Changes and Transformations….

Good Morning, hope that you all have been well these days! We’re now a week into the month of March for many out there, a lot has probably happened already be it big or something small that you’ve been also looking forward too and for others March might still feel like you’re just getting started and that’s perfectly okay! We all have a specific pace that we start with, things could be going really fast and quick for a lot of you, while for some March could be catching you by surprise where things start feeling a bit unexpected, in a sense where, you may find yourself more busy then usual or in other ways where you may not normally be used to if that makes sense!?

Yesterday I found myself deep in thought about a lot of things, I was out for most of the day so it was a bit productive, however I wasn’t really in a talkive mood, I mean don’t get me wrong I did speak a bit, but I wasn’t in my usual talkive state that I normally am….a lot of the time when that happens, it’s because I just have a lot on my mind and it gets to the point where I don’t really want to talk…..in those moments talking for me becomes a bit of chore to deal with so I like to say as little as I can if I’m able to! I started to become a bit more chatty during the evening though, but it still took me a while!

I guess it’s just my way of processing my own thoughts and dealing with them in some way, I normally try and distract myself when I start getting really into my own mind, but I also know when I need to allow my thoughts to be what it is they are and not push them aside, by doing that it’s only going to come at you harder so you want to make sure that your being considerate with yourself in those times of deep thinking…..yesterday I had a thought to myself regarding my surroundings, but involving how everything’s changed!

All the places that I once knew and saw growing up, most of them are all different now, building that, were once there are no longer around and if they are, they’ve changed so much to where you don’t really recongize them, it’s kind of like seeing a time lapse of what you used to know recontructed right before your eyes, but you’re seeing the transformation of what it was then, to what it is now and seeing that, seeing all the places that you’ve grown up with change and look completely new to what you used to see, it really hits you just how much things really transform an old shop that you may have gone to a lot when you were a kid, is either no longer there or isn’t quite the same as you once remembered it!

It’s a mind blowing experience because even though you know it’s different, there something in you that feels like you still need a bit of time to process it fully, yet you never really get the chance to, due to the fact that it’s already changed and transformed so much that you don’t get much room to feel it entirely the way you want. It’s the same with people, although they have certain things with them that stayed the same, you already know that they too have transformed and are a lot different to what you remember them to be, but be it so,

There’s always that part of you that hopes that the relationship that you had with them and the bond that you once shared didn’t change and a lot of the time you find it did, but you do get those one of kind moments where even though you and that person have grown and seen things in a more….I guess you can say mature perspective to how you used to see things….even though all that’s happened, you find that it’s easy for you to just come back together as if nothings changed at all and just pick up where you left off….with those moments though it can feel a bit nervewracking and scary, it’s like meeting someone that you already know for the first time all over again….and it’s not something you would normally think to get nervous about, but you do because you know it’s different!!

You start feeling like you have to prepare yourself again and get ready for it, it’s like a new journey and adventure that you know, but don’t know at the same time so you’re kind of just hoping for the best and for things to turn out okay, it’ll sometimes even leave you wondering if they still feel the same about you even if you know they do, you still can’t help, but have those thoughts in mind that, now that doesn’t neccasarily mean it’s a bad thing, it’s just curious wonders! That being said, you won’t really know unless you put yourself out there to feel those things and be okay with feeling them, I like to think they’re normal, it just simply shows how much you really truly and deeply care as well as how much that person still means to you!!

Fear or no fear, changes and transforamtions will always happen, even if you don’t really get the chance to take it in the way you want or you find you aren’t able to really prepare, it’s okay….I guess the best way to look at it is to just give it a go anyway when it involves a new experience, but if it involves a change that you have no control of, like seeing a place you once knew when you were younger in a whole new way, you kind of just have to adapt the best way you can with it, keep those memories close to you always and whatever connection you made with it…..just know that it will always be with you, never be afraid of changes and don’t be afraid of transforming the way you feel you are wanting to, it’s all part of living life so try not to hold yourself back from experiencing all that you want to experience at the end of the day you gotta do what makes you happy!!

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Portals With Feelings Of Connection…

Happy Saturday to you all, it feels a little odd, yet not that odd to be writing again on here, I kinda feels like I haven’t left, but I know that it’s been a bit of a while since i’ve been here as well, now the title of this post might be a little weird to most of you, but it’s based around some dreams I had and these dreams are a little hard to not only explain, but to look towards the meaning of as well, believe me I tried to looking them up, but I could never figure out how to word them so what’s the next best thing!?

I write about them!! I won’t go into the fullness of the dream, mainly because I don’t quite remember everything from it, but for the parts I do remember, i’m going to try and share them in the best way that I can. We’ll start with the portal part of the title, it’s a little weird so we’ll get that out the way first…..part of me thinks that it came off of inspiration from a show that i’ve gotten into, that show being Once Upon A Time!! In case some of you know the show and haven’t gotten around to watch it, I will not spoil, there will be non of that here…for those that don’t know about it, the show is based off fairytale stories turned into Disney movies,

with a good amount of twists added, along with a few tales from nursery rhymes as well! It’s a pretty good show, on the second season of it now, but that aside….I feel my dream, that part of the dream, came from the show….I guess there’s small spoilers, a portal is involved at least in the last episode that I watched, but that’s all I will say, in case some of you are interested in checking it out! I’m not sure why I had a dream where a portal was in it, but who said dreams were easy to figure out!? In the dream the portal was made of water and it was like there was a hole within the ground, but at an angle it was the weirdest thing!!

In this part of the dream I was going into this portal I guess to get someone….but what was odd with this portal is that it didn’t really take long to get to wherever I was going, it was literally like a step in, kinda like a door, you go in and there you are, also this portal was outside within nature, now in this moment i’ve gone into this water portal and it’s lend me to a new part of the dream and this part of the dream, I see a gate and on the other side of the gate was a man and a little boy, the person I was with trying for us to not be seen just yet, at least that’s the feeling I get from this dream, we’re not in a place out of the ordinary, we’re actually in like a park area or I guess you can say more like an open field park type area with a wooden treehouse near ones that you build it was like a balcony…

I also feel there was a lake on the other side, further away, overhead, I was also talking to somebody and then out of nowhere a dog shows up, a big brown dog barking with it’s paw on the wooden railing like part of this treehouse and his leg paws standing, this dog later jumped off it, it wasn’t all that high don’t worry then it came towards me and the person still barking, but I felt calm with it, it never attacked us though it just barked and then out of nowhere this older guy shows up, trying to get the dog to bark more as if he wanted the dog to do something, after a while awhile the dog came closer me and I gave it a pet and then it was calm and for some reason the guy looked a bit upset about that, it was weird…..but that’s that part of my dream

The other part which won’t be as long comes more from different things and is more feeling based than anything, I saw myself painting like first person, so here’s the painting, I see the painting, kind of thing…and it was like the closer I got to painting more i’d get this feeling of where things started to make sense, like when you’re actually getting something and this isn’t the first time it’s happened, i’ve been having these kind of dreams where this feeling has been coming quite often lately to me, i’ve also had this happen with me playing one of my favorite games within my dreams, as i’m planning what I have in mind to do with it in my dream,

That feeling of “i’m getting it” comes back, I don’t know how to explain it other than everything feels like it’s piecing together and connecting in the way it’s supposed to and that is what I mean with the other part of the title, i’m not really sure why, but i’ve been having these feelings and weird dreams for some time now and I find myself trying to understand it, by going back into those dreams and seeing what else I can see to help me get it better, but maybe it’s for a reason that I shouldn’t question and that will soon later make sense!!

P.S. I also got to have a conversation with one of my favorite musicians, which was awesome….I just wish I could remember these conversation, that I have with the people I talked to in these weird dreams, it might help a bit….

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

The Different Feelings To Music…….

You ever hear a song and just feel that it fits perfectly with what you expect it to feel like!? It might sound a little confusing to what i’m getting at so i’ll try and explain it in the best way possible……I don’t know if it’s just me, but anytime I hear a certain song and say it’s titled “Sounds of the Evening” just to give an example to what i’m talking about, now when you look at that title, tell me, what to you would an evening sound like if it was somehow turned into music!? Would it be something peaceful and quiet like, maybe there’s a little bit going on, but not too much going on if that makes sense!?

What kind of scenery would you add and if you had to pick an instrument or some kind of sound say being processed to showcase what an evening sounds like to you if it was turned into music what would you pick!? Sometimes when we listen to music it can have this specific way of sounding to where it almost always fits a theme of some sort…..so say you’re having a nice chilled morning, there’s certain songs that can fit well with the kind of morning you’re having, if you’re going for a bit of a walk even,

You’ll find that there’s something to listen to, that’ll go along well with that movement, it’s actually odd cause for me I find that music helps me to take everything in a little better than say if I was walking without music, I actually find that weird…..I can sit without sound, but when it comes to going on a walk, I need to have music playing otherwise it’s going to feel odd and maybe some of you also feel that and maybe some are fine either way, I know everyone’s different…….but I love when i’m listening to something and can feel what the song is and I mean not just lyrics,

but the music itself, it’s even more amazing when there’s no lyrics to it and it’s just the sound to the music, because you then are able to form an imagery to the sound where it just takes you to a place with all these different things……but sometimes, it’s like that when you’re just hearing a song that has words added to it, they say when you close your eyes,

You tend to feel things a lot more deeper than if you were just hearing it or seeing it even and with music you find that it just takes you on this journey when you listen with feeling and that can just make everything so much more beautiful, it’s like how a painting would feel to a painter or just any other admiration that you may have a connection towards, but to be able to listen to a song and truly appreciate these little aspects that it both brings and has to it, is probably one of my favorite things about music!!