The Cycle Continues….(July 10, 2019)

“It’s a circle, I mean cycle” may not seem like the grandest lyrics, but it sure is one of the best lyrics written by the band Paramore, from their song Ignorance, it’s quite simple, yet still affective and one of my picks for the song of the day (if you haven’t heard the song, i’d say give it a listen, if you like that kind of music anyway)

Now i’m not sure if any of what i’m going to write is going to make sense, but let’s see how it all turns out, it might just do……I don’t really understand why some of us do this, why do most of us feel the need to put energy into something that isn’t going to benefit us in the long run!?

Seriously….I mean I get that there are just some things that are hard to ignore, but why bother going out of your way to let certain situations, things and even people affect you!? I could understand if the feeling of the affect is mutual, especially if the affect is coming from certain people, but if you find yourself being the only person getting fired up and agitated all the time, wouldn’t you just leave it alone after awhile!?

Why feed the beast, if you know the beast isn’t going to budge when you’re feeding it!?……I know this is probably a random example, but it came to mind so i’m going to use it, you know in the movie Napoleon Dynamite where he’s trying to feed Tina the Lama or Alpaca dinner (not really sure which one it was, might’ve been a Lama if correct, but I could be wrong)

In the movie he’s trying to feed her, but she’s not eating the food that he’s giving her and you can see, if you’ve watched the movie, how the more he tries to feed her and he sees she’s not eating, the more he ends up frustrated about it…….now i’ve watched that movie a couple times……it’s quite a classic actually, maybe not for everyone and that’s okay.

Thinking back at that scene though, if he noticed she wasn’t eating it right away, had he just maybe given her the food and left it for her to eat when she was actually hungry, it probably would’ve kept his frustration levels low…….what i’m trying to get at is, instead of getting angry or annoyed and letting your emotions run wild as well as continuing to have your stress levels on the roof all the time,

Try just leaving it……actually scratch that, leave it alone, keep it from affecting you so much to the point where it starts affecting everyone else around you, because you may think that your the only one that feels the way you’re feeling, but deep down whether we want to see it that way or not, deep down we know that our moods and the energy that we tend to bring out, affects everyone that is near……

However when it comes to people and certain situations that’s giving you more of a cloud over your head, it doesn’t necessarily mean that person or situation is going to put the same cloud over everyone else’s head, the only thing that will affect everyone is the kind of energy that is being put out…..so if your energy isn’t the greatest and sucks (sorry, yet not sorry) as well as your attitude, It’s going to scatter out on everyone else……

The same way rain falls from the sky and unless you enjoy gloomy days (I do at times, not always, I enjoy rain though) I would avoid or at least minimize and not bother as much on the things, situations or people that really doesn’t keep you on at least a good neutral scale.

If it’s affecting you more than it should and it’s taking you away from having some kind of peace of mind, stop going out of your way to feed it, stop worrying about it, just take the Beatles advice and “Let It Be”

It’s not worth your energy, time or sanity……if we can be good at avoiding calls and messages to some people, than we can manage to not put ourselves in harms way with things that drives us up the wall. We have the ability to tune people out, which by the way isn’t always ideal, because it’s important to listen to people when something is being said, even if we don’t want to hear it and we’ve all been there and done that many times…..

Overall, don’t worry about things that aren’t your things to worry about, especially when it involves only you with a sword, just focus and worry about you, as well as the things and people that keep you grounded.

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~

Acceptance Of The Old Or Of The New!? (July 6, 2019)

I’ll be honest, this title is stumping me a little on how i’m going to write about this, even though I titled it this way, there’s always something that is going to be a little of your comfort level, but sometimes you have to try even if you aren’t sure on how it’ll go or sound in this case.

Sometime we accept certain things that we shouldn’t and push away things that can be too much to take in because it evolves changing the things we are already used to, even if those things may be good for us in the long run.

In this case we talk on the topic of change and new beginnings for something better and different…….the word different is something a lot of us don’t like really like to embrace, because it secretly has the word change, hidden within it which makes us want to run and hide from it.

Not everyone likes change as we all know, even if it’s the good kind, we prefer comfort and not having to change anything around us, we see it as why change something when there’s nothing wrong with it!? However even though it may not look like it from the surface, doesn’t mean that there’s nothing wrong hidden deep down inside…….

The insane part about it is that most of the time we know that we’ve grown or are growing out of the comfort of what we know, yet we choose to stay and continue living in the mentally discomfort of our own ways and or bad habits and lifestyle we try to keep around, knowing that it’s harmful to the growth of ourselves and personality, but we accept it thinking that we need to, when in reality it’s not an obligation to do so……we forget that as human beings we’re meant to evolve and change every now and again.

Even if we have things to us that stay the same, it doesn’t mean we fully are the same person, we change a little everyday and our perspectives on things change as well just like everything else to us…..

We may not like it, but it’s something that we have to let happen otherwise, we’re just going to be miserable and that is nothing, but the truth, the more we hold back on something that is natural to our human nature, the more we’ll continue to regret and become unhappy and we all know that regret is the one thing that we don’t want eating us alive mentally, because even when you think you’ve gotten over something, you’ll find that you really haven’t, it’s always there hidden in your mind even if it doesn’t seem like it.

Accepting something because we think we have to or because we’re used to it, will only make us angry deep under the surface and the more we continue adding fuel to it, the more we’ll start to resent and break and when we start to break everything around us starts collapsing……

Worrying about how people will feel, the way everything will go or even about other peoples lives, only adds stress to the person worrying no one else, it might worry others (people you’re close to) but it won’t do as much damage to them then it will to you and that’s because you’re the one feeling it the most which is why you stress out more, when in reality the only thing that is needed for you to focus on, is yourself in regards to the kind of change you want for you and what you’re willing to accept in your life.

If you accept what is already given, not just with other people, but with yourself and the way things are going in your life depending on whether you’re okay with it or not will depend on the way it makes you feel, if you feel good about it than, there’s no need to worry, but if deep down you’re not willing to accept it than, that should say something clearly……

Although we surround ourselves with different people and different things, we are the ones that have to be satisfied with what we bring and allow in our lives otherwise who’s the happy one!? If it’s not us we’ve done things wrong, we shouldn’t allow nor accept something just because we’re used to it or we feel we have to, not from other people, not even from our scared self, acceptance of the old shouldn’t go clashing with things that are new…..

If anything the old and new should come together in some way, because they’re just as tied together as anything else, we don’t have to get rid of what we already have, but we don’t have to just accept it either, keep what you have, but try to embrace what you can have to,

Even if you are unsure of it, you don’t want to be stuck with a routine that is draining and unfulfilling, accepting where you are and what is expected will only drive you up the walls, instead of being afraid and anxious of a new and most likely better change, try being anxious, but excited for it!!

I mean let’s face it no one is ever calm with new things and if you are, well than I don’t know how that’s possible, but I guess it can happen…….but new things should always bring you a little excitement even when it’s terrifying, I mean if you’re not scared a little, do you even really care!? Be anxious and scared, but be excited a little too, because acceptance of the old should never keep you from accepting what is new…..

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~

Let’s Talk Video Games: Missed Messages (July 5, 2019)

The other day I was watching one of my favorite gaming channels Jacksepticeye (well I watch him quite a lot actually) you might remember me talking about him before or you might not, he’s quite the entertainer, his content is very interesting and he has a very unique and great personality!! He not only plays video games, but he also has original content that is a little more intimate, by that I mean not video game type videos,

but more the kind that make you laugh when you’re having a rough day and need something to pick you up. Some people like him and others tend to stay clear of him because of personality and how weird he is, but I don’t think he’s that bad, but everyone has their own view on things and that is perfectly fine, I still enjoy his content, but anyway……

Let’s talk about the game, I don’t really know how to introduce the game to, because it’s on the serious part of town…..the name of the game is called Missed Messages and it’s a pretty deep and interesting kind of game…..

It’s based around self harm and suicide, but has other things to it as well that is a little more lighthearted, although it is pretty sensitive, so if you don’t want to get into those topics that’s okay, the game does warn you with any possible triggers before playing the game, but for some who are interested in seeing what the game is like, I would say check it out,

I don’t really know how to describe the game, so i’m just going to let it speak for itself, so if you do watch it you’ll understand it a lot better, i’ll leave it in case you are curious to seeing how the gameplay is. It’s actually pretty nice from the looks of it, it’s one of those choice based games to see the different outcomes to the story, but with a deeper meaning to it of course…..

It has a pretty cool art style to it as well, when you first look at it, it’s pretty calming and chilled, but the more you get into the story, it does get pretty intense……but the reason I bring up this game, is the message that comes with it.

It shows you just how much you don’t know, when it comes to someone and what they’re thoughts are, they could seem fine, yet you wouldn’t know that deep down, that’s not exactly how their feeling, unless you really get to know them and just talk to them. People are so used to keeping things bottled in and because they’re so used to it, they have trouble asking for help or just opening up alone about things in general….

We’ve all been there, where if there’s something we’re struggling with or dealing with, we keep it to ourselves thinking we can handle it and adding our problems onto someone else, even though it shouldn’t be a worry or they may not have a problem with you coming to them,

You still think of it as being a burden in a way and so we chose to just keep to ourselves to avoid adding to their problems even if we are secretly needing a bit of comfort or reassurance.

It’s easy to have a simple conversation when it comes to things you might have in common with someone or something random and that……but when it has to do with a problem or something that is hard to talk about that’s when it becomes difficult and where people start to shut down and sometimes that’s dangerous if you’re not careful, in many different ways.

However it isn’t always dangerous, some people just prefer to be alone and stay to themselves, which is fine, there’s nothing wrong with that, but sometimes it’s good to see how people are from time to time, because you don’t always know what they’re dealing with and the kind of struggles they’re going through, even if you aren’t sure what to do,

Just showing them that you’re there if they need you and even sitting with them in silence would probably mean so much, sometimes not saying anything is better than trying to say something, most of the time all people really need is comfort and reassurance and just for someone to be there.

Final Thoughts: Just by watching the gameplay, it looks like a pretty great game to play or check out, I don’t really play games as often as I used to and when I did, it was mainly on my Xbox One or my 3Ds, sometimes my tablet too although I rarely play with it now…..but this game is something I think should be given a try and if you don’t want to play it, i’d say it’s worth checking out, there’s so much more to it than just the art style…….

You get a lot of realness and emotion from it as well, believe me it’s worth the time and understanding with the message that it’s trying to share with everyone, even Jack shares his thoughts on it, as well as knowing that kind of struggle that is talked about in the game, so if you’re willing, seriously check it out, I think you’ll find it very interesting and maybe even helpful too.

Here’s the game if you want to check it out: Missed Messages if it’s too much while you’re watching it remember you don’t have to continue, but if you do continue I hope you enjoy the story and gameplay of it!! If there’s anyone who is having a hard time and wants to talk, could be about anything, music, favorite tv shows or you need someone to just vent to a little, you’re more than welcome to here, i’ll be happy to be an ear for you.

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~

Write Like Yourself…. (July 4, 2019)

They say to write like yourself, but what does that even mean exactly!? How are you supposed to write like yourself!? It should be an easy thing to understand, yet when it comes to doing so, it feels hard, am I the only one that feels that way!?

Do you write about your feelings or your thoughts!? Most people might say experience, but what if you haven’t really experienced much in particular or aren’t sure on how to write about the things you’ve experienced!? What if you’ve always been the kind of person looking from the outside in with everything, not really knowing what to do or how to react, causing you to feel like expressing yourself is something you should keep to yourself…..

I don’t know if any of that makes much sense, but seriously how do you write like yourself, when you aren’t even sure if what you’re going to write about is something that’s going to make sense or will be understood properly!? It’s just a little confusing when you’re told to write like yourself, yet aren’t really sure in what way, it’s mean’t to mean…….

Write what you feel, write what you think, yet you know that when it come to writing as well as any other showcasing of things, we like doing it’s not just for you, we’re not just creating and sharing for ourselves, maybe in the moment we are, but once it’s out there, it becomes more than just our own.

It’s there for everyone to see and take in, which of course is very intimidating, that kind of thing might make you feel as if what you’re doing already isn’t quite working and than you become stressed and overwhelmed because you want to know what else you could do to make what you already have better, yet you aren’t exactly sure how to do so….

“Write like yourself” how do you know you’re doing that right!? How do you know you’re putting the right thoughts into motions without it seeming as if your rambling or not making sense……how do you know if everything is coming across alright!? “Write like yourself” you guys know what that means because if so, you got any tips to help me understand it better!?

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~

Little Bit Of A Clean Space…. (July 3, 2019) Short Entry

I don’t think we notice just how much a clean space can make a difference, it has the ability to change the way an atmosphere is and when I say atmosphere I mean in the way the air feels and smells as well, it really does give you a different feeling knowing how clean the air in your space is.

However, I think the only downside to it is, even though the air is a little bit better, doesn’t mean the energy part of the atmosphere is, at least not always……

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~

Almost A Year (July 1, 2019 Entry)

So this summer is doing some speed by’s alright, we’ve finished with June and now we’re in the month of July, it’s insane how quick that’s gone, surprising, no, it tends to always happen that way, but it’s not going to stop us from saying ” Woah what the….that was quick” every time….

In a few more days it’ll be a year since creating this blog, how crazy is that huh!? If you were to ask me how I feel about it, well for one I wouldn’t be able to tell you exactly, let’s just say it’s not been easy!! I mean it hasn’t been extremely hard, but it hasn’t been a walk in the park either that’s just my experience with it anyway, i’m sure it’s not always like that for everyone.

I’m not going to really go into my blogging experience just yet, i’d like to wait until we get to a year of it first at least, this is just a small lead up to it. I know, I know, the anticipation right haha (no i’m kidding)

I’ve gotta admit though, i’m feeling a little nervous and anxious, not for the 1 year of blogging coming up or anything, for other reasons that I can’t really wrap my head around at the moment, when it comes to how i’m going to feel with it getting close to a year of blogging however,

I’m curious to know how exactly i’m going to feel that day, will I be anxious, excited or will I not have a specific reaction at all!? That is something we’ll have to wait and find out about won’t we!?

Now i’ve been thinking (it’s actually my specialty) seriously though, i’ve been thinking about ways to where I could make this blog better, not that i’m unhappy with it, I just always feel it could use something else to it, what exactly……that’s a good question actually!! I was thinking maybe a bit more personal or something, you know really let some emotions out, but then I think is that too much, should I not!?

I could also add more interest of things that i’d want to share on here, but I don’t quite know, it’s something i’ll have to really sit and think on, not overly, because I tend to have a habit of getting my brain all worked up because i’m stressing on things way more than I need to…….AS ALWAYS!!

It’s pretty much the story of my life if i’m being honest……anyone else out there feel that way!? Probably…..but anyway, with that I hope you guys are having a good Summer and your enjoying yourselves as well as your day and I hope you’re all doing well too!!

Before I sign off, I wanted to leave you all with a song of the day, I came up with something and was thinking whenever I write entries like this, i’ll add a song at the end so it doesn’t seem so bare, you know!?

Song Of The Day: Rescue By Hunter Hayes

This song is one of my favorites, it’s also one that i’ve been singing to myself again recently, so I thought hey why not share it, it’s a really good song, it’s a country song if you’re alright with that, not only are the lyrics great, but so is the music video for it, it’s quite artsy and inspiring depending on how you look at it……probably could’ve did a summer song to welcome July,

However I chose this song for a reason, it’s the type of song where if you’re feeling a bit low or are going through something, it let’s you know “hey it’s okay, i’m here for you and I understand the way you feel, cause I feel it too sometimes” so if you want to let some emotions out or you’re looking for a bit of comfort or just looking for a new song, it’s there for you!!

Also if you’re wanting to chat about anything, doesn’t have to be anything serious, could be random, feel free to share here, i’ll be more than happy to listen, signing off now, Happy July 1st everyone!! ^_^ (now the 2nd)

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~