope to go there, plus I always thought that it had pretty good weather, like over there is always just cool weather and that! I know it tends to rain over there a good amount, although I did learn recently that it’s not all of the UK where it rains! I guess we just assume that it’s always raining overseas because it’s what we hear….like I used to think that it always rained in London,

but noo, in England it doesn’t rain as much as people think, it’s actually just in Scotland that it rains mostly and if I remember correctly that’s because they’re closer to the mountains compared to other places within the United Kingdom, it’s quite an interesting thing to learn! England’s weather is similar to our weather though, which is cool, it’s nice knowing that it’s both the same and different at the same time! Don’t really know why I’m taking about the weather over in the UK, I guess it was in my mind and so I thought I’d let it out!

Let’s talk about September that was the whole point of this post anyway right!? It’s a weird start with a September for me anyway, although now that I’m thinking about it, I kind of have been feeling like that with these past few months lately, them being weird and all, not sure why, but today specifically started off weird, I woke up feeling fine and then emotions started coming to me and fear crept up on me, right when I was about to record a new podcast episode, I have no idea why it happened, but I did push through after I gave myself a bit, but it was just very weird, I recorded the episode and even talked a bit about what I was feeling and other things, I’m debating on whether or not to post it, but I feel seeing that I’ve got and mentioned it in this post that I might as well go through with sharing it!

I feel like September is going to be another odd month, but I also believe that it will hold something good and unexpected and that we shouldn’t give up on it too quickly, I mean it just started so it’s best to keep our heads up and look for the good that it has in store or at least expect what is coming without expecting it if that makes sense!? Pretty much just keep a look out for it, but still try and keep yourself productive and slightly busy and whenever it arrives you’ll be both happy and a little surprised as well, sometimes that’s the best experience!

Update:

Here’s my new podcast episode, it’s got a mixture of both August and September thoughts as well as some other things!

Let's Talk: A Bit Of August and September (Plus Some Personal Thoughts) Ep. 36 Daydreamer's Podcast

Happy September 1st everyone, hope all is well! In today's episode we discuss quite a bit, it's kind of a weird one! There's some thoughts about the month of August and how it went, as well as how the start of September is going! I've also shared some personal thoughts both with the start of this month and in general, a lot of different emotions going on in this episode as well! 

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Honestly….I Want To See You Be Brave (Title May Change)

There comes a moment, well I guess you can say there comes a good amount of moments in life where you have to make some really hard decisions and sometimes those decisions aren’t always the easiest, most times you’ll find that not a lot of people agree with the decisions you make, but whether they agree with them or not, it’s up us to decide what we feel works best for us and if it’s also healthy for us as well! What I mean by that is if you find that you’re in a situation where everyday it’s always issue after issue and no matter how much you try to make it better, it never feels like it gets anywhere, that’s where the really big decision comes in…..you have to ask yourself is this worth the time and energy am I sacrificing too much of my happiness trying to make everyone else happy!?

Sometimes it’s difficult because you feel like with certain situations you don’t have a choice, especially when say it’s family or really close friends or just anyone you feel a great connection with! If you are the kind of person that always puts everyone else’s needs before their own this can be especially difficult and a bit of a battle to get yourself out of, but once you do get out of it, you’ll start to find yourself getting more and more better and you’ll also start to become happier because you’re not having to always please people, you might have moments where you feel slightly guilty, but that’s only due to the fact that you’re used to helping so many people out without a single thought about yourself so it’ll feel a little weird at first of course!

However you have to know when to say no and that it’s okay to say no, as hard as it is, it’s important for your wellbeing, if you’re constantly agreeing to everything that someone says or always saying yes when really you mean no, you don’t give yourself that proper attention that is needed and when you know you have no energy left, yet you still try and give everyone what their asking you for…..it’s just going to be this endless cycle only you’ll be the one without energy while others knowing they have their own energy, continue to take all of yours!

You never want to allow yourself to enter that cycle, but then you ask yourself, how do you know you are in that situation!? Sometimes it all goes based off feeling, so if someone askes you for something or to do something, whatever the question or situation is and inside you feel like it’s not right or maybe you just don’t want to do it in that moment, yet you do it anyway because you’re being asked that’s the first sign of it’s okay to say no when you feel it to be no…..as for situations alone, you have to know which ones are worth putting yourself into and which ones are best to stay out of, it’s not always an easy thing to do, but for the best shield for yourself,

Don’t know how else to state it….it’s important to be aware of and if people choose to scold you for wanting to stay away from all the drama and not wanting to be around them because it’s never a good moment or there’s always something then just a genuine let’s spend time together or conversate and all that jazz, then those are the people you want to keep at a distance, if they can’t respect that then you’re best to just keep to yourself and look towards filling your circle with better surrounding people that you know will keep your energy high and not the other way around, the people who really care will always support you, even if they maybe don’t agree, a good support system will always encourage you to just go out there and do your best and will always want to see you happy!

I express a little more on this topic in my latest podcast episode, it’s a bit lengthy, but I felt it was important and wanted to share on it, if you would like to have a listen, check it out:

Wind Of Change….(Personal Thoughts) Ep. 30 Daydreamer's Podcast

Happy Wednesday! Hope you're enjoying the day…we've reached episode 30….wow! In today's episode, we go a bit personal with it, I had a lot of thoughts that I wanted to share with this episode and it's pretty much based on a situation that I'm dealing with currently! I don't normally share on personal issues, but I felt I wanted and needed to say some stuff and so this episode might be a little heavy topic wise, but I try to keep it a little light as well, without all the extra details so it's not all that bad, just some thoughts…  

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Talks Of Conversations….

Good Morning, I hope you all having a good one and that your day is going well so far! It’s been a while that I’ve wrote a post during the morning hours, normally I tend to write between the early afternoons when morning is just transitioning toward the afternoon or around the late evenings….so morning posts are a bit rare for me, but sometimes I’ll start writing in the morning, but most of time, my posts don’t get done until the afternoon, I guess it depends when I feel I have things to say!

Speaking of things to say, you ever have a lot that you want to get out and then you do, but then you wonder if you’ve said everything alright!? Like in the moment you express how you’re feeling it and you try to find the best words possible so it doesn’t come off a certain way while expressing those thoughts and feelings, yet you still find yourself wondering if everything you said came out okay…..it’s a very hard line at times to know that what you’re saying, is being processed well! We can’t help our emotions sometimes, no matter how much we try to keep it from being taken a certain…..those things can be a little out of our control!!

The reason I’m writing this the way I am is because, yesterday I went and recorded a new episode for my podcast and the topic I’ll admit was a bit on the gray area side, but it was something I felt needed to be expressed, it’s related in a more personal manner without trying to give away all the details, I’m not one to share super personal issues and that are going on in my personal life, because not everyone needs to know all the details, but if there is something within my personal life that I feel strongly on to share and turn it into something a little helpful then I’m going to try and do my best to share it in a more insightful kind of way if that makes sense!?

There’s some stuff that has been going on within my life, but I don’t talk on them due to the fact that it is pretty personal and are most of the time private situations that you would rather sort with the party of people either in the situation or where you feel more comfortable expressing to those who you feel close to about either the whole situation or just part of the situation going on! You never want to air out any dirty laundry that you had in mind to get to washing, but never actually got around to or because some people don’t mind them being out in the open, even when you’ve tried to tell them, it’s not a good idea, yet you find them out there anyway!

I know there are some people that don’t mind the drama of others, but I’m never going to fully put any of my personal issues out there for everyone to see, I don’t like confrontation, if I have an problem with someone or about something, I would want to sort it with that person or whoever is involved and if it’s just something and not someone, I like to see if I’m able to handle it first and come up with some kind of solution and if I know I’m having a bit of an issue, I’ll then ask someone for a bit of help not always because I’m one where if I do have a bit of a problem, I’ll go a long while before actually telling someone I’d like help and sometimes people closest to me will sense I’m having some trouble and will offer help without me asking, but yeah….plus not everyone likes others being in their business anyway!

That all being said….if there is something you have in your heart to say, don’t be afraid to say it, even though I’m not one to fully go into detail about my life and what is happening privately speaking, if you find that going into details about what you’re feeling works best for you, whether it’s blogging about it, speaking about it in different ways do what you feel is best for you, I know some people find more relief that way when speaking on private matters in these and many different kind of ways, if you’re someone that doesn’t mind having your drama in the open then hey more power to you! I’m not that kind of person, but I know people live their lives differently and you can’t control how other people do things!

I prefer to keep personal issues personal, unless there’s something I feel I want to say with the situation without deeply diving into it, the only way that I will is if I’m really close to someone and they ask or if people around me already know about the situation, however if we’re talking publicly on these type of platforms, if there’s a topic in the situation that stands out to be important, I will do my best to take what stands out and turn it into some kind of positive/insight in case someone out there may be dealing with a similar problem and is looking for a little advice…..I’m hoping all of this made somewhat of sense!

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Remembering Christina Grimmie (Blog Post)

To write or not to write that is the question isn’t it!? The answer, well….I’m not really sure, I want to write, it’s just trying to figure out what topic I’d like to discuss is where the issue is…..it’s not really an issue, I just don’t know what this post is going to be about, I’m hoping that as I’m writing this post, something will find a way to come up! In the meantime, if you don’t mind I’d like to share upon my latest Podcast episode with you, in the latest episode I discuss all about Christina Grimmie, who if you don’t know was a great and talented artist, however she passed on this very day, 5 years ago today…..

I’m not really sure why, but I felt like talking about her and so I recorded a whole episode yesterday, sharing my thoughts and just remembering her a bit, If you’d like to give it a listen you can check it out here: Remembering Christina Grimmie (Music, Personality ect…) You can also listen to it on Spotify!

I didn’t personally know Christina, but I used always watch her videos on Youtube, where she first showcased her talents and she was always a favorite channel of mine to watch, I always considered her voice to be very powerful, if you took a glimpse into her personality as she was talking and then you heard her sing right after, you wouldn’t believe how strong her voice to be, but she always had this something special with her, hard to explain, but you could always feel it and I guess that’s why a lot of people gravitated towards her and kept a know on her!

Now I wouldn’t call myself the biggest fan of Christina’s, but I really did like her a lot, I always loved hearing her sing and just getting to see her personality that she would share with everyone, after she started becoming more recognized for her talents, you knew that she was going to be something and she was, like I said I didn’t really follow her that much when she started becoming a bit more well known, but I would always check in here and there with her and her music and it’d always take me back to when she first started on Youtube or shall I say within her early years of Youtube, I don’t think I was around when she first, first started…..but I do remember the beginning parts to when she was just getting started if that makes sense!

Some of what I said here, is what I said in that episode, only there’s more within it…..if I’m being honest it’s been a very long time since I’ve really thought about Christina Grimmie, that being said, I never forgot about her, I still listen to a few of her songs and when I do I always think about how great she really was and how much I miss hearing her voice, she was a one of a kind, kind of person and I know that a lot of people that knew her and enjoyed her presence, be it music, personality and just her overall, will always miss her too and will never ever truly forget about her, she’ll always be remembered for the impact that she left in peoples lives, big or small!

Christina you will always be remembered and missed dearly, I know I already said it in my episode, but thank you for the time that you gave us while you were here, even when it may seem like we’ve forgotten there will always be something to help us remember you and everything that you left, you’re a soul that left too soon, but one that will always live on for many many lifetimes and wherever you are, I hope that you are happy and still sharing that wonderful and powerful voice of yours as well as your personality, rest well and know that those that still keep you in mind will always love you! Thank you for everything.

P.S.

Here’s one of my favorite cover songs by Christina, I love Jason Mraz’s version as well, I mean it is his song, but Grimmie’s version…. is definitely worth a listen: I Won’t Give Up (Christina Grimmie’s Version)

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Pondering Of Emotions….

You ever feel a certain emotion, but you’re just too afraid to talk about that emotion!? Something in you wants to express truthfully to the feelings you feel, but you don’t instead you just ponder about whether or not to be expressive about it! That’s what I’m feeling right now, I know I’m having all these different emotions swimming around in my mind, but I can’t quite bring myself to talk about them and part of that reason is well I don’t like talking about how I actually feel, yet at the same time, I don’t ever know to express about, like I never know where to start, so I always find myself thinking on my emotions trying to gather some kind of words to start off….

For the past 2 days, I’ve been feeling very anxious, I could feel my anxiety jump a few levels too high to where I want them to be and whenever I get anxious I start overthinking and when I over think I go into a panic mode and then become very frustrated with how I’m feeling causing myself to later become emotional right after and I always do it and I always get mad myself for it, I know it’s something I shouldn’t be upset with myself for, but I still do!

I try not to think about it and by trying not think on it, I end up thinking on it more and then I become more frustrated on it, I got a lot of worries in me that I find hard to get rid of and I don’t know why exactly….but I know it doesn’t help to ignore the emotions or have them put away for another time, by not addressing the feelings that we find crowding us a little too much, we create more frustration within ourselves, we never really sit down and ask ourselves why we are feeling the way we are, when we feel them, we look away from them and try and distract ourselves with something else and when we feel them becoming more of a “too close step back a bit” feeling we start getting agitated by it.

We never feel like we’re allowed to feel the things we do, but the best way to handle those unpleasant emotions is to let them be, in a sense of when you feel them, let yourself feel them, don’t fight with them or push them to the side because then that creates more resistance when turning them away…..we have to tell ourselves that it’s okay to be uncomfortable with our not so great emotions, by accepting them, it makes it easier to let them go naturally without all the push backs and anger that we bring to ourselves because of them!

It’s okay to ask and question those emotions because it may help to get to the root of what is actually going on under the surface of it! If we can accept those good feeling moments where we are at our best, why can’t we do the same when we’re feeling at our worst!? There’s no good without the bad and no bad without the good, it’s all in the balance of it all, we need to feel like shit sometimes, we can’t always expect to feel like a bunch of happy dogs running around full of energy, sometimes we need to sit in a corner and just feel whatever it is we are feeling because that’s how we get over them, it’s how we start to feel better!

So if you were to ask me how I’ve been feeling…..I’m just a little Under Pressure at the moment, but I know eventually I’ll be alright! Hope all your days are going well!

P.S.

I only expressed on these emotions after watching a video last night, if you would like to watch that video, you can find it here: How To Control Your Anxiety (as an Empath)

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

June Reminds Me Of The Color Yellow….

Good Morning Everyone! Hope you all are having a good Monday and enjoying the time off with Memorial Day if do have time off, we’re getting close to the afternoon hour and pretty close to closing this month as we move on into the month of June, it’s a bit crazy innit knowing that May’s pretty much over, it feels like some of these months have came by a bit slowly while some not so slowly, it’s like they arrive hang out for a pretty good while and then go off on their merry way!

For the month of May I feel like it just arrived, but is also now just leaving and that’s something I always tend to feel each time it comes around I don’t know why, but it’s always like that…..to give some thoughts on May well….I feel like it’s been a pretty alright month, it had it’s mixture of good and not good parts, but for the most part, I wouldn’t say it’s been that bad, now from the title you can see I went ahead and gave June a color, if I had to give May a color, I’d say she’d be….like a Green mixed with Violet and other warm colors!

I know it’s probably very weird to want to give months a color, but sometimes when thinking about whatever months arriving I can’t help, but feel a color with them and yeah that’s just what I think them to be…..actually if I had to pick a color for May…..it’d be the album cover of Alexz Johnson’s Still Alive album, which was released in May….pretty much, now I thought and felt the color Pink when thinking about May….. I just didn’t want to say Pink, but if I’m being honest every time I look at that album….it feels like it, although I will still consider May to be a Green/Violet color mixed with other warm colors!

I gotta say real quick the album artwork for Still Alive, is probably by far one of my all time favorites it’s so simple, but it’s got this all around aura of innocence’s, but not that entirely, just by looking at it, you get a breath of fresh air it’s just got this something to it that is hard to explain, it’s my favorite album art and it’s just her with a nice pink background and other colors added, the simplicity of it is what I like pretty much!

Back to talking about the month of May…..it’s been alright, I mean May is my birth month, so I think I’ll always have a soft spot for it and I think I would consider it a favorite month of mine, not just because I was born in that month, but because I just kind of always liked it…..but we’ll be soon moving on from May and entering the month of June in a couple of hours and who knows what will come with June, it could be anything, maybe some of you already know what will be arriving, but it’s okay if you don’t, sometimes not knowing can be good, we all enjoy a little surprise!

Until we see June…..let’s continue to enjoy the rest of May’s company in the last hours of the month and wish her safe travels with the rest of her upcoming journey, thank you for hanging out with us May, we shall see you on your next visit!

P.S.

Seeing as I spoke about Alexz Johnson in this post, I just wanted to share that she read my thoughts about her latest album in my last blog post….and she liked it…my day is made!

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

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Quite the title I know, I’m just kidding haha! Don’t really know why I chose that as the title, it just randomly came to me and I thought it was a neat one, plus it’s pretty themed too, I’m just going to say that….I’ve got a couple thoughts that I wanted to get out, I’m doing a bit of self reflecting, been kind of doing it for about a few days now, maybe a couple of weeks….I tend to self reflect on random occasions to be fair! I already sorta let most of my thoughts out yesterday as a Podcast episode, although I haven’t actually quite posted it just yet, I’ve been thinking about it though, I don’t normally like to talk upon my own thoughts and feelings as I’ve stated a few times before on here…..I don’t like talking about what I’m thinking, It feels weird to me, I don’t really like having that kind of low energy type thing….

I prefer to talk about things that I enjoy and mean a lot to me instead of my actual feelings, because no one really likes to share that kind of thing especially when you know you’re in this deep thought mode, you try and brush it off and put it away, but you tend to notice that it’s never quite far from you and with the way I always find myself thinking….no one wants to hear that all the time and that’s just how I genuinely feel, it’s why I rarely share on what I’m feeling, like I know it’s alright to share your emotions at times, but I just always find it hard for me to do, because I never can find the words to make it sound less…..complaint like, I don’t know why I always feel it to be such a bothersome thing, I just always do! I know there’s nothing wrong with it…..I just have a hard time expressing my true emotions to people,

I rather try and work through my current thoughts in the moment when I’m feeling it and not have to talk about it to people…..but I guess when you need to let it out, you need to let it out….keeping it to yourself isn’t always the best thing, although if it’s not your thing then you shouldn’t force yourself, because eventually when you feel like you’re ready to express yourself, I always feel you will in some way or form….we all have moments and sometimes we all just need to allow ourselves to have those moments, be it in private, sharing to someone else or just when you feel you may need a bit before actually being vocal about your thoughts and emotions, it all comes down to preference!

When it comes to sharing on things that can be hard to share, it’s okay if you’re the type that only shares every now and again and if you’re someone that finds it works better when you share you’re thoughts not daily, but every other day that fine too, but if you’re someone that rarely shares because you find it a bit hard or because it’s not your thing that’s alright too, whatever works best, we just got to accept the type of person we are when it comes to that, I’m in between every now and again and rarely, sharing upon my thoughts is something I don’t really like doing, but if I feel that I need to, in order to give myself a bit of a clear and refresh mind then I will even when it’s a bit hard,

For the most part though a lot of my thoughts lately are out of my worries and fears and me overthinking everything, not that I do it on purpose, I really do try not to think the way I do, but sometimes my mind can just get to me a bit, I guess you just have to allow it to be sometimes as well as do your best to not let it get to you too much! How have you all been feeling lately!?

Update A.K.A Promo Time!!

I ended up re recording that podcast episode I was talking about earlier in the post, I wanted to do it differently, so if you would like to check it out you can find it here: Just Chatting it’ll be up on Anchor as well as Spotify just a heads up (on Anchor it’ll say May 7th and on Spotify it’ll say May 8th, I think the times a bit different on Spotify I’m not really sure) but it’s just a chill chatting session on a few thoughts I had similar to this post, just with a bit more added so if you get curious check it out!

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Podcasting Schedule….

How’s Everyone’s Thursday Been Going!? Hope you all have been enjoying yourselves, alright so I wanted to write a quick post on the schedule of my podcast episodes, now I’ve been trying my hand on recording podcast episodes for about a month now and at first it was just to give a try and see how I liked it and everything, but since then, I have actually been enjoying myself when recording episodes, I actually really like it! Now I will admit that at first I didn’t really have an actual schedule, I was just posting whenever I recorded a new episode, but I like to think that I have found a good footing on the days that I upload to Anchor and Spotify, I always record my episodes towards the evening on Fridays and sometimes I’ll also upload on that day depending on the length of the episode, if it’s not too long then I’ll have it up then, but if I need to look at it a bit, then you normally see it on a Monday or other days!

Now so far my episode uploads are, Fridays (Recording always, uploads every so often) Mondays and Wednesdays, I’m also going to be adding Saturdays, but just like Fridays it’ll be on certain days only on Saturdays! Now to give you an insight on what my content of the episodes I share at times on my podcast, it’s just a hangout session kind of podcast, I like to share upon topics of music, certain video games and just give my best thoughts to those kind of topics, I also try and share on some thoughts of my own in terms of little reminders and personal things that I might write here on this blog and want to share sometimes on my podcast, just in case I have other things to add that maybe a little too long of post to write! It’s pretty much interest based the content of my Podcast,

I share on loads of different topics mean something to me in the moment! I just want everyone that comes by to have a listen to chill out and hopefully enjoy themselves, because I enjoy myself, so hopefully with a set schedule so far, anyone reading this or listening because this is probably going to be in the next episode that I do, you’ll know when to look out for it, I also post new episodes and even blog posts on my Twitter so if ever you’re unsure to when I upload or just want to catch up or say hi even, you can find me there, my Twitter is literally the name of my blog Life As A Daydreamer I’d like to think I’m pretty friendly, I don’t mind getting to know people and say hi, I can be a bit shy, but I can also be the one to start conversation too depending how I feel haha!

Those are my upload days so far with my podcast episodes, if by any chance I need to change it or I got other things to add on anything, You’ll see it in a new blog post update of course, this promoting thing is very new to me and I can get a bit nervous with it, but I’ve been doing my best with it and everything else I do, which is all I can really do, but yeah if you would like to come by and hang out with me, those have been the days I’ve found myself uploading the most and that’s why I thought I’d just write a post on it! I have a few episodes up now if you would like to have a listen, some are a bit lengthy I’ll be honest, but I do have shorter episodes too, so get cozy, grab a snack, friend, pet, favorite drink and come by and hang out if you like!!

Daydreamer’s Podcast is the name of my Podcast and like I said a bit earlier you can find it on either Anchor which is where it’s hosted or you can have a listen on Spotify, maybe you prefer it as background noise instead of a sit and listen which is completely fine, however you choose to enjoy it! I hope you all are having a great evening or day in general and I hope to see you around ^_^

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa