It’s Definitely Winter!

OH MY GOODNESS is it freezing out and we still got a few more days as this WHOLE week is meant to be super cold! You know I really don’t know how people who live in places that are always majority of the time cold do it, although I prefer to be cold then hot….I wouldn’t live in a place that’s always freezing, just like I wouldn’t live in a place that’s always hot! I need to be in a place that has both the balance of cold and hot, but not to the extreme, just a nice warm place that has the mix of both Spring time weather and Fall time weather!

Those are probably the only two seasons that I could live in with no problem….I guess if I were to say what the best thing about Winter is, it would have to be that fact that you get to warm up with it, you know have a nice warm beverage, pull the covers over you that kind of thing…..but if I were to go based off seasonal things I enjoy about Winter…..I’d say getting to see the snow, I mean I’m sure we all like watching it fall down the first few times we see it, it’s the aftermath of it being a pain to shovel that most people don’t like, but you can always have a snowball fight it which is fun!

I also like the fact that you’re able to just chill and relax with the Winter season you don’t have to do a lot, I guess just the thought of having to go somewhere in the cold is what isn’t the most favorite thing about it, but I always enjoy getting to wear winter clothes to keep warm, I like being warm so anything that allows me to do that I’ll always count as a bonus, I know that there’s some good things to Winter as well, it’s just whenever the temperature decides to drop and you’re feeling that very cold air, yeah that’s when you wish for the warm weather to start coming around, but I will admit that it’s got it’s perks too so can’t really complain, I’ll just always have mixed feelings with the Winter season, but I will continue to do my best to appreciate the good parts of it just as much!

I know this ones a bit a short one, but hopefully it was still good in it’s own way! Take care, stay safe and keep warm cause it’s only going to get colder outside so be sure to bundle up real nice!

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

11:11….This Is Where You Make A Wish

Good Afternoon…..Happy Thursday or as Isabelle from Animal Crossing would say Friday’s Eve which is a bit true if you really think about it…..I mean every time Thursday rolls around you know it’s time to celebrate because that’s when you know you’re close to the weekend time! I hope that everyone’s week has been going alright….I must say this week has gone by pretty quickly don’t you think, I mean the fact that we’ve already arrived at Thursday and we’re almost at Saturday is a bit mad, but it’s also good too so I won’t complain about it!

Now I know what you’re probably thinking….what is this title of a post!? Well if you don’t already know today is November 11th, that might not seem like a very important thing and for some it might not be, as far as you’re concerned it’s just a month and a day, but the fact that we’ve come to the 11th month on the 11th day, is very big actually, it’s a bit hard to explain it, but if you know anything about it then you’ll understand what I mean here. If you don’t quite get what the importance is with 11:11 then I’m probably going to sound crazy…..but to put it in few words in the best way that I can explain it….11:11 is the number of being aligned, so if ever you are to see this number it means that you are exactly where you’re supposed to be in this moment, at least that’s part of it anyway, this number can mean a lot of different things!

Believe it or not it’s not only 11:11 that is important, although it’s what most people know of to be of importance the most, but every number is important! If you’re constantly seeing the same number all of the time however, be it a favorite number, your birthday or just a random number that you find follows you everywhere you go, you might want to look into that number, there could be a message in them for that you need to know! Every number has it’s own special thing to it, but it’s when a single number is tripled or you see it as a 4 digit, maybe 5 digit number to where it can become even more powerful!

So for example say you see the number 555 or 444 and it’s not just once that you see it, maybe you notice you’re seeing it twice in one day or every time you are out for a walk….if you’re constantly seeing these triple digit numbers, take a really good look at them….especially if ever you find yourself wondering about them and why you’re always seeing them so much! You might at times come across numbers like 2222, 3333 and are wondering what exactly they mean….just know you might want to add it to your “definitely need to look into that” list, when you start seeing 4 digits instead of 3 it means you’re meant to pay close attention!

When these numbers appear constantly they’re inviting you to research the message they have for you, so that you can understand what it is they want you to know! It probably doesn’t make much sense I know, it’s okay if this sound like a weird language, but there is something to them, if you choose to look into them! So if you ever feel yourself becoming just a little curious to why you’re always seeing the same number over and over again, it’s probably because there’s a message for you that is important for you to know! Numbers are a bit weird and they can seem quite complicated, but they can be pretty helpful in knowing things that may be going on in your life that you may not be aware of!

It’s kind of like getting a message in a bottle every day or anytime you need to know something that you may have missed, it keeps you in the know and allows you to stop and really think about certain things! It can also be a good way to know if you’re on the right track! What I mean by that is say you have an idea, but you aren’t really sure if you should go forth with it or you just need a bit of encouragement…..it could also just be maybe you’re wanting a confirmation on something that may come out to be exactly what you had in mind originally, things like that it’s the best way I can explain it at least….

There’s many ways though to find out if you’re on the right track of something, but numbers are one of the best ways of knowing more, without knowing more if that makes sense!? That way you get to understand better and really know what something is, be it a thought, emotion, a random idea, whatever it is you’re needing or may need help with!

Back to 11:11 though…..there’s more to this number then what I’ve explained, but if you want to keep it simple and you believe in what most people call superstitions, if you haven’t already…..make a wish later on tonight at 11:11pm and when you do take a deep breath with your eyes close and think of something that you would like to happen or would want and wish for it! Let the universe know what it is you have in your heart that you would like to share and if you don’t have anything specific in mind you can always just choose to have something continue that is very important to you and show that you appreciate and are grateful for those things!

You don’t have to feel like you need to say a lot, you could just say thank you to what you already have and just for the moment that you’re in and if you want you could even use that wish for someone else to have, it’s whatever you feel and how you choose to use that wish, I hope that you all choose well, take care, stay safe and have a good rest of the day!

Update

Here’s my latest podcast episode, I actually recorded it a little bit earlier during the late evening, I’m not going to lie it’s a bit of a weird one, also it’s got a bit of this post in it, but it’s not all the same, if you’re interested check it out! There’s a glitch again…so if you see episode 45 instead of 46 you know why…..I’ll give it a day to fix itself until then…..you can listen to the episode here: It’s November 11th….and I’ve Got A Few Things To Say With It Ep. 46

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

The 1st Of November….(Short Post)

Good Evening! Hope everyone has been doing alright, hard to believe that we’re already in the month of November, I hope those who celebrated Halloween enjoyed themselves yesterday and got a good amount of candy at that! I’m not really sure how to describe the start of the month, I guess you can say it’s been….all over the place, it’s hasn’t quite gotten it’s feet on the ground entirely just yet, but you can tell it’s trying despite the stress and non stress…it’s just been pretty weird is what I mean, however it did just start sooo….it’s a little too soon to talk fully about it!

It might be a lot different for you guys though, maybe some of you are trying to sort out things and get yourself going in a way, some might be doing a bit of self reflection, maybe November has got you in all sort of ways, it’s got me feeling different things that’s for sure….that being said, again November just started, we still got time to turn it around somehow! I thought I at least had an idea to what November was going to be like, but now I’m having to sit and think of what I want it to be like, although that was probably going to be something I thought about anyway regardless, with every new month, you tend to think about what could come from it!

November is no exception to that, I have to think up some new ideas that I would like to bring for this month, with October I tried to stick with the themes I had for it, but I will admit that I didn’t really do everything I had in mind for it, so with November I’m hoping that I can come up with new things and see what they turn into, all while trying to keep my cool in all of it as well! I guess I just need to feel out this month and see what works with it….try and find a good footing to it!

Yeah, I don’t really know what else to say….so I guess this post is meant to be a short one for now, I hope that you all have had a good start to November and that it continues to be all that you hoped for and some that is still yet to be unknown and unexpected, but good as well!

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Let’s Talk: Monster House (Thoughts)

Good Afternoon! I hope you guys are having a good start to your week, it’s another Manic Monday as The Bangles would say, if you know that song then you’re a cool person and you were either born in the era that it came out or you’re just someone that has good taste in music, I wasn’t born in the era that this song released, I just listen to a lot of old music and music in general, but it’s good a song if you haven’t heard it!

So let’s get to talking about some movies, shall we!? As you all probably know Halloween is this upcoming weekend like we’re literally at the end of the month, can someone say “what the heck!?” because I want to….in all fairness this month has felt like a whole chore to get through, I don’t know if that’s just how I feel it to be, but it’s been on hell of a month and the fact that it’s just coming to an end is saying so much…..then again it might’ve been a different experience for anyone reading this right now so It’s probably just me at this point that has felt that! Also I might’ve said this a few times before, but I have been trying to keep with a theme for this month which is having anything I write be Halloween based, not including personal thoughts I want of share of course, but in a sense of movies, music, you know things like that!

However not everything I choose to talk about will be definite Halloween, but certain things that remind me of it, if that makes sense!? Today’s movie choice that I would like to give my thoughts on is the 2006 movie that really should have been released during this time or at least around the fall season, I mean it literally screams I WAS INTENDED TO BE A HALLOWEEN MOVIE, BUT I’M TECHNICALLY NOT A HALLOWEEN MOVIE! Something along those lines, if you couldn’t already tell from the title, we’re going to be talking about Monster House…..now to be fair, I have not watched this movie in quite some time, last time I revisited this one was about…maybe 3 years ago!? After that I haven’t really seen the movie….but it’s one of the movies that whenever this season rolls around I think about it!

Don’t ask me why, but it comes to my mind…..how many people remember this movie, I’m curious to know because I don’t feel like a lot of people talk about this one enough, nor do they even consider it as a Halloween movie at that, I mean if you really look at it, this movie did came out in the Summer….not kidding, July 21st to be exact, why!? I wish I knew, I mean it would have made a good start of the fall season movie, even if it wasn’t necessarily for October, September would have been fine for this movie to come out, but no they said July is a good month for this Halloween movie to release!

I will never understand how there’s some movies that literally tell you it’s for a specific theme, but come out on very odd months!? I thought I’d set the record straight and put this one where it’s meant to be and that’s with all the other Halloween non Halloween movie section! Let’s get into Monster House though, because it at least deserves that much…..again I’ve not watched this movie for a few years now, but I do remember always enjoy it when I would watch it! The art style of it is a bit weird yes, but that’s the whole aesthetic of it, it’s supposed to me weird! The movie from what I can remember was pretty darn creepy, not going to lie! Seriously imagine being eaten by your own house….

Scratch that your creepy neighbors house at that! Like your just minding your own business taking a walk and next thing you know you’ve been swallowed by your neighbors house, that happens to be haunted by his late wife who wasn’t really treated nicely when she was living! The only person to really care about her was her husband and when she passed….her spirit took over the house and she’d go after anyone that tried going near it! Hence why Mr. Nebbercracker (I think that was his name anyway) always screamed at kids and anyone not to go near his lawn, everyone thought he was a mean old grumpy face of an old man, but really was just trying to keep everyone from getting eaten by his house of a wife!

Plus he never really had anyone going out there way to really get to know him, but then again he never let anyone in anyway, because he was afraid and due to everyone constantly torturing him and his home so there’s that! It took 3 kids to be curious to why Nebbercracker doesn’t let anyone near his house to become curious and explore it anyway after being told not to go near it…..but you know kids, they do it anyway! You know what they say curiosity killed that cat, I’m not really sure why people say that, I mean that doesn’t always happen!? Who came up with that anyway?

Anyway….I can’t really go into full detail of the movie, although I do feel like I can remember the movie a good amount, but Monster House was quite the spooky movie, but I feel it’s both underrated and a really good movie as well, if these 3 kids didn’t allow their curiosity to wander, they would’ve never learned about Nebbercracker’s backstory and helped him get out of his own home that he felt trapped in and released all that fear he was holding himself in, I feel like this movie had a very interesting story to it and that the message that they tried to have come across was good as well!

It’s just a shame that not many people talk about it anymore or at least as much because I feel it to be a hidden gem of a movie, had it been released during the fall or around the Halloween season, I think it would’ve gotten more recognition, but I’m sure there’s some people out there that remember it and either really like it, didn’t like it or maybe they just thought it was okay! Everyone’s got different views which is fine, I personally really enjoy this movie, even though I haven’t watched it in quite some time, but that being said it’s always one that crosses my mind during this season because I just don’t understand why it wouldn’t, I guess everyone’s different!

P.S. This was written yesterday, but I ended up finishing today!

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Wake Me Up When Sept….Oh We’re Here!?

Good Morning Everybody! Hope that you all are having a good Thursday so far!? It seems we’ve arrived toward the end of September and yes I checked there is no September 31st…..it always leaves my mind that not every month as a 31st to it…..except for February, I know that month has no 30th, 31st, it barely even has a 29th unless it’s a leap year, still I do forget that not every month (not including February) just doesn’t have a 31st, anyway moving on…..

I’m a little surprised that we’re already finish with this month and that October has very much arrived, we’re did September go!? I don’t know, but hey we knew it wouldn’t be long until it headed off from it’s time being here! If you or I were to ask….how do you think September went!? It’s a bit of a hard call to say exactly, September had a lot of interesting moments to it, as for the other parts of September…..I honestly wouldn’t be able to tell you, the only thing I’d be able to say is I know that there were a lot of special and important events within this month, but September pretty much flew by!

I wouldn’t say that September was a bad month, because it wasn’t…..just like with each month it’s had it’s moments, but it was okay, it wasn’t too bad of a month, at least I don’t think it was, I’m sure it’s probably different for a lot of you, maybe it was a great month for you or maybe September wasn’t your favorite month to explore, I understand that it’s different for everyone and that’s okay! I just hope that however this month went for everyone that you got something good out of it as well, even if it was the best month or not so great! I hope that you discovered something new and exciting, hopefully you learned something interesting that you may not have known before…..I just hope that you did okay!

One thing I will say with the start of the month is how hot it was getting into September, I would always question if it were still Summer and why were even in September, you would’ve thought the moment it got to September 1st that it was going to feel like the month we were in…..not at all….it took for us to get to the middle and end of the month for it to start getting very chilly, you know how it should’ve went, but hey at least you feel it now so that’s good, it’s not as hot as before and now we can really start getting out our sweaters, cardigans, boots all the good fall attire we own!

Any reflections with September I have, I might just do a podcast episode on, but it’s probably going to be a short one, overall September leaves me wondering just how this month went and it’s the only month so far that has me feeling like I need to think on it for a second or more than a second, but I’m going to try my hand at reflecting with it! Get ready everyone as we get into a whole new month that is October, it’s the month that everyone likes to call the Spooky month as they’re bring out all their Halloween decorations and just enjoying themselves and if there’s some that don’t like to decorate for October, they’re still enjoying the Spoopy holiday, by watching 31 Nights Of Halloween on Freeform!

(F.K.A. The ABC Family Network, yes that’s what Freeform was called before, I haven’t forgotten those days)

One last thing I want to say with September…..Thank you, for all that you have brought with you and shared, thank you for the bad moments and good moments, I hope that you have a nice safe journey wherever you are headed, see you next year September…..as for October, we’ll see you tomorrow!

Update:

I was going to try and see if I could write another post before we officially get into October, but nothing is coming to mind sooo I shall add this now…..here’s my latest podcast episode if you would like to check it out!

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Happy First Day Of Autumn!!

If you haven’t already noticed, We have said farewell to Summer and have welcomed the Autumn season, So far it’s been what you would expect the fall weather to be like, it wasn’t too hot today, I saw a few leaves falling earlier and the air has come down in temperature a bit which is good, the past few days, well weeks shall I say, has been pretty darn hot, so now that we’ve entered the fall season, at least we can say the air will become a lot more cooler!

We might still get a bit of hot weather, even though it’s officially fall now, but I say give it another week or two and you’ll see just how cool the air starts to get, then again I can be wrong and we’ll be feeling heat for a bit longer mixed in with cool weather as well, which of course we all love *Sarcastically speaking* in all seriousness though, I love the fall season, I’ve probably mentioned that so many times on here before, I don’t know what it is exactly, but there’s just something about this season that gets me so happy!

I just love the feel of it, I enjoy seeing the way the leaves on the trees change from green to red’s, yellows, orange and browns! My favorite is when they dry up, this may sound a bit weird, but I love making little bouquets with the leaves, I have a big square vase with a lot of dried up leaves in it that I’ve collected and sorted together, it’s like having a vase full of flowers, but with leaves instead, I love it!

Another thing I love about Autumn is being able to wear fall clothing, like sweaters, cardigans and boots, I don’t know why, but fall clothing has got to be one of my favorite attires to wear, I love wearing short sleeves in the Spring which is my other favorite season, but there’s just something about being in a sweater and wearing a cardigan that just feels right…..I guess it’s because they give you that cozy feeling and who doesn’t love that!?

I wish I could say more about the fall season, but I guess we can just keep it short for today, plus I feel like today is not a day for a long post anyway, I’ve been trying to write all day and I did write something, but for some reason I’ve been having trouble explaining what it is I was trying to write so it’s not really finish, I’ll try and see if I can explain it better within a few days, it might end up being a podcast episode instead of a post who knows, it’s just been a very productive non productive day and very interesting as well!

Hope you all have been having a good Wednesday and enjoyed the beginning of Autumn, although short and sweet is nice, sorry if this one was a little too short!

P.S.

Seeing that I forgot to post this, here’s my latest podcast episode:

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Transitions With Rain….

Good Morning and Happy September 1st! Hope that you all are having a good one so far, it’s a bit mad that August is now over, which means that we’re getting closer and closer towards the cooler and colder days so say farewell to the short sleeves, capris/shorts and beach days, unless you’re planning to go somewhere where it’s summer year round or your moving to a more hotter environment if you are then you can just keep all your summer clothes out and say hi to summery weather again pretty soon! I’ll never understand how people can live in very hot places, I was in PR for a week and a few days back in July and oh my gosh, I could not handle the heat every single day, I was done with it by Day 3 of being there, I wouldn’t be able to live in a place that’s hot all the time, so it always mind boggles me how some people genuinely talk about how their going to move to places like PR or Florida!

Ask me that and I’m like no thanks, I never wanted to live in hot places, I really don’t like Summer that much, some days are fine, but after a while I’m hoping for Fall or Spring to roll around, I love Spring and Autumn, because with Spring it’s not too hot and you can enjoy the weather without it being too much, it’s always breezy during that season and with Autumn…..it’s always just cool, not too cold, you can wear cardigans, boots, sweaters, both Spring and Fall have the right amount of warm and cool and you can’t go wrong with that, might be just me that thinks that, but it’s true!

I probably already spoke about this a few times, but when I was younger I always wanted to go to the UK and visit, not only that, but I always pictured myself living there as well, I don’t know why!? I just always felt a connection with it and so it was always on my Wishlist to go over there and see what it’s like, I still feel that and still hope to go there, plus I always thought that it had pretty good weather, like over there is always just cool weather and that! I know it tends to rain over there a good amount, although I did learn recently that it’s not all of the UK where it rains! I guess we just assume that it’s always raining overseas because it’s what we hear….like I used to think that it always rained in London,

but noo, in England it doesn’t rain as much as people think, it’s actually just in Scotland that it rains mostly and if I remember correctly that’s because they’re closer to the mountains compared to other places within the United Kingdom, it’s quite an interesting thing to learn! England’s weather is similar to our weather though, which is cool, it’s nice knowing that it’s both the same and different at the same time! Don’t really know why I’m taking about the weather over in the UK, I guess it was in my mind and so I thought I’d let it out!

Let’s talk about September that was the whole point of this post anyway right!? It’s a weird start with a September for me anyway, although now that I’m thinking about it, I kind of have been feeling like that with these past few months lately, them being weird and all, not sure why, but today specifically started off weird, I woke up feeling fine and then emotions started coming to me and fear crept up on me, right when I was about to record a new podcast episode, I have no idea why it happened, but I did push through after I gave myself a bit, but it was just very weird, I recorded the episode and even talked a bit about what I was feeling and other things, I’m debating on whether or not to post it, but I feel seeing that I’ve got and mentioned it in this post that I might as well go through with sharing it!

I feel like September is going to be another odd month, but I also believe that it will hold something good and unexpected and that we shouldn’t give up on it too quickly, I mean it just started so it’s best to keep our heads up and look for the good that it has in store or at least expect what is coming without expecting it if that makes sense!? Pretty much just keep a look out for it, but still try and keep yourself productive and slightly busy and whenever it arrives you’ll be both happy and a little surprised as well, sometimes that’s the best experience!

Update:

Here’s my new podcast episode, it’s got a mixture of both August and September thoughts as well as some other things!

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Colors Of September….

It’s now both the beginning of a new season and the ending of a month, which is September……I feel like this month went by quite quickly yet at the same time I remember when it first arrived, goodness……I feel like I don’t have a lot of words today…..at least with writing a post, on a brighter note, one of the best things with this month is the different colors of the leaves

I just think they’re really pretty and sometimes you come across unique ones or at least some that catch your eye……i’m not really sure how to feel knowing that we’re literally on the last day of this month, I was thinking of that when I went outside for some fresh air earlier this morning, normally I feel like the other months were taking their time, but this month i’m not sure, I mean it arrived and now it’s going……I guess this month has always been like that, but maybe i’m just noticing it!? Maybe it’s just me.

September……to describe it I can’t, I just know it’s the month that brings us the colors that the trees soon take on as well as a whole new season that’s been a little indecisive on what kind of weather it wants to be, sometimes it’s hot, sometimes rainy and stormy leaving wondering how you oughta dress for it…….I think fall in general may just be that way……but yeah….

September was here and now we’ll be welcoming the month known as October a.k.a. the “Spoopy” month, I know it’s Spooky, but some people call it that and I like it, not sure if it’s spelled the way I have it, but still I like it!! Just so you know, i’ve never really been a fan of the Halloween month, so with October literally arriving later tonight……i’m not sure what it’s going to be like, it might just be how it normally is, but also different I feel just based on the way the year has gone, we’ll have to wait and see on that won’t we!?

Let’s just hope it all turns out okay…..

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

In The Tune Of Fall….

Hiya i’m sure you all have noticed, but in case this weather is giving you some mixed feelings, we’ve now entered a new month and we’ll soon be entering a new season as well, it’s a little crazy that we’re already in the month of September it feels like for a while we were in the Summer months for quite some time, but once August came around things started speeding up just a little bit, however just like all the other months we’re having to say see you the next time around and get used to the colder months now.

Now I gotta say, i’m kinda a little happy that we’re getting into the more colder part of the months, mainly with the fall, not so much winter, although I may have been born in the Springtime, I do really enjoy the months of Autumn, I can’t really tell you why, but fall has always been my second favorite season, I just really love the look and feel of it, you know!?

Spring is great too, I mean that’s the season I was born in so I have to make sure to give it some kinda of love, but there’s just something about fall that I can’t quite explain, maybe it’s the way the leaves change color or just the aura of it, if seasons have aura’s that is, who knows really, for all I know I could just be talking nonsense, but nonetheless it’s still great!!

Summer however was…..well I guess you can say that it had its moments, I won’t say it was the best summer, but I won’t go putting it down either, to be fair, i’ve never really been all that into the summer, so there’s not really much to say when it comes to it, summer and I…..we’ll just have to always agree to disagree, it’s not that it’s a bad season, just not mine……

Fall on the other hand, love it!! I can’t tell you what exactly i’m expecting to happen with it, so I guess i’ll just have to do my best to embrace it as best as I can with whatever it chooses to bring along…..if I had to describe what fall is like…..i’d say it’s both deep thinking and curious, but it also give you that sense of something that you just can’t quite grasp if that makes sense, you can take on that what you will, hopefully whatever you feel fall to be for you is something that is good and worth to be the season that it is…..

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Everything Changes Eventually (Nov 23, 2018)

Evening Pages (Nov 23, 2018): If it wasn’t so cold outside i’d be writing this in the backyard, instead i’m writing this in my room with the window open a bit, listening to everything that’s going on outside. I did go outside though, only for a bit of course, I walked around a bit in the backyard, holding my journal and pencil close to me……as I was back there, I couldn’t help, but look at everything, I looked at the grass, the trees, I looked at the birds that flew by, just everything. As I looked around, I thought about how everything eventually changes, the seasons are a clear example of that, we all know Winter doesn’t stay long, same goes for Autumn, Spring and Summer, eventually those seasons come to pass after they’ve welcome their stay. The seasons know they can’t stay for long, which is why when their time comes to move on, they don’t, well sometimes they tend to stay longer then they should and sometimes they’ll even switch in between each other, just so they don’t have to leave so soon, at least that’s how I like to see it. (End of Journal Entry) 

This was a small entry from my writing journal, that I wrote yesterday……there was more to it, but I just wanted to write that part here and see if I could explain something different on this post. I talked about observing things in my last post and it seems as though I find myself doing that a lot, as well as reflecting on everything. While I was outside in my backyard, I was thinking on how I remember being back there and it being summer and the way I was during that time, I was a complete mess those days………i’d go back and although I wouldn’t dare admit this on any other day, I would go back there to mainly reflect and think, but whenever I’d do that, I would find myself crying a lot of the time back there too……..it wasn’t because I wanted to, but anytime I felt I needed to let my emotions out, that’s where i’d go, not a lot of people know that, so for those reading this you guys are the first to know.

I was really stressed out most of the summer and still kinda stress now, although I try and keep myself calm when I feel myself stressing nowadays, it’s not always easy though. You might want to know the reasons why I was or why I would cry to myself a lot of the time, if I sat here and told you why we’d be here all day, because there was a lot of reasons to it, one of the main reasons though was, well I was stressed for one and also because I would constantly worry about everything, whether I was doing okay, how everything was gonna go…….everything, I still worry about those things now, but I try my best to minimize how much I worry. In those days though, I think the best thing to come from all of that, was that I had my blog and my journals to write in when I needed something and although it took me a while, writing everything out I was feeling in the best way that I could, really helped.

It’s crazy how everything can just go from one thing and then be something completely different the next time you encounter it………It’s like when you really look at things from a different perspective and everything, you tend to find out different things then what you already know and in those things that you know, you find that it doesn’t matter what you do, some things are bound to change and no amount of trying to fix it is gonna work………but even then, it’s all about trying your best and doing your best to keep going, no matter the pain, stress, worry, uncertainty, all of it…….you just gotta keep going, even on those days where you aren’t sure whether you want to or not, just keep going. No matter what kind of changes take place, just try and go with it as best as you can, even if they aren’t the ideal changes that you wanted………..eventually things change and it’s just something we have to accept.   

My quote of the day:  You know I always loved Autumn, there’s just somethings about it, maybe it’s all the colorful leaves that lay on the ground or it could be the way the trees go from being brightly orange with a mix of red and yellow leaves attached………to nothing at all. It’s also the feel of it too.

All The Love ❤ ❤ 

~Lexa~

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