What’s The Pressure!? (Inspired By A Song Title)

Pressure we all go through it, we all feel it, yet we don’t know why!? Okay maybe we know why, it’s because we either put it onto ourselves or we feel under pressure when it comes to trying to do things right or just trying to do everything all at once, which then leads us to stress out, feel anxious, become frustrated and sometimes it will even have us have a few breakdown at times. Feeling pressure isn’t always a bad thing, sometimes it can be a motivational and inspiring kind of thing, but even then we’ll always feel stressed out, because when we put a massive amount of pressure on ourselves it will start to effect us mentally and physically because we have a tendency to put more on ourselves then we know we should.

Now I talked about dealing with funks yesterday and in that I expressed about how we’re always trying to do things ourselves, we feel as though we can handle any problem without a problem and we’ll be fine, even if it’s something that we know deep down that we may need a little help with, we still chose the option to always do it alone. It’s a real mind boggle on why that is, maybe it could be because it’s our natural instinct, we’re born with this thing that makes us want to always handle things ourselves and I guess because that is, we’re always choosing the option to ask for help last and by us always choosing to do things without help, that’s where the pressure comes in.

We know we may need a little help, but we feel as though, no one can do things the way we do it so why even bother!? I mean we got this far with it so why should we ask for help now!? Asking for help isn’t a bad thing, some of us have in our minds that if we were to ask for help, it’ll make it seem like we can’t do it on our own, we’re not strong enough and it will even have us thinking we’re failures because we should’ve figured it out already and that’s why the pressure we put onto ourselves can get so heavy at times, because we’re constantly trying to prove to ourselves and to those around us that we can do it, but even though we are able to handle a lot of stuff, we too have to remember that we do have breaking points.

We’re not superhero’s and even if we were we’d still have breaking points, because even superhero’s have times when they can only handle, but so much. Asking for a little hand when you know that you need it or feel you need it, isn’t bad, it doesn’t make you seem less strong or make you a failure, it just means you’re human and you know that you can use a little help and support. We all need a little help and support, by us trying to handle everything on our own, we’re gonna end up running ourselves to the ground and you don’t ever want to have it where you’re burning yourself out.

When we put that much stress and pressure on ourselves, that’s where we really need to sit with ourselves and say “Hey look, I know we’re use to doing things alone and we’re use to carrying more than what we know we can, but I really think that we can use a little help with this, because if you haven’t noticed, we’re getting super frustrated and we’re stressing ourselves out, trying to do everything all at once, when we know deep down, we just can’t be bothered to deal with all of this” most of the time we’ll ignore our own inner voice that is telling us all of this, but maybe we should try listening to it sometimes, I think it knows what it’s talking about.

We’re always trying to make things so much harder for ourselves when in reality we don’t really need to, It’s okay to have someone there to help take a little of that pressure off from you, that way you can de stress a bit, relax, take a little breather, we don’t have to do everything ourselves. If you know that you need some help with something or you’re feeling super stressed out and are under a lot of pressure with trying to do everything all at once or just anything, step back a bit, take a deep breath and if you know deep down you can’t handle something on your own just ask for a little help, even if it’s just for a bit, you’ll feel so much better and you won’t feel as though you’re carrying a load of bricks in a backpack.

 

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~

 

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Dealing With Funks (Inspired By AmyRightMeow)

Hey there everyone hope you’re all doing well, todays topic on todays post is a bit on the serious side of town, now I didn’t really expect to write about this, but as I was having my morning coffee, I came across this video of a Youtuber that I recently found, and got into and in her video she talked about dealing with funks and it made me want to share my own kind of funks with you guys if that’s okay!?

Everything she explained in the video was exactly how I was feeling this past week, now i’m not one to really talk about my feelings much unless somethings really bothering me to where I feel I need to let it out somehow and when that happens I will usually write it down. In the video she explained what it’s like when she goes through funks in her life and how when she’s going through them, she tries to sort through it by herself and even questions why it is she feels the way that she does.

One of the main things that she expressed that really stuck with me, was when she said whenever she tried to comfort herself, she just ended up getting angry instead of making herself feel better, because her mind kept telling her that she shouldn’t be feeling the way that she was, because there’s bigger problems in the world then her problems and hearing that was like wow to me, because that’s the same way I think and i’m sure there’s a lot of you guys out there as well who may feel the same way.

This past week was really tough to get through, I won’t go too much into it, i’m gonna try and keep this post as minimum as I can. This past week wasn’t my favorite week, as much as I tried my hardest to keep myself calm and do my best to stay as positive as I could, it was really hard, I couldn’t keep my emotions and thoughts in order and it drove me mad, because I wanted so bad to pick myself up and make the most of those days and I couldn’t and me not being able to do that, made me very frustrated, it felt like I didn’t have control of anything.

I couldn’t stay focused even when I tried, I was constantly in my own mind having battles with myself, I tried to help myself feel better, but it always felt like there were two versions of me. I was trying to help the other version of me up, but that version of me kept refusing my hand, telling me that it was fine and it didn’t need help and it was okay, but the version of me that tried to help the other part of me, knew that it wasn’t.

Eventually though, everything that I kept in and was feeling, I did let it out and when I did I actually felt a lot better, well mostly, I still kinda felt a bit of the effects of it, but I did feel better, yesterday was probably one of my favorite days that I’ve had in a very long time, because I was happy, I felt like me again and it’s been a while since that happened. Instead of feeling okay all the time, I felt pretty good, which was nice, however feeling okay is good too, if you’re not feeling the greatest, but you find that your feeling decent and or alright, then you can give yourself a little smile because I know that sometimes for some even that’s hard.

We all go through some really tough moments in our lives and most of us feel as though when that happens we can deal with it and handle it on our own, but sometimes although we don’t like asking for it, sometimes a little help is what we need. So if you’re struggling to get through the day or you’re just not feeling your best, know that it’s okay to not only feel the way that you do, but also don’t be afraid to talk to someone if you know that you need to, handing things on your own is fine and all if you know you can deal with it, but if you find that you’re really struggling, don’t be afraid to ask someone for an ear to listen to, believe me you’ll feel a lot better for it.

One last thing, if you’re feeling as though you’re not doing okay in your life, know that you are, even when your mind is telling you that you aren’t. We can be our own worst enemy at times, but we have to remember and keep telling ourselves that we’re stronger then what our mind tells us and that even on our worst days, everything is gonna be okay, it may take some time, but it’ll be alright. Be proud of how hard you try even when it’s just getting up and doing your best to put and keep a smile on your face, that is something and that means you’re doing well.

If you guys are interested in checking out the video that I mentioned earlier in this post, you can watch it here: Dealing with Funks – (illustrated story) By AmyRightMeow

 

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~

 

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Change (Oct 12, 2018)

Journal Entry (Oct 12,2018)

Change is a very big thing, it can also be a very scary thing as well, we all fear a little change sometimes, especially when it’s something new that we’re still getting use to. Some of us embrace change though, while others kinda get a little anxious when it comes to the thought of it, we get so overwhelmed sometimes that we think we should just settle for what we know and for me i’m starting to realize that we shouldn’t do that, we all need a little change, be it in our environment, the way we live and even in the way we think and how we see ourselves. We get so use to being a certain way that because we’ve been that way for so long, we have it in our minds that we don’t need to change. 

Sometimes though we do, because in the end we know that it’s gonna make us better people and help us grow as a person, it’s okay to be scared because it means that we care, sure when it comes to change we may not know what exactly it will bring us, but maybe that’s for a reason……maybe we aren’t meant to know, maybe we’re just meant to accept it and embrace it, instead of trying to always fight to stop it from happening. We should all want to change a little, especially when we know deep down we need it, because maybe the old way isn’t working, maybe it’s time for us to kick ourselves in the backside and tell ourselves to shape up and to stop feeling sorry for ourselves and just accept that no matter what we do, something is bound to change and we can either embrace it or let it push us so hard that it makes us breakdown more often then we may like. 

We all fear change, but we really shouldn’t, because change is apart of life, it helps us move forward, it helps us see things from a different perspective and it lets us see things we’ve never seen before. Change helps show us what it is we’re capable of, whether we see it in ourselves in the beginning or we have others try and show us, so we can discover it along the way, no matter how we may perceive change, it’s gonna happen and it’s on us to really embrace it and see what that change has in store for us or we can just let it intimidate us and risk missing out on something amazing.

Who knows it might be something we really need, but we wouldn’t know because we’re always running away from it, because we’re scared of what might happen. Instead of us always worrying about the what if’s, why don’t we just try looking more on the side of why not and let’s see what this could be, will we be scared!? yeah we’ll probably be terrified, but that still shouldn’t stop us from seeing what is out there for us, we should always welcome change no matter what it is, eventually no matter what the change is like, it’s always gonna end up having a silver lining somewhere, we just have to learn to always see the best in everything. (End Of Journal Entry)

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All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~

 

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Artist Of The Month: PVRIS (Take One White Noise Album And How I Became A Fan On The Band….Sorry If That’s Cheesy)

I’ve been listening to PVRIS for a few days now and I figured since i’m constantly listening to their songs, why not write some stuff on them and share with you on how I got into them a bit. I’ve been a fan of the band for I would say about 2 years now, I  discovered them off a wrestling PPV advert (when I used to watch it)

I remember it, because it was the PPV Extreme Rules (one of my favorite PPV’s) and it was also the one where Seth Rollins returned after being gone for a year missing WrestleMania due to the fact that he was recovering from a really bad knee injury that almost ended his in ring career, but luckily it didn’t.

You might be wondering why i’m talking about the wrestler Seth Rollins, well that’s because I found the band PVRIS because of him, it’s one of his favorite bands,  I remember watching an interview that he was in and he was talking about his top  favorite songs and one of the songs on his list was the song St. Patrick by as you can probably guess PVRIS.

Now when I watched that interview I didn’t look them up right away, but once I heard their song Fire being featured as the main theme for the PPV Extreme Rules I became hooked, I searched more of their songs and that’s where I discovered their album White Noise which is incredible by the way.

Here are a few of my favorite songs off the Album: 

  1. Ghost
  2. You & I (both original & stripped down version)
  3. Smoke
  4. Fire
  5. St Patrick
  6. Let Them In
  7. Mirrors
  8. My House
  9. Holy
  10. White Noise

After I listened to the songs, I added the album to my I guess wish list you can say and then eventually I went and bought it, it’s still one of my favorite albums til this day. Now this was all back in 2016, they have two different albums with White Noise, the standard one (original) came out back in 2014, but they also went and added some more songs to that album making a Deluxe version, which is the one I own.

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With the Deluxe version not only did you get the songs that were on the standard White Noise (Black) album, but you also got those songs, plus 3 more songs added (there were 10 on the Black album, but on the Deluxe version there’s 13) I think you were also able to watch the music videos to the songs as well off the Deluxe version.

I’ve actually watched all the music videos from that album and they’re really good, speaking of the music videos they were very interesting, every time you would watch a different one the way it would start would be through one of those handheld mirrors and they were always in a specific order as well.

When I watched the videos though it was in a different order, I didn’t know they were mean’t to be watched a certain way, but it was still pretty cool watching the music videos and seeing how everything was gonna come out, whether the songs would go well with it and they did, really well too.

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Each song is it’s own individual and when you hear them, they take you on this journey with them, it’s hard to explain what I mean, you’ll have to take a listen for yourself to understand, the whole album is amazing, it really is and so is the band. Lynn though her voice, wow, she really brings a different kind of sound to her songs and you can really hear the emotions and rawness that she brings to those songs as well, her voice to me is something you don’t quite hear often, she has this very unique thing to her that is hard to grasp onto at first, but once you do, you become hooked and say to yourself “gee i’m glad I found this band”

I’ve listened to them so much, you would think i’d get tired, but I don’t I guess they’re just one of those bands that keep me wanting to come back for more even if i’ve listened to them 1000 times and those are the kind of bands that I like and will continue to enjoy for a very long time.

Now I know that everyone has different taste in music and you may have a different opinion towards this band and that’s okay, not everyone likes the same thing. I hope that you enjoyed this a bit, I just wanted to write about them, I kinda got inspired and I wanted to share it with you guys.

 

If you’re a fan of PVRIS feel free to share what your favorite songs are if you like, off the White Noise album if you’ve heard it. For those who haven’t and maybe want to give them a listen here’s a playlist of their songs from the album discussed here: PVRIS-White Noise Album

 

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~

Jukebox Typewriter (Oct 8, 2018)

The title of this blog post, is an actual name for one of my Spotify playlists, it’s also become one of my favorites as well, I listen to that playlist more than any of my other playlists that I created and i’ve created a lot of playlists believe me. You may wonder why i’m talking about playlists here and well that’s because that’s the topic of today’s post, i’m not really sure why I wrote a whole journal entry on music playlists, but I did and i’ve just finished it as well, it’s not a long journal entry, but it’s a good amount i’d say and I want to write about it, hope that’s alright.

My reasoning on writing about playlists is because I was trying to figure out what to write and I couldn’t quite come up with anything, but I didn’t want to not write anything because as you may all know, I went a long time not writing on here and i’m trying to do my best to not go that long off writing again, even if what i’m writing about isn’t the greatest and so today the topic that I could think about was music and creating playlists. What kinda gave me the idea for it was, I was listening to a playlist of one of my favorite bands named PVRIS (it’s Paris but they have it where the V has replaced the A) I love that band, their music is something special, the writing style they use and just the songs itself off their albums are super incredible, they’re just AMAZING!!

The playlist I was listening to is called This Is PVRIS, it’s a Spotify created playlist with a few of their songs, if you want to check it out, I will leave it for you guys This Is PVRIS you should really give them a listen, they’re great, but anyway listening to their playlist made me want to write about music playlists in general kinda and so that’s what I did and I want to share my latest journal entry on it with you guys.

 

Original Journal Entry Title: Music (Oct 8, 2018)

Music gee where do I start!? Music just has a way of speaking to you doesn’t it!? You can literally find the perfect playlist for any mood you’re in or you can create your very own playlist with all the songs that you feel speak to you and your mood the most, which is my personal favorite. I use to create music playlists a lot, but for some reason never listened to them once they were created, I was just obsessed with creating them, it wasn’t until recently where I started listening to created playlists, including my own.

My favorite part about creating new music playlists, is well creating them, you would think that creating personal music playlists would be super simple, you have a few songs you want to add to a playlist, you add them, type in a quick title for it and that’s it right!? yeah not for me, whenever I create a new playlist, I put a lot of heart in it, that may sound weird to you guys, but creating personal music playlists is like one of my hobbies, I can’t explain it any other way. To me it’s not just about creating a playlist of your favorite songs.

I feel when creating a playlist with songs in it, it’s like telling a little story within those songs you add to your new playlist and with all stories there’s a title to it and i’m learning that titles are preeety much everything, because that’s how people become drawn and want to know more about it. Choosing the right title for something, is very special because your giving it a name, while also being given a chance to be creative and unique, you know bring something different to the table, when you give something a name (in this case a playlist full of songs a name) you give that playlist it’s own identity and when you give it an identity, you also give your emotions a chance to show and be felt, while also giving your playlist a chance to stand out.

Sometimes we’ll create random playlists just because and that’ll be it, i’ve done that a few times, it just a thing we do when listening to music and it’s normal to do, sometimes you just want a quick playlist, but for me most times I like to be a little creative with it and there’s nothing wrong with that. 

(End Of Journal Entry)

P.S. There’s a little backstory on the playlist Jukebox Typewriter, but i’ll probably explain that some other time, I don’t want this blog post to be super long, however I just want to say how much I love the title Jukebox Typewriter. Every time I look at it or listen to the songs off the playlist, I just become very excited and very proud of myself for that name, so yeah it’s one of my favorites 😀 I hope you’re all well and that you all have a goodnight.

 

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~

 

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Autumn Leaves (Inspired By An Ed Sheeran Song)

Hey everyone I know it’s been a while, I hope you’re all doing well, today’s blog post maybe very short or a little long i’m not sure, i’ll try my best to make sure it isn’t too long, since we’re in the month of October I wanted to talk upon the season of Autumn also known as Fall since we’re now in it, we all know that Autumn is the season of change and just like the seasons change so do us humans, we all grow up to be a certain way, but we all know that we aren’t always gonna be the same as we once were.

No matter how hard we try to, there’s always gonna be some part of us that breaks away from certain things, the same way leaves break and fall off a tree when it’s the ending of Summer and the beginning of Fall, I guess what i’m saying is we’re like a tree kinda, we start off as a seed planted in soil and as we grow we start to gain a little personality, we start to become interested in things and each interest that we take upon, become our leaves, if that makes sense.

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Now the leaves that we start with, aren’t going to be the leaves we always keep with us because as we know leaves don’t stay on a tree for long, eventually they fall off one by one, as those leaves fall off and float down to the ground we can’t really stick them back onto our branches because once they fall off they fall off, with leaves we can have so many, but eventually those leaves will fall off, whether we want them to or not. Sometimes we don’t even realize that some of our leaves have fallen off, it just happens so quickly to where we don’t even have time to react to it.

When we do realize one of our leaves have fallen off though, we take it in, especially if it was something super important to us at the time. Now leaves don’t have to only be about our hobbies or things we’re interested in, sometimes leaves can be friends that we keep or family members even and sometimes we have to realize that those things too can fall off, some mutually, some expectedly, we’ll even have those leaves that just aren’t good for us anymore so we as the tree will shake them off and sometimes they’ll just fall off on their own, because maybe it’s just meant to be that way.

Leaves fall off trees for a reason and they grow new ones every spring for a reason and that’s because they’re meant to fall off, so they can make room for new and improved ones. So when our leaves fall off it’s only because we’re growing and trying to improve ourselves, now with that happening it’s not always gonna be easy, although I just compared us to trees and everything, we’re not trees, we’re humans and us as humans, we’re gonna have a few leaves fall off us and it may hurt when that happens, you may feel bad about it happening, you’ll have times where you won’t even know that it happened, it’ll just dawn on you when you least expect it…….

but when that happens, when you find that a few of your leaves have fallen off, know that it’s okay to reflect on it if you need to, you might not quite understand it, because not everything has a clear understanding, but sometimes it’s not having that clear understanding to where you oddly understand it.

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Just because old leaves break off, it doesn’t mean that new leaves won’t grow. Sometimes we sit and wonder why certain things happen, why we fall out with certain people and when those kind of things come into our mind, we really go through them and maybe we shouldn’t do that so much, once in a while yeah sure, maybe you need a clear understanding, but when it comes to other things that we can’t seem to wrap our heads around, maybe that’s because there’s nothing to wrap our heads around.

Sometimes it just happens and we don’t always know why, but we shouldn’t dwell on it, sometimes it’s just best to accept it and move on, it doesn’t mean you can’t feel a certain way about it, but once you accept the fact that, that leaf fell off, just think to yourself that maybe that was for a reason, whatever reason that may be.

It may take time to accept it depending on how much of an impact a situation, a relationship or even just something you once took an interest in was to you, but eventually you’ll come to terms that maybe it was for the best, when that happens don’t you feel bad about it, because you held on to those leaves for as long as you could, but now we have to make room for new and better things for us and we should always want better things for ourselves.

 

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~

 

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