Colors Of September….

It’s now both the beginning of a new season and the ending of a month, which is September……I feel like this month went by quite quickly yet at the same time I remember when it first arrived, goodness……I feel like I don’t have a lot of words today…..at least with writing a post, on a brighter note, one of the best things with this month is the different colors of the leaves

I just think they’re really pretty and sometimes you come across unique ones or at least some that catch your eye……i’m not really sure how to feel knowing that we’re literally on the last day of this month, I was thinking of that when I went outside for some fresh air earlier this morning, normally I feel like the other months were taking their time, but this month i’m not sure, I mean it arrived and now it’s going……I guess this month has always been like that, but maybe i’m just noticing it!? Maybe it’s just me.

September……to describe it I can’t, I just know it’s the month that brings us the colors that the trees soon take on as well as a whole new season that’s been a little indecisive on what kind of weather it wants to be, sometimes it’s hot, sometimes rainy and stormy leaving wondering how you oughta dress for it…….I think fall in general may just be that way……but yeah….

September was here and now we’ll be welcoming the month known as October a.k.a. the “Spoopy” month, I know it’s Spooky, but some people call it that and I like it, not sure if it’s spelled the way I have it, but still I like it!! Just so you know, i’ve never really been a fan of the Halloween month, so with October literally arriving later tonight……i’m not sure what it’s going to be like, it might just be how it normally is, but also different I feel just based on the way the year has gone, we’ll have to wait and see on that won’t we!?

Let’s just hope it all turns out okay…..

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

In The Tune Of Fall….

Hiya i’m sure you all have noticed, but in case this weather is giving you some mixed feelings, we’ve now entered a new month and we’ll soon be entering a new season as well, it’s a little crazy that we’re already in the month of September it feels like for a while we were in the Summer months for quite some time, but once August came around things started speeding up just a little bit, however just like all the other months we’re having to say see you the next time around and get used to the colder months now.

Now I gotta say, i’m kinda a little happy that we’re getting into the more colder part of the months, mainly with the fall, not so much winter, although I may have been born in the Springtime, I do really enjoy the months of Autumn, I can’t really tell you why, but fall has always been my second favorite season, I just really love the look and feel of it, you know!?

Spring is great too, I mean that’s the season I was born in so I have to make sure to give it some kinda of love, but there’s just something about fall that I can’t quite explain, maybe it’s the way the leaves change color or just the aura of it, if seasons have aura’s that is, who knows really, for all I know I could just be talking nonsense, but nonetheless it’s still great!!

Summer however was…..well I guess you can say that it had its moments, I won’t say it was the best summer, but I won’t go putting it down either, to be fair, i’ve never really been all that into the summer, so there’s not really much to say when it comes to it, summer and I…..we’ll just have to always agree to disagree, it’s not that it’s a bad season, just not mine……

Fall on the other hand, love it!! I can’t tell you what exactly i’m expecting to happen with it, so I guess i’ll just have to do my best to embrace it as best as I can with whatever it chooses to bring along…..if I had to describe what fall is like…..i’d say it’s both deep thinking and curious, but it also give you that sense of something that you just can’t quite grasp if that makes sense, you can take on that what you will, hopefully whatever you feel fall to be for you is something that is good and worth to be the season that it is…..

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Everything Changes Eventually (Nov 23, 2018)

Evening Pages (Nov 23, 2018): If it wasn’t so cold outside i’d be writing this in the backyard, instead i’m writing this in my room with the window open a bit, listening to everything that’s going on outside. I did go outside though, only for a bit of course, I walked around a bit in the backyard, holding my journal and pencil close to me……as I was back there, I couldn’t help, but look at everything, I looked at the grass, the trees, I looked at the birds that flew by, just everything. As I looked around, I thought about how everything eventually changes, the seasons are a clear example of that, we all know Winter doesn’t stay long, same goes for Autumn, Spring and Summer, eventually those seasons come to pass after they’ve welcome their stay. The seasons know they can’t stay for long, which is why when their time comes to move on, they don’t, well sometimes they tend to stay longer then they should and sometimes they’ll even switch in between each other, just so they don’t have to leave so soon, at least that’s how I like to see it. (End of Journal Entry) 

This was a small entry from my writing journal, that I wrote yesterday……there was more to it, but I just wanted to write that part here and see if I could explain something different on this post. I talked about observing things in my last post and it seems as though I find myself doing that a lot, as well as reflecting on everything. While I was outside in my backyard, I was thinking on how I remember being back there and it being summer and the way I was during that time, I was a complete mess those days………i’d go back and although I wouldn’t dare admit this on any other day, I would go back there to mainly reflect and think, but whenever I’d do that, I would find myself crying a lot of the time back there too……..it wasn’t because I wanted to, but anytime I felt I needed to let my emotions out, that’s where i’d go, not a lot of people know that, so for those reading this you guys are the first to know.

I was really stressed out most of the summer and still kinda stress now, although I try and keep myself calm when I feel myself stressing nowadays, it’s not always easy though. You might want to know the reasons why I was or why I would cry to myself a lot of the time, if I sat here and told you why we’d be here all day, because there was a lot of reasons to it, one of the main reasons though was, well I was stressed for one and also because I would constantly worry about everything, whether I was doing okay, how everything was gonna go…….everything, I still worry about those things now, but I try my best to minimize how much I worry. In those days though, I think the best thing to come from all of that, was that I had my blog and my journals to write in when I needed something and although it took me a while, writing everything out I was feeling in the best way that I could, really helped.

It’s crazy how everything can just go from one thing and then be something completely different the next time you encounter it………It’s like when you really look at things from a different perspective and everything, you tend to find out different things then what you already know and in those things that you know, you find that it doesn’t matter what you do, some things are bound to change and no amount of trying to fix it is gonna work………but even then, it’s all about trying your best and doing your best to keep going, no matter the pain, stress, worry, uncertainty, all of it…….you just gotta keep going, even on those days where you aren’t sure whether you want to or not, just keep going. No matter what kind of changes take place, just try and go with it as best as you can, even if they aren’t the ideal changes that you wanted………..eventually things change and it’s just something we have to accept.   

My quote of the day:  You know I always loved Autumn, there’s just somethings about it, maybe it’s all the colorful leaves that lay on the ground or it could be the way the trees go from being brightly orange with a mix of red and yellow leaves attached………to nothing at all. It’s also the feel of it too.

All The Love ❤ ❤ 

~Lexa~

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